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THE AUTOBIOGRAPHY OF 


ALICE B. TOKLAS 






AUce B. Toklas at the door, ph<Mograph by Man Ray 



THE 


Autobiography 

OF 

ALICE B. TOKLAS 

'"1 ’ **' ' '' • 

ILLUSTRATED 


THE LITERARY GUILD 
KEW YORK N. Y. 



COPYRIGHT, 1933, BY 
HARCOTJRT, BRACE AND COMPANY, INC. 

COPYRIGHT, 1933, BY 
THE ATLANTIC MONTHLY COMPANY 


A.II rights reserved, including 
the rxght to reproduce this book 
or portions thereof in any form. 


first i*dition 


PRINTS!) IN THE UNITES STATES OF AMERICA 
BY QUINN A BOSBN COMPANY, INC., RAHWAY, N* 

Typography by Rob^t Jtc^ephy 



CONTENTS 


I. Before I Came to Paris 3 

II. My Arrival in Paris 7 

III. Gertrude Stein in Paris — 1903-1907 35 

IV. Gertrude Stein Before She Came to Paris 85 

V. 1907-1914 105 

VI. The War 176 


vii. After the War — 1919-1932 


237 




ILLUSTRATIONS 


Alice B. Toklas at the door, photograph by Man Ray 

frontispiece 

Gertrude Stein in front of the atelier door 8 

Pablo and Fernande at Montmartre 24 

Room with Oil Lamp 40 

Room with Bonheur de Vivre and C&anne 50 

Room with Gas (Femme au chapeau and Picasso Por- 
trait) 56 

Gertrude Stein in Vienna 88 

Gertrude Stein at Johns Hopkins Medical School 104 

Gertrude Stein and Alice B. Toklas in front of Saint 
Mark’s, Venice 108 

Homage a Gertrude, Ceiling painting by Picasso 116 

Gertrude Stein and Alice B. Toklas in front of Joffre’s 
birthplace 216 

A Transatlantic, painting by Juan Gris 232 

Bilignin from across the valley, painting by Francis 
Rose 282 

Bernard Fay and Gertrude Stein at Bilignin 294 

Alice B. Toklas, painting by Francis Rose 298 

First page of manuscript of this book 310 

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THE AUTOBIOGRAPHY OF 


ALICE B. TOKLAS 




I. Before I Came to Paris 


I WAS born in San Francisco, California. I have in conse- 
quence always preferred living in a temperate climate 
but it is difficult, on the continent of Europe or even in 
America, to find a temperate climate and live in it. My 
mother’s father was a pioneer, he came to California in ’49, 
he married my grandmother who was very fond of music. 
She was a pupil of Clara Schumann’s father. My mother was 
a quiet charming woman named Emilie. 

My father came of polish patriotic stock. His grand-uncle 
raised a regiment for Napoleon and was its colonel. His 
father left his mother just after their marriage, to fight at 
the barricades in Paris, but his wife having cut off his sup- 
plies, he soon returned and led the life of a conservative well 
to do land owner. 

I myself have had no liking for violence and have always 
enjoyed the pleasures of needlework and gardening. I am 
fond of paintings, furniture, tapestry, houses and flowers 
even vegetables and fruit-trees. I like a view but I like to 
sit with my back turned to it. 

I led in my childhood and youth the gently bred existence 
of my class and kind. I had some intellectual adventures 
at this period but very quiet ones. When I was about nine- 





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teen years of age I was a great admirer of Henry James. I 
felt that The Awkward Age would make a very remarkable 
play and I wrote to Henry James suggesting that I drama- 
tise it. I had from him a delightful letter on the subject and 
then, when I felt my inadequacy, rather blushed for myself 
and did not keep the letter. Perhaps at that time I did not 
feel that I was justified in preserving it, at any rate it no 
longer exists. 

Up to my twentieth year I was seriously interested in 
music. I studied and practised assiduously but shortly then 
it seemed futile, my mother had died and there was no un- 
conquerable sadness, but there was no real interest that led 
me on. In the story Ada in Geography and Plays Gertrude 
Stein has given a very good description of me as I was at 
that time. 

From then on for about six years I was well occupied. 
I led a pleasant life, I had many friends, much amusement 
many interests, my life was reasonably full and I enjoyed it 
but I was not very ardent in it. This brings me to the San 
Francisco fire which had as a consequence that the elder 
brother of Gertrude Stein and his wife came back from 
Paris to San Francisco and this led to a complete change in 
my life. 

I was at this time living with my father and brother. 
My father was a quiet man who took things quietly, al- 
though he felt them deeply. The first terrible morning of 
the San Francisco fire I woke him and told him, the city has 
been rocked by an earthquake and is now on fire. That will 
give us a black eye in the East, he replied turning and go- 
ing to sleep again. I remember that once when my brotto 

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and a comrade had gone horse-back riding, one of the horses 
returned riderless to the hotel, the mother of the other boy 
began to make a terrible scene. Be calm madam, said my 
father, perhaps it is my son who has been killed. One of 
his axioms I always remember, if you must do a thing do it 
graciously. He also told me that a hostess should never . 
apologise for any failure in her household arrangements, if 
there is a hostess there is insofar as there is a hostess no 
failure. 

As I was saying we were all living comfortably together 
and there had been in my mind no active desire or thought 
of change. The disturbance of the routine of our lives by 
the fire followed by the coming of Gertrude Stein’s older 
brother and his wife made the difference. 

Mrs. Stein brought with her three little Matisse paintings, 
the first modern things to cross the Atlantic. I made her 
acquaintance at this time of general upset and she showed 
them to me, she also told me many stories of her life in 
Paris. Gradually I told my father that perhaps I would 
leave San Francisco. He was not disturbed by this, after 
all there was at that time a great deal of going and coming 
and there were many friends of mine going. Within a year 
I also had gone and I had come to Paris. There I went to 
see Mrs. Stein who had in the meantime returned to Paris, 
and there at her house I met Gertrude Stein. I was im- 
pressed by the coral brooch she wore and by her voice. I 
may say that only three times in my life have I met a genius 
and each time a bell within me rang and I was no^^piistaken, 
and I may say in each case it was before there was any gen- 
eral recognition of the quality of genius in them. The three 

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geniuses of whom I wish to speak arc Gertrude Stein, Pablo 
Picasso and Alfred Whitehead. I have met many important 
people, I have met several great people but I have only 
known three first class geniuses and in each case on sight 
within me something rang. In no one of the three cases 
have I been mistaken. In this way my new full life began. 


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2. My Arrival in Paris 


T his was the year 1907. Gertrude Stein was just seeing 
through the press Three Lives which she was having 
privately printed, and she was deep in The Making 
of Americans, her thousand page book. Picasso had just fin- 
ished his portrait of her which nobody at that time liked 
except the painter and the painted and which is now so 
famous, and he had just begun his strange complicated pic- 
ture of three women, Matisse had just finished his Bonheur 
dc Vivre, his first big composition which gave him the name 
of fauve or a zoo. It was the moment Max Jacob has since 
called the heroic age of cubism. I remember not long ago 
hearing Picasso and Gertrude Stein talking about various 
things that had happened at that time, one of them said but 
all that could not have happened in that one year, oh said 
the other, my dear you forget we were young then and we 
did a great deal in a year. 

There are a great many things to tell of what was happen- 
ing then and what had happened before, which led up to 
but now I must describe what I saw when I came. 

The home at 27 rue de Fleurus consisted then as it does 
now of a tiny pavilion of two stories with four small rooms, 
a kitchen and bath, and a very large atelier adjoining. Now 

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the atelier is attached to the pavilion by a tiny hall passage 
added in 1914 but at that time the atelier had its own en- 
trance, one rang the bell of the pavilion or knocked at the 
door of the atelier, and a great many people did both, but 
more knocked at the atelier. I was privileged to do both. I 
had been invited to dine on Saturday evening which was 
the evening when everybody came, and indeed everybody 
did come. I went to dinner. The dinner was cooked by 
Helene. I must tell a little about H<^lSne. 

Helene had already been two years with Gertrude Stein 
and her brother. She was one of those admirable bonnes 
in other words excellent maids of all work, good cooks thor- 
oughly occupied with the welfare of their employers and 
of themselves, firmly convinced that everything purchasable 
was far too dear. Oh but it is dear, was her answer to any 
question. She wasted nothing and carried on the household 
at the regular rate of eight francs a day. She even wanted 
to include guests at that price, it was her pride, but of 
course that was difiScult since she for the honour of her 
house as well as to satisfy her employers always had to give 
every one enough to cat. She was a most excellent cook and 
she made a very good souffle. In those days m<Mt of the 
guests were living more or less precariously, no one starved, 
some one always helped but still most of them did not live 
in abundance. It was Braque who said about four years later 
when they were all beginning to be known, with a sigh 
and a smile, how life has changed we all now have cooks 
who can make a souffle. 

H€inc had her opinions, she did not for instance like 
htoisse. ^c said a frenchman should not stay unexpectedly 






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to a meal particularly if he asked the servant beforehand 
what there was for dinner. She said foreigners had a perfect 
right to do these things but not a frenchman and Matisse 
had once done it. So when Miss Stein said to her, Monsieur 
Matisse is staying for dinner this evening, she would say, 
in that case I will not make an omelette but fry the eggs. 
It takes the same number of eggs and the same amount of 
butter but it shows less respect, and he will understand. 

Hdene stayed with the household until the end of 1913. 
Then her husband, by that time she had married and had 
a little boy, insisted that she work for others no longer. To 
her great regret she left and later she always said that life 
at home was never as amusing as it had been at the rue de 
Fleurus. Much later, only about three years ago, she came 
back for a year, she and her husband had fallen on bad times 
and her boy had died. She was as cheery as ever and enor- 
mously interested. She said isn’t it extraordinary, all those 
people whom I knew when they were nobody are now al- 
ways mentioned in the newspapers, and the other night 
over the radio they mentioned the name of Monsieur Picasso. 
Why they even speak in the newspapers of Monsieur Braque, 
who used to hold up the big pictures to hang because he 
was the strongest, while the janitor drove the nails, and 
they are putting into the Louvre, just imagine it, into the 
Louvre, a picture by that, little poor Monsieur Rousseau, 
who was so timid he did not even have courage enough to 
knock at the door. She was terribly interested in seeing 
Monsieur Picasso and his wife and child and cooked her 
very be^ dinner for him, but how he has changed, she said, 
well, ^id she, I suppose that is natural but then he has a 


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lovely son. We thought that really Helene had come back 
to give the young generation the once over. She had in a 
way but she was not interested in them. She said they made 
no impression on her which made them all very sad because 
the legend of her was well known to all Paris. After a year 
things were going better again, her husband was earning 
more money, and she once more remains at home. But to 
come back to 1907, 

Before I tell about the guests I must tell what I saw. As 
I said being invited to dinner I rang the bell of the little 
pavilion and was taken into the tiny hall and then into the 
small dining room lined with books. On the only free space, 
the doors, were tacked up a few drawings by Picasso and 
Matisse. As the other guests had not yet come Miss Stein 
took me into the atelier. It often rained in Paris and it was 
always diSScult to go from the little pavilion to the atelier 
door in the rain in evening clothes, but you were not to 
mind such things as the hosts and most of the guests did 
not. We went into the atelier which opened with a yale key 
the only yale key in the quarter at that time, and this was 
not so much for safety, because in those days the pictures 
had no value, but because the key was small and could go 
into a purse instead of being enormous as french keys were. 
Against the walls were several pieces of large Italian renais- 
sance furniture and in the middle of the room was a big 
renaissance table, on it a lovely inkstand, and at one end of 
it note-books neatly arranged, the kind of note-books french 
children use, with pictures of earthquakes and explorations 
on the outside of them. And on all the walls right up to the 
ceiling were pictures. At one end of the room was a big cast 


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iron stove that Helene came in and filled with a rattle, and 
in one corner of the room was a large table on which were 
horseshoe nails and pebbles and little pipe cigarette holders 
which one looked at curiously but did not touch, but which 
turned out later to be accumulations from the pockets of 
Picasso and Gertrude Stein. But to return to the pictures. 
The pictures were so strange that one quite instinctively 
looked at anything rather than at them just at first. I have 
refreshed my memory by lookiug at some snap shots taken 
inside the atelier at that time. The chairs in the room were 
also all Italian renaissance, not very comfortable for short- 
legged people and one got the habit of sitting on one’s legs. 
Miss Stein sat near the stove in a lovely high-backed one 
and she peacefully let her legs hang, which was a matter 
of habit, and when any one of the many visitors came to 
ask her a question she lifted herself up out of this chair 
and usually replied in french, not just now. This usually 
referred to something they wished to see, drawings which 
were put away, some german had once spilled ink on one, 
or some other not to be fulfilled desire. But to return to the 
pictures. As I say they completely covered the white-washed 
walls right up to the top of the very high ceiling. The room 
was lit at this time by high gas fixtures. This was the second 
stage. They had just been put in. Before that there had only 
been lamps, and a stalwart guest held up the lamp while 
the others looked. But gas had just been put in and an in- 
genious american painter named Sayen, to divert his mind 
from the birth of his first child, was arranging some me- 
chanical contrivance that would light the high fixtures by 
themselves. The old landlady extremely conservative did not 



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allow electricity in her houses and electricity was not put in 
until 1914, the old landlady by that time too old to know 
the difference, her house agent gave permission. But this 
time I am really going to tell about the pictures. 

It is very difl&cult now that everybody is accustomed to 
everything to give some idea of the kind of uneasiness one 
felt when one first looked at all these pictures on these walls. 
In those days there were pictures of all kinds there, the time 
had not yet come when they were only Cezannes, Renoirs, 
Matisses and Picassos, nor as it was even later only Cezannes 
and Picassos. At that time there was a great deal of Matisse, 
Picasso, Renoir, C&anne but there were also a great many 
other things. There were two Gauguins, there were Man- 
guins, there was a big nude by Valloton that felt like only 
it was not like the Odalisque of Manet, there was a Toulouse- 
Lautrec. Once about this time Picasso looking at this and 
greatly daring said, but all the same I do paint better than 
he did, Toulouse-Lautrec had been the most important of 
his early influences. I later bought a little tiny picture by 
Picasso of that epoch. There was a portrait of Gertrude 
Stein by Valloton that might have been a David but was not, 
there was a Maurice Denis, a little Daumier, many C&annc 
water colours, there was in short everything, there was even 
a little Delacroix and a moderate sized Greco. There were 
enormous Picassos of the Harlequin period, there were two 
rows of Matisses, there was a big portrait of a woman by 
C&anne and some Httle Cezannes, all these pictures had a 
history and I will soon tell them. Now I was confused and 
I looked and I looked and I was confused. Gertrude Stein 
and hex busother were so accustomed to this state of rpind in 


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a guest that they payed no attention to it. Then there was a 
sharp tap at the atelier door. Gertrude Stein opened it and a 
little dark dapper man came in with hair, eyes, face, hands 
and feet all very much alive. Hullo Alfy, she said, this is 
Miss Toklas. How do you do Miss Toklas, he said very sol- 
emnly. This was Alfy Maurer, an old habitue of the house. 
He had been there before there were these pictures, when 
there were only japanese prints, and he was among those who 
used to light matches to light up a little piece of the C&anne 
portrait. Of course you can tell it is a finished picture, he 
used to explain to the other american painters who came 
and looked dubiously, you can tell because it has a frame, 
now whoever heard of anybody framing a canvas if the pic- 
ture isn’t finished. He had followed, followed, followed al- 
ways humbly always sincerely, it was he who selected the 
first lot of pictures for the famous Barnes collection some 
years later faithfully and enthusiastically. It was he who 
when later Barnes came to the house and waved his cheque- 
book said, so help me God, I didn’t bring him. Gertrude 
Stein who has an explosive temper, came in another eve- 
ning and there were her brother, Alfy and a stranger. She 
did not like the stranger’s looks. Who is that, said she to 
Alfy. I didn’t bring him, said Alfy. He looks like a Jew, 
said Gertrude Stein, he is worse than that, says Alfy. But 
to return to that first evening. A few minutes after Alfy 
came in there was a violent knock at the door and, dinner 
is ready, from HS^e. It’s funny the Picassos have not come, 
sdd they all, however we won’t wait at least H61^ne won’t 
wmt. So* we went into the court and into the pavilion and 
diajng roona and began dinner. It’s funny, said Miss Stein, 

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Pablo is always promptness itself, he is never early and he 
is never late, it is his pride that punctuality is the politeness 
of kings, he even makes Fernande punctual. Of course he 
often says yes when he has no intention of doing what he 
says yes to, he can't say no, no is not in his vocabulary and 
you have to know whether his yes means yes or means no, 
but when he says a yes that means yes and he did about to- 
night he is always punctual. These were the days before 
automobiles and nobody worried about accidents. We had 
just finished the first course when there was a quick patter 
of footsteps in the court and Helene opened the door before 
the bell rang. Pablo and Fernande as everybody called them 
at that time walked in. He, small, quick moving but not 
restless, his eyes having a strange faculty of opening wide 
and dr inking in what he wished to see. He had the isolation 
and movement of the head of a bull-fighter at the head of 
their procession. Fernande was a tall beautiful woman with 
a wonderful big hat and a very evidently new dress, they 
were both very fussed. I am very upset, said Pablo, but you 
know very well Gertrude I am never late but Fernande had 
ordered a dress for the vernissage to-morrow and it didn’t 
come. Well here you are anyway, said Miss Stein, since it’s 
you Helene won’t mind. And we all sat down. I was next 
to Picasso who was silent and then gradually became peace- 
ful. Alfy paid compliments to Fernande and she was soon 
calm and placid. After a little while I murmured to Picasso 
that I liked his portrait of Gertrude Stein. Yes, he said, 
everybody says that she does not look like it but that does 
not make any difference, she will, he said. The conversation 
soon became lively it was all about the opening day of the 

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salon indepcndant which was the great event o£ the year. 
Everybody was interested in all the scandals that would or 
would not break out. Picasso never exhibited but as his fol- 
lowers did and there were a great many stories connected 
with each follower the hopes and fears were vivacious. 

While we were having coffee footsteps were heard in the 
court quite a number of footsteps and Miss Stein rose and 
said, don’t hurry, I have to let them in. And she left. 

When we went into the atelier there were already quite 
a number of people in the room, scattered groups, single and 
couples all looking and looking. Gertrude Stein sat by the 
stove talking and listening and getting up to open the door 
and go up to various people talking and listening. She usu- 
ally opened the door to the knock and the usual formula 
was, de la part de qui venez-vous, who is your introducer. 
The idea was that anybody could come but for form’s sake 
and in^aris you have to have a formula^ everybody was 
supposed to be able to mention the name of somebody who 
had told them about it. It was a mere form, really everybody 
could come in and as at that time these pictures had no 
value and there was no social privilege attached to knowing 
any one there, only those came who really were interested. 
So as I say anybody could come in, however, there was the 
formula. Miss Stein once in opening the door said as she 
usually did by whose invitation do you come and we heard 
an aggrieved voice reply, but by yws, madame. He was a 
young man Gertrude Stein had met somewhere and with 
whom she had had a long conversation and to whom she 
had given a cordial invitation and then had as promptly 
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The room was soon very very full and who were they all. 
Groups of hungarian painters and writers, it happened that 
some hungarian had once been brought and the word had 
spread from him throughout all Hungary, any village where 
there was a young man who had ambitions heard of 27 rue 
de Fleurus and then he lived but to get there and a great 
many did get there. They were always there, all sizes and 
shapes, all degrees of wealth and poverty, some very charm- 
ing, some simply rough and every now and then a very 
beautiful young peasant. Then there were quantities of ger- 
mans, not too popular because they tended always to want 
to see anything that was put away and they tended to break 
things and Gertrude Stein has a weakness for breakable ob- 
jects, she has a horror of people who collect only the un- 
breakable. Then there was a fair sprinkling of americans, 
Mildred Aldrich would bring a group or Sayen, the elec- 
trician, or some painter and occasionally an architectural 
student would accidentally get there and then there were 
the habitues, among them Miss Mars and Miss Squires 
whom Gertrude Stein afterwards immortalised in her story 
of Miss Furr and Miss Skeene. On that first night Miss Mars 
and I talked of a subject then entirely new, how to make up 
your face. She was interested in types, she knew that there 
were femme d&orative, femme d’interieur and femme in- 
trigante; there was no doubt that Fernande Picasso was a 
femme d&orative, but what was Madame Matisse, femme 
d’interieur, I said, and she was very pleased. From tim e to 
time one heard the high Spanish whinnying laugh of Picasso 
the gay contralto outbreak of Gertrude Stein, people rame 
and went, in and out. Miss Stein told me to sit with Fcr- 

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nande. Fernande was always beautiful but heavy in hand. I 
sat, it was my first sitting with a wife of a genius. 

Before I decided to write this book my twenty-five years 
with Gertrude Stein, I had often said that I would write, 
The wives of geniuses I have sat with. I have sat with so 
many. I have sat with wives who were not wives, of geniuses 
who were real geniuses. I have sat with real wives of geniuses 
who were not real geniuses. I have sat with wives of gen- 
iuses, of near geniuses, of would be geniuses, in short I have 
sat very often and very long with many wives and wives of 
many geniuses. 

As I was saying Fernande, who was then Hving with 
Picasso and had been with him a long time that is to say 
they were all twenty-four years old at that time but they 
had been together a long time, Fernande was the first wife 
of a genius I sat with and she was not the least amusing. 
We talked hats. Fernande had two subjects hats and per- 
fumes. This first day we talked hats. She liked hats, she had 
the true french feeling about a hat, if a hat did not provoke 
some witticism from a man on the street the hat was not a 
success. Later on once in Montmartre she and I were waUc- 
ing together. She had on a large yellow hat and I had on 
a much smaller blue one. As we were walking along a work- 
man stopped and called out, there go the sun and the moon 
shining togetjber. Ah, said Fernande to me with a radiant 
smile, you ste our hats are a success. 

Miss Stein called me and said she vs^inted to have me meet 
Matisse. She ,was talking ^o a medium sked man with a 
reddislt beard and glasses. He had a very alert although 
sli ghtly heavy' presence and Miss Stein and he seemed to 

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be full of hidden meanings. As I came up I heard her say. 
Oh yes but it would be more difficult now. We were talk- 
ing, she said, of a lunch party we had in here last year. 
We had just hung all the pictures and we asked all the 
painters. You know how painters are, I wanted to make 
them happy so I placed each one opposite his own picture, 
and they were happy so happy that we had to send out twice 
for more bread, when you know France you will know that 
that means that they were happy, because they cannot eat 
and drink without bread and we had to send out twice for 
bread so they were happy. Nobody noticed my little arrange- 
ment except Matisse and he did not until just as he left, and 
now he says it is a proof that I am very wicked, Matisse 
laughed and said, yes I know Mademoiselle Gertrude, the 
world is a theatre for you, but there are theatres and theatres, 
and when you listen so carefully to me and so attentively 
and do not hear a word I say then I do say that you are very 
wicked. Then they both began talking about the vernissage 
of the independent as every one else was doing and of course 
I did not know what it was all about. But gradually I knew 
and later on I will tell the story of the pictures, their painters 
and their followers and what this conversation meant. 

Later I was near Picasso, he was standing meditatively. 
Do you think, he said, that I really do look like your presi- 
dent Lincoln. I had thought a good many things that eve- 
ning but I had not thought that. You see, he went on, Ger- 
trude, (I wish I could convey something of the simple affec- 
tion and confidence with which he always pronounced her 
name and with which she always said, Pablo. In all their 
long friendship with all its sometimes troubled moments 

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and its complications this has never changed.) Gertrude 
showed me a photograph of him and I have been trying to 
arrange my hair to look like his, I think my forehead does. 
I did not know whether he meant it or not but I was sym- 
pathetic. I did not realise then how completely and entirely 
american was Gertrude Stein. Later I often teased her, call- 
ing her a general, a civil war general of either or both sides. 
She had a series of photographs of the civil war, rather won- 
derful photographs and she and Picasso used to pore over 
them. Then he would suddenly remember the Spanish war 
and he became very Spanish and very bitter and Spain and 
America in their persons could say very bitter things about 
each other’s country. But at this my first evening I knew 
nothing of all this and so I was polite and that was all. 

And now the evening was drawing to a close. Everybody 
was leaving and everybody was still talking about the vernis- 
sage of the independent. I too left carrying with me a card 
of invitation for the vernissage. And so this, one of the most 
important evenings of my life, came to an end. 

I went to the vernissage taking with me a friend, the in- 
vitation I had been given admitting two. We went very 
early. I had been told to go early otherwise we would not 
be able to see anything, and there would be no place to sit, 
and my friend liked to sit. We went to the building just 
put up for this salon. In France they always put things up 
just for the day or for a few days and then take them down 
again. Gertrude Stein’s elder brother always says that the 
secret of the chronic employment or lack of xmemployment 
in France is due to the number of men actively engaged in 
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natxire is so permanent in France that they can afford to 
be as temporary as they like with their buildings. We went 
to the long low certainly very very long temporary building 
that was put up every year for the independents. When after 
the war or just before, I forget, the independent was given 
permanent quarters in the big exposition building, the 
Grand Palais, it became much less interesting. After all it 
is the adventure that counts. The long building was beau- 
tifully alight with Paris light. 

In earlier, still earlier days, in the days of Seurat, the in- 
dependent had its exhibition in a building where the rain 
rained in. Indeed it was because of this, that in hanging pic- 
tures in the rain, poor Seurat caught his fatal cold. Now 
there was no rain coming in, it was a lovely day and we felt 
very festive. When we got in we were indeed early as nearly 
as possible the first to be there. We went from one room to 
another and quite frankly we had no idea which of the pic- 
tures the Saturday evening crowd wotild have thought art 
and which were just the attempts of what in France are 
known as the Sunday painters, workingmen, hair-dressers 
and veterinaries and visionaries who only paint once a week 
when they do not have to work. I say we did not know but 
yes perhaps we did know. But not about the Rousseau, and 
there was an enormous Rousseau there which was the scan- 
dal of the show, it was a picture of the oflEcials of the re- 
public, Picasso now owns it, no that picture we could not 
know as going to be one of the great pictures, and that as 
Hel^e was to say, would come to be in the Louvre. There 
was also there if my memory is correct a strange picture by 
dbe same douanier Rousseau, a scat of apothei^is ckE GuE- 


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kume Apollinaire with an aged Marie Laurencin behind 
him as a muse. That also I would not have recognised as a 
serious work of art. At that time of course I knew nothing 
about Marie Laurencin and Guillaume Apollinaire but there 
is a lot to tell about them later. Then we went on and saw 
a Matisse. Ah there we were beginning to feel at home. We 
knew a Matisse when we saw it, knew at once and enjoyed 
it and knew that it was great art and beautiful. It was a big 
figure of a woman lying in among some cactuses. A picture 
which was after the show to be at the rue de Fleurus. There 
one day the five year old little boy of the janitor who often 
used to visit Gertrude Stein who was fond of him, jumped 
into her arms as she was standing at the open door of the 
atelier and looking over her shoulder and seeing the picture 
cried out in rapture, oh la la what a beautiful body of a 
woman. Miss Stein used always to tell this story when the 
casual stranger in the aggressive way of the casual stranger 
said, looking at this picture, and what is that supposed to 
represent. 

In the same room as the Matisse, a little covered by a par- 
tition, was a hungarian version of the same picture by one 
Czobel whom I remembered to have seen at the rue de 
Fleurus, it was the happy independent way to put a violent 
follower opposite the violent but not quite as violent master. 

We went on and on, there were a great many rooms and 
a great many pictures in the rooms and finally we came to 
a middle room and there was a garden bench and as there 
were people coming in quite a few people we sat down on 
the bench to rest. 

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indeed the vie de Boh^me just as one had seen it in the opera 
and they were very wonderful to look at. Just then some- 
body behind us put a hand on our shoulders and burst out 
laughing. It was Gertrude Stein. You have seated yourselves 
admirably, she said. But why, we asked. Because right here 
in front of you is the whole story. We looked but we saw 
nothing except two big pictures that looked quite alike but 
not altogether alike. One is a Braque and one is a Derain, 
explained Gertrude Stein. They were strange pictures of 
strangely formed rather wooden blocked figures, one if I 
remember rightly a sort of man and women, the other three 
women. Well, she said still laughing. We were puzzled, we 
had seen so much strangeness we did not know why these 
two were any stranger. She was quickly lost in an excited 
and voluble crowd. We recognised Pablo Picasso and Fer- 
nando, we thought we recognised many more, to be sure 
everybody seemed to be interested in our corner and we 
stayed, but we did not know why they were so especially 
interested. After a considerable interval Gertrude Stein came 
back again, this time evidently even more excited and 
amused. She leaned over us and said solemnly, do you want 
to take french lessons. We hesitated, why yes we could take 
french lessons. Well Fernando will give you french lessons, 
go and find her and tell her how absolutely you are pining 
to take french lessons. But why should she give us french 
lessons, we asked. Because, well because she and Pablo have 
decided to separate forever. I suppose it has happened before 
but not since I have known them. You know Pablo says if 
you love a woman you give her money. Well now it is when 
you want to leave a woman you have to wait until you have 


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enough money to give her. VoUard has just bought out his 
atelier and so he can afford to separate from her by giving 
her half. She wants to install herself in a room by herself 
and give french lessons, so that is how you come in. Well 
what has that to do with these two pictures, asked my ever 
curious friend. Nothing, said Gertrude Stein going off with 
a great shout of laughter. 

I will tell the whole story as I afterward learnt it but now 
I must find Fernande and propose to her to take french les- 
sons from her. 

I wandered about and looked at the crowd, never had I 
imagined there could be so many kinds of men making and 
looking at pictures. In America, even in San Francisco, I 
had been accustomed to see women at picture shows and 
some men, but here there were men, men, men, sometimes 
women with them but more often three or four men with 
one woman, sometimes five or six men with two women. 
Later on I became accustomed to this proportion. In one 
of these groups of five or six men and two women I saw 
the Picassos, that is I saw Fernande with her characteristic 
gesture, one ringed forefinger straight in the air. As I after- 
wards found out she had the Napoleonic forefinger quite as 
long if not a shade longer than the middle finger, and this, 
whenever she was animated, which after all was not very 
often because Fernande was indolent, always went straight 
up into the air. I waited not wishing to break into this group 
of which she at one end and Picasso at the other end were 
the absorbed centres but finally I summoned up courage to 
go forward and draw her attention and tell her of my de- 
sire. Oh yes, she said sweetly, Gertrude has told me of your 

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desire, it would give me great pleasure to give you lessons, 
you and your friend, I will be the next few days very busy 
installing myself m my new apartment. Gertrude is coming 
to see me the end of the week, if you and your friend would 
accompany her we could then make all arrangements. Fer- 
nande spoke a very elegant french, some lapses of course 
into montmartrois that I found difficult to follow, but she 
had been educated to be a schoolmistress, her voice was 
lovely and she was very very beautiful with a marvellous 
complexion. She was a big woman but not too big because 
she was indolent and she had the small round arms that 
give the characteristic beauty to all french women. It was 
rather a pity that short skirts ever came in because until then 
one never imagined the sturdy french legs of the average 
french woman, one thought only of the beauty of the small 
rounded arms. I agreed to Fernande’s proposal and left her. 

On my way back to where my friend was sitting I be- 
came more accustomed not so much to the pictures as to 
the people. I began to realise there was a certain uniformity 
of type. Many years after, that is just a few years ago, when 
Juan Gris whom we all loved very much died, (he was after 
Pablo Picasso Gertrude Stein’s dearest friend) I heard her 
say to Braque, she and he were standing together at the 
funeral, who are all these people, there are so many and they 
are so familiar and I do not know who any of them arc. 
Oh, Braque replied, they are all the people you used to sec 
at the vernissage of the independent and the autumn salon 
and you saw their faces twice a year, year after year, and 
that is the reason they are all so familiar. 

Gertrude Stein and I about ten days later went to Mont- 

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martxe, I for the first time. I have never ceased to love it. 
We go there every now and then and I always have the same 
tender expectant feeling that I had then. It is a place where 
you were always standing and sometimes waiting, not for 
anything to happen, but just standing. The inhabitants of 
Montmartre did not sit much, they mostly stood which was 
just as well as the chairs, the dining room chairs of France, 
did not tempt one to sit. So I went to Montmartre and I 
began my apprenticeship of standing. We first went to see 
Picasso and then we went to see Fernande. Picasso now 
never likes to go to Montmartre, he does not like to think 
about it much less talk about it. Even to Gertrude Stein he 
is hesitant about talking of it, there were things that at that 
time cut deeply into his Spanish pride and the end of his 
Montmartre life was bitterness and disillusion, and there is 
nothing more bitter than Spanish disillusion. 

But at this time he was in and of Montmartre and lived 
in the rue Ravignan. 

We went to the Odeon and there got into an omnibus, 
that is we mounted on top of an omnibus, the nice old 
horse-pulled omnibuses that went pretty quickly and stead- 
ily across Paris and up the hill to the place Blanche. There 
we got out and climbed a steep street lined with shops with 
things to eat, the rue Lepic, and then turning we went 
around a corner and climbed even more steeply in fact al- 
most straight up and came to the rue Ravignan, now place 
Emile-Goudeau but otherwise unchanged, with its steps 
leading to the little flat square wilii its few but tender 
little trees, a man carpqatering in the corner of it, the last 
time , I was there not very long ago there was still a man 

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carpentering in a corner of it, and a little cafe just before 
you went up the steps where they all used to eat, it is still 
there, and to the left the low wooden building of studios 
that is still there. 

We went up the couple of steps and through the open 
door passing on our left the studio in which later Juan Gris 
was to live out his martyrdom but where then lived a cer- 
tain Vaillant, a nondescript painter who was to lend his 
studio as a ladies dressing room at the famous banquet for 
Rousseau, and then we passed a steep flight of steps leading 
down where Max Jacob had a studio a little later, and we 
passed another steep little stairway which led to the studio 
where not long before a young fellow had committed sui- 
cide, Picasso painted one of the most wonderful of his early 
pictures of the friends gathered round the coffin, we passed 
all this to a larger door where Gertrude Stein knocked and 
Picasso opened the door and we went in. 

He was dressed in what the french call the singe or mon- 
key costume, overalls made of blue jean or brown, I tliink 
his was blue and it is called a singe or monkey because being 
all of one piece with a belt, if the belt is not fastened, and 
it very often is not, it hangs down behind and so makes a 
monkey. His eyes were more wonderful than even I remem- 
bered, so full and so brown, and his hands so dark and deli- 
cate and alert. We went further in. There was a couch in 
one corner, a very small stove that did for cooking and heat- 
ing in the other corner, some chairs, the large broken one 
Gertrude Stein sat in when she was painted and a general 
smell of dog and paint and there was a big dog there and 
Piwsso moved her about from one place to another exactly 

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as if the dog had been a large piece of furniture. He asked 
us to sit down but as all the chairs were full we all stood 
up and stood until we left. It was my first experience of 
standing but afterwards I found that they all stood that way 
for hours. Against the wall was an enormous picture, a 
strange picture of light and dark colours, that is all I can 
say, of a group, an enormous group and next to it another 
in a sort of a red brown, of three women, square and pos- 
turing, all of it rather frightening. Picasso and Gertrude 
Stein stood together talking. I stood back and looked. I can- 
not say I realised anything but I felt that there was some- 
thing painful and beautiful there and oppressive but im- 
prisoned. I heard Gertrude Stein say, and mine. Picasso 
thereupon brought out a smaller picture, a rather unfinished 
thing that could not finish, very pale almost white, two 
figures, they were all there but very unfinished and not 
finishable. Picasso said, but he will never accept it. Yes, I 
know, answered Gertrude Stein. But just the same it is the 
only one in which it is all there. Yes, I know, he replied 
and they fell silent. After that they continued a low toned 
conversation and then Miss Stein said, well we have to go, 
we are going to have tea with Fernande. Yes, I know, re- 
plied Picasso. How often do you see her, she said, he got 
very red and looked sheepish. I have never been there, he 
said resentfully. She chuckled, well anyway we are going 
there, she said, and Miss Tc&Ias is going to have lessons in 
french. Ah the Miss Toklas, he said, with small feet like a 
Spanish woman and earrings like a gypsy and a father who 
is kin g of Poland like the Poniatowskis, of course she will 
take lessons. We all laughed and went to the door. There 

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Stood a very beautiful man, oh. Agero, said Picasso, you 
know the ladies. He looks like a Greco, I said in english. 
Picasso caught the name, a false Greco, he said. Oh I forgot 
to give you these, said Gertrude Stein handing Picasso a 
package of newspapers, they will console you. He opened 
them up, they were the Sunday supplement of american 
papers, they were the Katzenjammer kids. Oh oui. Oh oui, 
he said, his face full of satisfaction, merci thanks Gertrude, 
and we left. 

We left then and continued to climb higher up the hill. 
What did you think of what you saw, asked Miss Stein. 
Well I did see something. Sure you did, she said, but did 
you see what it had to do with those two pictures you sat 
in front of so long at the vernissage. Only that Picassos were 
rather awful and the others were not. Sure, she said, as Pablo 
once remarked, when you make a thing, it is so complicated 
making it that it is bound to be ugly, but those that do it 
after you they don’t have to worry about making it and 
they can make it pretty, and so everybody can like it when 
the others make it. 

We went on and turned down a little street and there was 
another Httle house and we asked for Mademoiselle Belle- 
vall6e and we were sent into a little corridor and we knocked 
and went into a moderate sized room in which was a very 
large bed and a piano and a little tea table and Fcrnandc 
and two others. 

One of them was Alice Princet. She was rather a madonna 
like aeature, with large lovely eyes and charming hair. 
Fcrpandc aftarwards explained that she was the daughter 
of a Wcddngman and the brutal thumbs that of course 

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were a characteristic of workingmen. She had been, so Fer- 
nande explained, for seven years with Princet who was in 
the government employ and she had been faithful to him 
in the fashion of Montmartre, that is to say she had stuck 
to him through sickness and health but she had amused 
herself by the way. Now they were to be married, Princet 
had become the head of his small department in the govern- 
ment service and it would be necessary for him to invite 
other heads of departments to his house and so of course he 
must regularise the relation. They were actually married a 
few months afterward and it was apropos of this marriage 
that Max Jacob made his famous remark, it is wonderful to 
long for a woman for seven years and to possess her at last. 
Picasso made the more practical one, why should they marry 
simply in order to divorce. This was a prophecy. 

No sooner were they married than Alice Princet met 
Derain and Derain met her. It was what the french call 
un coup de foudre, or love at first sight. They went quite 
mad about each other. Princet tried to bear it but they were 
married now and it was different. Beside he was angry for 
the first time in his life and in his anger he tore up Alice’s 
first fur coat which she had gotten for the wedding. That 
settled the matter, and within six months after the marriage 
Alice left Princet never to return. She and Derain went off 
together and they have never separated since. I always liked 
Alice Derain. She had a certain wild quality that perhaps 
had to do with her bmtal thumbs and was curiously in ac- 
cord with her madonna face. 

The other woman was Germaine Pichot, entirely a differ- 
ent type.. She was quiet and serious and Spanish, she had the 

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square shoulders and the unseeing fixed eyes of a Spanish 
woman. She was very gentle. She was married to a Spanish 
painter Pichot, who was rather a wonderful creature, he was 
long and thin like one of those primitive Christs in Spanish 
churches and when he did a Spanish dance which he did 
later at the famous banquet to Rousseau, he was awe in- 
spiringly religious. 

Germaine, so Fernande said, was the heroine of many a 
strange story, she had once taken a young man to the hos- 
pital, he had been injured in a fracas at a music hall and 
all his crowd had deserted him. Germaine quite namrally 
stood by and saw him through. She had many sisters, she 
and all of them had been born and bred in Montmartre and 
they were all of different fathers and married to difierent 
nationalities, even to turks and armenians. Germaine, much 
later was very ill for years and she always had around her 
a devoted coterie. They used to carry her in her armchair 
to the nearest cinema and they, and she in the armchair, 
saw the performance through. They did this regularly once 
a week. I imagine they are still doing it. 

The conversation around the tea table of Fernande was 
not lively, nobody had anything to say. It was a pleasure to 
meet, it was even an honour, but that was about all. Fer- 
nande complained a little that her charwoman had not ade- 
quately dusted and rinsed the tea things, and also that buy- 
ing a bed and a piano on the instalment plan had elements 
of unpleasantness. Otherwise we really none of us had much 
to say. 

Finally she and I arranged about the french lessons, I was 
to pay fifty cents an hour and she was to come to sec me 

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two days hence and we were to begin. Just at the end of the 
visit they were more natural. Fernande asked Miss Stein if 
she had any of the comic supplements of the american 
papers left. Gertrude Stein replied that she had just left 
them with Pablo. 

Fernande roused like a lioness defending her cubs. That 
is a brutality that I will never forgive him, she said. I met 
him on the street, he had a comic supplement in his hand, 
I asked him to give it to me to help me to distract myself 
and he brutally refused. It was a piece of cruelty that I will 
never forgive. I ask you, Gertrude, to give to me myself the 
next copies you have of the comic supplement. Gertrude 
Stein said, why certainly with pleasure. 

As we went out she said to me, it is to be hoped that they 
will be together again before the next comic supplements 
of the Katzenjammer kids come out because if I do not give 
them to Pablo he will be all upset and if I do Fernande will 
make an awful fuss. Well I suppose I will have to lose them 
or have my brother give them to Pablo by mistake. 

Fernande came quite promptly to the appointment and 
we proceeded to our lesson. Of course to have a lesson in 
french one has to converse and Fernande had three subjects, 
hats, we had not much more to say about hats, perfumes, we 
had something to say about perfumes. Perfumes were Fer- 
nande’s really great extravagance, she was the scandal of 
Montmartre because she had once bought a bottle of per- 
fume nam ed Smoke and had paid eighty francs for it at that 
time sixteen dollars and it had no scent but such a wonder- 
ful colour, like real bottled liquid smoke. Her third subject 
y« the categories of furs. There were three categories of 

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furs, there were first category, sables, second category ermine 
and chinchilla, third category martin fox and squirrel. It was 
the most surprising thing I had heard in Paris. I was sur- 
prised. Chinchilla second, squirrel called fur and no seal 
skin. 

Our only other conversation was the description and 
names of the dogs that were then fashionable. This was my 
subject and after I had described she always hesitated, ah 
yes, she would say illuminated, you wish to describe a little 
belgian dog whose name is griffon. 

There we were, she was very beautiful but it was a little 
heavy and monotonous, so I suggested we should meet out 
of doors, at a tea place or take walks in Montmartre. That 
was better. She began to tell me things. I met Max Jacob. 
Fernande and he were very funny together. They felt them- 
selves to be a courtly couple of the first empire, he being 
le vieux marquis kissing her hand and paying compliments 
and she the Empress Josephine receiving them. It was a 
caricature but a rather wonderful one. Then she told me 
about a mysterious horrible woman called Marie Laurencin 
who made noises like an animal and annoyed Picasso. I 
thought of her as a horrible old woman and was delighted 
when I met the yoxmg chic Marie who looked like a Clouet. 
Max Jacob read my horoscope. It was a great honour be- 
cause he wrote it down- 1 did not realise it then but I have 
since and most of all very lately, as all the young gentlemen 
who nowadays so much admire Max are so astonished and 
impressed that he wrote mine down as he has always been 
supposed never to write them but just to say them off hand 
Well anyway I have mine and it is written. 


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Then, she also told me a great many stories about Van 
Dongen and his dutch wife and dutch litde girl. Van Don- 
gen broke into notoriety by a portrait he did of Fernande. 
It was in that way that he created the type of almond eyes 
that were later so much the vogue. But Fernande’s almond 
eyes were natural, for good or for bad everything was nat- 
ural in Fernande. 

Of course Van Dongen did not admit that this picture 
was a portrait of Fernande, although she had sat for it and 
there was in consequence much bitterness. Van Dongen in 
these days was poor, he had a dutch wife who was a vege- 
tarian and they hved on spinach. Van Dongen frequently 
escaped from the spinach to a joint in Montmartre where 
the girls paid for his dinner and his drinks. 

The Van Dongen child was only four years old but ter- 
rific. Van Dongen used to do acrobatics with her and swing 
her around his head by a leg. When she hugged Picasso of 
whom she was very fond she used almost to destroy him, he 
had a great fear of her. 

There were many other tales of Germaine Pichot and the 
circus where she found her lovers and there were tales of 
all the past and present life of Montmartre. Fernande her- 
self had one ideal. It was Evelyn Thaw the heroine of the 
moment. And Fernande adored her in the way a later gen- 
eration adored Mary Pickford, she was so blonde, so pale, 
so nothing and Fernande would give a heavy sigh of ad- 
miration. 

The next time I saw Gertrude Stein she said to me sud- 
denly,- is Fernande wearing her earrings. I do not know, I 
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Stein I said, yes Fernande is wearing her earrings. Oh well, 
she said, there is nothing to be done yet, it’s a nuisance be- 
cause Pablo naturally having nobody in the studio cannot 
stay at home. In another week I was able to announce that 
Fernande was not wearing her earrings. Oh well it’s alright 
then she has no more money left and it is all over, said Ger- 
trude Stein. And it was. A week later I was dining with 
Fernande and Pablo at the rue de Fleurus. 

I gave Fernande a Chinese gown from San Francisco and 
Pablo gave me a lovely drawing. 

And now I will tell you how two americans happened to 
be in the heart of an art movement of which the outside 
world at that time knew nothing. 



3- Gertrude Stein in Paris 

1903-1907 


D uring Gertrude Stem’s last two years at the Medical 
School, Johns Hopkins, Baltimore, 1900-1903, her 
brother was living in Florence. There he heard of 
a painter named Cezanne and saw paintings by him owned 
by Charles Loeser. When he and his sister made their home 
in Paris the following year they went to VoUard’s the only 
picture dealer who had Cezannes for sale, to look at them, 
Vollard was a huge dark man who lisped a little. His shop 
was on the rue Laffitte not far from the boulevard. Further 
along this short street was Durand-Ruel and still further on 
almost at the church of the Martyrs was Sagot the ex-clbwn. 
Higher up in Montmartre on the rue Victor-Masse was 
Mademoiselle Weill who sold a mixture of pictures, books 
and bric-a-brac and in entirely another part of Paris on the 
rue Faubourg-Saint-Honore was the ex-cafe keeper and 
photographer Druet. Also on the rue Laffitte was the con- 
fectioner Fouquet where one could console oneself with de- 
licious honey cakes and nut candies and once in a while in- 
stead of a picture buy oneself strawberry jam in a glass bowl. 
The first visit to Voll^ has left an indelible impression 

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on Gertrude Stein. It was an incredible place. It did not look 
like a picture gallery. Inside there were a couple of canvases 
turned to the wall, in one corner was a small pile of big 
and little canvases thrown pell mell on top of one another, 
in the centre of the room stood a huge dark man glooming. 
This was Vollard cheerful. When he was really cheerless he 
put his huge frame against the glass door tliat led to the 
street, his arms above his head, his hands on each upper 
corner of the portal and gloomed darkly into the street. No- 
body thought then of trying to come in. 

They asked to see C&annes. He looked less gloomy and 
became quite polite. As they found out afterward C&anne 
was the great romance of Vollard’s life. The name Cezanne 
was to him a magic word. He had first learned about 
C&anne from Pissarro the painter. Pissarro indeed was the 
man from whom all the early Cezanne lovers heard about 
Cfeanne. Cezanne at that time was living gloomy and em- 
bittered at Aix-en-Provence. Pissarro told Vollard about him, 
told Fabry, a Florentine, who told Lroeser, told Picabia, in 
fact told everybody who knew about Cezanne at that time. 

There were Cezannes to be seen at Vollard’s. Later on 
Gertrude Stein wrote a poem called Vollard and C&anne, 
and Henry McBride printed it in the New York Sun. This 
was the first fugitive piece of Gertrude Stein’s to be so 
printed and it gave both her and Vollard a great deal of 
pleasure. Later on when Vollard wrote his book about 
C&anne, Vollard at Gertrude Stein’s suggestion sent a copy 
of the book to Henry McBride. She told Vollard that a 
whole page of one of New York’s big daily papers would 
be devoted to his book. He did not beUeve it possibly noth- 

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ing like that had ever happened to anybody in Paris. It did 
happen and he was deeply moved and unspeakably content. 
But to return to that first visit. 

They told Monsieur Vollard they wanted to see some 
Cezanne landscapes, they had been sent to him by Mr. 
Toeser of Florence. Oh yes, said Vollard looking quite 
cheerful and he began moving about the room, finally he 
disappeared behind a partition in the back and was heard 
heavily mounting the steps. After a quite long wait he came 
down again and had in his hand a tiny picture of an apple 
with most of the canvas unpaitited. They all looked at this 
thoroughly, then they said, yes but you see what we wanted 
to see was a landscape. Ah yes, sighed Vollard and he looked 
even more cheerful, after a moment he again disappeared 
and this time came back with a painting of a back, it was 
a beautiEul painting there is no doubt about that but the 
brother and sister were not yet up to a full appreciation of 
Cezanne nudes and so they returned to the attack. They 
wanted to see a landscape. This time after even a longer 
wait he came back with a very large canvas and a very little 
fragment of a landscape painted on it. Yes that was it, they 
said, a landscape but what they wanted was a smaller canvas 
but one all covered. They said, they thought they would 
like to see one like that. By this time the early winter eve- 
ning of Paris was closing in and just at this moment a very 
aged charwoman came down the same back stairs, mum- 
bled, b(Mi soir monaeur et madame, and quietly went out 
of the door, after a moment another old charwoman came 
down the same stairs, murmured, bon soir messieurs et mes- 
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began to laugh and said to her brother, it is all nonsense, 
there is no Cezanne. Vollard goes upstairs and tells these 
old women what to paint and he does not understand us 
and they do not understand him and they paint something 
and he brings it down and it is a Cezanne. They both began 
to laugh uncontrollably. Then they recovered and once more 
explained about the landscape. They said what they wanted 
was one of those marvellously yellow sunny Aix landscapes 
of which Loeser had several examples. Once more Vollard 
went o£E and this time he came back with a wonderful small 
green landscape. It was lovely, it covered all the canvas, it 
did not cost much and they bought it. Later on Vollard ex- 
plained to every one that he had been visited by two crazy 
americans and they laughed and he had been much annoyed 
but gradually he found out that when they laughed most 
they usually bought something so of course he waited for 
them to laugh. 

From that time on they went to Vollard’s all the time. 
They had soon the privilege of upsetting his piles of can- 
vases and finding what they liked in the heap. They bought 
a tiny little Daumier, head of an old woman. They began 
to take an interest in C&anne nudes and they finally bought 
two tiny canvases of nude groups. They found a very very 
small Manet painted in black and white with Forain in the 
foreground and bought it, they found two tiny little Renoirs. 
They frequently bought in twos because one of them usually 
liked one more than the other one did, and so the year wore 
on. In the spring Vollard announced a show of Gauguin and 
they for the first time saw some Gauguins. They were rather 
awful but they finally liked them, and bought two Gauguins. 

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Gertrude Stein liked his sun-flowers but not his figures and 
her brother preferred the figures. It sounds like a great deal 
now but in those days these things did not cost much. And 
so the winter went on. 

There were not a great many people in and out of Vol- 
lard’s but once Gertrude Stein heard a conversation there 
that pleased her immensely. Duret was a well known figure 
in Paris. He was now a very old and a very handsome man. 
He had been a friend of Whisder, Whistler had painted him 
in evening clothes with a white opera cloak over his arm. 
He was at Vollard’s talking to a group of younger men and 
one of them Roussel, one of the Vuillard, Bonnard, the post 
impressionist group, said something complainingly about the 
lack of recognition of himself and his friends, that they were 
not even allowed to show in the salon. Duret looked at him 
kindly, my young friend, he said, there are two kinds of art, 
never forget this, there is art and there is official art. How 
can you, my poor young friend, hope to be official art. Just 
look at yourself. Supposing an important personage came to 
France, and wanted to meet the representative painters and 
have his portrait painted. My dear young friend, just look 
at yourself, the very sight of you would terrify him. You are 
a nice young man, gentle and intelligent, but to the im- 
portant personage you would not seem so, you would be ter- 
rible. No they need as representative painter a medium sized, 
slightly stout man, not too well dressed but dressed in the 
fashion of his class, neither bald or well brushed hair and a 
respectful bow with it. You can see that you would not do. 
So. never say another word about official recognition, or if 
you do, look in the mirror and think of important person- 

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ages. No, my dear young friend there is art and there is 
oflEcial art, there always has been and there always will be. 

Before the winter was over, having gone so far Gertrude 
Stein and her brother decided to go further, they decided to 
buy a big Cezanne and then they would stop. After that they 
would be reasonable. They convinced their elder brother 
that this last outlay was necessary, and it was necessary as 
will soon be evident. They told Vollard that they wanted 
to buy a Cezanne portrait. In those days practically no big 
C&anne portraits had been sold. Vollard owned almost all 
of them. He was enormously pleased with this decision. 
They now were introduced into the room above the steps 
behind the partition where Gertrude Stein had been sure the 
old charwomen painted the Cezannes and there they spent 
days deciding which portrait they would have. There were 
about eight to choose from and the decision was difficult. 
They had often to go and refresh themselves with honey 
cakes at Fouquet’s. Finally they narrowed the choice down 
to two, a portrait of a man and a portrait of a woman, but 
this time ffiey could not afford to buy twos and finally they 
chose the portrait of the woman, 

Vollard said of course ordinarily a portrait of a woman 
always is more expensive than a portrait of a man but, said 
he looking at the picture very carefully, I suppose with 
Cfeanne it does not make any difference. They put it in a 
cab and they went home with it. It was this picture that 
Alfy Maurer used to explain was finished and that you could 
tell that it was finished because it had a frame. 

It was an important purchase because in looking and look- 
ing at this picture Gertrude Stein wrote Three Lives. 

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She had begun not long before as an exercise in literature 
to translate Flaubert’s Trois Q)ntes and then she had this 
Cezanne and she looked at it and under its stimulus she 
wrote Three Lives. 

The next thing that happened was in the autumn. It was 
the first year of the autumn salon, the first autumn salon 
that had ever existed in Paris and they, very eager and ex- 
cited, went to see it. There they found Matisse’s picture after- 
wards known as La Femme au Chapeau. 

This first autumn salon was a step in official recognition 
of the outlaws of the independent salon. Their pictures were 
to be shown in the Petit Palais opposite the Grand Palais 
where the great spring salon was held. That is, those out- 
laws were to be shown there who had succeeded enough so 
that they began to be sold in important picture shops. These 
in collaboration with some rebels from the old salons had 
created the autumn salon. 

The show had a great deal of freshness and was not alarm- 
ing. There were a number of attractive pictures but there 
was one that was not attractive. It infuriated the public, they 
tried to scratch off the paint. 

Gertrude Stein liked that picture, it was a portrait of a 
woman with a long face and a fan. It was very strange in 
its colour and in its anatomy. She said she wanted to buy it. 
Her brother had in the meantime found a white-clothed 
woman on a green lawn and he wanted to buy it. So as usual 
they decided to buy two and they went to the oflSce of the 
secretary of the salon to find out about prices. They had 
never been in the Htde room of a secretary of a salon and 
it was very exciting. The secretary looked up the prices in 

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his catalogue. Gertrude Stein has forgotten how much and 
even whose it was, the white dress and dog on the green 
grass, but the Matisse was five hundred francs. The secre- 
tary explained that of course one never paid what the artist 
asked, one suggested a price. They asked what price they 
should suggest. He asked them what they were willing to 
pay. They said they did not know. He suggested that they 
offer four hundred and he would let them know. They 
agreed and left. 

The next day they received word from the secretary that 
Monsieur Matisse had refused to accept the offer and what 
did they want to do. They decided to go over to the salon 
and look at the picture again. They did. People were roar- 
ing with laughter at the picture and scratching at it. Ger- 
trude Stein could not understand why, the picture seemed 
to her perfectly natural. The Cezanne portrait had not 
seemed natural, it had taken her some time to feel that it 
was natural but this picture by Matisse seemed perfectly nat- 
ural and she could not understand why it infuriated every- 
body. Her brother was less attracted but all the same he 
agreed and they bought it. She then went back to look at 
it and it upset her to see them all mocking at it. It bothered 
her and angered her because she did not understand why 
because to her it was so alright, just as later she did not 
understand why since the writing was all so clear and nat- 
ural they mocked at and were enraged by her work. 

And so this was the story of the buying of La Femme au 
Chapeau by the buyers and now for the story from the 
seller’s point of view as told some months after by Monsieur 
and Madame Matisse. Shortly after the purchase of the pic- 

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ture they all asked to meet each other. Whether Matisse 
wrote and asked or whether they wrote and asked Gertrude 
Stein does not remember. Anyway in no time they were 
knowing each other and knowing each other very well. 

The Matisses lived on the quay just off the boulevard 
Saint-Michel. They were on the top floor in a small three- 
roomed apartment with a lovely view over Notre Dame and 
the river. Matisse painted it in winter. You went up and up 
the steps. In those days you were always going up stairs and 
down stairs. Mildred Aldrich had a distressing way of drop- 
ping her key down the middle of the stairs where an eleva- 
tor might have been, in calling out goodbye to some one 
below, from her sixth story, and then you or she had to go 
all the way up or all the way down again. To be sure she 
would often call out, never mind, I am bursting open my 
door. Only americans did that. The keys were heavy and 
you either forgot them or dropped them. Sayen at the end 
of a Paris summer when he was congratulated on looking 
so well and sun-bumed, said, yes it comes from going up 
and down stairs. 

Madame Matisse was an admirable housekeeper. Her 
place was small but immaculate. She kept the house in 
order, she was an excellent cook and provider, she posed 
for all of Matisse’s pictures. It was she who was La Femme 
au Chapeau, lady with a hat. She had kept a little millinery 
shop to keep them going in their poorest days. She was a 
very straight dark woman with a long face and a firm large 
loosely hung mouth like a horse. She had an abundance of 
dark hair. Gertrude Stein always liked the way she pinned 
h^ ha* to her head and Matisse once made a drawing of his 

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wife making this characteristic gesture and gave it to Miss 
Stein. She always wore black. She always placed a large 
black hat-pin well in the middle of the hat and the middle 
of the top of her head and then with a large firm gesture, 
down it came. They had with them a daughter of Matisse, 
a daughter he had had before his marriage and who had 
had diphtheria and had had to have an operation and for 
many years had to wear a black ribbon around her throat 
with a silver button. This Matisse put into many of his pic- 
tures. The girl was exactly like her father and Madame 
Matisse, as she once explained in her melodramatic simple 
way, did more than her duty by this child because having 
read in her youth a novel in which the heroine had done so 
and been consequently much loved all her life, had decided 
to do the same. She herself had had two boys but they were 
neither of them at that time living with them. The younger 
Pierre was in the south of France on the borders of Spain 
with Madame Matisse’s father and mother, and the elder 
Jean with Monsieur Matisse’s father and mother in the north 
of France on the borders of Belgium. 

Matisse had an astonishing virility that always gave one 
an extraordinary pleasure when one had not seen him for 
some time. Less the first time of seeing him than later. And 
one did not lose the pleasure of this viriHty all the time he 
was with one. But there was not much feeling of life in this 
virility. Madame Matisse was very different, there was a very 
profound feeling of life in her for any one who knew her. 

Matisse had at this time a small C&anne and a small 
Gauguin and he said he needed them both. The C^anne 
had been bought with his wife’s marriage portion, the 

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Gauguin with, the ring which was the only jewel she had 
ever owned. And they were happy because he needed these 
two pictures. The Cezanne was a picture of bathers and a 
tent, the Gauguin the head of a boy. Later on in life when 
Matisse became a very rich man, he kept on buying pictures. 
He said he knew about pictures and had confidence in them 
and he did not know about other things. And so for his 
own pleasure and as the best legacy to leave his children he 
bought Cezannes. Picasso also later when he became rich 
bought pictures but they were his own. He too believed in 
pictures and wants to leave the best legacy he can to his son 
and so keeps and buys his own. 

The Matisses had had a hard time. Matisse had come to 
Paris as a young man to study pharmacy. His people were 
small grain merchants in the north of France. He had be- 
come interested in painting, had begun copying the Poussins 
at the Louvre and become a painter fairly without the con- 
sent of his people who however continued to allow him the 
very small monthly sum he had had as a student. His daugh- 
ter was born at this time and this further complicated his 
life. He had at first a certain amount of success. He mar- 
ried. Under the influence of the paintings of Poussin and 
Chardin he had painted still fife pictures that had consider- 
able success at the Champ-de-Mars salon, one of the two 
big spring salons. And then he fell under the influence of 
C&anne, and then under the influence of negro sculpture. 
All this developed the Matisse of the period of La Femme 
au Chapeau, The year after his very considerable success at 
the s4on he spoat the winter painting a very large picture 
of gi'^oman settii^ a table and on the table was a magnifi- 

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cent flish of fruit. It had strained the resources of the Matisse 
family to buy this fruit, fruit was horribly dear in Paris in 
those days, even ordinary fruit, imagine how much dearer 
was this very extraordinary fruit and it had to keep until 
the picture was completed and the picture was going to take 
a long time. In order to keep it as long as possible they kept 
the room as cold as possible, and that under the roof and in 
a Paris winter was not difl&cult, and Matisse painted in an 
overcoat and gloves and he painted at it all winter. It was 
finished at last and sent to the salon where the year before 
Matisse had had considerable success, and there it was re- 
fused. And now Matisse’s serious troubles began, his daugh- 
ter was very ill, he was in an agonising mental struggle con- 
cerning his work, and he had lost all possibility of showing 
his pictures. He no longer painted at home but in an atelier. 
It was cheaper so. Every morning he painted, every after- 
noon he worked at his sculpture, late every afternoon he 
drew in the sketch classes from the nude, and every evening 
he played his violin. These were very dark days and he was 
very despairful. His wife opened a small millinery shop and 
they managed to live. The two boys were sent away to the 
country to his and her people and they continued to live. 
The only encouragement came in the atelier where he 
worked and where a crowd of young men began to gather 
around him and be influenced by him. Among these the best 
known at that time was Manguin, the best known now 
Derain. Derain was a very young man at that time, he enor- 
mously admired Matisse, he went away to the country with 
them to Collioure near Perpignan, and he was a great com- 
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trees with red and he had a sense of space that was quite 
his own and which first showed itself in a landscape of a 
cart going up a road bordered with trees lined in red. His 
paintings were coming to be known at the independent. 

Matisse worked every day and every day and every day 
and he worked terribly hard. Once Vollard came to see him. 
Matisse used to love to tell the story. I have often heard him 
tell it. Vollard came and said he wanted to see the big pic- 
ture which had been refused. Matisse showed it to him . He 
did not look at it. He talked to Madame Matisse and mostly 
about cooking, he liked cooking and eating as a frenchman 
should, and so did she. Matisse and Madame Matisse were 
both getting very nervous although she did not show it. And 
this door, said Vollard interestedly to Matisse, where does 
that lead to, does that lead into a court or does that lead on 
to a stairway. Into a court, said Matisse. Ah yes, said Vollard. 
And then he left. 

The Matisses spent days discussing whether there was any- 
thing symbolic in Vollard’s question or was it idle curiosity. 
Vollard never had any idle curiosity, he always wanted to 
know what everybody thought of everything because in that 
way he found out what he himself thought. This was very 
well known and therefore the Matisses asked each other and 
all their friends, why did he ask that question about that 
door. Well at any rate within the year he had bought the 
picture at a very low price but he bought it, and he put it 
away and nobody saw it, and that was the end of that. 

From this time on thipgs went neither better nor worse 
for Matisse and he w?is discouraged and aggressive. Then 
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and he sent La Femme au Chapeau and it was hung. It was 
derided and attacked and it was sold. 

Matisse was at this time about thirty-five years old, he was 
depressed. Having gone to the opening day of the salon and 
heard what was said of his picture and seen what they were 
trying to do to it he never went again. His wife went alone. 
He stayed at home and was unhappy. This is the way Ma- 
dame Matisse used to tell the story. 

Then a note came from the secretary of the salon saying 
that there had been an offer made for the picture, an offer 
of four hundred francs. Matisse was painting Madame 
Matisse as a gypsy holding a guitar. This guitar had already 
had a history. Madame Matisse was very fond of telling the 
story. She had a great deal to do and she posed beside and 
she was very healthy and sleepy. One day she was posing, 
he was painting, she began to nod and as she nodded the 
guitar made noises. Stop it, said Matisse, wake up. She woke 
up, he painted, she nodded and the guitar made noises. Stop 
it, said Matisse, wake up. She woke up and then in a little 
while she nodded again the guitar made even more noises. 
Matisse furious seized the guitar and broke it. And added 
Madame Matisse ruefully, we were very hard up then and 
we had to have it mended so he could go on with the pic- 
ture. She was holding this same mended guitar and posing 
when the note from the secretary of the autumn salon came. 
Matisse was joyful, of course I will accept, said Matisse. Oh 
no, said Madame Matisse, if those people (ces gens) are in- 
terested enough to make an offer they are interested enough 
to pay the price you asked, and she added, the difference 
would make winter clothes for Margot. Matisse hesitated but 

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was finally convinced and they sent a note saying he wanted 
his price. Nothing happened and Matisse was in a terrible 
state and very reproachjful and then in a day or two when 
Madame Matisse was once more posing with the guitar and 
Matisse was painting, Margot brought them a little blue 
telegram. Matisse opened it and he made a grimace. Ma- 
dame Matisse was terrified, she thought the worst had hap- 
pened. The guitar fell. What is it, she said. They have 
bought it, he said. Why do you make such a face of agony 
and frighten me so and perhaps break the guitar, she said. 
I was winking at you, he said, to tell you, because I was so 
moved I could not speak. <1 

And so, Madame Matisse used to end gig the story trium- 
phantly, you see it was I, and I was right to insist upon the 
original price, and Mademoiselle Gertrude, who insisted 
upon buying it, who arranged the whole matter. 

The friendship with the Matisses grew apace. Matisse at 
that time was at work at his first big decoration, Le Bon- 
heur de Vivre. He was making small and larger and very 
large studies for it. It was in this picture that Matisse first 
clearly realised his intention of deforming the drawing of 
the human body in order to harmonise and intensify the 
colour values of all the simple colours mixed only with 
white. He used his distorted drawing as a dissonance is used 
in music or as vinegar or lemons are used in cooking or egg 
shells in coffee to clarify. I do inevitably take my compari- 
sons from the kitchen because I like food and cooking and 
know something about it. However this was the idea. 
C&anne had come to his unfinishedness and distortion of 
jaec^si^, Matifse did it by intention. 

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Little by little people began to come to the rue de Fleurus 
to see the Matisses and the C&annes, Matisse brought peo- 
ple, everybody brought somebody, and they came at any 
time and it began to be a nuisance, and it was in this way 
that Saturday evenings began. It was also at this time that 
Gertrude Stein got into the habit of -writing at night. It was 
only after eleven o’clock that she could be sure that no one 
would knock at the studio door. She was at that time plan- 
ning her long book. The Making of Americans, she was 
struggling with her sentences, those long sentences that had 
to be so exacdy carried out. Sentences not only words but 
sentences and always sentences have been Gertrude Stein’s 
life long passion. And so she had then and indeed it lasted 
pretty well to the war, which broke down so many habits, 
she had then the habit of beginning her work at eleven 
o’clock at night and working until the dawn. She said she 
always tried to stop before the dawn was too clear and the 
birds were too lively because it is a disagreeable sensation to 
go to bed then. There were birds in many trees behind high 
walls in those days, now there are fewer. But often the birds 
and the dawn caught her and she stood in the court wait- 
ing to get used to it before she went to bed. She had the 
habit then of sleeping until noon and the beating of the 
rugs into the court, because everybody did that in those days, 
even her household did, was one of her most poignant irri- 
tations. 

So the Saturday evenings began. 

Gertrude Stein and her brother were often at the Matisses 
and the Matisses were constantly with them. Madame 
Matisse occasionally gave them a lunch, this happened most 

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often, when some relation sent the Matisses a hare. Jugged 
hare prepared by Madame Matisse in the fashion of Per- 
pignan was something quite apart. They also had extremely 
good wine, a Httle heavy, but excellent. They also had a 
sort of Madeira called Roncio which was very good indeed. 
Maillol the sculptor came from the same part of France as 
Madame Matisse and once when I met him at Jo Davidson’s, 
many years later, he told me about all these wines. He then 
told me how he had Hved well in his student days in Paris 
for fifty francs a month. To be sure, he said, the family sent 
me homemade bread every week and when I came I brought 
enough wine with me to last a year and I sent my washing 
home every month. 

Derain was present at one of these lunches in those early 
days. He and Gertrude Stein disagreed violently. They dis- 
cussed philosophy, he basing his ideas on having read the 
second part of Faust in a french translation while he was 
doing his military service. They never became friends. 
Gertrude Stein was never interested in his work. He had a 
sense of space but for her his pictures had neither life nor 
depth nor solidity. They rarely saw each other after. Derain 
at that time was constantly with the Matisses and was of all 
Matisse’s friends the one Madame Matisse liked the best. 

It was about this time that Gertrude Stein’s brother hap- 
pened one day to find the picture gallery of Sagot, an ex- 
circus clown who had a picture shop further up the rue 
LaflStte. Here he, Gertrude Stein’s brother, found the paint- 
ings of two young Spaniards, one, whose name everybody 
has forgotten, the other one, Picasso. The work of both of 
them interested him and he bought a water colour by the 

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forgotten one, a cafe scene. Sagot also sent him to a little 
furniture store where there were some paintings being 
shown by Picasso. Gertrude Stein’s brother was interested 
and wanted to buy one and asked the price but the price 
asked was almost as expensive as Cezanne. He went back 
to Sagot and told him. Sagot laughed. He said, that is 
alright, come back in a few days and I will have a big one. 
In a few days he did have a big one and it was very cheap. 
When Gertrude Stein and Picasso tell about those days they 
are not always in agreement as to what happened but I 
think in this case they agree that the price asked was a 
hundred and fifty francs. The picture was the now well 
known painting of a nude girl with a basket of red flowers. 

Gertrude Stem did not like the picture, she found some- 
thing rather appalling in the drawing of the legs and feet, 
something that repelled and shocked her. She and her 
brother almost quarrelled about this picture. He wanted it 
and she did not want it in the house. Sagot gathering a little 
of the discussion said, but that is alright if you do not like 
the legs and feet it is very easy to guillotine her and only 
take the head. No that would not do, everybody agreed, and 
nothing was decided. 

Gertrude Stein and her brother continued to be very 
divided in this matter and they were very angry with each 
other. Finally it was agreed that since he, the brother, 
wanted it so badly they would buy it, and in this way the 
first Picasso was brought into the rue de Fleurus. 

It was just about this time that Raymond Duncan, the 
brother of Isadora, rented an atelier in the rue de Fleurus. 
Raymond had just come back from his first trip to Greece 

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and had brought back with him a greek girl and greek 
clothes. Raymond had known Gertrude Stein’s elder brother 
and his wife in San Francisco. At that time Raymond was 
acting as advance agent for E mma Nevada who had also 
with her Pablo Casals the violincellist, at that time quite 
unknown. 

The Duncan family had been then at the Omar Khayyam 
stage, they had not yet gone greek. They had after that gone 
Italian renaissance, but now Raymond had gone completely 
greek and this included a greek girl. Isadora lost interest in 
him, she found the girl too modern a greek. At any rate 
Raymond was at this time without any money at all and 
his wife was enceinte. Gertrude Stein gave him coal and a 
chair for Penelope to sit in, the rest sat on packing cases. 
They had another friend who helped them, Kathleen Bruce, 
a very beautiful, very athletic English girl, a kind of sculp- 
tress, she later married and became the widow of the dis- 
coverer of the South Pole, Scott. She had at that time no 
money to speak of either and she used to bring a half portion 
of her dinner every evening for Penelope. Finally Penelope 
had her baby, it was named Raymond because when 
Gertrude Stein’s brother and Raymond Duncan went to 
register it they had not thought of a name. Now he is 
against his will called Menalkas but he might be gratified 
if he knew that legally he is Raymond. However that is an- 
other matter. 

Kathleen Bruce was a sculptress and she was learning to 
model figures of childroi and she asked to do a figure of 
G^sCrude Stem’s nephew. Gertrude Stein and her nephew 
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met H. P. Roche. Roche was one of those characters that 
are always to be found in Paris. He was a very earnest, very 
noble, devoted, very faithful and very enthusiastic man who 
was a general introducer. He knew everybody, he really 
knew them and he could introduce anybody to anybody. 
He was going to be a writer. He was tall and red-headed and 
he never said anything but good good excellent and he lived 
with his mother and his grandmother. He had done a great 
many things, he had gone to the austrian mountains with 
the austrians, he had gone to Germany with the germans 
and he had gone to Hungary with hungarians and he had 
gone to England with the english. He had not gone to 
Russia although he had been in Paris with russians. As 
Picasso always said of him, Roche is very nice but he is only 
a translation. 

Later he was often at 27 rue de Fleurus with various 
nationalities and Gertrude Stein rather liked him. She al- 
ways said of him he is so faithful, perhaps one need never 
see him again but one knows that somewhere Roche is faith- 
ful. He did give her one delightful sensation in the very 
early days of their acquaintance. Three Lives, Gertrude 
Stein’s first book was just then being written and Roche 
who could read english was very impressed by it. One day 
Gertrude Stein was saying something about herself and 
Roche said good good excellent that is very important for 
your biography. She was terribly touched, it was the first 
time that she really realised that some time she would have 
a biography. It is quite true that although she has not seen 
him for years somewhere Roche is probably perfectly faith- 
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But to come back to Roche at Kathleen Bruce’s studio. 
They all talked about one thing and another and Gertrude 
Stein happened to mention that they had just bought a 
picture from Sagot by a young Spaniard named Picasso. 
Good good excellent, said Roche, he is a very interesting 
young fellow, I know him. Oh do you, said Gertrude Stein, 
well enough to take somebody to see him. Why certainly, 
said Roche. Very well, said Gertrude Stein, my brother I 
know is very anxious to make his acquaintance. And there 
and then the appointment was made and shortly after Roche 
and Gertrude Stein’s brother went to see Picasso. 

It was only a very short time after this that Picasso began 
the portrait of Gertrude Stein, now so widely known, but 
just how that came about is a little vague in everybody’s 
mind. I have heard Picasso and Gertrude Stein talk about it 
often and they neither of them can remember. They can 
remember the first time that Picasso dined at the rue de 
Fleurus and they can remember the first time Gertrude Stein 
posed for her portrait at rue Ravignan but in between there 
is a blank. How it came about they do not know. Picasso 
had never had anybody pose for him since he was sixteen 
years old, he was then twenty-four and Gertrude Stein had 
never thought of having her portrait painted, and they do 
not either of them know how it came about. Anyway it did 
and she posed to him for this portrait ninety times and a 
great deal happened during that time- To go back to all the 
first times. 

Picasso and Tat^de came to dinner, Picasso in those 
days wSs, what a dear friend and schoolmate of mine, 
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dark, alive vfith big pools of eyes and a violent but not a 
rough way. He was sitting next to Gertrude Stein at dinner 
and she took up a piece of bread. This, said Picasso, snatch- 
ing it back with violence, this piece of bread is mine. She 
laughed and he looked sheepish. That was the beginning of 
their intimacy. 

That evening Gertrude Stein’s brother took out portfolio 
after portfolio of Japanese prints to show Picasso, Gertrude 
Stein’s brother was fond of japanese prints. Picasso solemnly 
and obediently looked at print after print and listened to 
the descriptions. He said under his breath to Gertrude Stein, 
he is very nice, your brother, but like all americans, like 
Havdand, he shows you japanese prints. Moi j’aime pas ga, 
no I don’t care for it. As I say Gertrude Stein and Pablo 
Picasso immediately understood each other. 

Then there was the first time of posing. The atelier of 
Picasso I have already described. In those days there was 
even more disorder, more coming and going, more red-hot 
fire in the stove, more cooking and more interruptions. 
There was a large broken armchair where Gertrude Stein 
posed. There was a couch where everybody sat and slept. 
There was a little kitchen chair upon which Picasso sat to 
paint, there was a large easel and there were many very 
large canvases. It was at the height of the end of the Harle- 
quin period when the canvases were enormous, the figures 
also, and the groups. 

There was a litde fox terrier there that had something 
the matter with it and had been and was again about to be 
tdken to the veterinary. No frenchman or frenchwoman is 

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SO poor or so careless or so avaricious but that they can and 
do constantly take their pet to the vet. 

Fernande w^as as always, very large, very beautiful and 
very gracious. She offered to read La Fontaine’s stories 
aloud to amuse Gertrude Stein while Gertrude Stein posed. 
She took her pose, Picasso sat very tight on his chair and 
very close to his canvas and on a very small palette which 
was of a uniform brown grey colour, mixed some more 
brown grey and the painting began. This was the first of 
some eighty or ninety sittings. 

Toward the end of the afternoon Gertrude Stein’s two 
brothers and her sister-in-law and Andrew Green came to 
see. They were all excited at the beauty of the sketch and 
Andrew Green begged and begged that it should be left as it 
was. But Picasso shook his head and said, non. 

It is too bad but in those days no one thought of taking a 
photograph of the picture as it was then and of course no 
one of the group that saw it then remembers at all what it 
looked like any more than do Picasso or Gertrude Stein. 

Andrew Green, none of them knew how they had met 
Andrew Green, he was the great-nephew of Andrew Green 
known as the father of Greater New York. He had been 
born and reared in Chicago but he was a typical tall gaunt 
new englander, blond and gentle. He had a prodigious 
memory and could recite all of Milton’s Paradise Lost by 
heart and also all the translations of Chinese poems of which 
Gertrude Stein was very fond. He had been in China and 
he was later to live permanendy in the South Sea islands 
after he finally inherited quite a fortune from his great- 
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passion for oriental stuffs. He adored as he said a simple 
centre and a continuous design. He loved pictures in 
museums and he hated everything modern. Once when 
during the family’s absence he had stayed at the rue de 
Fleurus for a month, he had outraged Helene’s feelings by 
having his bed-sheets changed every day and covering all 
the pictures with cashmere shawls. He said the pictures were 
very restful, he could not deny that, but he could not bear 
it. He said that after the month was over that he had of 
course never come to like the new pictures but the worst of 
it was that not liking them he had lost his taste for the old 
and he never again in his life could go to any museum or 
look at any picture. He was tremendously impressed by 
Fernande’s beauty. He was indeed quite overcome. I would, 
he said to Gertrude Stein, if I could talk french, I would 
make love to her and take her away from that little Picasso. 
Do you make love with words, laughed Gertrude Stein. 
He went away before I came to Paris and he came back 
eighteen years later and he was very dull. 

This year was comparatively a quiet one. The Matisses 
were in the South of France all winter, at Collioure on the 
Mediterranean coast not far from Perpignan, where Madame 
Matisse’s people lived. The Raymond Duncans had disap- 
peared after having been joined first by a sister of Penelope 
who was a little actress and was very far from being dressed 
greek, she was as nearly as she possibly could be a little Pari- 
sian. She had accompanying her a very itwge dark greek 
cousin. He came in to see Gertrude Stein and he looked 
around and he annotmeed, I am greek, that is the same as 
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these pictures. Very shortly Raymond, his wife and baby, the 
sister-in-law and the greek cousin disappeared out of the 
court at 27 rue de Fleurus and were succeeded by a german 
lady. 

This german lady was the niece and god-daughter of 
german field-marshals and her brother was a captain in the 
german navy. Her mother was english and she herself had 
played the harp at the bavarian court. She was very amus- 
ing and had some strange friends, both english and french. 
She was a sculptress and she made a typical german sculp- 
ture of little Roger, the concierge’s boy. She made three 
heads of him, one laughing, one crying and one sticking out 
his tongue, all three together on one pedestal. She sold this 
piece to the royal museum at Potsdam. The concierge dmdng 
the war often wept at the thought of her Roger being there, 
sculptured, in the museum at Potsdam. She invented 
clothes that could be worn inside out and taken to pieces 
and be made long or short and she showed these to every- 
body with great pride. She had as an instructor in painting a 
weird looking frenchman one who looked exactly like the 
pictures of Huckleberry Finn’s father. She explained that 
she employed him out of charity, he had won a gold medal 
at the salon in his youth and after that h^ had no success. 
She also said that she never employed a servant of the 
servant class. She said that decayal gendewomen were more 
appetising and more efideat and dbte alwr^ had some 
widow o£ some amiy ofi&eer ot functiemary sewing or posing 
fe» her. She: had ^ aiKtrian maid for a while who cooked 
perf^y delicious austrim pastry bttt she did not keep her 
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Stein used to talk to each other in the court. She always 
wanted to know what Gertrude Stein thought of everybody 
who came in and out. She wanted to know if she came to 
her conclusions by deduction, observation, imagination or 
analysis. She was amusing and then she disappeared and 
nobody thought anything about her tmtil the war came and 
then everybody wondered if after all there had not been 
something sinister about this german woman’s life in Paris. 

Practically every afternoon Gertrude Stein went to Mont- 
martre, posed and then later wandered down the hill usually 
walking across Paris to the rue de Fleurus. She then formed 
the habit which has never left her of walking around Paris, 
now accompanied by the dog, in those days alone. And 
Saturday evenings the Picassos walked home with her and 
dined and then there was Saturday evening. 

During these long poses and these long walks Gertrude 
Stein meditated and made sentences. She was then in the 
middle of her negro story Melanctha Herbert, the second 
story of Three Lives and the poignant incidents that she 
wove into the life of Melanctha were often these she noticed 
in walking down the hill from the rue Ravignan. 

It was at that time that the hungarians began their pil- 
grimages to the rue de Fleurus. There were strange groups 
of americans then, Picasso unaccustomed to the virginal 
quality of these young men and women used to say of them, 
ils sont pas des hommcs, ils sont pas des femmes, ils sont des 
am^ricains. They are not men, they are not women they 
are americans. Once there was a Bryn Mawr woman there, 
wife of a well known portrait painter, who was very tall and 
beautiful and having once fallen on her head had a strange 

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vacant expression. Her, he approved of, and used to call the 
Empress. There was a type of american art student, male, 
that used very much to afflict him, he used to say no it is not 
he who will make the future glory of America. He had a 
characteristic reaction when he saw the first photograph of 
a sky-scraper. Good God, he said, imagine the pangs of 
jealousy a lover would have while his beloved came up 
all those flights of stairs to his top story studio. 

It was at this time that a Maurice Denis, a Toulouse- 
Lautrec and many enormous Picassos were added to the 
collection. It was at this time also that the acquaintance and 
friendship with the Vallotons began. 

Vollard once said when he was asked about a certain 
painter’s picture, oh 5a c’est un C&;anne pour les pauvres, 
that is a Cezanne for the poor collector. Well Valloton was 
a Manet for the impecunious. His big nude had all the hard- 
ness, the stillness and none of the quality of the Olympe of 
Manet and his portraits had the aridity but none of the ele- 
gance of David. And further he had the misfortune of 
having married the sister of an important picture-dealer. 
He was very happy 'with his wife and she was a very charm- 
ing woman but then there were the weekly family reunions, 
and there was also the wealth of his wife and the violence of 
his step-sons. He was a gentle soul, Valloton, with a keen 
wit and a great deal of ambition but a feeling of impotence, 
the result of being the brother-in-law of picture dealers. 
However for a time his pictures were very interesting. He 
asked Gertrude Stein to pose for him. She did the following 
y^. She had come to like posing, the long still hours fol- 
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with which she was creating her sentences. The sentences of 
which Marcel Brion, the french critic has written, by exact- 
itude, austerity, absence of variety in light and shade, by 
refusal of the use of the subconscious Gertrude Stein achieves 
a symmetery which has a close analogy to the symmetry of 
the musical fugue of BacL 

She often described the strange sensation she had as a re- 
sult of the way in which Valloton painted. He was not at 
that time a young man as painters go, he had already had 
considerable recognition as a painter in the Paris exposition 
of 1900. When he painted a portrait he made a crayon 
sketch and then began painting at the top of the canvas 
straight across. Gertrude Stein said it was like pulling down 
a curtain as slowly moving as one of his swiss glaciers. 
Slowly he pulled the curtain down and by the time he was at 
the bottom of the canvas, there you were. The whole opera- 
tion took about two weeks and then he gave the canvas to 
you. First however he exhibited it in the autumn salon and 
it had considerable notice and everybody was pleased. 

Everybody went to the Cirque Medrano once a week, at 
least, and usually everybody went on the same evening. 
There the clowns had commenced dressing up in misfit 
clothes instead of the old classic costume and these clothes 
later so well known on Charlie Chaplin were the delight of 
Picasso and all his friends in Montmartre. There also were 
the english jockeys and their costumes made the mode that 
all Montmartre followed. Not very long ago somebody was 
talking about how well the young painters of to-day dressed 
and what a pity it was that they spent money in that way. 
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for the fashionable complet, their suits of clothes, than we 
did for our rough and co mm on ones. You have no idea 
how hard it was and expensive it was in those days to find 
english tweed or a french imitation that would look rough 
and dirty enough. And it was quite true one way and an- 
other the painters in those days did spend a lot of money 
and they spent all they got hold of because in those happy 
days you could owe money for years for your paints and 
canvases and rent and restaurant and practically everything 
except coal and luxuries. 

The winter went on. Three Lives was written. Gertrude 
Stein asked her sister-in-law to come and read it. She did 
and was deeply moved. This pleased Gertrude Stein im- 
mensely, she did not believe that any one could read any- 
thing she wrote and be interested. In those days she never 
asked any one what they thought of her work, but were 
they interested enough to read it. Now she says if they can 
bring themselves to read it they will be interested. 

Her elder brother’s wife has always meant a great deal in 
her life but never more than on that afternoon. And then 
it had to be typewritten. Gertrude Stein had at that time a 
wretched little portable typewriter which she never used. 
She always then and for many years later wrote on scraps 
of paper in pencil, copied it into french school note-bodcs 
in ink and Aen often copied it over again in ink. It was 
in connection wkh these various series of scrap of paper 
that her elder brother once ranarked, I do not know 
whether Gertrude has; more genius than the rest of you all, 
tbit I khow nothing dwut, but one thing I have always 
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and throw it away or tear it up, she does not say whether 
she is satisfied or not, she copies it very often but she never 
throws away any piece of paper upon which she has written. 

Gertrude Stein tried to copy Three Lives on the type- 
writer but it was no use, it made her nervous, so Etta Cone 
ramp to the rescue. The Miss Etta Cones as Pablo Picasso 
used to call her and her sister. Etta Cone was a Baltimore 
connection of Gertrude Stein’s and she was spending a win- 
ter in Paris. She was rather lonesome and she was rather 
interested. 

Etta Cone found the Picassos appalling but romantic. She 
was taken there by Gertrude Stein whenever the Picasso 
finances got beyond everybody and was made to buy a 
hundred francs’ worth of drawings. After all a hundred 
francs in those days was twenty dollars. She was quite 
willing to indulge in this romantic charity. Needless to say 
these drawings became in very much later years the nucleus 
of her collection. 

Etta Cone offered to typewrite Three Lives and she began. 
Baltimore is famous for the delicate sensibihties and con- 
scientiousness of its inhabitants. It suddenly occurred to 
Gertrude Stein that she had not told Etta Cone to read the 
manuscript before beginning to typewrite it. She went to 
see her and there indeed was Etta Cone faithfully copying 
the manuscript letter by letter so that she might not by any 
indiscretion become conscious of the meaning. Permission 
to read the text having been given the typewriting went on. 

Spring was coming and the sittings were coming to an 
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head. I can’t see you any longer when I look, he said 
irritably. And so the picture was left like that. 

Nobody remembers being particularly disappointed or 
particularly annoyed at this ending to the long series of 
posings. There was the spring independent and then Ger- 
trude Stein and her brother were going to Italy as was at 
that time their habit. Pablo and Fernande were going to 
Spain, she for the first time, and she had to buy a dress and 
a hat and perfumes and a cooking stove. All french women 
in those days when they went from one country to another 
took along a french oil stove to cook on. Perhaps they still 
do. No matter where they were going this had to be taken 
with them. They always paid a great deal of excess bag- 
gage, all french women who went travelling. And the 
Matisses were back and they had to meet the Picassos and 
to be enthusiastic about each other, but not to like each 
other very well. And in their wake, Derain met Picasso and 
with him came Braque. 

It may seem very strange to every one nowadays that be- 
fore this time Matisse had never heard of Picasso and Picasso 
had never met Matisse. But at that time every little crowd 
lived its own life and knew practically nothing of any other 
crowd. Matisse on the Quai Saint-Michel and in the inde- 
pendant did not know anything of Picasso and Montmartre 
and Sagot. They all, it is true, had been in the very early 
stages bought one after the other by Mademoiselle Weill, 
the bric-a-brac shop in Montmartre, but as she bought 
everybody’s pictures, pictures brought by any one, not neces- 
sarily by the painter, it was not very likely that any painter 
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of any other painter. They were however all very grateful 
to her in later years because after all practically everybody 
who later became famous had sold their first little picture 
to her. 

As I was saying the sittings were over, the vernissage of 
the independent was over and everybody went away. 

It had been a fruitful winter. In the long struggle with 
the portrait of Gertrude Stein, Picasso passed from the Harle- 
quin, the charming early Italian period to the intensive 
struggle which was to end in cubism. Gertrude Stein had 
written the story of Melanctha the negress, the second story 
of Three Lives which was the first definite step away from 
the nineteenth century and into the twentieth century in 
literature. Matisse had painted the Bonheur de Vivre and 
had created the new school of colour which was soon to 
leave its mark on everything. And everybody went away. 
That summer the Matisses came to Italy. Matisse did not 
care about it very much, he preferred France and Morocco 
but Madame Matisse was deeply touched. It was a girlish 
dream fulfilled. She said, I say to myself all the time, I am 
in Italy. And I say it to Henri all the time and he is very 
sweet about it, but he says, what of it. 

The Picassos were in Spain and Femande wrote long let- 
ters describing Spain and the Spaniards and earthquakes. 

In Florence except for the short visit of the Matisses and 
a short visit from Alfy Maurer the summer life was in no 
way related to the Paris life. 

Gertrude Stein and her brother rented for the summer a 
villa on top of the hill at Fiesolc near Florence, and there 
they spent their summers for several years. The year I came 

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to Paris a friend and myself took this villa, Gertrude Stein 
and her brother having taken a larger one on the other side 
of Fiesole, having been joined that year by their elder 
brother, his wife and child. The small one, the Casa Ricci, 
was very delightful. It had been made livable by a Scotch 
woman who born Presbyterian became an ardent Catholic 
and took her old Presbyterian mother from one convent to 
another. Finally they came to rest in Casa Ricci and there 
she made for herself a chapel and there her mother died. 
She then abandoned this for a larger villa which she turned 
into a retreat for retired priests and Gertrude Stein and her 
brother rented the Casa Ricci from her. Gertrude Stein 
delighted in her landlady who looked exactly like a lady-in- 
waiting to Mary Stuart and with aU her trailing black robes 
genuflected before every Catholic symbol and would then 
climb up a precipitous ladder and open a little window in 
the roof to look at the stars. A strange mingling of Catholic 
and Protestant exaltation. 

H^^e the french servant never came down to Fiesole. 
She had by that time married. She cooked for her husband 
during the summer and mended the stockings of Gertrude 
Stein and her brother by putting new feet into them. She 
also made jam. In Italy there was Maddalena quite as im- 
portant in Italy as Helene in Paris, but I doubt if with as 
much appreciation for notabilities. Italy is too accustomed 
to the famous and the children of the famous. It was Edwin 
Dodge who apropos of these said, the lives of great men 
oft rmiind us we should leave no sons behind us. 

Gertrude Stein adored heat and sunshine although she 
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days it was always at noon that she preferred to walk. I, 
who have and had no fondness for a summer sun, often 
accompanied her. Sometimes later in Spain I sat under a 
tree and wept but she in the sun was indefatigable. She 
could even lie in the sun and look straight up into a summer 
noon sun, she said it rested her eyes and head. 

There were amusing people in Florence. There were the 
Berensons and at that time with them Gladys Deacon, a 
well known international beauty, but after a winter of Mont- 
martre Gertrude Stein found her too easily shocked to be 
interesting. Then there were the first russians, von Heiroth 
and his wife, she who afterwards had four husbands and 
once pleasantly remarked that she had always been good 
friends with all her husbands. He Was foolish but attractive 
and told the usual russian stories. Then there were the Thor- 
olds and a great many others. And rnost important there 
was a most excellent english lending library with all sorts 
of strange biographies which were to Gertrude Stein a source 
of endless pleasure. She once told me that when she was 
yoxmg she had read so much, read from the Elizabethans to 
the moderns, that she was terribly uneasy lest some day she 
would be without anythiag to read. For years this fear 
haunted her but in one way and another although she al- 
ways reads and reads she seems always to find more to read. 
Her eldest brother used to complain that although he 
brought up from Florence every day as many books as he 
could carry, there always were just as many to take back. 

It was during this summer that Gertrude Stein began her 
great book. The Making of Americans. 

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It began with an old daily theme that she had written 
when at Radclifle, 

“Once an angry man dragged his father along the ground 
through his own orchard. ‘Stop!’ cried the groaning old man 
at last. ‘Stop! I did not drag my father beyond this tree.’ 

“It is hard living down the tempers we are born with. We 
all begin well. For in our youth there is nothing we are 
more intolerant of than our own sins writ large in others 
and we fight them fiercely in ourselves; but we grow old 
and we see that these our sins are of all sins the really harm- 
less ones to own, nay that they give a charm to any char- 
acter, and so our struggle with them dies away.” And it was 
to be the history of a family. It was a history of a f amil y but 
by the time I came to Paris it was getting to be a history 
of all human beings, all who ever were or are or could be 
living. 

Gertrude Stein in all her life has never been as pleased 
with anything as she is with the translation that Bernard 
Fay and Madame Seilliere are making of this book now. 
She has just been going over it with Bernard Fay and as 
she says, it is wonderful in english and it is even as wonder- 
ful in french. Elliot Paul, when editor of transition once said 
that he was certain that Gertrude Stein could be a best-seller 
in France^It seems very likely that his prediction is to be 
fulfilled. 

But to return to those old days in the Casa Ricci and the 
first beginnings of those long sentences which were to 
change the literary ideas of a great many people. 

Gertrude Stein was working tremendously over the be- 
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Paris under the spell of the thing she was doing. It was at 
this time that working every night she often was caught by 
the dawn coming while she was working. She came back 
to a Paris fairly full of excitement. In the j&rst place she 
came back to her finished portrait. The day he returned 
from Spain Picasso sat down and out of his head painted 
the head in without having seen Gertrude Stein again. And 
when she saw it he and she were content. It is very strange 
but neither can remember at all what the head looked like 
when he painted it out. There is another charming story of 
the portrait. 

Only a few years ago when Gertrude Stein had had her 
hair cut short, she had always up to that time worn it as a 
crown on top of her head as Picasso has painted it, when 
she had had her hair cut, a day or so later she happened to 
come into a room and Picasso was several rooms away. She 
had a hat on but he caught sight of her through two door- 
ways and approaching her quickly called out, Gertrude, 
what is it, what is it. What is what, Pablo, she said. Let me 
see, he said. She let him see. And my portrait, said he sternly. 
Then his face softening he added, mais, quand mSme, tout y 
est, all the same it is all there. 

Matisse was back and there was excitement in the air. 
Derain, and Braque with him, had gone Montmartre. 
Braque was a young painter who had known Marie Lau- 
rencin when they were both art students, and they had then 
painted each other’s portraits. After that Braque had done 
rather geographical pictures, rounded hills and very much 
under the colour influence of Matisse’s independent paint- 
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they had known each other while doing their military serv- 
ice, and now they knew Picasso. It was an exciting moment. 

They began to spend their days up there and they aU 
always ate together at a little restaurant opposite, and Picasso 
was more than ever as Gertrude Stein said the little bull- 
fighter followed by his squadron of four, or as later in her 
portrait of him, she called him, Napoleon followed by his 
four enormous grenadiers. Derain and Braque were great 
big men, so was Guillaume a heavy set man and Salmon was 
not small. Picasso was every inch a chief. 

This brings the story to Salmon and Guillaume Apollin- 
aire, although Gertrude Stein had known these two and 
Marie Laurencin a considerable time before aU this was hap- 
pening. 

Salmon and Guillaume Apollinaire both lived in Mont- 
martre in these days. Salmon was very lithe and alive but 
Gertrude Stein never found him particularly interesting. She 
liked him. Guillaume Apollinaire on the contrary was very 
wonderful. There was just about that time, that is about the 
time when Gertrude Stein first knew Apollinaire, the ex- 
citement of a duel that he was to fight with another writer. 
Fernande and Pablo told about it with so much excitement 
and so much laughter and so much Montmartre slang, this 
was in the early days of their acquaintance, that she was 
always a little vague about just what did happen. But the 
gist of the matter was that Guillaume diallenged the other 
man and Max Jacob was to be the second and witness for 
Guillaume. Guiliaun^ and his antagonist each sat in their 
favourite caf4 ail day and Waited while their ^oonds went 
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except that nobody fought, but the great excitement was the 
bill each second and witness brought to his principal. In 
these was itemised each time they had a cup of coffee and 
of course they had to have a cup of coffee every time they 
sat down at one or other cafe with one or other principal, 
and ag ain when the two seconds sat with each other. There 
was also the question under what circumstances were they 
under the absolute necessity of having a glass of brandy with 
the cup of coffee. And how often would they have had 
coffee if they had not been seconds. All this led to endless 
meetings and endless discussion and endless additional 
items. It lasted for days, perhaps weeks and months and 
whether anybody finally was paid, even the cafe keeper, no- 
body knows. It was notorious that Apollinaire was parted 
with the very greatest difiEculty from even the smallest piece 
of money. It was all very absorbing. 

ApolHnaire was very attractive and very interesting. He 
had a head like one of the late roman emperors. He had a 
brother whom one heard about but never saw. He worked 
in a bank and therefore he was reasonably well dressed. 
When anybody in Montmartre had to go anywhere where 
they had to be conventionally clothed, either to see a rela- 
tion or attend to a business matter, they always wore a piece 
of a suit that belonged to the brother of Guillaume. 

Guillaume was extraordinarily brilliant and no matter 
what subject was started, if he knew anything about it or 
not, he quickly saw the whole meaning of the thing and 
elaborated it by his wit and fancy carrying it further than 
anybody knowing anything about it could have done, and 
oddly enough generally correctly. 

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Once, several years later, we were dining with the Picassos, 
and in a conversation I got the best of Guillaume. I was very 
proud, but, said Eve (Picasso was no longer with Fernande), 
Guillaume was frightfully drunk or it would not have hap- 
pened. It was only under such circumstances that anybody 
could successfully turn a phrase against Guillaume. Poor 
Guillaume. The last time we saw him was after he had 
come back to Paris from the war. He had been badly 
wounded in the head and had had a piece of his skull re- 
moved. He looked very wonderful with his bleu horizon 
and his bandaged head. He lunched with us and we all 
talked a long time together. He was tired and his heavy 
head nodded. He was very serious almost solemn. We went 
away shordy after, we were working with the American 
Fund for French Wounded, and never saw him again. Later 
Olga Picasso, the wife of Picasso, told us that the night of 
the armistice Guillaume Apollinaire died, that they were 
with him that whole evening and it was warm and the win- 
dows were open and the crowd passing were shouting, a bas 
Guillaume, down with William and as every one always 
called Guillaume Apollinaire Guillaume, even in his death 
agony it troubled him. 

He had really been heroic. As a foreigner, his mother was 
a pole, his father possibly an itaHan, it was not at all neces- 
sary that he should volunteer to fight. He was a man of full 
habit, accustomed to a literary life and the delights of the 
table, and in spite of everything he volunteered. He went 
into the artillery first. Every one advised this as it was less 
dangerous and easier than the infantry, but after a while 
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the infantry and was wounded in a charge. He was a long 
time in hospital, recovered a little, it was at this time that 
we saw him, and finally died on the day of the armistice. 

The death of Guillaume Apollinaire at this time made a 
very serious difference to all his friends apart from their 
sorrow at his death. It was the moment just after the war 
when many things had changed and people naturally fell 
apart. Guillaume would have been a bond of union, he 
always had a quality of keeping people together, and now 
that he was gone everybody ceased to be friends. But all that 
was very much later and now to go back again to the begin- 
ning when Gertrude Stein first met Guillaume and Marie 
Laurencin. 

Everybody called Gertrude Stein Gertrude, or at most 
Mademoiselle Gertrude, everybody called Picasso Pablo and 
Fernande Fernande and everybody called Guillaume Apol- 
linaire Guillaume and Max Jacob Max but everybody called 
Marie Laurencin Marie Laurencin. 

The first time Gertrude Stein ever saw Marie Laurencin, 
Guillaume Apollinaire brought her to the rue de Fleurus, 
not on a Saturday evening, but another evening. She was 
very interesting. They were an extraordinary pair. Marie 
Laurencin was terribly near-sighted and of course she never 
wore eye-glasses, no french woman and few frenchmen did 
in those days. She used a lorgnette. 

She looked at each picture carefully that is, every picture 
on the line, bringing her eye close and moving over the 
whole of it with her lorgnette, an inch at a time. The pic- 
tures out of reach she ignored. Finally she remarked, as for 

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myself, I prefer portraits and that is of course quite natural, 
as I myself am a Clouet. And it was perfectly true, she was 
a Clouet. She had the square thin build of the mediaeval 
french women in the french primitives. She spoke in a high 
pitched beautifully modulated voice. She sat down beside 
Gertrude Stein on the couch and she recounted the story of 
her life, told that her mother who had always had it in her 
nature to dislike men had been for many years the mistress 
of an important personage, had borne her, Marie Laurencin. 
I have never, she added, dared let her know Guillaume al- 
though of course he is so sweet that she could not refuse to 
like him but better not. Some day you will see her. 

And later on Gertrude Stein saw the mother and by that 
time I was in Paris and I was taken along. 

Marie Laurencin, leading her strange life and makmg her 
strange art, lived with her mother, who was a very quiet, 
very pleasant, very dignified woman, as if the two were liv- 
ing m a convent. The small apartment was filled with 
needlework which the mother had executed after the de- 
signs of Marie Laurencin. Marie and her mother acted to- 
ward each other exacdy as a yoxmg nun with an older one. 
It was all very strange. Later just before the war the mother 
fell ill and died. Then the mother did see Guillaume Apol- 
linaire and liked him. 

After her mother’s death Marie Laurencin lost all sense of 
stability. She and Guillaume no longer saw each other. A 
relation that had existed as long as the mother lived with- 
out the member’s knowledge now that the mother was dead 
and had seen and liked Guillaume could no longer endure. 
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When her friends remonstrated with her she said, but he is 
the only one who can give me a feeling of my mother. 

Six weeks after the marriage the war came and Marie had 
to leave the country, having been married to a german. As 
she told me later when once during the war we met in 
Spain, naturally the officials could make no trouble for her, 
her passport made it clear that no one knew who her father 
was and they naturally were afraid because perhaps her 
father might be the president of the french republic. 

During these war years Marie was very unhappy. She was 
intensely french and she was technically german. When you 
met her she would say, let me present to you my husband a 
boche, I do not remember his name. The official french 
world in Spain with whom she and her husband occasion- 
ally came in contact made things very unpleasant for her, 
constantly referring to Germany as her country. In the 
meanwhile Guillaume with whom she was in correspond- 
ence wrote her passionately patriotic letters. It was a miser- 
able time for Marie Laurencin. 

Finally Madame Groult, the sister of Poiret, coming to 
Spain, managed to help Marie out of her troubles. She 
finally divorced her husband and after the armistice re- 
turned to Paris, at home once more in the world. It was 
then that she came to the rue de Fleurus again, this time 
with Erik Satie. They were both Normans and so proud 
and happy about it. 

In the early days Marie Laurencin painted a strange pic- 
ture, portraits of Guillaume, Picasso, Fernande and herself, 
Fernande told Gertrude Stein about it. Gertrude Stein 

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bought it and Marie Laurencin was so pleased. It was the 
first picture of hers any one had ever bought. 

It was before Gertrude Stein knew the rue Ravignan that 
Guillaume Apollinaire had his first paid job, he edited a 
little pamphlet about physical culture. And it was for this 
that Picasso made his wonderful caricatures, including one 
of Guillaume as an exemplar of what physical culture 
could do. 

And now once more to return to the return from all their 
travels and to Picasso becoming the head of a movement 
that was later to be known as the cubists. Who called it 
cubist first I do not know but very likely it was ApoUinaire. 
At any rate he wrote the first litde pamphlet about them all 
and illustrated it with their paintings. 

I can so well remember the first time Gertrude Stein took 
me to see Guillaume Apollinaire. It was a tiny bachelor’s 
apartment on the rue des Martyrs. The room was crowded 
with a great many small young gentlemen. Who, I asked 
Fernande, are all these little men. They are poets, answered 
Fernande. I was overcome. I had never seen poets before, 
one poet yes but not poets. It was on that night too that 
Picasso, just a litde drunk and to Femande’s great indigna- 
tion persisted in sitting beside me and finding for me in a 
Spanish album of photographs the exact spot where he was 
born. I came away with rather a vague idea of its situation. 

Derain and Braque became followers of Picasso about six 
months after Picasso had, through Gertrude Stein and her 
brother, met Matisse. Matisse had in the meantime intro- 
duced Picasso to negro sculpture. 

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curio hunters but not to artists. Who first recognised its 
potential value for the modern artist I am sure I do not 
know. Perhaps it was Maillol who came from the Perpignan 
region and knew Matisse in the south and called his atten- 
tion to it. There is a tradition that it was Derain. It is also 
very possible that it was Matisse himself because for many 
years there was a curio-dealer in the rue de Rennes who 
always had a great many things of this kind in his window 
and Matisse often went up the rue de Rennes to go to one 
of the sketch classes. 

In any case it was Matisse who first was influenced, not 
so much in his painting but in his sculpture, by the african 
statues and it was Matisse who drew Picasso’s attention to 
it just after Picasso had finished painting Gertrude Stein’s 
portrait. 

The effect of this african art upon Matisse and Picasso 
was entirely different. Matisse through it was affected more 
in his imagination than in his vision. Picasso more in his 
vision than in his imagination. Strangely enough it is only 
very much later in his life that this influence has affected 
his imagination and that may be through its having been 
re-enforced by the Orientalism of the russians when he came 
in contact with that through Diaghilev and the russian 
ballet. 

In these early days when he created cubism the effect of 
the african art was purely upon his vision and his forms, 
his imagination remained purely Spanish. The Spanish qual- 
ity of ritual and abstraction had been indeed stimulated by 
his painting the portrait of Gertrude Stein. She had a defi- 
nite impulse then and always toward elemental abstraction. 

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She was not at any time interested in african sculpture. She 
always says that she liked it well enough but that it has 
nothing to do with europeans, that it lacks naivety that it 
is very ancient, very narrow, very sophisticated but lacks the 
elegance of the egyptian sculpture from which it is derived. 
She says that as an american she likes primitive things to 
be more savage. 

Matisse and Picasso then being introduced to each other 
by Gertrude Stein and her brother became friends but they 
were enemies. Now they are neither friends nor enemies. 
At that time they were both. 

They exchanged pictures as was the habit in those days. 
Each painter chose the one of the other one that presumably 
interested him the most. Matisse and Picasso chose each one 
of the other one the picture that was undoubtedly the least 
interesting either of them had done. Later each one used 
it as an example, the picture he had chosen, of the weak- 
nesses of the other one. Very evidently in the two pictures 
chosen the strong qualities of each painter were not much 
in evidence. 

The feeling between the Picassoites and the Matisseites be- 
came bitter. And this, you see, brings me to the independent 
where my friend and I sat without being aware of it under 
the two pictures which first publicly showed that Derain 
and Braque had become Picassoites and were definitely not 
Matisseites. 

In the meantime naturally a great many things had hap- 
pened. 

Matisse ^owed in every atmimn salon and every inde- 
pendent He was beginning to have a considerable follow- 

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ing. Picasso, on tlie contrary, never in all his life has shown 
in any salon. His pictures at that time could really only be 
seen at 27 rue de Fleurus. The first time as one might say 
that he had ever shown at a public show was when Derain 
and Braque, completely influenced by his recent work, 
showed theirs. After that he too had many followers. 

Matisse was irritated by the growing friendship between 
Picasso and Gertrude Stein. Mademoiselle Gertrude, he ex- 
plained, likes local colour and theatrical values. It would be 
impossible for any one of her quality to have a serious 
friendship with any one like Picasso. Matisse still came fre- 
quently to the rue de Fleurus but there was no longer any 
frankness of intercourse between them all. It was about this 
time that Gertrude Stein and her brother gave a lunch for 
all the painters whose pictures were on the wall. Of course 
it did not include the dead or the old. It was at this lunch 
that as I have already said Gertrude Stein made them all 
happy and made the lunch a success by seating each painter 
facing his own picture. No one of them noticed it, they were 
just naturally pleased, until just as they were all leaving 
Matisse, standing up with his back to the door and looking 
into the room suddenly realised what had been done. 

Matisse intimated that Gertrude Stein had lost interest in 
his work. She answered him, there is nothing within you 
that fights itself and hitherto you have had the instinct to 
produce antagonism in others which stimulated you to at- 
tack. But now they follow. 

That was the end of the conversation but a beginning of 
an important part of The Making of Americans. Upon this 

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idea Gertrude Stein based some of her most permanent dis- 
tinctions in types of people. 

It was about this time that Matisse began his teaching. 
He now moved from the Quai Saint-Michel, where he had 
lived ever since his marriage, to the boulevard des Invalides. 
In consequence of the separation of church and state which 
had just taken place in France the french government had 
become possessed of a great many convent schools and other 
church property. As many of these convents ceased to exist, 
there were at that time a great many of their buildings 
empty. Among others a very splendid one on the boulevard 
des Invalides. 

These buildings were being rented at very low prices be- 
cause no lease was given, as the government when it de- 
cided how to use them permanently would put the tenants 
out without warning. It was therefore an ideal place for 
artists as there were gardens and big rooms and they could 
put up with the inconveniences of housekeeping under the 
circumstances. So the Matisses moved in and Matisse instead 
of a small room to work in had an immense one and the 
two boys came home and they were all very happy. Then a 
number of those who had become his followers asked him 
if he would teach them if they organised a class for him in 
the same building in which he was then living. He con- 
sented and the Matisse atelier began. 

The applicants were of all nationalities and Matisse was 
at first appalled at the number and variety of them. He told 
with much amusement as well as surprise that when he 
asked a very little woman in the front row, what in par- 
ticular she had in mind in her painting, what she was seek- 

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ing, she repKed, Monsieur je chercLe le neu£. He used to 
wonder how they all managed to learn french when he 
knew none of their languages. Some one got hold of some 
of these facts and made fun of the school in one of the 
french weeklies. This hurt Matisse’s feelings frightfully. The 
article said, and where did these people come from, and it 
was answered, from Massachusetts. Matisse was very im- 
happy. 

But in spite of all this and also in spite of many dissen- 
sions the school flourished. There were difficulties. One of 
the hungarians wanted to earn his living posmg for the class 
and in the intervals when some one else posed go on with 
his painting. There were a number of young women who 
protested, a nude model on a model stand was one thing 
but to have it turn into a fellow student was another. A 
hungarian was found eating the bread for rubbing out 
crayon drawings that the various students left on their paint- 
ing boards and this evidence of extreme poverty and lack of 
hygiene had an awful effect upon the sensibilities of the 
americans. There were quite a number of americans. One of 
these americans under the plea of poverty was receiving his 
tuition for nothing and then was found to have purchased 
for himself a tiny Matisse and a tiny Picasso and a tiny 
Seurat. This was not only unfair, because many of the others 
wanted and could not afford to own a picture by the master 
and they were paying their tuition, but, since he also bought 
a Picasso, it was treason. And then every once in a while 
some one said something to Matisse in such bad french that 
it sounded like something very different from what it was 
and Matisse grew very angry and the unfortunate had to be 

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taught how to apologise properly. All the students were 
working under such a state of tension that explosions were 
frequent. One would accuse another of undue influence with 
the master and then there were long and complicated scenes 
in which usually some one had to apologise. It was all very 
diflGicult since they themselves organised themselves. 

Gertrude Stein enjoyed all these complications immensely. 
Matisse was a good gossip and so was she and at this time 
they delighted in telling tales to each other. 

She began at that time always calling Matisse the C.M. or 
cher maitre. She told him the favourite Western story, pray 
gentlemen, let there be no bloodshed. Matisse came not un- 
frequently to the rue de Fleurus. It was indeed at this time 
that Helene prepared him the fried eggs instead of an 
omelet. 

Three Lives had been typewritten and now the next thing 
was to show it to a publisher. Some one gave Gertrude Stein 
the name of an agent in New York and she tried that. Noth- 
ing came of it. Then she tried publishers directly. The only 
one at all interested was Bobbs-Merrill and they said they 
could not undertake it. This attempt to find a publisher 
lasted some time and then without being really discouraged 
she decided to have it printed. It was not an unnatural 
thought as people in Paris often did this. Some one told 
her about the Grafton Press in New York, a respectable firm 
that printed special historical things that people wanted to 
have printed. The arrangements were concluded, Hiree 
Lives was to be printed and the proofs to be sent. 

One day some one knocked at the door and a very nice 
very american young itian asked if he might speak to Miss 

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Stein. She said, yes come in. He said, I have come at the re- 
quest o£ the Grafton Press. Yes, she said. You see, he said 
slighdy hesitant, the director of the Grafton Press is under 
the impression that perhaps your knowledge of english. But 
I am an american, said Gertrude Stein indignantly. Yes yes 
I understand that perfectly now, he said, but perhaps you 
have not had much experience in writing. I suppose, said 
she laughing, you were under the impression that I was im- 
perfectly educated. He blushed, why no, he said, but you 
might not have had much experience in writing. Oh yes, 
she said, oh yes. Well it’s alright. I will write to the director 
and you might as well tell him also that everything that is 
written in the manuscript is written with the intention of 
its being so written and all he has to do is to print it and 
I will take the responsibility. The young man bowed him- 
self out. 

Later when the book was noticed by interested writers 
and newspaper men the director of the Grafton Press wrote 
Gertrude Stein a very simple letter in which he admitted 
he had been surprised at the notice the book had received 
but wished to add that now that he had seen the result he 
wished to say that he was very pleased that his firm had 
printed the book. But this last was after I came to Paris. 


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Before She Came to Paris 


O NCE more I have come to Paris and now I am one 
of the habitues of the rue de Fleurus. Gertrude 
Stein was writing The Making of Americans and 
she had just commenced correcting the proofs of Three 
Lives, I helped her correct them. 

Gertrude Stein was bom in Allegheny, Pennsylvania. As 
I am an ardent Californian and as she spent her youth there 
I have often begged her to be born in California but she has 
always remained firmly bom in Allegheny, Pennsylvania. 
She left it when she was six months old and has never seen 
it again and now it no longer exists being all of it Pitts- 
burgh. She used however to delight in being bom in Alle- 
gheny, Pennsylvania when during the war, in connection 
with war work, we used to have papers made out and they 
always imm ediately wanted to know one’s birth-place. She 
used to say if she had been really bom in California as I 
wanted her to have been she would never have had the pleas- 
ure of seeing the various french officials try to write, Alle- 
gheny, Pennsylvania. 

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never to see a frencli book on her table, although there were 
always plenty of english ones, there were even no french 
newspapers. But do you never read french, I as well as many 
other people asked her. No, she replied, you see I feel with 
my eyes and it does not make any difference to me what 
language I hear, I don’t hear a language, I hear tones of 
voice and rhythms, but with my eyes I see words and sen- 
tences and there is for me only one language and that is 
english. One of the things that I have liked all these years 
is to be surrounded by people who know no english. It has 
left me more intensely alone with my eyes and my english. 
I do not know if it would have been possible to have english 
be so all in all to me otherwise. And they none of them 
could read a word I wrote, most of them did not even know 
that I did write. No, I like hving with so very many people 
and being all alone with english and myself. 

One of her chapters in The Making of Americans begins: 
I write for myself and strangers. 

She was bom in Allegheny, Pennsylvania, of a very re- 
spectable middle class family. She always says that she is 
very grateful not to have been born of an intellectual family, 
she has a horror of what she calls intellectual people. It has 
always been rather ridiculous that she who is good friends 
with all the world and can know them and they can know 
her, has always been the admired of the precious. But she 
always says some day they, anybody, will find out that she 
is of interest to them, she and her writing. And she always 
consoles herself that the newspapers are always interested. 
They always say, she says, that my writing is appalling but 
they always quote it and what is more, they quote it cor- 

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rectly, and those they say they admire they do not quote. 
This at some of her most bitter moments has been a con- 
solation. My sentences do get under their skin, only they 
do not know that they do, she has often said. 

She was bom in Allegheny, Pennsylvania, in a house, a 
twin house. Her family lived in one and her father’s 
brother’s family lived in the other one. These two families 
are the families described in The Making of Americans. 
They had lived in these houses for about eight years when 
Gertrude Stein was born. A year before her birth, the two 
sisters-in-law who had never gotten along any too well were 
no longer on speaking terms. 

Gertrude Stein’s mother as she describes her in The Mak- 
ing of Americans, a gentle pleasant little woman with a 
quick temper, flatly refused to see her sister-in-law again. I 
don’t know quite what had happened but some thin g. At 
any rate the two brothers who had been very successful 
business partners broke up their partnership, the one brother 
went to New York where he and all his family after him 
became very rich and the other brother, Gertrude Stein’s 
family, went to Europe. They first went to Vienna and 
stayed there until Gertrude Stein was about three years old. 
AU she remembers of this is that her brother’s tutor once, 
when she was allowed to sit with her brothers at their les- 
sons, described a tiger’s snarl and that that pleased and ter- 
rified her. Also that in a picture-hook that one of her 
brothers used to show her there was a story of the wander- 
ings of Ulysses who when sitting sat on bent-wood dining 
room chairs. Also she remembers that they used to play in 
the pubhc gardais and that often the old Kaiser Francis 

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Joseph used to stroll through the gardens and sometimes a 
band played the austrian national hymn which she liked. 
She believed for many years that Kaiser was the real name 
of Francis Joseph and she never could come to accept the 
name as belonging to anybody else. 

They lived in Vienna for three years, the father having 
in the meanwhile gone back to America on business and 
then they moved to Paris, Here Gertrude Stein has more 
lively memories. She remembers a little school where she 
and her elder sister stayed and where there was a little girl 
in the corner of the school yard and the other little girls told 
her not to go near her, she scratched. She also remembers 
the bowl of soup with french bread for breakfast and she 
also remembers that they had mutton and spinach for lunch 
and as she was very fond of spinach and not fond of mutton 
she used to trade mutton for spinach with the little girl 
opposite. She also remembers all her three older brothers 
coming to see them at the school and coming on horse-back. 
She also remembers a black cat jumping from the ceiling of 
their house at Passy and scaring her mother and some un- 
known person rescuing her. 

The family remained in Paris a year and then they came 
back to America. Gertrude Stein’s elder brother charmingly 
describes the last days when he and his mother went shop- 
ping and bought everything that pleased their fancy, seal 
skin coats and caps and muffs for the whole family from the 
mother to the small sister Gertrude Stem, gloves dozens of 
gloves, wonderful hats, riding costumes, and finally ending 
up with a microscope and a whole set of the famous french 
history of zoology. Then they sailed for America. 

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GERTRUDE STEIN BEFORE SHE CAME TO PARIS 

This visit to Paris made a very great impression upon Ger- 
trude Stein. When in the beginning of the war, she and I 
having been in England and there having been caught by 
the outbreak of the war and so not returning until October, 
were back in Paris, the first day we went out Gertrude Stein 
said, it is strange, Paris is so different but so familiar. And 
then reflectively, I see what it is, there is nobody here but the 
french (there were no soldiers or allies there yet), you can 
see the little children in their black aprons, you can see the 
streets because there is nobody on them, it is just like my 
memory of Paris when I was three years old. The pavements 
smell like they used (horses had come back into use), the 
smell of french streets and french public gardens that I re- 
member so well. 

They went back to America and in New York, the New 
York family tried to reconcile Gertrude Stein’s mother to 
her sister-in-law but she was obdurate. 

This story reminds me of Miss Etta Cone, a distant con- 
nection of Gertrude Stem, who typed Three Lives. When 
I first met her in Florence she confided to me that she could 
forgive but never forget. I added that as for myself I could 
forget but not forgive. Gertrude Stein’s mother in this case 
was evidently unable to do either. 

The family went west to California after a short stay in 
Baltimore at the home of her grandfather, the religious old 
man she describes in The Making of Americans, who lived 
in an old house in Baltimore with a large number of those 
cheerful pleasant little people, her uncles and her aunts. 

Gertrude Stein has never ceased to be thankful to her 
mother for neither forgetting or forgiving. Imagine, she has 

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said to me, if my mother had forgiven her sister-in-law and 
my father had gone into business with my uncle and we 
had lived and been brought up in New York, imagine, she 
says, how horrible. We would have been rich instead of 
being reasonably poor but imagine how horrible to have 
been brought up in New York. 

I as a Californian -can very thoroughly sympathise. 

And so they took the train to California. The only thing 
Gertrude Stein remembers of this trip was that she and her 
sister had beautiful big austrian red felt hats trimmed each 
with a beautiful ostrich feather and at some stage of the 
trip her sister leaning out of the window had her hat blown 
off. Her father rang the emergency bell, stopped the train, 
got the hat to the awe and astonishment of the passengers 
and the conductor. The only other thing she remembers is 
that they had a wonderful hamper of food given them by 
the aunts in Baltimore and that in it was a marvellous tur- 
key. And that later as the food in it diminished it was re- 
newed all along the road whenever they stopped and that 
that was always exciting. And also that somewhere in the 
desert they saw some red indians and that somewhere else 
in the desert they were given some very funny tasting 
peaches to eat. 

When they arrived in California they went to an orange 
grove but she does not remember any oranges but remem- 
bers filling up her father’s cigar boxes with little lipies which 
were very wonderful. 

They came by slow stages to San Francisco and settled 
down in Oakland. She remembers there the eucalyptus trees 
seeming to her so tall and thin and savage and the animal 

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life very wild. But all this and much more, all the physical 
life of these days, she has described in the life of the Hers- 
land family in her Making of Americans. The important 
thing to tell about now is her education. 

Her father having taken his children to Europe so that 
they might have the benefit of a european education now 
insisted that they should forget their french and german so 
that their american english would be pure. Gertrude Stein 
had prattled in german and then in french but she had never 
read until she read english. As she says eyes to her were 
more important than ears and it happened then as always 
that english was her only language. 

Her bookish life commenced at this time. She read any- 
thing that was printed that came her way and a great deal 
came her way. In the house were a few stray novels, a few 
travel books, her mother’s well bound gift books Words- 
worth Scott and other poets, Bimyan’s Pilgrim’s Progress a 
set of Shakespeare with notes, Burns, Congressional Records 
encyclopedias etcetera. She read them all and many times. 
She and her brothers began to acquire other books. There 
was also the local free library and later in San Francisco 
there were the mercantile and mechanics libraries with their 
excellent sets of eighteenth century and nineteenth century 
authors. From her eighth year when she absorbed Shake- 
speare to her fifteenth year when she read Clarissa Har- 
lowe, Fidding, Smollett etceta-a and used to worry lest in 
a few years more she would have read everything and there 
would be no thing unread to read, she lived continuously 
with the english language. She read a tremendous amount 
of hi^<^, she often Jau^hs and says she is one of the few 

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people of her generation that has read every line of Carlyle’s 
Frederick the Great and Lecky’s Constitutional History of 
England besides Charles Grandison and Wordsworth’s 
longer poems. In fact she was as she still is always reading. 
She reads anything and everything and even now hates to 
be disturbed and above all however often she has read a 
book and however foolish the book may be no one must 
make fun of it or tell her how it goes on. It is still as it 
always was real to her. 

The theatre she has always cared for less. She says it goes 
too fast, the mixture of eye and ear bothers her and her 
emotion never keeps pace. Music she only cared for during 
her adolescence. She finds it difficult to listen to it, it does 
not hold her attention. All of which of course may seem 
strange because it has been so often said that the appeal of 
her work is to the ear and to the subconscious. Actually it 
is her eyes and mind that are active and important and con- 
cerned in choosing. 

Life in California came to its end when Gertrude Stein 
was about seventeen years old. The last few years had been 
lonesome ones and had been passed in an agony of adoles- 
cence. After the death of first her mother and then her 
father she and her sister and one brother left California for 
the East. They came to Baltimore and stayed with her 
mother’s people. There she began to lose her lonesomeness. 
She has often described to me how strange it was to her 
coming from the rather desperate inner life that she had 
been living for the last few years to the cheerful life of all 
her aunts and uncles. When later she went to Radcliffe she 
described this experience in the first thing she ever wrote. 

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Not quite the first thing she ever wrote. She remembers hav- 
ing written twice before. Once when she was about eight and 
she tried to write a Shakespearean drama in which she got 
as far as a stage direction, the courtiers make witty remarks. 
And then as she could not think of any witty remarks gave 
it up. 

The only other effort she can remember must have been 
at about the same age. They asked the children in the public 
schools to write a description. Her recollection is that she 
described a sunset with the sun going into a cave of clouds. 
Anyway it was one of the half dozen in the school chosen 
to be copied out on beautiful parchment paper. After she 
had tried to copy it twice and the writing became worse 
and worse she was reduced to letting some one else copy it 
for her. This, her teacher considered a disgrace. She does 
not remember that she herself did. 

As a matter of fact her handwriting has always been 
illegible and I am very often able to read it when she is not. 

She has never been able or had any desire to indulge in 
any of the arts. She never knows how a thing is going to 
look until it is done, in arranging a room, a garden, clothes 
or anything else. She cannot draw anything. She feels no 
relation between the object and the piece of paper. When 
at the medical school, she was supposed to draw anatomical 
things she never found out in sketching how a thin g was 
made concave or convex. She remembers when she was very 
small she was to learn to draw and was sent to a class. The 
children were told to take a cup and saucer at home and 
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Stamped leather medal and the next week the same medal 
would again be given for the best drawing. Gertrude Stein 
went home, told her brothers and they put a pretty cup and 
saucer before her and each one explained to her how to 
draw it. Nothing happened. Finally one of them drew it for 
her. She took it to the class and won the leather medal. And 
on the way home ia playing some game she lost the leather 
medal. That was the end of the drawing class. 

She says it is a good thing to have no sense of how it is 
done in the things that amuse you. You should have one 
absorbing occupation and as for the other things in life for 
full enjoyment you should only contemplate results. In this 
way you are bound to feel more about it than those who 
know a little of how it is done. 

She is passionately addicted to what the french call metier 
and she contends that one can only have one metier as one 
can only have one language. Her metier is writing and her 
language is english. 

Observation and construction make imagination, that is 
granting the possession of imagination, is what she has 
taught many young writers. Once when Hemingway wrote 
in one of his stories that Gertrude Stein always knew what 
was good in a Cezanne, she looked at him and said, Hem- 
ingway, remarks are not literature. 

The young often when they have learnt all they can learn 
accuse her of an inordinate pride. She says yes of course. 
She realises that in english literature in her time she is the 
only one. She has always known it and now she says it. 

She understands very well the basis of creation and there- 
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How often I have heard Picasso say to her when she has said 
something about a picture of his and then illustrated by 
something she was trying to do, racontez-moi cela. In other 
words tell me about it. These two even to-day have long 
solitary conversations. They sit in two little low chairs up 
in his apartment studio, knee to knee and Picasso says, 
expliquez-moi cela- And they explain to each other. They 
talk about everything, about pictures, about dogs, about 
death, about unhappiness. Because Picasso is a Sp aniar d and 
life is tragic and bitter and. unhappy. Gertrude Stein often 
comes down to me and says, Pablo has been persuading me 
that I am as unhappy as he is. He insists that I am and with 
as much cause. But are you, I ask. Well I don’t think I look 
it, do I, and she laughs. He says, she says, that I don’t look 
it because I have more courage, but I don’t think I am, she 
says, no I don’t think I am. 

And so Gertrude Stein having been in Baltimore for a 
winter and having become more humanised and less adoles- 
cent and less lonesome went to Radcliffe. There she had a 
very good time. 

She was one of a group of Harvard men and Radcliffe 
women and they all lived very closely and very interestingly 
together. One of them, a young philosopher and mathe- 
matician who was doing research work in psychology left 
a definite mark on her life. She and he together worked out 
a series of experiments in automatic writing under the direc- 
tion of Mimsterberg. The result of her own experiments, 
which Gertrude Stein wrote down and which was printed 
in die Harvard Psydhidc^cal Review was the first writing 
(rf hm ever to be pimed. It is very interesting to read be- 

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cause the method of writing to be afterwards developed in 
Three Lives and Making of Americans already shows itself. 

The important person in Gertrude Stein’s Radcliffe life 
was William James. She enjoyed her life and herself. She 
was the secretary of the philosophical club and amused 
herself with all sorts of people. She liked making sport of 
question asking and she liked equally answering them. She 
liked it all. But the really lasting impression of her Radcliffe 
life came through William James. 

It is rather strange that she was not then at all interested 
in the work of Henry James for whom she now has a very 
great admiration and whom she considers quite definitely 
as her forerunner, he being the only nineteenth century 
writer who being an american felt the method of the twen- 
tieth century. Gertrude Stein always speaks of America as 
being now the oldest country in the world because by the 
methods of the civil war and the commercial conceptions 
that followed it America created the twentieth century, and 
since all the other countries are now either living or com- 
mencing to be Hving a twentieth century life, America hav- 
ing begun the creation of the twentieth century in the sixties 
of the nineteenth century is now the oldest country in the 
world. 

In the same way she contends that Henry James was the 
first person in literature to find the way to the literary 
methods of the twentieth century. But oddly enough in all 
of her formative period she did not read him and was not 
interested in him. But as she often says one is always nat- 
urally antagonistic to one’s parents and sympathetic to one’s 
grandparents. The parents are too close, they hamper you, 

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one must be alone. So perhaps that is the reason why only 
very lately Gertrude Stein reads Henry James. 

William James delighted her. His personality and his 
teaching and his way of amusing himself with himself and 
his students all pleased her. Keep your mind open, he used 
to say, and when some one objected, but Professor James, 
this that I say, is true. Yes, said James, it is abjectly true. 

Gertrude Stein never had subconscious reactions, nor was 
she a successful subject for automatic writing. One of the 
students in the psychological seminar of which Gertrude 
Stein, although an undergraduate was at William James’ 
particular request a member, was carrying on a series of 
experiments on suggestions to the subconscious. When he 
read his paper upon the result of his experiments, he began 
by explaining that one of the subjects gave absolutely no 
results and as this much lowered the average and made the 
conclusion of his experiments false he wished to be allowed 
to cut this record out. Whose record is it, said James. Miss 
Stein’s, said the student. Ah, said James, if Miss Stein gave 
no response I should say that it was as normal not to give 
a response as to give one and decidedly the result must not 
be cut out. 

It was a very lovely spring day, Gertrude Stein had been 
going to the opera every night and going also to the opera 
in the afternoon and had been otherwise engrossed and it 
was the period of the final examinations, and there was the 
examination in William James’ course. She sat down with 
the examination paper before her and she just could not. 
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am SO sorry but really I do not feel a bit like an examina- 
tion paper in philosophy to-day, and left. 

The next day she had a postal card from William James 
saying. Dear Miss Stein, I understand perfectly how you 
feel I often feel like that .myself. And underneath it he gave 
her work the highest mark in his course. 

When Gertrude Stein was finishing her last year at Rad- 
cliffe, William James one day asked her what she was going 
to do. She said she had no idea. Well, he said, it should be 
either philosophy or psychology. Now for philosophy you 
have to have higher mathematics and I don’t gather that 
that has ever interested you. Now for psychology you must 
have a medical education, a medical education opens all 
doors, as Oliver Wendell Holmes told me and as I tell you. 
Gertrude Stein had been interested in both biology and 
chemistry and so medical school presented no difficulties. 

There were no difficulties except that Gertrude Stein had 
never passed more than half of her entrance examinations 
for Radclifie, having never intended to take a degree. How- 
ever with considerable struggle and enough tutoring that 
was accomplished and Gertrude Stein entered Johns Hop- 
kins Medical School. 

Some years after when Gertrude Stein and her brother 
were just beginning knowing Matisse and Picasso, William 
James came to Paris and they met. She went to see him at 
his hotel. He was enormously interested in what she was 
doing, interested in her writing and in the pictures she told 
him about. He went with her to her house to see them. 
He looked and gasped, I told you, he said, I always told 
you that you should keep your mind open. 

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Only about two years ago a very strange thing happened. 
Gertrude Stein received a letter from a man in Boston. It 
was evident from the letter head that he was one of a firm 
of lawyers. He said in his letter that he had not long ago 
in reading in the Harvard library found that the library of 
William James had been given as a gift to the Harvard 
library. Among these books was the copy of Three Lives 
that Gertrude Stein had dedicated and sent to James. Also 
on the margins of the book were notes that William James 
had evidently made when reading the book. The man then 
went on to say that very likely Gertrude Stein would be 
very interested in these notes and he proposed, if she wished, 
to copy them out for her as he had appropriated the book, 
in other words taken it and considered it as his. We were 
very puzzled what to do about it. Finally a note was written 
saying that Gertrude Stein would like to have a copy of 
William James’ notes. In answer came a manuscript the 
man himself had written and of which he wished Gertrude 
Stein to give him an opinion. Not knowing what to do 
about it all, Gertrude Stein did nothing. 

After having passed her entrance examinations she settled 
down in Baltimore and went to the medical school. She had 
a servant named Lena and it is her story that Gertrude Stein 
afterwards wrote as the first story of the Three Lives. 

The first two years of the medical school were alright. 
They were purely laboratory work and Gertrude Stein under 
Llewelys Barker imme diately betook herself to research 
work. She began a study of all the brain tracts, the begin- 
ning of a comparative study. All diis was later embodied 
in Lfewdys Barker’s book. She de%hte(i in Doctor Mall, 

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professor of anatomy, who directed her work. She always 
quotes his answer to any student excusing him or herself 
for anything. He would look reflective and say, yes that is 
just like our cook. There is always a reason. She never brings 
the food to the table hot. In summer of course she can’t be- 
cause it is too hot, in winter of course she can’t because it 
is too cold, yes there is always a reason. Doctor Mall believed 
in everybody developing their own technique. He also re- 
marked, nobody teaches anybody anything, at first every stu- 
dent’s scalpel is dull and then later every student’s scalpel is 
sharp, and nobody has taught anybody anything. 

These first two years at the medical school Gertrude Stein 
liked well enough. She always liked knowing a lot of people 
and being mixed up in a lot of stories and she was not aw- 
fully interested but she was not too bored with what she was 
doing and besides she had quantities of pleasant relatives in 
Baltimore and she liked it. The last two years at the medical 
school she was bored, frankly openly bored. There was a 
good deal of intrigue and struggle among the students, that 
she liked, but the practice and theory of medicine did not 
interest her at all. It was fairly well known among all her 
teachers that she was bored, but as her first two years of 
scientific work had given her a reputation, everybody gave 
her the necessary credits and the end of her last year was 
approaching. It was then that she had to take her turn in 
the delivering of babies and it was at that time that she 
noticed the negroes and the places that she afterwards used 
in the second of the Three Lives stories, Melanctha Herbert, 
the story that was the beginning of her revolutionary work. 

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and once started keeps going until she starts somewhere 
else. 

As the graduation examinations drew near some of her 
professors were getting angry. The big men like Halstead, 
Osier etcetera knowing her reputation for original scientific 
work made the medical examinations merely a matter of 
form and passed her. But there were others who were not so 
amiable. Gertrude Stein always laughed, and this was difiE- 
cult. They would ask her questions although as she said to 
her friends, it was foolish of them to ask her, when there 
were so many eager and anxious to answer. However they 
did question her from time to time and as she said, what 
could she do, she did not know the answers and they did 
not believe that she did not know them, they thought that 
she did not answer because she did not consider the pro- 
fessors worth answering- It was a diflEcult situation, as she 
said, it was impossible to apologise and explain to them that 
she was so bored she could not remember the things that 
of course the dullest medical student could not forget. One 
of the professors said that although all the big men were 
ready to pass her he intended that she should be given a 
lesson and he refused to give her a pass mark and so she was 
not able to take her degree. There was great excitement in 
the medical school. Her very close friend Marion Walker 
pleaded with her, she said, but Gertrude Gertrude remem- 
ber the cause of women, and Gertrude Stein said, you don’t 
know what it is to be bored. 

The professor who had flunked her asked her to come to 
see him. She did. He said, of course Miss Stein all you have 
to do is to take a summer course here and in the fall nat- 


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urally you will take your degree. But not at all, said Ger- 
trude Stein, you kave no idea how grateful I am to you. I 
have so much inertia and so little iuitiative that very pos- 
sibly if you had not kept me from taking my degree I would 
have, well, not taken to the practice of medicine, but at any 
rate to pathological psychology and you don’t know how 
little I like pathological psychology, and how all medicine 
bores me. The professor was completely taken aback and 
that was the end of the medical education of Gertrude Stein. 

She always says she dislikes the abnormal, it is so obvious. 
She says the normal is so much more simply complicated 
and interesting. 

It was only a few years ago that Marion Walker, Gertrude 
Stein’s old friend, came to see her at BUignin where we 
spend the summer. She and Gertrude Stein had not met 
since those old days nor had they corresponded but they 
were as fond of each other and disagreed as violently about 
the cause of women as they did then. Not, as Gertrude Stein 
explained to Marion Walker, that she at all minds the cause 
of women or any other cause but it does not happen to be 
her business. 

During these years at Radcliffe and Johns Hopkins she 
often spent the summers in Europe. The last couple of years 
her brother had been settled in Florence and now that every- 
thing medical was over she joined him there and later they 
settled down in London for the winter. 

They settled in lodgings in London and were not uncom- 
fortable. They knew a number of people through the Beren- 
sons, Bertrand Russell, the Zangwills, then there was Wil- 
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who knew all about London pubs, but Gertrude Stein was 
not very much amused. She began spending all her days in 
the British Museum reading the Elizabethans. She returned 
to her early love of Shakespeare and the Elizabethans, and 
became absorbed in Elizabethan prose and particularly in 
the prose of Greene. She had little note-books full of phrases 
that pleased her as they had pleased her when she was a 
child. The rest of the time she wandered about the London 
streets and found them infinitely depressing and dismal. She 
never really got over this memory of London and never 
wanted to go back there, but in runeteen hundred and 
twelve she went over to see John Lane, the publisher and 
then living a very pleasant life and visiting very gay and 
pleasant people she forgot the old memory and became very 
fond of London. 

She always said that that first visit had made London 
just like Dickens and Dickens had always frightened her. 
As she says anything can frighten her and London when it 
was Kke Dickens certainly did. 

There were some compensations, there was the prose of 
Greene and it was at this time that she discovered the novels 
of Anthony Trollope, for her the greatest of the Victorians. 
She then got togeliher the complete collection o£ his work 
some of it difficult to get and only obtainable in Tauchnitz 
and it is of this collection that Rcbert Coates q)eaks when 
he tells about Gertrude Stein lending books to young writers. 
She also bought a quantity of eigjiteenth century memoirs 
among them the Creevy papers and Widpole and it is these 
that she loaned to Bravig Imbs when he wrcNie what she be- 
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but she is not fussy about them, she cares about neither edi- 
tions nor make-up as long as the print is not too bad and she 
is not even very much bothered about that. It was at this 
time too that, as she says, she ceased to be worried about 
there being in the future nothing to read, she said she felt 
that she would always somehow be able to find something. 

But the dismalness of London and the drunken women 
and children and the gloom and the lonesomeness brought 
back all the melancholy of her adolescence and one day she 
said she was leaving for America and she left. She stayed in 
America the rest of the winter. In. the meantime her brother 
also had left London and gone to Paris and there later she 
joined him. She immediately began to write. She wrote a 
short novel. 

The funny thing about this short novel is that she com- 
pletely forgot about it for many years. She remembered 
herself beginning a little later writing the Three Lives but 
this first piece of writing was completely forgotten, she had 
never mentioned it to me, even when I first knew her. She 
must have forgotten about it almost immediately. This 
spring just two days before our leaving for the country she 
was looking for some manuscript of The Making of Ameri- 
cans that she wanted to show Bernard Fay and she came 
across these two carefully written volumes of this completely 
forgotten first novel. She was very bashful and hesitant 
about it, did not really want to read it. Louis Bromfield 
was at the house that evening and she handed him the 
manuscript and said to him, you read it. 


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A ND SO life in Paris began and as all roads lead to Paris, 
/\ all of us are now there, and I can begin to tell what 
X JL happened when I was of it. 

When I first came to Paris a friend and myself stayed in 
a little hotel in the boulevard Saint-Michel, then we took a 
small apartment in the rue Notre-Dame-des-Champs and 
then my friend went back to California and I joined Ger- 
trude Stein in the rue de Fleurus. 

I had been at the rue de Fleurus every Saturday evening 
and I was there a great deal beside. I helped Gertrude Stein 
with the proofs of Three Lives and then I began to type- 
write The Making of Americans. The little badly made 
french portable was not strong enough to type this big book 
and so we bought a large and imposing Smith Premier 
which at first looked very much out of place in the atelier 
but soon we were all used to it and it remained until I had 
an american portable, in short until after the war. 

As I said Fernande was the first wife of a genius I was to 
sit with. The geniuses came and talked to Gertrude Stein 
and the wives sat with toe. How they unroll, an endless 
vista through the years. I began with Fernande and then 
there were Madame Matisse and Marcelle Braque and Josette 

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Gris and Eve Picasso and Bridget Gibb and Marjory Gibb 
and Hadley and Pauline Hemingway and Mrs. Sherwood 
Anderson and Mrs, Bravig Imbs and the Mrs. Ford Madox 
Ford and endless others, geniuses, near geniuses and might 
be geniuses, all having wives, and I have sat and talked with 
them all all the wives and later on, well later on too, I have 
sat and talked with all. But I began with Fernande. 

I went too to the Casa Ricci in Fiesole with Gertrude Stein 
and her brother. How well I remember the first summer I 
stayed with them. We did charming things. Gertrude Stein 
and I took a Fiesole cab, I think it was the only one and 
drove in this old cab all the way to Siena. Gertrude Stein 
had once walked it with a friend but in those hot italian 
days I preferred a cab. It was a charming trip. Then an- 
other time we went to Rome and we brought back a beau- 
tiful black renaissance plate. Maddalena, the old italian cook, 
came up to Gertrude Stein’s bedroom one morning to bring 
the water for her bath. Gertrude Stein had the hiccoughs. 
But caimot the signora stop it, said Maddalena anxiously. 
No, said Gertrude Stein between hiccoughs, Maddalena 
shaking her head sadly went away. In a minute there was 
an awful crash. Up flew Maddalena, oh signora, signora, 
she said, I was so upset because the signora had the hic- 
coughs that I broke the black plate that the signora so care- 
fully brought from Rome. Gertrude Stein began to swear, 
she has a reprehensible habit of swearing whenever any- 
thing unexpected happens and she always tells me she 
learned it in her youth in California, and as I am a loyal 
Californian I can then say nothing. She swore and the hic- 
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Ah the signorina, she said, she has stopped hiccoughing. Oh 
no I did not break the beautiful plate, I just made the noise 
of it and then said I did it to make the signorina stop hic- 
coughing. 

Gertrude Stein is awfully patient over the breaking of 
even her most cherished objects, it is I, I am sorry to say who 
usually break them. Neither she nor the servant nor the dog 
do, but then the servant never touches them, it is I who 
dust them and alas sometimes accidentally break them. I 
always beg her to promise to let me have them mended by 
an expert before I tell her which it is that is broken, she 
always replies she gets no pleasure out of them if they are 
mended but alright have it mended and it is mended and 
it gets put away. She loves objects that are breakable, cheap 
objects and valuable objects, a chicken out of a grocery shop 
or a pigeon out of a fair, one just broke this morning, this 
time it was not I who did it, she loves them all and she re- 
members them all but she knows that sooner or later they 
will break and she says that like books there are always 
more to find. However to me this is no consolation. She 
says she likes what she has and she likes the adventure of 
a new one. That is what she always says about young 
painters, about anything, once everybody knows they are 
good the adventure is over. And adds Picasso with a si^, 
even after everybody knows they are good not any more 
people really like them than they did when caily the few 
knew they were good. 

I did have to take one hot walk that summer. Gertrude 
Stein insisted that no one could go to Assisi except on foot. 
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Theresa of Avila and Saint Francis. I alas have only one 
favourite saint, Saint Anthony of Padua because it is he 
who finds lost objects and as Gertrude Stein’s elder brother 
once said of me, if I were a general I would never lose a 
battle, I would only mislay it. Saint Anthony helps me find 
it. I always put a considerable sum in his box in every church 
I visit. At first Gertrude Stein objected to this extravagance 
but now she realises its necessity and if I am not with her 
she remembers Saint Anthony for me. 

It was a very hot itahan day and we started as usual about 
noon, that being Gertrude Stein’s favourite walking hour, 
because it was hottest and beside presumably Saint Francis 
had walked it then the oftenest as he had walked it at all 
hours. We started from Perugia across the hot valley. I grad- 
ually undressed, in those days one wore many more clothes 
than one does now, I even, which was most unconventional 
in those days, took off my stockings, but even so I dropped 
a few tears before we arrived and we did arrive. Gertrude 
Stein was very fond of Assisi for two reasons, because of 
Saint Francis and the beauty of his city and because the old 
women used to lead instead of a goat a Httle pig up and 
dovra the hills of Assisi. The little black pig was always 
decorated with a red ribbon. Gertrude Stein had always 
liked little pigs and she always said that in her old age she 
expected to wander up and down the hills of Assisi with 
a little black pig. She now wanders about the hills of the 
Ain with a large white dog and a small black one, so I sup- 
pose that does as well. 

She was always fond of pigs, and because of this Picasso- 
made and gave her some charming drawings of the prodigal 

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son among the pigs. And one delightful study of pigs all by 
themselves. It was about this time too that he made for her 
the tiniest of ceiling decorations on a tiny wooden panel and 
it was an hommage a Gertrude with women and angels 
bringing fruits and trumpeting. For years she had this 
tacked to the ceiling over her bed. It was only after the war 
that it was put upon the wall. 

But to return to the beginning of my life in Paris. It was 
based upon the rue de Fleurus and the Saturday evenings 
and it was like a kaleidoscope slowly turning. 

What happened in those early years. A great deal hap- 
pened. 

As I said when I became an habitual visitor at the rue de 
Fleurus the Picassos were once more together, Pablo and 
Fernande. That summer they went again to Spain and he 
came back with some Spanish landscapes and one may say 
that these landscapes, two of them stiU at the rue de Fleurus 
and the other one in Moscow in the collection that Stchou- 
kine founded and that is now national property, were the 
beg innin g of cubism. In these there was no african sculpture 
influence. There was very evidently a strong Cezanne influ- 
ence, particularly the influence of the late Cfeanne water 
colours, the cutting up the sky not in cubes but in spaces. 

But the essential thing, the treatment of the houses was 
essentially Spanish and therefore essentially Picasso. In these 
pictures he first emphasised the way of building in Spanish 
villages, the line of the houses not following the landscape 
but cutting across and into the landscape, becoming mdis- 
tinguishable in the landscape by cutting across the land- 
scape. It was the principle of the camouflage of the guns and 

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the ships in the war. The first year of the war, Picasso and 
Eve, with whom he was living then, Gertrude Stein and my- 
self, were walking down the boulevard Raspail a cold win- 
ter evening. There is nothing in the world colder than the 
Raspail on a cold winter evening, we used to call it the re- 
treat from Moscow. All of a sudden down the street came 
some big cannon, the first any of us had seen painted, that 
is camouflaged. Pablo stopped, he was spell-bound. C’est 
nous qui avons fait ga, he said, it is we that have created 
that, he said. And he was right, he had. From C&anne 
through him they had come to that. His foresight was jus- 
tified. 

But to go back to the three landscapes; When they were 
first put up on the wall naturally everybody objected. As 
it happened he and Fernande had taken some photographs 
of the villages which he had painted and he had given copies 
of these photographs to Gertrude Stein. When people said 
that the few cubes in the landscapes looked like nothing 
but cubes, Gertrude Stein would laugh and say, if you had 
objected to these landscapes as being too realistic there 
would be some point in your objection. And she would 
show them the photographs and really the pictures as she 
rightly said might be declared to be too photographic a copy 
of nature. Years after ElHot Paul at Gertrude Stein’s sug- 
gestion had a photograph of the painting by Picasso and the 
photographs of the village reproduced on the same page in 
transition and it was extraordinarily interesting. This then 
was really the beginning of cubism. The colour too was 
characteristically Spanish, the pale silver yellow with the 
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known in Picasso’s cubist pictures, as well as in those of his 
followers. 

Gertrude Stein always says that cubism is a purely Spanish 
conception and only Spaniards can be cubists and that the 
only real cubism is that of Picasso and Juan Gris. Picasso 
created it and Juan Gris permeated it with his clarity and 
his exaltation. To understand this one has only to read the 
life and death of Juan Gris by Gertrude Stein, written upon 
the death of one of her two dearest friends, Picasso and Juan 
Gris, both Spaniards. 

She always says that americans can understand Spaniards. 
That they are the only two western nations that can realise 
abstraction. That in americans it expresses itself by disem- 
bodiedness, in Hterature and machinery, in Spain by ritual so 
abstract that it does not connect itself with anything but 
ritual. 

I always remember Picasso saying disgustedly apropos of 
some germans who said they liked bull-fights, they would, 
he said angrily, they like bloodshed. To a Spaniard it is not 
bloodshed, it is ritual. 

Americans, so Gertrude Stein says, are like Spaniards, they 
are abstract and cruel. They are not brutal they are cruel. 
They have no close contact with the earth such as most 
europeans have. Their materialism is not the materialism of 
existence, of possession, it is the materialism erf action and 
abstraction. And so cubism is Spanish. 

We were very much struck, the first time Gertrude Stein 
and I went to Spain, which was a year or so after the begin- 
ning of cubism, to see how naturally cubism was made in 
Spain. In the shq>s in ifeiredona instead of post cards they 


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had square little frames and inside it was placed a cigar, a 
real one, a pipe, a bit of handkerchief etcetera, all absolutely 
the arrangement of many a cubist picture and helped out by 
cut paper representing other objects. That is the modern 
note that in Spain had been done for centuries. 

Picasso in his early cubist pictures used printed letters as 
did Juan Gris to force the painted surface to measure up to 
something rigid, and the rigid thing was the printed letter. 
Gradually instead of using the printed thing they painted 
the letters and all was lost, it was only Juan Gris who could 
paint with such intensity a printed letter that it still made 
the rigid contrast. And so cubism came little by little but 
it came. 

It was in these days that the intimacy between Braque 
and Picasso grew. It was in these days that Juan Gris, a raw 
rather effusive youth came from Madrid to Paris and began 
to call Picasso cher maitre to Picasso’s great annoyance. It 
was apropos of this that Picasso used to address Braque as 
cher maitre, passing on the joke, and I am sorry to say that 
some foolish people have taken this joke to mean that 
Picasso looked up to Braque as a master. 

But I am once more running far ahead of those early Paris 
days when I first knew Femande and Pablo. 

In those days then only the three landscapes had been 
painted and he was beginning to paint some heads that 
seemed cut out in planes, also long loaves of bread. 

At this time Matisse, the school still going on, was really 
b^inning to be fairly well known, so much so that to every- 
body’s great excitement Bemheim jeune, a very middle class 

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firm indeed, was oflfering him a contract to take all his work 
at a very good price. It was an exciting moment. 

This was happening because of the influence of a man 
named F&ieon. II est tr^s fin, said Matisse, much impressed 
by Feneon. Feneon was a journalist, a french journalist who 
had invented the thing called a feuilleton en deux lignes, 
that is to say he was the first one to hit o£E the news of the 
day in two lines. He looked like a caricature of Uncle Sam 
made french and he had been painted standing in front of 
a curtain in a circus picture by Toulouse-Lautrec. 

And now the Berxiheims, how or wherefor I do not know, 
taking Feneon into their employ, were going to connect 
themselves with the new generation of painters. 

Something happened, at any rate this contract did not last 
long, but for all that it changed the fortunes of Matisse. He 
now had an established position. He bought a house and 
some land in Clamart and he started to move out there. Let 
me describe the house as I saw it. 

This home in Clamart was very comfortable, to be sure 
the bath-room, which the family much appreciated from 
long contact with americans, although it must be said that 
the Matisses had always been and always were scrupulously 
neat and clean, was on the ground floor adjoining the din- 
ing room. But that was alright, and is and was a french cus- 
tom, in french houses. It gave more privacy to a bath-room 
to have it on the ground floor. Not so long ago in going over 
the new house Braque was building the bath-room was again 
below, this time imderneath the dining room. When we 
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The grounds at Clamart were large and the garden was 
what Matisse between pride and chagrin called un petit 
Luxembourg- There was also a glass forcing house for 
flowers. Later they had begonias in them that grew smaller 
and smaller. Beyond were lilacs and still beyond a big de- 
mountable studio. They liked it enormously. Madame 
Matisse with simple recklessness went out every day to look 
at it and pick flowers, keeping a cab waiting for her. In those 
days only millionaires kept cabs waiting and then only very 
occasionally. 

They moved out and were very comfortable and soon the 
enormous studio was filled vnth enormous statues and enor- 
mous pictures. It was that period of Matisse. Equally soon 
he found Clamart so beautiful that he could not go home to 
it, that is when he came into Paris to his hour of sketching 
from the nude, a thing he had done every afternoon of his 
life ever since the beginning of things, and he came in every 
afternoon. His school no longer existed, the government had 
taken over the old convent to make a Lycee of it and the 
school had come to an end. 

These were the beginning of very prosperous days for the 
Matisses. They went to Algeria and they went to Tangiers 
and their devoted german pupils gave them Rhine 'wines 
and a very fine black police dog, the first of the breed that 
any of us had seen. 

And then Matisse had a great show of his pictures in 
Berlin. I remember so well one spring day, it was a lovely 
day and we were to lunch at Clamart with the Matisses. 
When we got there they were all standing around an enor- 
mous packing case "with its top oft. We went up and joined 

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them and there in the packing case was the largest laurel 
wreath that had ever been made, tied with a beautiful red 
ribbon. Matisse showed Gertrude Stein a card that had been 
in it. It said on it, To Henri Matisse, Triumphant on the 
Battlefield of Berlin, and was signed Thomas Whittemore. 
Thomas Whittemore was a bostonian archeologist and pro- 
fessor at Tufts College, a great a dmir er of Matisse and this 
was his tribute. Said Matisse, still more rueful, but I am not 
dead yet. Madame Matisse, the shock once over said, but 
Henri look, and leaning down she plucked a leaf and tasted 
it, it is real laurel, think how good it will be in soup. And, 
said she still further brightening, the ribbon will do wonder- 
fully for a long time as hair ribbon for MargoL 

The Matisses stayed in Clamart more or less until the war. 
During this period they and Gertrude Stein were seeing less 
and less of each other. Then after the war broke out they 
came to the house a good deal. They were lonesome and 
troubled, Matisse’s family in Saint-Quentin, in the north, 
were within the german lines and his brother was a hostage. 
It was Madame Matisse who taught me how to knit woollen 
gloves. She made them wonderfully neatly and rapidly and 
I learned to do so too. Then Matisse went to live in Nice and 
in one way and another, although remaining perfectly good 
friends, Gertrude Stein and the Matisses never ^e each 
crther. 

TTie Saturday evenings in those early days were frajuented 
by many hungarians, quite a number of german^ quite a 
few mixe d nationalities a very thin sprinkling of americans 
and practically no en glish. These were to commence later, 

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and with them came aristocracy of all countries and even 
some royalty. 

Among the germans who used to come in those early days 
was Pascih. He was at that time a thin brilliant-looking 
creature, he already had a considerable reputation as maker 
of neat little caricatures in Simplicissimus, the most lively of 
the german comic papers. The other germans told strange 
stories of him. That he had been brought up in a house of 
prostitution of unknown and probably royal birth, etcetera. 

He and Gertrude Stein had not met since those early days 
but a few years ago they saw each other at the vernissage of 
a young dutch painter Kristians Toimy who had been a 
pupil of Pascin and in whose work Gertrude Stein was then 
interested. They liked meeting each other and had a long 
talk. 

Pascin was far away the most amusing of the germans 
although I cannot quite say that because there was Uhde. 

Uhde was undoubtedly well born, he was not a blond 
german, he was a tallish thin dark man with a high fore- 
head and an excellent quick wit. When he first came to 
Paris he went to every antiquity shop and bric-a-brac shop 
in the town in order to see what he could find. He did not 
find much, he found what purported to be an Ingres, he 
found a few very early Picassos, but perhaps he found other 
things. At any rate when the war broke out he was supposed 
to have been one of the super spies and to have belonged to 
the german staff. 

He was said to have been seen near the french war oflEce 
after the declaration of war, undoubtedly he and a friend 
had a summer home very near what was afterward the Hin- 

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1907-1914 

denburg line. Well at any rate he was very pleasant and very 
amusing. He it was who was the first to commercialise the 
douanier Rousseau’s pictures. He kept a kind of private art 
shop. It was here that Braque and Picasso went to see him 
in their newest and roughest clothes and in their best Cirque 
Medrano fashion kept up a constant fire of introducing each 
other to him and asking each other to introduce each other. 

Uhde used often to come Saturday evening accompanied 
by very tall blond good-looking young men who clicked 
their heels and bowed and then all evening stood solemnly 
at attention. They made a very effective background to the 
rest of the crowd. I remember one evening when the son of 
the great scholar Br&il and his very amusing clever wife 
brought a Spanish guitarist who wanted to come and play. 
Uhde and his bodyguard were the background and it came 
on to be a lively evening, the guitarist played and Manolo 
was there. It was the only time I ever saw Manolo the 
sculptor, by that time a legendary figure in Paris. Picasso 
very lively xmdertook to dance a southern Spanish dance not 
too respectable, Gertrude Stein’s brother did the dying dance 
of Isadora, it was very lively, Fernande and Pablo got into a 
discussion about FrM6:ic of the Lapin Agile and apaches. 
Fernande contended that the apaches were better than the 
artists and her forefinger went up in the air, Picasso said, 
yes apaches of course have their universities, artists do not. 
Fernande got angry and shook him and said, you think you 
are witty, but you are only stupid. He ruefully showed that 
she had shaken off a button and she very sngry said, and 
you, your only claim to distinction is that you are a pre- 
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well between them, it was just about the time that they were 
quitting the rue Ravignan to live in an apartment in the 
boulevard Clichy, where they were to have a servant and to 
be prosperous. 

But to return to Uhde and first to Manolo. Manolo was 
perhaps Picasso’s oldest friend. He was a strange Spaniard. 
He, so the legend said, was the brother of one of the greatest 
pickpockets in Madrid. Manolo himself was gentle and 
admirable. He was the only person in Paris with whom 
Picasso spoke Spanish. All the other Spaniards had french 
wives or french mistresses and having so much the habit of 
speaking french they always talked french to each other. 
This always seemed very strange to me. However Picasso 
and Manolo always talked Spanish to each other. 

There were many stories about Manolo, he had always 
lovedi and he had always lived under the protection of the 
saints. They told the story of how when he first came to 
Paris he entered the first church he saw and there he saw a 
woman bring a chair to some one and receive money. So 
Manolo did the same, he went into many churches and 
always gave everybody a chair and always got money, until 
one day he was caught by the woman whose business it was 
and whose chairs they were and there was trouble. 

He once was hard up and he proposed to his friends to 
take lottery tickets for one of his statues, everybody agreed, 
and then when everybody met they found they all had the 
same numter. When they reproached him he explained that 
he did this because he knew his friends would be unhappy 
they did not all have the same number. He was supposed 
to have kft Spain while he was doing his military service, 

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that is to say he was in the cavalry and he went across the 
border, and sold his horse and his accoutrement, and so had 
enough money to come to Paris and be a sculptor. He once 
was left for a few days in the house of a friend of Gauguin. 
When the owner of the house came back ail his Gauguin 
souvenirs and all his Gauguin sketches were gone. Manolo 
had sold them to Vollard and Vollard had to give them 
back. Nobody minded. Manolo was like a sweet crazy re- 
ligiously uplifted Spanish beggar and everybody was fond 
of him. Moreas, the greek poet, who in those days was a very 
well known figure in Paris was very fond of him and used 
to take him with him for company whenever he had any- 
thing to do. Manolo always went in hopes of getting a meal 
but he used to be left to wait while Moreas ate. Manolo was 
always patient and always hopeful although Moreas was as 
well known then as Guillaume Apollinaire was later, to pay 
rarely or rather not at all. 

Manolo used to make statues for joints in Montmartre in 
return for meals etcetera, until Alfred Stieglitz heard of him 
and showed his things in New York and sold some of them 
and then Manolo returned to the french frontier, Ceret and 
there he has lived ever since, turning night into day, he and 
his Catalan wife. 

But Uhde. Uhde one Saturday evening presented his 
fiancee to Gertrude Stein. Uhde’s mcrals ware not all that 
they should be and as his fiancfe seemed a very well to do 
and very conventional ycning woman we woe all surprised. 
But it turned cHit that it was an arranged marriage. Uhde 
vsdshed to respectabilise himself and she wmted to come into 
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marriage. Shordy ajfter she married Uhde and shortly after 
they were divorced. She then married Delaunay the painter 
who was just then coming into the foreground. He was the 
founder of the first of the many vulgarisations of the cubist 
idea, the painting of houses out of plumb, what was called 
the catastrophic school. 

Delaunay was a big blond frenchman. He had a lively 
little mother. She used to come to the rue de Fleurus with 
old vicomtes who looked exacdy like one’s youthful idea of 
what an old french marquis should look like. These always 
left their cards and then wrote a solemn note of thanks and 
never showed in any way how entirely out of place they 
must have felt. Delaunay himself was amusing. He was 
fairly able and inordinately ambitious. He was always asking 
how old Picasso had been when he had painted a certain 
picture. When he was told he always said, oh I am not as old 
as that yet. I will do as much when I am that age. 

As a matter of fact he did progress very rapidly. He used 
to come a great deal to the rue de Fleurus. Gertrude Stein 
used to delight in him. He was funny and he painted one 
rather fine picture, the three graces standing in front of 
Paris, an enormous picture in which he combined every- 
body’s ideas and added a certain french clarity and freshness 
of his own. It had a rather remarkable atmosphere and it had 
a great success. After that his pictures lost all quality, they 
grew big and empty or small and empty. I remember his 
bringing one of these small ones to the house, saying, look 
I am bringing you a small picture, a jewel. It is small, said 
Gertrude Stein, but is it a jewel. 

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they kept up quite an establishment. They took up Guill- 
aume Apo l l i nai r e and it was he who taught them how to 
cook and how to live. Guillaume was extraordinary. Nobody 
but Guillaume, it was the italian in Guillaume, Stella the 
New York painter could do the same thing in his early youth 
in Paris, could make fun of his hosts, make fun of their 
guests, make fun of their food and sptir them to always 
greater and greater eflforL 

It was Guillaume’s first opportunity to travel, he went to 
Germany with Delaunay and thoroughly enjoyed himself. 

Uhde used to delight in telling how his former wife came 
to his house one day and dilating upon Delaunay’s future 
career, explained to him that he should abandon Picasso and 
Braque, the past, and devote himself to the cause of Delau- 
nay, the future. Picasso and Braque at this time it must be 
remembered were not yet thirty years old. Uhde told every- 
body this story with a great many witty additions and always 
adding, I tell you aU this sans dBcretion, that is tell it to 
everybody. 

The other german who came to the house in those days 
was a dull one. He is, I understand a very important man 
now in his own country and he was a most faithful friend to 
Matisse, at all times, even during the war. He was the bul- 
wark of the Matisse school. Matisse was n(X. always or indeed 
often very kind to him. All women loved him, so it was 
suppo^. He was a sto(±y Don Juan. I remember mie big 
scandii^vian who loved him and who would never come in 
on Saturday evening Isit stood in the court and whenever 
the door t^ened for scane one to ccane in or out you could 
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Cheshire cat. He was always bothered by Gertrude Stein. 
She did and bought such strange things. He never dared to 
criticise anything to her but to me he would say, and you. 
Mademoiselle, do you, pointing to the despised object, do 
you find that beautiful. 

Once when we were in Spain, in fact the first time we 
went to Spain, Gertrude Stein had insisted upon buying in 
Cuenca a brand new enormous turtle made of Rhine stones. 
She had very lovely old jewellery, but with great satisfaction 
to herself she was wearing this turtle as a clasp. Purrmann 
this time was dumbfounded. He got me into a corner. That 
jewel, he said, that Miss Stein is wearing, are those stones 
real. 

Speaking of Spain also reminds me that once we were in a 
crowded restaurant. Suddenly in the end of the room a tall 
form stood up and a man bowed solemnly at Gertrude Stein 
who as solemnly replied. It was a stray hungarian from Sat- 
urday evening, surely. 

There was another german whom I must admit we both 
liked. This was much later, about nineteen twelve. He too 
was a dark tall german. He talked cnglish, he was a friend 
of Marsden Hardey whom we liked very much, and we 
liked his ger man friend, I cannot say that we did not. 

He used to describe himself as the rich son of a not so 
rich father. In other words he had a large allowance from a 
moderately poor father who was a university professor. 
Ronnebeck was charming and he was always invited to 
dinner. He was at dinner one evening when Berenson the 
famous critic of Italian art was there. Ronnebeck had 
brought with him some photographs of pictures by Rous- 


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seau. He had left them in the atelier and we were all in the 
dining room. Everybody began to talk about Rousseau. 
Berenson was puzzled, but Rousseau, Rousseau, he said, 
Rousseau was an honourable painter but why all this excite- 
ment. Ah, he said with a sigh, fashions change, that I know, 
but really I never thought that Rousseau would come to be 
the fashion for the young. Berenson had a tendency to be 
supercilious and so everybody let him go on and on. Finally 
Roimebeck said gendy, but perhaps Mr. Berenson, you have 
never heard of the great Rousseau, the douanier Rousseau. 
No, admitted Berenson, he hadn’t, and later when he saw 
the photographs he understood less than ever and was fairly 
fussed. Mabel Dodge who was present, said, but Berenson, 
you must remember that art is inevitable. That, said Beren- 
son recovering himself, you understand, you being yomself 
a femme fatale. 

We were fond of Ronnebeck and beside the first time he 
came to the house he quoted some of Gertrude Stein’s recent 
work to her. She had loaned some manuscript to Marsden 
Hardey. It was the first time that anybody had quoted her 
work to her and she naturally liked it He also made a 
translation into german of some of the portrdts she viras 
writing at that time and thus brought her her first inter- 
national reputation. That however is not quite true, Roche 
the faithful Roche had introduced some young germans to 
Three Lives and they were already under its spell. However 
Ronnebeck was charming and we were very fond erf him. 

Ronnebeck was a sculptor, he did small full figure por- 
traits and was dmng them very wdl, he was in love with an 
american girl whn was studying mutic. He liked France and 

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all french things and he was very fond of us. We all sepa- 
rated as usual for the summer. He said he had a very amus- 
ing summer before him. He had a commission to do a por- 
trait figure of a countess and her two sons, the litde counts 
and he was to spend the summer doing this in the home of 
the coimtess who had a magnificent place on the shores of 
the Baltic. 

When we all came back that winter Rdnnebeck was dif- 
ferent. In the first place he came back with lots of photo- 
graphs of ships of the german navy and insisted upon 
showing them to us. We were not interested. Gertrude Stein 
said, of course, Rdnnebeck, you have a navy, of course, we 
americans have a navy, everybody has a navy, but to any- 
body but the navy, one big ironclad looks very much like 
any other, don’t be silly. He was different though. He had 
had a good time. He had photos of himself with all the 
counts and there was also one with the crown prmce of 
Germany who was a great friend of the countess. The win- 
ter, it was the winter of 1913-1914, wore on. All the usual 
things happened and we gave as usual some dinner parties. 
I have forgotten what the occasion of one was but we 
thought Rdnnebeck would do excehently for it. We iavited 
him. He sent word that he had to go to Munich for two days 
but he would travel at nigfit and get badt for the dinner 
party. This he did and was delightful as he always was. 

Pretty soon he went off on a trip to the north, to visit 
the cathedral towns. When he came back he brought us a 
series of photographs of all these northern towns seen from 
above. What are these, Gertrude Stein asked. Oh, he said, 
I AtH^rt you would be interested, Aey are views I have 

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taken of all the cathedral towns. I took them from the tip top 
of the steeples and I thought you would be interested because 
see, he said, they look exacdy like the pictures of the fol- 
lowers of Delaunay, what you call the earthquake school, 
he said turning to me. We thanked him and thought no 
more about it. Later when during the war I found them, I 
tore them up in a rage. 

Then we all began to talk about our summer plans. 
Gertrude Stein was to go to London in July to see John Lane 
to sign the contract for Three Lives. Ronnebeck said, why 
don’t you come to Germany instead or rather before or 
immediately after, he said. Because, said Gertrude Stein, as 
you know I don’t Hke germans. Yes I know, said Ronne- 
beck, I know, but you like me and you would have such a 
wonderful time. They would be so interested and it would 
mean so much to them, do come, he said. No, said Gertrude 
Stem, I like you alright but I don’t like germans. 

We went to England in July and when we got there Ger- 
trude Stein had a letter from Rormebeck saying that he 
still awfully wanted us to come to Germany but since we 
wouldn’t had we not better spend the summer in England 
or perhaps in Spain but not as we had planned come lack 
to Paris. That was naturally the end. I tell the story fox what 
it is worth. 

When I first came to Paris there was a very small sprin- 
kling of amcrkans Saturday evenings this ^uirikling grew 
gradually more abundant but before I tell ^}out ammcans I 
miM teE all ^3oat die banqtKt to Romseau. 

In die beginning o£ my stay in Paris a firknd and I were 
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Notre-Dame-des-Champs. I was no longer taking french 
lessons from Fernande because she and Picasso were to- 
gether again but she was not an infrequent visitor. Autumn 
had come and I can remember it very well because I had 
bought my first winter Paris hat. It was a very fine hat of 
black velvet, a big hat with a brilliant yellow fantaisie. Even 
Fernande gave it her approval. 

Fernande was lunching with us one day and she said 
that there was going to be a banquet given for Rousseau 
and that she was giving it. She counted up the number of 
the invited. We were included. Who was Rousseau. I did not 
know but that really did not matter since it was to be a 
banquet and everybody was to go, and we were invited. 

Next Saturday evening at the rue de Fleurus everybody 
was talking about the banquet to Rousseau and then I found 
out that Rousseau was the painter whose picture I had seen 
in that first independent. It appeared that Picasso had re- 
cently found in Montmartre a large portrait of a woman 
by Rousseau, that he had bought it and that this festivity 
was in honour of the purchase and the painter. It was going 
to be very wonderful. 

Fernande told me a great real about the menu. There was 
to be riz a la Valenciennes, Fernande had learnt how to cook 
this on her last trip to Spain, and then she had ordered, I 
forget now what it was that she had ordered, but she had 
ordered a great deal at F^lix Potin, the chain store of gro- 
ceries where they made prepared dishes. Everybody was 
excited. It was Guillaume Apollinaire, as I remember, who 
kimwing Rousseau very well had induced him to promise to 
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poetry and songs and it was to be very rigolo, a favourite 
Montmartre word meaning a jokeful amusement. We were 
all to meet at the cafe at the foot of the rue Ravignan and 
to have an ap&itif and then go up to Picasso’s atelier and 
have dinner. I put on my new hat and we all went to Mont- 
martre and all met at the cafa 
As Gertrude Stein and I came into the cafe there seemed 
to be a great many people present and in the midst was a 
tall thin girl who with her long thin arms extended was 
swaying forward and back. I did not know what she was 
doing, it was evidently not gymnastics, it was bewildering 
but she looked very enticing. What is that, I whispered to 
Gertrude Stein. Oh that is MarieJLau^^ein,. I am afraid 
she has been taking too many preliminary aporitifs. Is she 
the old lady that Fernande told me about who makes noises 
like animals and annoys Pablo. She aimoys Pablo alright 
but she is a very young lady and she has had too much, said 
Gertrude Stein going in. Just then there was a violent noise 
at the door of the cafe and Fernande appeared very large, 
very excited and very angry. F^ix Potin, said she, has not 
sent the dinner. Everybody seemed overcome at these 
awful tidings but I, in my american way said to Fernande, 
come quickly, let us telephone. In those days in Paris one 
did not telephone and never to a provision store. But Fer- 
nande consented and oflF we went. Everywhere we went 
there was either no telephone or it was not working, finally 
we got one that worked but Felix Potin was closed or 
closing and it was deaf to our appeals- Fernande was com- 
pletely upset but finally I persuaded her to teh me just what 
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shop and another little shop in Montmartre we found sub- 
stitutes, Femande finally announcing that she had made 
so much riz a la Valenciennes that it would take the place of 
everything and it did. 

When we were back at the cafe almost everybody who had 
been there had gone and some new ones had come, Fer- 
nande told them all to come along. As we toiled up the hill 
we saw in front of us the whole crowd. In the middle was 
Marie Laurencin supported on the one side by Gertrude 
Stein and on the other by Gertrude Stein’s brother and she 
was falling first into one pair of arms and then into another, 
her voice always high and sweet and her arms always thin 
graceful and long. Guillaume of course was not there, he 
was to bring Rousseau himself after every one was seated. 

Femande passed this slow moving procession, I following 
her and we arrived at the atelier. It was rather impressive. 
They had gotten trestles, carpenter’s trestles, and on them 
had placed boards and aU around these boards were benches. 
At the head of the table was the new acquisition, the Rous- 
seau, draped in flags and wreaths and flanked on either side 
by big statues, I do not remember what statues. It was very 
magnificent and very festive. The riz a la Valenciennes was 
presumably cooking below in Max Jacob’s studio. Max not 
being on good terms with Picasso was not present but they 
used his studio for the rice and for the men’s overcoats. 
The ladies were to put theirs in the front studio which had 
been Van Dongen’s in his spinach days and now belonged 
to a frenchman by the name of Vaillant. This was the studio 
which was later to be Juan Gris’. 

I had ju^ time to deposit my hat and admire the arrange- 
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ments, Femande violently abusing Marie Laurencin all tbe 
time, when the crowd arrived. Femande large and imposing, 
barred the way, she was not going to have her party spoiled 
by Marie Laurencin. This was a serious party, a serious 
banquet for Rousseau and neither she nor Pablo would 
tolerate such conduct Of course Pablo, all this time, was 
well out of sight in the rear. Gertrude Stein remonstrated, 
she said half in english half in french, that she would be 
hanged if after the struggle of getting Marie Laurencin up 
that terrific hill it was going to be for no thing . No indeed 
and beside she reminded Femande that Guillaume and 
Rousseau would be along any minute and it was necessary 
that every one should be decorously seated before that event- 
By this time Pablo had made his way to the front and he 
joined in and said, yes yes, and Femande yielded. She was 
always a little afraid of Guillaume Apollinaire, of his sol- 
emnity and of his wit, and they all came in. Everybody sat 
down. 

Everybody sat down and everybody began to eat rice and 
other things, that is as soon as Guillaume Apollinaire and 
Rousseau came in which they did very presently and were 
wildly acclaimed. How well I remember their coming, 
Rousseau a little small colourless frenchman with a little 
beard, like any number of frenchmen one saw everywhere. 
Guillaume Apollinaire with finely cut florid feature^ dark 
hair and a beautiful complexkai. Everybody was presented 
and everybody sat down again. Guillaume slipped into a 
seat beade Marie Lainrencin. At the of Guillaume, 
Marie v?ho had beccane com|^ativeiy calm seated next to 
Gertrude Stem, l»t4e out a^in m wild movements and 

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outcries. Guillaume got her out of the door and downstairs 
and after a decent interval they came back Marie a little 
bruised but sober. By this time everybody had eaten every- 
thing and poetry began. Oh yes, before this Fr^d&ic of the 
Lapin Agile and the University of Apaches had wandered 
in with his usual companion a donkey, was given a drink 
and wandered out again. Then a litde later some Italian 
street singers hearing of the party came in. Fernande rose 
at the end of the table and flushed and her forefinger straight 
into the air said it was not that kind of a party, and they 
were promptly thrown out. 

Who was there. We were there and Salmon, Andre Sal- 
mon, then a rising young poet and journalist, Pichot and 
Germaine Pichot, Braque and perhaps MarceUe Braque but 
this I do not remember, I know that there was talk of her 
at that time, the Raynals, the Ageros the false Greco and his 
wife, and several other pairs whom I did not know and do 
not remember and Vaillant, a very amiable ordinary young 
frenchman who had the front studio. 

The ceremonies began. Guillaume Apollinaire got up and 
made a solemn eulogy, I do not remember at all what he 
said but it endedj^with a poem he had written and which 
he half chanted and in which everybody joined in the re- 
frain, La peinture de ce Rousseau. Somebody else then, 
possibly Raynal, I don’t remember, got up and there were 
toasts, and then all of a sudden Andre Salmon who was sit- 
ting next to my friend and solemnly discoursing of litera- 
ture and travels, leaped upon the by no means solid table 
and poured out an extemporaneous eulogy and poem. At 
the end he seized a big glass and drank what was in it, then 

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promptly went off his head, being completely drunk, and 
began to fight. The men all got hold of him, the statues 
tottered, Braque, a great big chap, got hold of a statue in 
either arm and stood there holding them while Gertrude 
Stem’s brother another big chap, protected little Rousseau 
and his violin from harm. The others with Picasso leading 
because Picasso though small is very strong, dragged Salmon 
into the front atelier and locked him in. Everybody came 
back and sat down. 

Thereafter the evening was peaceful. Marie Laurencin 
sang in a thin voice some charming old norman songs. The 
wife of Agero sang some charming old limousin songs, 
Pichot danced a wonderful religious Spanish dance ending in 
making of himself a crucified Christ upon the floor. Guil- 
laume Apollinaire solemnly approached myself and my 
friend and asked us to sing some of the native songs of the 
red Indians. We did not either of us feel up to that to the 
great regret of Guillaume and all the company. Rousseau 
blissful and gentle played the violin and told us about the 
plays he had written and his memories of_ Mexico. It was 
all very peaceful and about three o’clock in the morning 
we all went into the atelier where Salmon had been de- 
posited and where we had left our hats and coats to get them 
to go home. There on the couch lay Salmon peacefully 
sleeping and surrounding him, half chewed, were a box of 
matches, a petit bleu and my yellow fantaisie. Imagine my 
feelings even at three o’clock in the mcHiung. However, 
Salmon wdke up very charming and very pdhte and we all 
went out into the street together. All of a sudden with a wild 
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Gertrude Stein and her brother, my friend and I, all in 
one cab, took Rousseau home. 

It was about a month later that one dark Paris winter 
afternoon I was hurrying home and felt myself being fol- 
lowed. I hurried and hurried and the footsteps drew nearer 
and I heard, mademoiselle, mademoiselle. I turned. It was 
Rousseau. Oh mademoiselle, he said, you should not be out 
alone after dark, may I see you home. Which he did. 

It was not long after this that Kahnweder came to Paris. 
Kahnweiler was a german married to a frenchwoman and 
they had lived for many years in England. Kahnweiler had 
been in England in business, saving money to carry out a 
dream of some day having a picture shop in Paris. The time 
had come and he started a neat small gallery in the rue 
Vignon- He felt his way a litde and then completely threw 
in his lot with the cubist group. There were difficulties at 
first, Picasso always suspicious did not want to go too far 
with him. Femande did the bargaining with Kahnweiler 
but finally they all realised the genuineness of his interest 
and his faith, and that he could and wotild market their 
work. They all made contracts with him and until the war 
he did everything for them all. The afternoons with the 
group coining in and out of his shop were for Kahnweiler 
really afternoons with Vasari He believed in them and 
their future greatness. It was only the year before the war 
that he added Juan Gris. It was just two months before the 
outbreak of the war that Gertrude Stein saw the first Juan 
Gris paintings at Kahnweiler’s and bought three of them. 

Picasso always says that he used m those days to tell Kahn- 
weiler that he should b«:ome a french citizen, that war 


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would come and there would be the devil to pay. Kahn- 
weiler always said he would when he had passed the military 
age but that he naturally did not want to do military service 
a second time. The war came, Kahnweiler was in Switzer- 
land with his family on his vacation and he could not come 
back. All his possessions were sequestrated. 

The auction sale by the government of Kahnweiler’s 
pictures, practically all the cubist pictures of the three years 
before the war, was the first occasion after the war where 
everybody of the old crowd met There had been quite a 
conscious efiort on the part of all the older merchants, now 
that the war was over, to kill cubism. The expert for the 
sale, who was a well known picture dealer, had avowed this 
as his intention. He would keep the prices down as low as 
possible and discourage the public as much as possible. How 
could the artists defend themselves. 

We happened to be with the Braques a day or two before 
the public show erf pictures for the sale and Marcelle Braque^ 
Braque’s wife, told us that they had come to a decisicai. 
Picasso and Juan Gris could do ncdiing they were Spaniards, 
and this was a french government sale. Marie Laurencin 
was technically a german, lipschitz was a russian at that 
time not a popular thing to be. Braque a frenchman, who 
had won the croix de guerre in a charge, who had been 
made an crfBcer and had won the l^cm d’honneur and 
had had a bad head wound could do what he pleased- He 
had a technical reason too fer picking a quarrel with the 
expert. He had sent in a list <rf the pecpie likely to buy his 
pkture% a privilege always accorded to an artist whose 
^cturts axe to be ptrfjiioly sold, and catak^ues had not been 

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sent to tliese people. When we arrived Braque had already 
done his duty. We came in just at the end of the fray. There 
was a great excitement. 

Braque had approached the expert and told him that he 
had neglected his obvious duties. The expert had replied 
that he had done and would do as he pleased and called 
Braque a norman pig. Braque had hit him. Braque is a big 
man and the expert is not and Braque tried not to hit hard 
but nevertheless the expert fell. The police came in and 
they were taken off to the police station. There they told 
their story. Braque of course as a hero of the war was 
treated with all due respect, and when he s poke to the ex-. 
per t using the familiar thou tlm expert completely lost his 
temper and his head and was publicly rebuked by the 
magistrate. Just after it was over Matisse came in and wanted 
to know what had happened and was happening. Gertrude 
Stein told him . Matisse said, and it was a Matisse way to 
say it, Braque a raison, celui-la a vole la France, et on salt 
bien ce que e’est que voler la France. 

As a matter of fact the buyers were frightened off and all 
the pictures except those of Derain went for little. Poor 
Juan Gris whose pictures went for very little tried to be 
brave. They after all did bring an honourable price, he 
said to Gertrude Stein, but he was sad. 

Fortunately Kahnweiler, who had not fought against 
France, was allowed to come back the next year. The others 
no longer needed him but Juan needed him desperately and 
Kahnweiler’s loyalty and generosity to Juan Gris all those 
hard years can only be matched by Juan’s loyalty and gen- 
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famous tempting offers from other dealers were made to 
him. 

Kahnweder coming to Paris and fairing on commercially 
the cause of the cubists made a great difference to all of 
them. Their present and future were secure. 

The Picassos moved from the old studio in the rue Ravig- 
nan to an apartment in the boulevard Clichy. Femande 
began to buy furniture and have a servant and the servant 
of course made a souffle It was a nice apartment with lots 
of sunshine. On the whole however Fernande was not quite 
as happy as she had been. There were a great many people 
there and even afternoon tea. Braque was there a great deal, 
it was the height of the intimacy between Braque and 
Picasso, it was at that time they first began to put musical 
instruments into their pictures. It was also the begi nnin g of 
Picasso’s making constructions. He made still lifes of objects 
and photographed them. He made paper constructions later, 
he gave one of these to Gertrude Stein. It is perhaps the only 
one left in existence. 

This was also the time when I first heard of Poiret. He 
had a houseboat on the Seine and he had given a party on 
it and he had invited Pablo and Femande. He gave Fer- 
nande a handsome rose-coloured scarf with gold fringe and 
he also gave her a spun glass fentaisie to put on a hat, an 
entirely new idea in those days. This she gave to me and 
I wore it on a little straw pdnted cap for years after. I may 
even have it now. 

Then there was the youngest of the cul^ts. I never knew 
his name. He was dtang his military service and was des- 
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painted I do not know. All I know is that he was known as 
the youngest of the cubists. 

Fernande had at this time a new friend of whom she often 
spoke to me. This was Eve who was living with Marcoussis. 
And one evening all four of them came to the rue de 
Fleurus, Pablo, Fernande, Marcoussis and Eve. It was the 
only time we ever saw Marcoussis until many many years 
later. 

I could perfecdy understand Fernande’s liking for Eve. 
As I said Fernande’s great heroine was Evelyn Thaw, small 
and negative. Here was a little french Evelyn Thaw, small 
and perfect. 

Not long after this Picasso came one day and told Ger- 
trude Stein that he had decided to take an atelier in the rue 
Ravignan. He could work better there. He could not get 
back his old one but he took one on the lower floor. One 
day we went to see him there. He was not in and Gertrude 
Stein as a joke left her visiting card. In a few days we went 
again and Picasso was at work on a picture on which was 
written ma joHe and at the lower corner painted in was 
Gertrude Stein’s visiting card. As we went away Gertrude 
Stein said, Fernande is certainly not ma joHe, I wonder 
who it is. In a few days we knew. Pablo had gone ofE with 
Eve. 

This was in the spring. They all had the habit of going 
to C6:et near Perpignan for the summer probably on ac- 
count of Manolo, and they all in spite of everything went 
there again. Fernande was there with the Pichots and Eve 
was there with Pablo. There were some redoubtable battles 
and then everybody came back to Paris. 

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One evening, we too had come back, Picasso came in. He 
and Gertrade Stein had a long talk alone. It was Pablo, 
she said when she came in from having bade him goodbye, 
and he said a marvellous thing about Fernande, he said her 
beauty always held him but he could not stand any of her 
little ways. She further added that Pablo and Eve were now 
settled on the boulevard Raspail and we would go and see 
them to-morrow. 

In the meanwhile Gertrude Stein had received a letter 
from Fernande, very dignified, written with the reticence 
of a firenchwoman. She said that she wished to tell Gertrude 
Stein that she understood perfectly that the friendship had 
always been with Pablo and that although Gertrude had 
always shown her every mark of sympathy and afiection 
now that she and Pablo were separated, it was naturally 
impossible that in the future there should be any intercourse 
between them because the friendship having been with Pablo 
there could of course be no question of a choice. That she 
wotdd always remember their intercourse with pleasure and 
that she would permit herself, if ever she were in need, to 
throw herself upon Gertrude’s generosity. 

And so Picasso left Montmartre never to return. 

When I first came to the rue de Fleurus Gertrude Stein 
was correcting the proofs of Three Lives. I was soon helping 
her with this and before very long the boci was published. 
I asked her to let me subscribe to Rtmieike’s clipping 
bureau, the advertisement for Romeike in the San Francisco 
Argcmaut having been cme of the romances of my child- 
hood. Soon the clippings began to come in. 

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noticed this book, printed privately and by a perfectly un- 
known person. The notice that pleased Gertrude Stein most 
was in the Kansas City Star. She often asked then and in 
later years who it was who might have written it but she 
never found out. It was a very sympathetic and a very under- 
standing review. Later on when she was discouraged by 
what others said she would refer to it as having given her 
at that time great comfort. She says in Composition and 
Explanation, when you write a thing it is perfectly clear 
and then you begin to be doubtful about it, but then you 
read it again and you lose yourself in it again as when you 
wrote it. 

The other thing in connection with this her first book that 
gave her pleasure was a very enthusiastic note from H. G. 
Wells. She kept this for years apart, it had meant so much 
to her. She wrote to him at that time and they were often 
to meet but as it happened they never did. And they are not 
likely to now. 

Gertrude Stein was at that time writing The Making of 
Americans. It had changed from being a history of a family 
to being the history of everybody the family knew and then 
it became the history of every kind and of every individual 
human being. But in spite of all this there was a hero and 
he was to die. The day he died I met Gertrude Stein at 
Mildred Aldrich’s apartment. Mildred was very fond of 
Gertrude Stein and took a deep interest in the book’s end- 
ing. It was over a thousand pages long and I was type- 
writing it. 

I always say that you cannot tell what a picture really 
is or what an object really is xintil you dust it every day and 

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you cannot tell what a book is until you type it or proof- 
read it. It then does something to you that only reading 
never can do. A good many years later Jane Heap said that 
she had never appreciated the quality of Gertrude Stein’s 
work until she proof-read it. 

When The Making of Americans was finished, Gertrude 
Stein began another which also was to be long and which 
she called A Long Gay Book but it did not turn out to be 
long, neither that nor one begun at the same time Many 
Many Women because they were both interrupted by 
portrait writing. This is how portrait writing began. 

Helene used to stay at home with her husband Sunday 
evening, that is to say she was always wilUng to come but 
we often told her not to bother. I like cooking, I am an 
extremely good five-minute cook, and beside, Gertrude Stein 
liked from time to time to have me make american dishes. 
One Sunday evening I was very busy preparing one of these 
and then I called Gertrude Stein to come in from the atelier 
for supper. She came in much excited and would not sit 
down. Here I want to show you something, she said. No I 
said it has to be eaten hot No, she said, you have to see this 
first. Gertrude Stein never likes her food hot and I do like 
mine hot, we never agree about this. She admits that one 
can wait to cool it but one cannot heat it once it is on a 
plate so it is agreed that I have it served as hot as I like. In 
spite of my protests and the food cooling I had to read. I 
can still see the little tiny pages of the note-book written 
forward and back. It was the portrait called Ada, the first 
in Geography and Plays. I began k and I thought she was 
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about my autobiography. Finally I read it aU and was ter- 
ribly pleased with it. And then we ate our supper. 

This was the beginning of the long series of portraits. 
She has written portraits of practically everybody she has 
known, and written them in all manners and in all styles. 

Ada was followed by portraits of Matisse and Picasso, and 
Stieglitz who was much interested in them and in Gertrude 
Stein printed them in a special number of Camera Work. 

She then began to do short portraits of everybody who 
came in and out. She did one of Arthur Frost, the son of 
A. B. Frost the american illustrator. Frost was a Matisse 
pupil and his pride when he read his portrait and found that 
it was three full pages longer than either the portrait of 
Matisse or the portrait of Picasso was something to hear. 

A. B. Frost complained to Pat Bruce who had led Frost 
to Ivfatisse that it was a pity that Arthur could not see his 
way to becoming a conventional artist and so earning fame 
and money. You can lead a horse to water but you cannot 
make him drink, said Pat Bruce. Most horses drink, Mr. 
Bruce, said A. B. Frost 

Bruce, Patrick Henry Bruce, was one of the early and 
most ardent Matisse pupils and soon he made little Matisses, 
but he was not happy. In explaining his unhappiness he told 
Gertrude Stein, they talk about the sorrows of great artists, 
the tragic unhappiness of great artists but after aU. they are 
great artists. A little artist has all the tragic unhappiness 
and the sorrows of a great artist and he is not a great artist. 

She did portraits of Nadelman, also of the proteges of 
the sculptress Mrs. Whitney, Lee and Russell also of Harry 
Piidan Gibb, her first and best eng^ish friaid. She did 

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portraits of Manguia and Roche and Purrmann and David 
Edstrom, the fat Swedish sculptor who married the head of 
the Christian Science Church in Paris and destroyed her. 
And Brenner, Brenner the sculptor who never finished any- 
thing. He had an admirable technique and a great many 
obsessions which kept him from work. Gertrude Stein was 
very fond of him and still is. She once posed to him for 
weeks and he did a fragmentary portrait of her that is very 
fine. He and Cody later published some numbers of a little 
review called Soil and they were among the very early ones 
to print something of Gertrude Stein. The only little maga- 
zine that preceded it was one called Rogue, printed by 
AUan Norton and which printed her description of the 
Galo'ie Lafayette. This was of course all much later and 
happened through Carl Van Vechten. 

She also did portraits of Miss Etta Cone and her sister 
Doctor Claribel Cone. She also did portraits of Miss Mars 
and Miss Squires under the tide of Miss Furr and Miss 
Skeene. There were portraits of Mildred Aldrich and her 
sister. Everybody was given their portrait to read and they 
were all pleased and it was all very amusing. All this occu- 
pied a great deal of that winter and then we went to Spain. 

In Spain Gertrude Stein began to write the things that 
led to Tender Buttons. 

I liked Spain immensely. We went several times to Spain 
and I always liked it mtoe and mc«e. Gertrude Stdn says 
that I am impartial on every sul^ct except diat of Spain 
and si^niards. 

We went straight to Avila and I immediatdy lost my heart 
lo Avila, I nmst May in Avila ftHever I ins^ed. Gertrude 

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Stein was very upset, Avila was alright but, she insisted, 
she needed Paris. I felt that I needed nothing but Avila. 
We were both very violent about it. We did however stay 
there for ten days and as Saint Theresa was a heroine of 
Gertrude Stein’s youth we thoroughly enjoyed it. In the 
opera Four Saints written a few years ago she describes the 
landscape that so profoundly moved me. 

We went on to Madrid and there we met Georgiana King 
of Bryn Mawr, an old friend of Gertrude Stein from Balti- 
more days. Georgiana King wrote some of the most interest- 
ing of the early criticisms of Three Lives. She was then re- 
editing Street on the cathedrals of Spain and in connection 
with this she had wandered aU over Spain. She gave us a 
great deal of very good advice. 

In these days Gertrude Stein wore a brown corduroy suit, 
jacket and skirt, a small straw cap, always crocheted for 
her by a woman in Fiesole, sandals, and she often carried 
a cane. That summer the head of the cane was of amber. 
It is more or less this costume without the cap and the cane 
that Picasso has painted in his portrait of her. This costume 
was ideal for Spain, they all thought of her as belonging 
to some religious order and we were always treated with the 
most absolute respect. I remember that once a nun was 
showing us the treasures in a convent church in Toledo. 
We were near the steps of the altar. All of a sudden there 
was a crash, Gertrude Stein had dropped her cane. The nun 
paled, the worshippers startled. Gertrude Stein picked up 
her cane and turning to the frightened nun said reassuringly, 
no it is not broken. 

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was wont to call my Spanish disguise. I always wore a black 
silk coat, black gloves and a black hat, the only pleasure I 
allowed myself were lovely artificial flowers on my hat. 
These always enormously interested the peasant women 
and they used to very courteously ask my permission to 
touch them, to realise for themselves that they were artificial. 

We went to Cuenca that summer, Harry Gibb the english 
painter had told us about it. Harry Gibb is a strange case 
of a man who foresaw everything. He had been a successful 
animal painter in his youth in England, he came from the 
north of England, he had married and gone to Germany, 
there he had become dissatisfied with what he had been 
doing and heard about the new school of painting in Paris. 
He came to Paris and was immediately influenced by Matisse. 
He then became interested in Picasso and he did some very 
remarkable painting under their combined influences. Then 
all this together threw him into something else something 
that fairly completely achieved what the surr&listes after the 
war tried to do. The only thing he lacked is what the french 
call saveur, what may be called the graciousness of a picture. 
Because of this lack it was impossible for him to find a 
french audience. Naturally in those days there was no eng- 
lish audience. Harry Gibb fell on bad days. He was always 
falling upon bad days. He and his wife Bridget one of 
the pleasantest of the wives of a genius I have sat with were 
full of courage and they faced everything admirably, but 
there were always very difficult days. And then things were 
a little better. He found a couple of patrons who believed 
in him and it was at this time, 1912-1913, that he went to 
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there. It was at that time that he took with him several copies 
of the portrait of Mabel Dodge at the Villa Curonia, Mabel 
Dodge had had it printed in Florence, and it was then 
that the Dublin writers in the caf« heard Gertrude Stein 
read aloud. Doctor Gogarty, Harry Gibb’s host and admirer, 
loved to read it aloud himself and have others read it aloud. 

After that there was the war and eclipse for poor Harry, 
and since then a long sad struggle. He has had his ups and 
downs, more downs than up, but only recently there was a 
new turn of the wheel. Gertrude Stein who loved them both 
dearly always was convinced that the two painters of her 
generation who would be discovered after they were dead, 
they being predestined to a life of tragedy, were Juan Gris 
and Harry Gibb. Juan Gris dead these five years is begin- 
ning to come into his own. Harry Gibb still alive is still un- 
known. Gertrude Stein and Harry Gibb have always been 
very loyal and very loving friends. One of the very good 
early portraits she did she did of him, it was printed in 
the Oxford Review and then in Geography and Plays. 

So Harry Gibb told us about Cuenca and we went on a 
little railroad that turned around curves and ended in the 
middle of nowhere and there was Cuenca. 

We delighted in Cuenca and the population of Cuenca 
delighted in us. It delighted in us so much that it was get- 
ting uncomfortable. Then one day when we were out walk- 
ing, all of a sudden the population, particularly the children, 
kept their distance. Soon a uniformed man came up and 
saluting said that he was a policeman of the town and that 
Ae governor of Ae province had detailed him to always 
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vent our being annoyed by the population and that he hoped 
that this would not inconvenience us. It did not^ he was 
charming and he took us to lovely places in the country 
where we could not very well have gone by ourselves. Such 
was Spain in the old days.. 

We finally came back to Madrid again and there we dis- 
covered the Argentina and buU-fights. The young journal- 
ists of Madrid had just discovered her. We happened upon 
her in a music haU, we went to them to see Spanish dancing, 
and after we saw her the first time we went every afternoon 
and every evening. We went to the bull-fights. At first they 
upset me and Gertrude Stein used to tell me, now look, now 
don’t look, until finally I was able to look all the time. 

We finally came to Granada and stayed there for some 
time and there Gertrude Stem worked terrifically. She was 
always very fond of Granada. It was there she had her fiurst 
experience of Spain when still at college just after the 
spanish-american war when she and her brother went 
through Spain. They had a delightful time and she always 
tells of sitting in the dining rocan talking to a bostonian and 
his daughter when suddenly there was a terrific noise, the 
hee-haw of a donkey. What is it, said the young bostonian 
trembling. Ah, said the father, it is the last sigh of the Moor. 

We enjoyed Granada, we met many amusing peopk 
english and Spanish and it was there and at that time that 
Gertrude Stein’s style gradually changed. She says hitherto 
she had been interested only in the inricks of people, their 
character and what went cm inside diem, it was during that 
dimme r that she fihst felt a deshe to e:^ress the rhythm of 
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It was a long tormenting process, she looked, listened and 
described. She always was, she always is, tormented by the 
problem of the external and the internal. One of the things 
that always worries her about painting is the difficulty that 
the artist feels and which sends him to painting still lifes, 
that after all the human being essentially is not paintable. 
Once again and very recently she has thought that a painter 
has added something to the solution of this problem. She is 
interested in Picabia in whom hitherto she has never been 
interested because he at least knows that if you do not solve 
your painting problem in painting human beings you do 
not solve it at all. There is also a follower of Picabia’s, who 
is facing the problem, but will he solve it. Perhaps not. Well 
anyway it is that of which she is always talking and now 
her own long struggle with it was to begin. 

These were the days in which she wrote Susie Asado and 
Preciocilla and Gypsies in Spain. She experimented with 
everything in trying to describe. She tried a bit inventing 
words but she soon gave that up. The english language was 
her medium and with the english language the task was to 
be achieved, the problem solved. The use of fabricated words 
oUended her, it was an escape into imitative emotionalism. 

No, she stayed with her task, although after the return to 
Paris she described objects, she described rooms and objects, 
which joined with her first experiments done in Spain, 
made the volume Tender Buttons. 

She always however made her chief study people and 
therefore the never ending series of portraits. 

We came back to the rue de Fleurus as usual. 

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whea I first came to the rue de Fleurus was Mildred Aldrich. 

Mildred Aldrich was then in her early fifties, a stout 
vigorous woman with a George Washington face, white hair 
and admirably clean firesh clothes and gloves. A very strik- 
ing figure and a very satisfying one in the crowd of mixed 
nationalities. She was indeed one of whom Picasso coiild 
say and did say, c’est elle qui fera la gloire de rAm6ique. 
She made one very satisfied with one’s country, which had 
produced her. 

Her sister having left for America she lived alone on the 
top floor of a building on the corner of the boulevard Raspail 
and the half street, rue Boissonade. There she had at the 
window an enormous cage filled with canaries. We always 
thought it was because she loved canaries. Not at ail. A 
friend had once left her a canary in a cage to take care of 
during her absence. Mildred as she did everything else, took 
excellent care of the canary in the cage. Some friend seeing 
this and naturally concluding that Mildred was fond of 
canaries gave her another canary. Mildred of course took 
excellent care of both canaries and so the canaries increased 
and the size of the cage grew until in 1914 she moved to 
Huiry to the Hilltop on the Marne and gave her canaries 
away. Her excuse was that in the country cats would eat 
the canaries. But her real reason she once told me was that 
she really could not bear canaries. 

Mildred was an excellent housekeeper. I was very sur- 
prised, hav ing had a very difierent impression of her, going 
up to see her one aftemocm, finding her mending her linen 
and doing it beautifully. 

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ratiier she adored spending money and as her earning 
capacity although great was limited, Mildred was chronically 
hard up. In those days she was making contracts to put 
Maeterlinck’s Blue Bird on the american stage. The arrange- 
ments demanded endless cablegrams, and my early mem- 
ories of Mildred were of her coming to our little apartment 
in the rue Notre-Dame-des-Champs late in the evening and 
asking me to lend her the money for a long cable. A few 
days later the money was returned with a lovely azalea 
worth five times the money. No wonder she was always 
hard up. But everybody listened to her. No one in the world 
could tell stories like Mildred. I can still see her at the rue 
de Fleurus sitting in one of the big armchairs and gradually 
the audience increasing around her as she talked. 

She was very fond of Gertrude Stein, very interested in her 
work, enthusiastic about Three Lives, deeply impressed but 
slightly troubled by The Making of Americans, quite upset 
by Tender Buttons, but always loyal and convinced that if 
Gertrude Stein did it it had something in it that was worth 
while. 

Her joy and pride when in nineteen twenty-six Gertrude 
Stein gave her lecture at Cambridge and Oxford was touch- 
ing. Gertrude Stein must come out and read it to her before 
leaving. Gertrude Stein did, much to their mutual pleasure. 

Mildred Aldrich liked Picasso and even liked Matisse, 
that is personally, but she was troubled. One day she said to 
me, Alice, tell me is it alright, are they really alright, I know 
Gertrude thinks so and Gertrude knows, but really is it not 
all fumisterie, is it not all false. 

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liked it all. She liked coming herself and she liked bringing 
other people. She brought a great many. It was she who 
brought Henry McBride who was then writing on the New 
York Sun. It was Henry McBride who used to keep Ger- 
trude Stein’s nam e before the pubhc all those tormented 
years. Laugh if you like, he used to say to her detractors, 
but laugh with and not at her, in that way you will enjoy it 
all much better. 

Henry McBride did not beUeve in worldly success. It ruins 
you, it ruins you, he used to say. But Henry, Gertrude Stein 
used to answer dolefully, don’t you think I will ever have 
any success, I would like to have a little, you know. Think 
of my unpubhshed manuscripts. But Henry McBride was 
firm, the best that I can wish you, he always said, is to 
have no success. It is the only good thing. He was firm 
about that. 

He was however enormously pleased when Mildred was 
successful and he now says he thinks the time has come 
when Gertrude Stein could indulge in a little success. He 
does not think that now it would hurt her. 

It was about this time that Roger Fry first came to the 
house. He brought Clive Bell and Mrs. Clive Bell and later 
there were many others. In these days Clive Bell went along 
vpith the other two. He was rather complainful that his wife 
and Roger Fry took too much interest in capital works of 
art He was quite funny about it He was very amusing, 
later when he became a real art crhic he was less so. 

Rc^er Fry was always charmings charming as a gu^ 
and .charming as a ho^; later when we went to London we 
^rent a day with him in the country. 

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He was filled witti excitement at the sight of the portrait 
of Gertrude Stein by Picasso. He wrote an article about it in 
the Burlington Review and illustrated it by two photographs 
side by side, one the photograph of this portrait and the 
other a photograph of a portrait by Raphael. He insisted 
that these two pictures were equal in value. He brought 
endless people to the house. Very soon there were throngs 
of englishmen, Augustus John and Lamb, Augustus John 
amazing looking and not too sober. Lamb rather strange 
and attractive. 

It was about this time that Roger Fry had many young 
disciples. Among them was Wyndham Lewis. Wyndham 
Lewis, tall and thin, looked rather like a young frenchman 
on the rise, perhaps because his feet were very french, or at 
least his shoes. He used to come and sit and measure 
pictures. I can not say that he actually measured with a 
measuring-rod but he gave all the effect of being in the act 
of taking very careful measurement of the canvas, the lines 
within the canvas and everything that might be of use. 
Gertrude Stein rather liked him. She particularly liked him 
one day when he came and told all about his quarrel with 
Roger Fry. Roger Fry had come in not many days before 
and had already told all about it. They told exacdy the 
same story only it was different, very different. 

This was about the time too that Prichard of the Museum 
of Fine Arts, Boston and later of the Kensington Museum 
began coming. Prichard brought a great many young Ox- 
ford men. They were very nice in the room, and they 
thou^t Picasso wonderful. They felt and indeed in a way 
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came Thomas Whittemore of Tufts College. He was fresh 
and engaging and later to Gertrude Stein’s great delight he 
one day said, all blue is precious. 

Everybody brought somebody. As I said the character of 
the Saturday evenings was gradually changing, that is to 
say, the kind of people who came had changed. Somebody 
brought the Infanta Eulalia and brought her several times. 
She was delightful and with the flattering memory of 
royalty she always remembered my name even some years 
after when we met quite by accident in the place Vendome. 
When she first came into the room she was a little fright- 
ened. It seemed a strange place but gradually she liked it 
very much. 

Lady Cunard brought her daughter Nancy, then a little 
girl, and very solemnly bade her never forget the visit. 

Who else came. There were so many. The bavarian min- 
ister brought quantities of people. Jacques-Emile Blanche 
brought delightful people, so did Alphonse Kann. There 
was Lady Otoline Morrell looking like a marvellous femi- 
nine version of Disraeli and tall and strange shyly hesitating 
at the door. There was a dutch near royalty who was left by 
her escort who had to go and find a cab and she looked 
during this short interval badly frightened. 

There was a roumanian princess, and her cabman grew 
impatient. Hflene came in to announce violently that the 
cabman would not wait. And then after a violent knock, 
the cabman himself announced that he wc«ild ncrt: wain 

It was an endle^ variety. And everybody came and no 
one made any difference. Gertrude Stein sat peacefully in a 
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There were the friends who sat around the stove and talked 
and there were the endless strangers who came and went. 
My memory of it is very vivid. 

As I say everybody brought people. William Cook brought 
a great man y from Chicago, very wealthy stout ladies and 
equally wealthy tall good-looking thin ones. That summer 
having found the Balearic Islands on the map, we went to 
the island of Mallorca and on the little boat going over was 
Cook. He too had found it on the map. We stayed only a 
little while but he settled down for the summer, and then 
later he went back and was the solitary first of all the big 
crowd of americans who have discovered Palma since. We 
all went back again during the war. 

It was during this summer that Picasso gave us a letter 
to a friend of his youth one Raventos in Barcelona. But 
does he talk french, asked Gertrude Stein, Pablo giggled, 
better than you do Gertrude, he answered. 

Raventos gave us a good time, he and a descendant of de 
Soto took us about for two long days, the days were long 
because so much of them were night. They had an auto- 
mobile, even in those early days, and they took us up into 
the hills to see early churches. We would rush up a hill and 
then happily come down a litde slower and every two 
hours or so we ate a dinner. When we finally came back 
to Barcelona about ten o’clock in the evening they said, now 
we will have an apaitif and then we will eat dinner. It 
was exhausting eating so many dinners but we enjoyed out- 
lives. 

T.ater on much later on indeed only a few yeaf s ago Picasso 
introduced us to another friend <£ his youth. 

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Sabartes and be have known eacb other ever since they 
were fifteen years old but as Sabartes bad disappeared into 
South America, Montevideo, Uruguay, before Gertrude 
Stein met Picasso, sbe bad never beard of him. One day a 
few years ago Picasso sent word that be was bringing 
Sabartes to tbe bouse. Sabartes, in Uruguay, bad read some 
things of Gertrude Stein in various magazines and be bad 
conceived a great admiration for ber work. It never occurred 
to bim that Picasso would know ber. Having come back 
for tbe first time in all these years to Paris be went to see 
Picasso and be told bim about this Gertrude Stein. But she is 
my only firiend, said Picasso, it is the only home I go to. 
Take me, said Sabartes, and so they came. 

Gertrude Stein and Spaniards are natural friends and this 
time too tbe feiendsbip grew. 

It was about this time that tbe futurists, the Italian 
futurists, bad their big show in Paris and it made a great 
deal of noise. Everybody was excited and this show being 
given in a very well known gallery everybody went. Jacques- 
Emile Blanche was terribly upset by it. We found him 
wandering tremblingly in tbe ^den of tbe Tuileries and be 
said, it looks alright but is it. No it isn’t, said Gertrude Stein. 
You do me good, said Jacques-Emile Blanche. 

Tbe futurists all of them led by Severini thronged around 
Picasso. He brought them all to tbe bouse. Marinetti came 
by himself later as I remember. In any case everybody fcumd 
tbe futurists very dull. 

i^Ktein tbe sculptor came to tbe rue de Fleurus one eve- 
ning- When Gertrude Stein first came to Paris in nineteen 
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melancholy ghost who used to slip in and out among the 
Rodin statues in the Luxembourg museum. He had illus- 
trated Hutchins Hapgood’s studies of the ghetto and with 
the funds he came to Paris and was very poor. Now 
when I first saw him, he had come to Paris to place his 
sphynx statue to Oscar Wilde over Oscar Wilde’s grave. He 
was a large rather stout man, not unimpressive but not 
beautiful. He had an english wi£e who had a very remark- 
able pair of brown eyes, of a shade of brown I had never 
before seen in eyes. 

Doctor Claribel Cone of Baltimore came majestically in 
and out. She loved to read Gertrude Stein’s work out loud 
and she did read it out loud extraordinarily well. She liked 
ease and graciousness and comfort. She and her sister Etta 
Cone were travelling. The only room in the hotel was not 
comfortable. Etta bade her sister put up with it as it was 
only for one night. Etta, answered Doctor Claribel, one 
night is as important as any other night in my life and I 
must be comfortable. When the war broke out she happened 
to be in Munich engaged in scientific work. She could never 
leave because it was never comfortable to travel. Everybody 
delighted in Doctor Claribel. Much later Picasso made a 
drawing of her. 

Emily Chadbourne came, it was she who brought Lady 
Otoline Morrell and she also brought many bostonians. 

Mildred Aldrich once brought a very extraordinary per- 
son Myra Edgerly. I remembered very well that when I was 
quite young and went to a fancy-dress ball, a Mardi Gras 
ball in San Francisco, I saw a very tall and very beautiful 
and very brilliant woman there. This was Myra Edgerly 

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young. Genthe, the well known photographer did endless 
photographs of her, mostly with a cat. She had come to 
London as a miniaturist and she had had one of those 
phenomenal successes that americans do have in Europe. 
She had miniatured everybody, and the royal family, and 
she had maintained her earnest gay careless outspoken San 
Francisco way through it all. She now came to Paris to 
study a little. She met Mildred Aldrich and became very 
devoted to her. Indeed it was Myra who in nineteen thirteen, 
when Mildred’s earning capacity was rapidly dwindling 
secured an annuity for her and made it possible for Mildred 
to retire to the Hilltop on the Marne. 

Myra Edgerly was very earnestly anxious that Gertrude 
Stein’s work should be more widely known. When Mildred 
told her about all those unpublished manuscripts Myra said 
something must be done. And of course something was 
done. 

She knew John Lane slightly and she said Gertrude Stein 
and I must go to London. But first Myra must write letters 
and then I must write letters to everybody for Gertrude 
Stein. She told me the fornmla I must employ. I remember 
it began. Miss Gertrude Stein as you may or may not know, 
is, and then you went on and said everything you had to 
say. 

Under Myra’s strenuous impulsion we went to London in 
the winter of nineteen twelve, thirteen, for a few weeks. 
We did have an awfully good time. 

Myra took us with her to stay with Colonel and Mrs. 
Rogers at RiverhiU in Surrey. This was in the vicinity of 
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£ul parks. This was my first experience of country-house 
visiting in England since, as a small child, I had only been 
in the nursery. I enjoyed every minute of it. The comfort, 
the open fires, the taU maids who were like annunciation 
angels, the beautiful gardens, the children, the ease of it all. 
And the quantity of objects and of beautiful things. What 
is that, I would ask Mrs. Rogers, ah that I know nothing 
about, it was here when I came. It gave me a feeling that 
there had been so many lovely brides in that house who had 
found aU these things there when they came. 

Gertrude Stein liked country-house visiting less than I 
did. The continuous pleasant hesitating flow of conversa- 
tion, the never ceasing sound of the human voice speaking 
in english, bothered her. 

On our next visit to London and when because of being 
caught by the war we stayed in country houses with our 
friends a very long time, she managed to isolate herself for 
considerable parts of the day and to avoid at least one of the 
three or four meals, and so she Hked it better. 

We did have a good time in England. Gertrude Stein 
completely forgot her early dismal memory of London and 
has liked visiting there imme nsely ever since. 

We went to Roger Fry’s house in the country and were 
charmingly entertained by his quaker sister. We went to 
Lady Otoline Morrell and met everybody. We went to Clive 
Bell’s. We went about all the time, we went shopping and 
ordered things. I still have my bag and jewel box. We had 
an extremely good time. And we went very often to see 
John Lane. In fact we were supposed to go every Sunday 
afeemoon to his house for tea and Gertrude Stein had sev- 

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eral interviews with him in his ofiEce. How well I knew all 
the things in all the shops near the Bodley Head because 
while Gertrude Stein was inside with John Lane while noth- 
ing happened and then when finally something happened I 
waited outside and looked at everything. 

The Sunday afternoons at John Lane’s were very amus- 
ing. As I remember during that first stay in London we went 
there twice. 

John Lane was very interested. Mrs. John Lane was a 
Boston woman and very kind. 

Tea at the John Lane’s Sunday afternoons was an experi- 
ence. John Lane had copies of Three Lives and The Portrait 
of Mabel Dodge. One did not know why he selected the 
people he did to show it to. He did not give either book to 
any one to read. He put it into their hands and took it 
away again and inaudibly he announced that Gertrude Stein 
was here. Nobody was introduced to anybody. From time to 
time John Lane would take Gertrude Stein into various 
rooms and show her his pictures, odd pictures of English 
schools of all periods, some of them very pleasing. Some- 
times he told a story about how he had come to get it. He 
never said anything else about a picture. He also showed 
her a great many Beardsley drawings and they talked about 
Paris. 

The second Sunday he asked her to come again to the 
Bodley Head. This was a long interview. He said that Mrs. 
Lane had read Three Lives and thought very hi^ly of it 
and thar he had the greatest confidence in her judgmenL 
He asked Gertrude Stein when she was coming back to 
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London. Well, he said, when you come in July I imagine 
we will be ready to arrange something. Perhaps, he added, 
I may see you in Paris in the early spring. 

And so we left London. We were on the whole very 
pleased with ourselves. We had had a very good time and 
it was the first time that Gertrude Stein had ever had a 
conversation with a pubhsher. 

Mildred Addrich often brought a whole group of people 
to the house Saturday evening. One evening a number of 
people came in with her and among them was Mabel Dodge. 
I remember my impression of her very well. 

She was a stoutish woman with a very sturdy fringe of 
heavy hair over her forehead, heavy long lashes and very 
pretty eyes and a very old fashioned coquetry. She had a 
lovely voice- She reminded me of a heroine of my youth, 
the actress Georgia Cayvan. She asked us to come to Florence 
to stay with her. We were going to spend the summer as 
was then our habit in Spain but we were going to be back 
in Paris in the fall and perhaps we then would. When we 
ramf back there were several urgent telegrams from Mabel 
Dodge asking us to come to the Villa Curonia and we did. 

We had a very amusing time. We liked Edwin Dodge 
and we liked Mabel Dodge but we particularly liked 
Constance Fletcher whom we met there. 

Constance Fletcher came a day or so after we arrived and 
I went to the station to meet her. Mabel Dodge had de- 
scribed her to me as a very large woman who would wear a 
purple robe and who was deaf. As a matter of fact she 
was dressed in green and was not deaf but very short sighted, 
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Her father and mother came from and lived in Newbury- 
port, Massachusetts. Edwin Dodge’s people came from the 
same town and this was a strong bond of union- When 
Constance was twelve years old her mother fell in love with 
the english tutor of Constance’s younger brother. Constance 
knew that her mother was about to leave her home. For a 
week Constance laid on her bed and wept and then accom- 
panied her mother and her future step-father to Italy. Her 
step-father being an englishman Constance became passion- 
ately an english woman. The step-father was a painter who 
had a local reputation among the english residents in Italy. 

When Constance Fletcher was eighteen years old she 
wrote a best-seller called Kismet and was engaged to be 
married to Lord Lovelace the descendant of Byron. 

She did not marry him and thereafter lived always in 
Italy. Finally she became permanently fixed in Venice. This 
was after the death of her mother and father. I always liked 
as a Californian her description of Joaquin Miller in Rome, 
in her younger days. 

Now in her comparative old age she was attractive and 
impressive. I am very fond of needlework and I was fasci- 
nated by her fashion of embroidering wreaths of flowers. 
There was nothing drawn upon her linen, she just held it in 
her hands, from time to time bringing it closely to one eye, 
and eventually the wreath took form. She was very fond 
of ghosts. There were two of them in the Villa Curonia and 
Mabel was very fond of frightening visiting americans with 
them which she did in her suggestive way very effectively. 
Once she drove a house party consisting of Jo and Yvonne 
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Others quite mad with fear. And at last to complete the 
eflFect she had the local priest in to exorcise the ghosts. You 
can imagine the state of mind of her guests. But Constance 
Fletcher was fond of ghosts and particularly attached to the 
later one, who was a wistful ghost of an english governess 
who had killed herself in the house. 

One morning I went in to Constance Fletcher’s bedroom 
to ask her how she was, she had not been very well the 
night before. 

I went in and closed the door. Constance Fletcher very 
large and very white was lying in one of the vast renaissance 
beds with which the villa was furnished. Near the door was 
a very large renaissance cupboard. I had a delightful night, 
said Constance Fletcher, the gentle ghost visited me aU 
night, indeed she has just left me. I imagine she is still in 
the cupboard, will you open it please. I did. Is she there, 
asked Constance Fletcher. I said I saw nothing. Ah yes, said 
Constance Fletcher. 

We had a delightful time and Gertrude Stein at that time 
wrote The Portrait of Mabel Dodge. She also wrote the 
portrait of Constance Fletcher that was later printed in 
Geography and Plays. Many years later indeed after the 
war in London I met Siegfried Sassoon at a party given by 
Edith Sitwell for Gertrude Stein. He spoke of Gertrude 
Stein’s portrait of Constance Fletcher which he had read in 
Geography and Plays and said that he had first become 
interested in Gertrude Stein’s work because of this portrait. 
And he added, and did you know her and if you did can you 
tell me about her marvellous voice. I said, very much in- 
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saw her but she ruined my life. How, I asked excitedly. 
Because, he answered, she separated my father from my 
mother. 

Constance Fletcher had written one very successful play 
which had had a long run in London called Green Stock- 
ings, but her real life had been in Italy. She was more Italian 
than the italians. She admired her step-father and therefore 
was english but she was really dominated by the fine I talian 
hand of Machiavelli. She could and did intrigue in the 
italian way better than even the italians and she was a dis- 
turbing influence for many years in Venice not only among 
the english but also among the italians. 

Andr^ Gide turned up while we were at the Villa Curonia. 
It was rather a dull evening. It was then also that we first 
met Muriel Draper and Paul Draper. Gertrude Stein always 
liked Paul very much. She delighted in his american en- 
thusiasm, and explanation of aU things musical and human. 
He had had a great deal of adventure in the West and that 
was another bond between them. When Paul Draper left 
to return to London Mabel Dodge received a telegram say- 
ing, pearls missing suspect the second man. She came to 
Gertrude Stein in great agitation asking what she should do 
about it. Don’t wake me, said Gertrude Stein, do nothing. 
And then sitting up, but that is a nice thing to say, suspect 
the second naan, that is chamaing, but who and what is the 
second man. Mabel explained that the last time they had 
a robbery in the viUa the police said that they could do 
nnrbing because nobody suspected any particular person and 
this rime Paul to avoid that conaplicaticaa suspected the 
sound man servant. While this exjflanation was bdng g^ven 

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another telegram came, pearls found. The second man had 
put the pearls in the collar box. 

Haweis and his wife, later Mina Loy were also in Florence. 
Their home had been dismantled as they had had workmen 
in it but they put it all in order to give us a delightful 
lunch. Both Haweis and Mina were among the very earliest 
to be interested in the work of Gertrude Stein. Haweis had 
been fascinated with what he had read in manuscript of 
The Making of Americans. He did however plead for 
commas. Gertrude Stein said commas were unnecessary, the 
sense should be intrinsic and not have to be explained by 
co mm as and otherwise commas were only a sign that one 
should pause and take breath but one should know of 
oneself when one wanted to pause and take breath. How- 
ever, as she liked Haweis very much and he had given her 
a delightful painting for a fan, she gave him two commas. 
It must however be added that on re-reading the manuscript 
she took the commas out. 

Mina Loy equally interested was able to understand with- 
out the commas. She has always been able to understand. 

Gertrude Stein having written The Portrait of Mabel 
Dodge, Mabel Dodge immediately wanted it printed. She 
had three hundred copies struck ofiE and bound in Florentine 
paper. Constance Fletcher corrected the proofs and we were 
all awfully pleased. Mabel Dodge immediately conceived 
the idea that Gertrude Stein should be invited from one 
country house to another and do portraits and then end up 
doing portraits of american millionaires which would be a 
very exciting and lucrative career. Gertrude Stein laughed. 
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It was during this winter that Gertrude Stein began to 
write plays. They began with the one entitled, It Happened 
a Play. This was written about a dinner party given by 
Harry and Bridget Gibb. She then wrote Ladies’ Voices. 
Her interest in writing plays continues. She says a land- 
scape is such a nattiral arrangement for a battle-field or a 
play that one must write plays. 

Florence Bradley, a friend of Mabel Dodge, was spending 
a winter in Paris. She had had some stage experience and 
had been interested in planning a litde theatre. She was 
vitally interested in putting these plays on the stage. Demuth 
was in Paris too at this time. He was then more interested 
in writing than in painting and particularly interested in 
these plays. He and Florence Bradley were always talking 
them over together, 

Gertrude Stein has never seen Demuth since. When she 
first heard that he was painting she was much interested. 
They never wrote to each other but they often sent mes- 
sages by mutual friends. Demuth always sent word that 
some day he would do a little picture that would thoroughly 
please him and then he would send it to her. And sure 
enough after all these years, two years ago some one left at 
the rue de Fleurus during our absence a little picture with 
a message that this was the picture that Demuth was ready 
to give to Gertrude Stein. It is a remarkable little landscape 
in which the roofs and windows are so subtle that they are 
as mysterious and as alive as the roofs and windows of Haw- 
thorne or Henry James. 

It was not Icaig after this that Mabel Dodge went to 
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was the first time the general public had a chance to see any 
of these pictures. It was there that Marcel Duchamp’s Nude 
Descending the Staircase was shown. 

It was about this time that Picabia and Gertrude Stein 
met- 1 remember going to dinner at the Picabias’ and a pleas- 
ant dinner it was, Gabrielle Picabia full of life and gaiety, 
Picabia dark and lively, and Marcel Duchamp looking like 
a young norman crusader. 

I was always perfectly able to understand the enthusiasm 
that Marcel Duchamp aroused in New York when he went 
there in the early years of the war. His brother had just died 
from the effect of his wounds, his other brother was still at 
the front and he himself was inapt for military service. He 
was very depressed and he went to America. Everybody 
loved him. So much so that it was a joke in Paris that when 
any american arrived in Paris the first thing he said was, 
and how is Marcel. Once Gertrude Stein went to see Braque, 
just after the war, and going into the studio in which there 
happened just then to be three young americans, she said to 
Braque, and how is Marcelle. The three young americans 
came up to her breathlessly and said, have you seen Marcel. 
She laughed, and having become accustomed to the inevit- 
ablcness of the american belief that there was only one 
Marcel, she explained that Braque’s wife was named Mar- 
celle and it was Marcelle Braque about whom she was en- 
quiring. 

In those days Picabia and Gertrude Stein did not get to be 
very good friends. He annoyed her with his incessantness 
and what she called the vulgarity of his delayed adolescence. 
But oddly enough in this last year they have gotten to be 

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very fond of each other. She is very much interested in his 
drawing and in his painting. It began with his show just a 
year ago. She is now convinced that although he has in a 
sense not a painter’s gift he has an idea that has been and 
will be of immense value to all time. She calls him the 
Leonardo da Vind of the movement. And it is true, he 
understands and invents everything. 

As soon as the winter of the armoury show was over 
Mabel Dodge came back to Europe and she brought with 
her what Jacques-Emile Blanche called her collection des 
jeunes gens assortis, a mixed assortment of young men. In 
the lot were Carl Van Vechten, Robert Jones and John Reed. 
Carl Van Vechten did not come to the rue de Fleurus with 
her. He came later in the spring by himself. The other two 
came with her. I remember the evening they all came. 
Picasso was there too. He looked at John Reed critically 
and said, le genre de Braque mais beaucoup moins rigolo, 
Braque’s kind but much less diverting. I remember also that 
Reed told me about his trip through Spain. He told me he 
had seen many strange sights there, that he had seen witches 
chased through the street of Salamanca. As I had been 
spending months in Spain and he only weeks I neither liked 
his stories nor believed them. 

Robert Jones was very impressed by Gertrude Stein’s 
locJcs. He said he would like to array her in clctfh of gold 
and he wanted to design it then and there. It did not in- 
terest her. 

Anmng the people that we had met at JcAn Lane’s in Lon- 
dcm was Gordon Caine and her husband. Gtardon Caine had 
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always travelled, and who always re-arranged the furniture 
in the hotel room completely, even if she was only to stay 
one night. She was tall, rosy-haired and very good-looking. 
Her husband was a well known humorous english writer 
and one of John Lane’s authors. They had entertained us 
very pleasantly in London and we asked them to diae with 
us their first night in Paris. I don’t know quite what hap- 
pened but Helene cooked a very bad dinner. Only twice m 
all her long service did Hel^e fail us. This time and when 
about two weeks later Carl Van Vechten turned up. That 
time too she did strange things, her dinner consisting of a 
series of hors d’ceuvres. However that is later. 

During dinner Mrs. Caine said that she had taken the lib- 
erty of asking her very dear friend and college mate Mrs. 
Van Vechten to come in after dinner because she was very 
anxious that she should meet Gertrude Stein as sKe was very 
depressed and unhappy and Gertrude Stein could undoubt- 
edly have an influence for the good in her life. Gertrude 
Stein said that she had a vague association with the name of 
Van Vechten but could not remember what it was. She has 
a bad memory for names. Mrs. Van Vechten came. She too 
was a very tall woman, it would appear that a great many 
tail ones go to Wellesley, and she too was good-looking. 
Mrs. Van Vechten told the story of the tragedy of her mar- 
ried life but Gertrude Stein was not particularly interested. 

It was about a week later that Florence Bradley asked us 
to go with her to see the second performance of the Sacre 
du Printemps. The russian ballet had just given the first per- 
formance of it and it had made a terrible uproar. All Paris 
was excited about it. Florence Bradley had gotten three 

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tickets in a box, the box held four, and asked us to go with 
her. In the meantime there had been a letter from Mabel 
Dodge introducing Carl Van Vechten, a young New York 
journahst. Gertrude Stein invited him to dine the following 
Saturday evening. 

We went early to the russian ballet, these were the early 
great days of the russian ballet with Nijinsky as the great 
dancer. And a great dancer he was. Dancing excites me tre- 
mendously and it is a thing I know a great deal about. I 
have seen three very great dancers. My geniuses seem to run 
in threes, but that is not my fault, it happens to be a fact. 
The three really great dancers I have seen are the Argentina, 
Isadora Duncan and Nijinsky. Like the three geniuses I 
have known they are each one of a difEerent nationality. 

Nijinsky did not dance in the Sacre du Printemps but he 
created the dance of those who did dance. 

We arrived in the box and sat down in the three front 
chairs leaving one chair behind. Just in front of us in the 
seats below was Guillaume Apollinaire. He was dressed in 
evening clothes and he was industriotisly kissing various im- 
portant looking ladies’ hands. He was the first one of his 
crowd to come out into the great world wearing evening 
clothes and kissing hands. We were very amused and very 
pleased to see him do it. It was the first time we had seen 
him doing it. After the war they all did these things but 
he was the only one to commence before the war. 

Jtist before the performance began the fourth chair in our 
box was occupied. We looked around and there was a tall 
well-built young man, he might have been a dutchman, a 
Scandinavian or an american and he weax a soft evening 

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shirt with the tiniest pleats all over the front of it. It was 
impressive, we had never even heard that they were wearing 
evening shirts like that. That evening when we got home 
Gertrude Stein did a portrait of the unknown called a Por- 
trait of One. 

The performance began. No sooner had it commenced 
when the excitement began. The scene now so well known 
with its brilliantly coloured background now not at all ex- 
traordinary, outraged the Paris audience. No sooner did the 
music begia and the dancing than they began to hiss. The 
defenders began to applaud. We could hear nothing, as a 
matter of fact I never did hear any of the music of the Sacre 
du Printemps because it was the only time I ever saw it and 
one hterally could not, throughout the whole performance, 
hear the sound of music. The dancing was very fine and 
that we could see although our attention was constantly dis- 
tracted by a man in the box next to us flourishing his cane, 
and finally in a violent altercation with an enthusiast in the 
box next to him, his cane came down and smashed the opera 
hat the other had just put on in defiance. It was all incred- 
ibly fierce. 

The next Saturday evening Carl Van Vechten was to 
come to dinner. He came and he was the young man of the 
soft much-pleated evening shirt and it was the same shirt. 
Also of course he was die hero or villain of Mrs. Van Vech- 
ten’s tragic tale. 

As I said Hd^e did for the second time in her life make 
an extraordinarily bad dinner. For some reason best known 
to herself she gave us course after course of hors d’oeuvres 
finishing up with a sweet omelet. Gertrude Stein began to 

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tease Carl Van Vechten by dropping a word here and there 
of intimate knowledge of his past life. He was naturally be- 
wildered. It was a curious evening. 

Gertrude Stein and he became dear friends. 

He interested Allan and Louise Norton in her work and 
induced them to print in the httle magazine they foimded, 
The Rogue, the first thing of Gertrude Stein’s ever printed 
in a litde magazine. The Galerie Lafayette. In another num- 
ber of this now rare Httle magazine, he printed a Htde essay 
on the work of Gertrude Stein. It was he who in one of his 
early books printed as a motto the device on Gertrude Stein’s 
note-paper, a rose is a rose is a rose is a rose. Just recently 
she has had made for him by our local potter at the foot of 
the hill at BeUey some plates in the yellow clay of the coun- 
try and aroxmd the border is a rose is a rose is a rose is a rose 
and in the centre is to Carl. 

In season and out he kept her name and her work before 
the pubHc. When he was beginning to be well known and 
they asked him what he thought the most important book 
of the year he replied Three Lives by Gertrude Stein. His 
loyalty and his effort never weakened. He tried to make 
Knopf publish The M akin g of Americans and he almcst 
succeeded but of course they weakened. 

Speaking of the device of rose is a rose is a rose is a rose, 
it was I wha.fQuadJt.in ^ne of G eattode St^’s man^cripts 
and insisted upon putting it as a device on the letter paper, 
on the table linen and anywhere that she would permit that 
I would put it. I am very pfcas«i with myalf for having 
dcffite so. 

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years of giving letters of introduction to people who he 
thought would amuse Gertrude Stein. This he has done with 
so much disc rimina tion that she has liked them all. 

The first and perhaps the one she has liked the best was 
Avery Hopwood. The friendship lasted until Avery’s death 
a few years ago. When Avery came to Paris he always asked 
Gertrude Stein and myself to dine with him. This custom 
began in the early days of the acquaintance. Gertrude Stein 
is not a very enthusiastic diner-out but she never refused 
Avery. He always had the table charmingly decorated with 
flowers and the menu most carefully chosen. He sent us end- 
less petits bleus, little telegrams, arranging this affair and we 
always had a good time. In these early days, holding his 
head a little on one side and with his tow-coloured hair, 
he looked like a lamb. Sometimes in the latter days as Ger- 
trude Stein told him the lamb turned into a wolf. Gertrude 
Stein would I know at this moment say, dear Avery. They 
were very fond of each other. Not long before his death he 
came into the room one day and said I wish I could give 
you something else beside just dinner, he said, perhaps I 
could give you a picture. Gertrude Stein laughed, it is al- 
right, she said to him, Avery, if you will always come here 
and take just tea. And then in the future beside the petit 
bleu in which he proposed our dining with him he would 
send another petit bleu saying that he would come one after- 
noon to take just tea. Once he came and brought with him 
Gertrude Atherton. He said so sweetly, I want the two Ger- 
trudes whom I love so much to know each other. It was a 
perfectly delightful afternoon. Every one was pleased and 

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charmed and as for me a Californian, Gertrude Atherton had 
been my youthful idol and so I was very content. 

The last time we saw Avery was on his last visit to Paris. 
He sent his usual message asking us to dinner and when he 
came to call for us he told Gertrude Stein that he had asked 
some of his friends to come because he was going to ask her 
to do something for him. You see, he said, you have never 
gone to Montmartre with me and I have a great fancy that 
you should to-night. I know it was your Montmartre long 
before it was mine but would you. She laughed and said, of 
course Avery. 

We did after dinner go up to Montmartre with him. We 
went to a great many queer places and he was so proud and 
pleased. We were always going in a cab from one place to 
another and Avery Hopwood and Gertrude Stein went to- 
gether and they had long talks and Avery must have had 
some premonition that it was the last time because he had 
never talked so openly and so intimately. Finally we left and 
he came out and put us into a cab and he told Gertrude 
Stein it had been one of the best evenings of his life. He 
left the next day for the south and we for the country. A 
little while after Gertrude Stein had a postal from him tell- 
ing her how happy he had been to see her again and the 
same morning there was the news of his death in the Herald. 

It was about nineteen twelve that Alvin Langdon Coburn 
turned up in Paris. He was a queer american who brought 
with him a queer english woman, his adopted mother. Alvin 
Langdon Cobum had just finished a series of photographs 
that he had done fee Henry James. He had published a bo<^ 

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of photographs of prominent men and he wished now to do 
a companion volume of prominent women. I imagine it 
was Roger Fry who had told him about Gertrude Stein. At 
any rate he was the first photographer to come and photo- 
graph her as a celebrity and she was nicely gratified. He 
did make some very good photographs of her and gave 
them to her and then he disappeared and though Gertrude 
Stein has often asked about him nobody seems ever to have 
heard of him since. 

This brings us pretty well to the spring of nineteen four- 
teen. During this winter among the people who used to 
come to the house was the younger step-daughter of Bernard 
Berenson. She brought with her a young friend, Hope 
Mirlees and Hope said that when we went to England in 
the summer we must go down to Cambridge and stay with 
her people. We promised that we would. 

During the winter Gertrude Stein’s brother decided that 
he would go to Florence to live. They divided the pictures 
that they had bought together, between them. Gertrude 
Stein kept the C&annes and the Picassos and her brother 
the Matisses and Renoirs, with the exception of the original 
Femme au Chapeau. 

We planned that we would have a little passage-way made 
between the studio and the little house and as that entailed 
cutting a door and plastering we decided that we would 
pamt the atelier and repaper the house and put in electricity. 
We proceeded to have all this done. It was the end of June 
before this was accomplished and the house had not yet 
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John Lane saying he would be in Paris the following day 
and would come to see her. 

We worked very hard, that is I did and the concierge and 
Helene and the room was ready to receive him. 

He brought with him the first copy of Blast by Wyndham 
Lewis and he gave it to Gertrude Stein and wanted to know 
what she thought of it and would she write for it. She said 
she did not know. 

John Lane then asked her if she would come to London 
in July as he had almost made up his mind to republish the 
Three Lives and would she bring another manuscript with 
her. She said she would and she suggested a collection of all 
the portraits she had done up to that time. The Making of 
Americans was not considered because it was too long. And 
so that having been arranged John Lane left. 

In those days Picasso having lived rather sadly in the rue 
Schoelcher was to move a little further out to Montrouge. 
It was not an unhappy time for him but after the Mont- 
martre days one never heard his high whinnying Spanish 
giggle. His friends, a great many of them, had followed him 
to Montparnasse but it was not the same. The intimacy with 
Braque was waning and of his old friends the only ones he 
saw frequently were Guillaume Apollinaire and Gertrude 
Stein. It was in that year that he began to use ripolin paints 
instead of the usual coloxirs used by painters. Just the other 
day he was talking a long time about the ripolin paints. 
They are, said he gravely, la sante des couleurs, that is they 
are the basis c£ good health fcff paints. In those days he 
painted pictures and everything with ripolin paints as he 
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He was at this time too making constructions in paper, 
in tin and in all sorts of things, the sort of thing that made 
it possible for him afterwards to do the famous stage setting 
for Parade. 

It was in these days that Mildred Aldrich was prepariag 
to retire to the Hilltop on the Marne. She too was not un- 
happy but rather sad. She wanted us often in those spring 
evenings to take a cab and have what she called our last ride 
together. She more often than ever dropped her house key 
all the way down the centre of the stairway while she called 
good-night to us from the top story of the apartment house 
on the rue Boissonade. 

We often went out to the country with her to see her 
house. Finally she moved in. We went out and spent the 
day with her. Mildred was not unhappy but she was very 
sad. My curtains are all up, my books in order, everything 
is clean and what shall I do now, said Mildred. I told her 
that when I was a little girl, my mother said that I always 
used to say, what shall I do now, which was only varied by 
now what shall I do. Mildred said that the worst of it was 
that we were going to London and that she would not see 
us all summer. We assured her that we would only stay 
away a month, m fact we had return tickets, and so we had 
to, and as soon as we got home we would go out to see her. 
Anyway she was happy that at last Gertrude Stem was going 
to have a publisher who would publish her books. But look 
out for John Lane, he is a fox, she said, as we kissed her 
and left. 

Hel^e was leaving 27 rue de Fleurus because, her hus- 

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band having recently been promoted to be foreman in his 
work shop he insisted that she must not work out any longer 
but must stay at home. 

In short in this spring and early summer of nineteen 
fourteen the old life was over. 


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A MERICANS living in Europe before the war never really 
/\ believed that there was going to be war. Gertrude 
L jL Stein always tells about the litde janitor’s boy who, 
playing in the court, would regularly every couple of years 
assure her that papa was going to the war. Once some cous- 
ins of hers were living in Paris, they had a country girl as 
a servant. It was the time of the russian-japanese war and 
they were all talking about the latest news. Terrified she 
dropped the platter and cried, and are the germans at the 
gates. 

William Cook’s father was an Iowan who at seventy years 
of age was m akin g his first trip in Europe in the summer of 
nineteen fourteen. When the war was upon them he refused 
to believe it and explained that he could understand a family 
fighting among themselves, in short a civil war, but not a 
serious war with one’s neighbours. 

Gertrude Stein in 1913 and 1914 had been very interested 
reading the newspapers. She rarely read french newspapers, 
she never read anything in french, and she always read the 
Herald. That winter she added the Daily Mad. She liked 
to read about the suffragettes and she liked to read about 
Lord Roberts’ campaign for compulsory military service in 

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England. Lord Roberts had been a favourite hero of hers 
early in her life. His Forty-One Years In India was a book 
she often read and she had seen Lord Roberts when she and 
her brother, then taking a college vacation, had seen Edward 
the Seventh’s coronation procession. She read the Daily 
Mail, although, as she said, she was not interested in Ireland. 

We went to England July jfifth and went according to 
programme to see John Lane at his house Sunday afternoon. 

There were a number of people there and they were talk- 
ing of many things but some of them were talking about 
war. One of them, some one told me he was an editorial 
writer on one of the big London dailies, was bemoaning the 
fact that he would not be able to eat figs in August in 
Provence as was his habit. Why not, asked some one. Be- 
cause of the war, he answered. Some one else, Walpole or 
his brother I think it was, said that there was no hope of 
beating Germany as she had such an excellent system, all 
her railroad trucks were numbered in coimection with loco- 
motives and switches. But, said the eater of figs, that is all 
very well as long as the trucks remain in Germany on their 
own lines and switches, but in an aggressive war they will 
leave the frontiers of Germany and then, well I promise you 
then there will be a great deal of numbered conf^on. 

This is aU I remember definitely of that Sunday afternoon 
in July. 

As we were leaving, John Lane said to Gertrude Stein that 
he was going out of town for a week and he made a rendez- 
vous with her in his c^fice for the end of July, to sign the 
contract for TTirire Lives. I think, he said, in the pre^t state 
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tibing more entirely new. I have confidence in that book. 
Mrs. Lane is very enthusiastic and so are the readers. 

Having now ten days on our hands we decided to accept 
the invitation of Mrs. Mirlees, Hope’s mother, and spend a 
few days in Cambridge. We went there and thoroughly en- 
joyed ourselves. 

It was a most comfortable house to visit. Gertrude Stem 
liked it, she could stay in her room or in the garden as 
much as she liked without hearing too much conversation. 
The food was excellent, scotch food, delicious and fresh, and 
it was very amusing meeting all the University of Cam- 
bridge dignitaries. We were taken into all the gardens and 
invited into many of the homes. It was lovely weather, quan- 
tities of roses, morris-dancing by all the students and girls 
and generally delightful. We were invited to lunch at Newn- 
ham. Miss Jane Harrison, who had been Hope Mirlees’ pet 
enthusiasm, was much interested in meeting Gertrude Stein. 
We sat up on the dais with the faculty and it was very awe 
inspiring. The conversation was not however particularly 
amusing. Miss Harrison and Gertrude Stein did not par- 
ticularly interest each other. 

We had been hearing a good deal about Doctor and Mrs. 
Whitehead. They no longer hved in Cambridge. The year 
before Doctor Whitehead had left Cambridge to go to Lon- 
don University. They were to be in Cambridge shortly and 
they were to dine at the Mirlees’. They did and I met my 
third genius. 

It was a pleasant dinner. I sat next to Housman, the Cam- 
bridge poet^ and we talked about fishes and David Starr 
JtMfdan but all the time I was more interested in watching 

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Doctor Whitehead. Later we went into the garden and he 
came and sat next to me and we talked about the sky in 
Cambridge. 

Gertrude Stein and Doctor Whitehead and Mrs. White- 
head aU became interested in each other. Mrs. Whitehead 
asked us to dine at her house in London and then to spend 
a week end, the last week end in July with them in their 
country home in Lockridge, near Salisbury Plain. We ac- 
cepted with pleasmre. 

We went back to London and had a lovely time. We 
were ordering some comfortable chairs and a comfortable 
couch covered with chintz to replace some of the kalian fur- 
niture that Gertrude Stein’s brother had taken with him. 
This took a great deal of time. We had to measure ourselves 
into the chairs and into the couch and to choose chintz that 
wotild go with the pictures, all of which we successfully 
achieved. These chairs and this couch, and they are com- 
fortable, in spite of war came to the door one day in Janu- 
ary, nineteen fifteen at the rue de Fleurus and were greeted 
by us with the greatest delight. One needed such comfort- 
ing and such comfort in those days. We dined with the 
Whiteheads and liked them more than ever and they liked 
us more than ever and were kind enough to say so. 

Gertrude Stein kept her appointment with John Lane at 
the Bodley Head. They had a very long conversation, this 
time so long that I quke exhausted all the shop windows c£ 
that region for quite a distance, but finally Gertrude Stein 
came out with a contract. It was a gratifying climax. 

Then we to<^ the train to Lockridge to spend the week 
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were very proud of our vpeek-eiid trunk, we had used it on 
our first visit and now we were actively using it again. As 
one of my friends said to me later, they asked you to spend 
the week end and you stayed six weeks. We did. 

There was quite a house party when we arrived, some 
Cambridge people, some young men, the younger son of 
the Whiteheads, Eric, then fifteen years old but very tall and 
flower-like, and the daughter Jessie just back from Newn- 
ham. There could not have been much serious thought of 
war because they were all talking of Jessie Whitehead’s com- 
ing trip to Finland. Jessie always made friends with for- 
eigners from strange places, she had a passion for geography 
and a passion for the glory of the British Empire. She had 
a friend, a finn, who had asked her to spend the summer 
with her people in Finland and had promised Jessie a pos- 
sible uprising against Russia. Mrs. Whitehead was hesitating 
but had practically consented. There was an older son North 
who was away at the time. 

Then suddenly, as I remember, there were the conferences 
to prevent the war. Lord Grey and the russian minister of 
foreign ajffairs. And then before anything further could hap- 
pen the ultimatum to France. Gertrude Stein and I were 
completely miserable as was Evelyn Whitehead, who had 
french blood and who had been raised in France and had 
strong french sympathies. Then came the days of the in- 
vasion of Belgium and I can still hear Doctor Whitehead’s 
gentle voice reading the papers out loud and then all of 
them talking about the destruction of Louvain and how they 
must help the brave Httle belgians. Gertrude Stein desper- 
ately unhappy said to me, where is Louvain. Dcai’t you 

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know, I said. No, she said, nor do I care, but where is it. 

Our week end was over and we told Mrs. Whitehead t ha t 
we must leave. But you cannot get back to Paris now, she 
said. No, we answered, but we can stay in London. Oh no, 
she said, you must stay with us until you can get back to 
Paris. She was very sweet and we were very unhappy and 
we liked them and they liked us and we agreed to stay. And 
then to our infinite relief England came into the war. 

We had to go to London to get our trunks, to cable to 
people in America and to draw money, and Mrs. White- 
head wished to go in to see if she and her daughter could 
do anything to help the belgians. I remember that trip so 
well. There seemed so many people about everywhere, al- 
though the train was not overcrowded, but all the stations 
even little country ones, were fiiUed with people, not people 
at all troubled but just a great many people. At the junction 
where we were to change trains we met Lady Asdey, a 
friend of Myra Edgerly’s whom we had met in Paris. Oh 
how do you do, she said in a cheerful Icmd voice, I am going 
to London to say goodbye to my son- Is he gcang away, 
we said politely. Oh yes, she said, he is in the guards you 
know, and is leaving to-night for France. 

In London every thing was difficult, Gertrude Stein’s lettar 
of credit was on a french bank but mine luddly small was 
on a California cne. I say luckily small because the banks 
would ncrt: g^e large sums but my letter of credit was so 
small and so almost used up that they without heatation 
gave me all that there was left of it 
Gertrude &can cabled to her cc«isia in Baltimcare to send 
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Whiteliead at the train and we went back with her to Lock- 
ridge. It was a relief to get back. We appreciated her kind- 
ness because to have been at a hotel in London at that mo- 
ment would have been too dreadful. 

Then one day followed another and it is hard to remem- 
ber just what happened. North Whitehead was away and 
Mrs. Whitehead was terribly worried lest he should rashly 
enlist She must see him. So they telegraphed to him to come 
at once. He came. She had been quite right He had imme- 
diately gone to the nearest recruiting station to enlist and 
luckily there had been so many in front of him that the office 
closed before he was admitted. She immediately went to 
London to see Kitchener. Doctor Whitehead’s brother was 
a bishop in India and he had in his younger days known 
Kitchener very intimately. Mrs. Whitehead had this intro- 
duction and North was given a commission. She came home 
much relieved. North was to join in three days but in the 
meantime he must learn to drive a motor car. The three 
days passed very quickly and North was gone. He left im- 
mediately for France and without much equipment. And 
then came the time of waiting. 

Evelyn Whitehead was very busy planning war work and 
helping every one and I as far as possible helped her. Ger- 
trude Stein and Doctor Whitehead walked endlessly around 
the country. They talked of philosophy and history, it was 
during these days that Gertrude Stein realised how com- 
pletely it was Doctor Whitehead and not Russell who had 
had the ideas for their great book. Doctor Whitehead, the 
gentlest and most simply generous of human beings never 
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one who was brilliant, and Russell undoubtedly was bril- 
liant. 

Gertrude Stein used to come back and tell me about these 
walks and the country still the same as in the days of Chau- 
cer, with the green paths of the early britons that could still 
be seen in long stretches, and the triple rainbows of that 
strange summer. They used, Doctor Whitehead and Ger- 
trude Stein, to have long conversations with game-keepers 
and mole-catchers. The mole-catcher had said, but sir, Eng- 
land has never been in a war but that she has been victori- 
ous. Doctor Whitehead turned to Gertrude Stein with a 
gentle smile. I think we may say so, he said. The game- 
keeper, when Doctor Whitehead seemed discouraged said 
to him, but Doctor Whitehead, England is the predominant 
nation, is she not. I hope she is, yes I hope she is, replied 
Doctor Whitehead gently. 

The germans were getting nearer and nearer Paris. One 
day Doctor Whitehead said to Gertrude Stein, they were 
just going through a rough little wood and he was helping 
her, have you any copies of your writings or are they all in 
Paris. They are all in Paris, she said. I did not like to ask, 
said Doctor Whitehead, but I have been worrying. 

Th.e germans were getting nearer and nearer Paris and the 
last day Gertrude Stein could not leave her room, she sat 
and mourned. She loved Paris, she thought neither o£ manu- 
scripts nor of pictures, she thought only oi Paris and she 
was desolate. I came up to her room, I called out, it is alright 
Paris is saved, the germans are in retreat. Sie turned away 
and said, don’t tdl me these thii^ But it’s tru^ I said, it 
is true. And then we wq)t together. 

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The first description that any one we knew received in 
England of the battle of the Marne came in a letter to Ger- 
trude Stein from Mildred Aldrich. It was practically the first 
letter of her book the Hilltop on the Marne. We were de- 
lighted to receive it, to know that Mildred was safe, and to 
know all about it. It was passed around and everybody in 
the neighbourhood read it. 

Later when we returned to Paris we had two other de- 
scriptions of the battle of the Marne. I had an old school 
firiend from California, Nellie Jacot who lived in Boulogne- 
sur-Seine and I was very worried about her. I telegraphed 
to her and she telegraphed back characteristically, Nulle- 
ment en danger ne t’inquiete pas, there is no danger don’t 
worry. It was Nellie who used to call Picasso in the early 
days a good-looking bootblack and used to say of Femande, 
she is alright but I don’t see why you bother about her. It 
was also Nellie who made Matisse blush by cross-question- 
ing htm about the different ways he saw Madame Matisse, 
how she looked to him as a wife and how she looked to him 
as a picture, and how he could change from one to the other. 
It was also Nellie who told the story which Gertrude Stein 
loved to quote, of a young man who once said to her, I love 
you Nellie, Nellie is your name, isn’t it. It was also Nellie 
who when we came back from England and we said that 
everybody had been so kind, said, oh yes, I know that kind. 

Nellie described the battle of the Marne to us. You know, 
she said, I always come to town once a week to shop and I 
always bring my maid. We come in in the street car because 
it is difficult to get a taxi in Boulogne and we go back in a 
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and when we had finished onr shopping and had had our 
tea we stood on a corner to get a taxi. We stopped several 
and when they heard where we wanted to go they drove 
on. I know that sometimes taxi drivers don’t like to go out 
to Boulogne so I said to Marie tell them we will give them 
a big tip if they will go. So she stopped another taxi with 
an old driver and I said to him, I will give you a very big 
tip to take us out to Boulogne. Ah, said he laying his finger 
on his nose, to my great regret madame it is impossible, no 
taxi can leave the city limits to-day. Why, I asked. He 
winked in answer and drove off. We had to go back to Bou- 
logne in a street car. Of course we understood later, when 
we heard about Gallieni and the taxis, said Nellie and added, 
and that was the batde of the Marne. 

Another description of the batde of the Marne when we 
first came back to Paris was from Alfy Maurer. I was sit- 
ting, said Alfy at a cafe and Paris was pale, if you know 
what I mean, said Alfy, it was like a pale absinthe. Well I 
was sitting there and then I noticed lots of horses pulling 
lots of big trucks going slowly by and there were some sol- 
diers with them and on the boxes was written Banque de 
France. That was the gold going away just like that, said 
Alfy, before the batde of the Marne. 

In those dark days of waiting in England of couree a great 
man y things happened. There were a great many people 
coming and going in the Whiteheads’ home and there 
was of course plenty of discusacai. First there was Lytton 
Strachey. He lived in a Ikde hou^ net far from Lockridge. 

He came one evening to see Mrs. Whitehead. He was a 
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We had met him the year before when we had been invited 
to meet George Moore at the house of Miss Ethel Sands. 
Gertrude Stein and George Moore, who looked very like a 
prosperous Mellins Food baby, had not been interested in 
each other. Lytton Strachey and I talked together about 
Picasso and the russian ballet. 

He came in this evening and he and Mrs. Whitehead dis- 
cussed the possibility of rescuing Lytton Strachey’s sister 
who was lost in Germany. She suggested that he apply 
-to a certain person who could help him. But, said Lytton 
Strachey faiutly, I have never met him. Yes, said Mrs. 
Whitehead, but you might write to him and ask to see him. 
Not, replied Lytton Strachey faintly, if I have never met 
him. 

Another person wto turned up during that week was 
Bertrand Russell. He came to Lockridge the day North 
Whitehead left for the front. He was a pacifist and argu- 
mentative and although they were very old friends Doctor 
and Mrs. Whitehead did not think they could bear hearing 
his views just then. He came and Gertrude Stein, to divert 
everybody’s mind from the burning question of war or 
peace, introduced the subject of education. This caught Rus- 
sell and he explained all the weaknesses of the american 
system of education, particularly their neglect of the study 
of greek. Gertrude Stein replied that of course England 
which was an island needed Greece which was or might 
have been an island. At any rate greek was essentially an 
island culture while America needed essentially the culture 
of a continent which was of necessity latin. This argument 
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then became very earnest and gave a long discourse on the 
value of greek to the english, aside from its being an island, 
and the lack of value of greek culture for the americans 
based upon the psychology of americans as different from 
the psychology of the english. She grew very eloquent on 
the disembodied abstract quality of the ameiican character 
and cited examples, mingling automobiles with Emerson, 
and all proving that they did not need greek, in a way that 
fussed Russell more and more and kept everybody occupied 
until everybody went to bed. 

There were many discussions in those days. The bishop, 
the brother of Doctor Whitehead and his f amil y came to 
lunch. They aU talked constantly about how England had 
come into the war to save Belgium. At last my nerves could 
bear it no longer and I blurted out^ why do you say that, 
why do you not say that you are fighting for England, I do 
not consider it a disgrace to fight for one’s country. 

Mrs. Bishop, the bishop’s wife was very funny on this 
occasion. She said solemnly to Gertrude Stein, Miss Stein 
you are I understand an important person in Paris. I think 
it would come very well from a neutral like yourself to sug- 
gest to the french government that they give us Pondich^. 
It would be very useful to us. Gertrude Stein replied po- 
litely that to her great regret her importance such as it was 
was am ong painters and writers and nc^ with politicians. 
But that, said Mrs. Bishc^, would make no difference. You 
shotdd I think suggest to the french government that they 
give us Pcmdich&y. After lunch Gertrude Stein said to me 
under her breath, wtere the hell k PonSriiary- 

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talked about ge rman organisation. She used to insist that the 
germans had no organisation, they had method but no or- 
ganisation. Don’t you understand the difference, she used 
to say angrily, any two americans, any twenty americans, 
any millions of americans can organise themselves to do 
something but germans cannot organise themselves to do 
anything^ they can formulate a method and this method 
can be put upon them but that isn’t organisation. The ger- 
mans, she used to insist, are not modem, they are a back- 
ward people who have made a method of what we conceive 
as organisation, can’t you see. They cannot therefore pos- 
sibly win this war because they are not modern. 

Then another thin g that used to annoy us dreadfully was 
the english statement that the germans in America would 
turn America against the allies. Don’t be silly, Gertrude 
Stein used to say to any and all of them, if you do not realise 
that the fundamental sympathy in America is with France 
and England and could never be with a mediaeval country 
like Germany, you caimot imderstand America. We are re- 
publican, she used to say with energy, profoundly intensely 
and completely a republic and a republic can have every- 
thing in common with France and a great deal in common 
with England but whatever its form of government nothing 
in common with Germany. How often I have heard her 
then and since explain that americans are republicans living 
in a republic which is so much a republic that it could never 
be anything else. 

The long summer wore on. It was beautiful weather and 
beautiful country, and Doctor Whitehead and Gertrude 

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Stein never ceased wandering around in it and talking about 
all things. 

From time to time we went to London. We went regu- 
larly to Cook’s office to know when we might go back to 
Paris and they always answered not yet. Gertrude Stein went 
to see John Lane. He was terribly upset. He was passion- 
ately patriotic. He said of course he was doing nothing at 
present but publishing war-books but soon very soon things 
would be different or perhaps the war would be over. 

Gertrude Stein’s cousia and my father sent us money by 
the United States cruiser Tennessee. We went to get it. We 
were each one put on the scale and our heights measured 
and then they gave the money to us. How, said we to one 
another, can a cousin who has not seen you in ten years and 
a father who has not seen me for six years possibly know 
our heights and our weights. It had always been a puzzle. 
Four years ago Gertrude Stein’s cousin came to Paris and 
the first thing she said to him was, Julian how did you know 
my weight and height when you sent me money by the 
Tennessee. Did I know it, he said. Well, she said, at any 
rate they had written it down that you did. I cannot re- 
member of course, he said, but if any one were to ask me 
now I would naturally send to Washington for a copy of 
your passport and I probably did that then. And so was the 
mystery solved. 

We also had to go to the american embassy to get tem- 
porary passports to go back to Paris. We had no papers, 
ncA>ody had any papers in those days. Gertrude &ein as a 
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matriculation which stated that she was an american and a 
french resident. 

The embassy was very full of not very american looking 
citizens waiting their turn. Finally we were ushered in to a 
very tired looking young american. Gertrude Stein re- 
marked upon the number of not very american looking 
citizens that were waiting. The young american sighed. 
They are easier, he said, because they have papers, it is only 
the native born american who has no papers. Well what do 
you do about them, asked Gertrude Stein. We guess, he said, 
and we hope we guess right. And now, said he, will you take 
the oath. Oh dear, he said, I have said it so often I have for- 
gotten it. 

By the fifteenth of October Cook’s said we could go back 
to Paris. Mrs. Whitehead was to go with us. North, her son, 
had left without an overcoat, and she had secured one and 
she was afraid he would not get it until much later if she 
sent it the ordinary way. She arranged to go to Paris and 
deliver it to him herself or find some one who would take it 
to him directly. She had papers from the war office and 
Kitchener and we started. 

I remember the leaving London very little, I cannot even 
remember whether it was day-light or not but it must have 
been because when we were on the channel boat it was day- 
light. The boat was crowded. There were quantities of bel- 
gian soldiers and officers escaped from Antwerp, all vnth 
tired eyes. It was our first experience of the tired but watch- 
ful eyes of soldiers. We finally were able to arrange a seat 
for Mrs. Whitehead who had been ill and soon we were in 
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tkere were no delays and soon we were in the train and 
about ten o’clock at night we were in Paris. We took a taxi 
and drove through Paris, beautiful and unviolated, to the 
rue de Fleurus. We were once more at home. 

Everybody who had seemed so far away came to see us. 
Alfy Maurer described being on the Marne at his favourite 
village, he always fished the Marne, and the mobilisation 
locomotive coming and the germans were coming and he 
was so frightened and he tried to get a conveyance and 
finally after terrific efiorts he succeeded and got back to 
Paris. As he left Gertrude Stein went with bim to the door 
and came back smiling. Mrs. Whitehead said with some 
constraint, Gertrude you have always spoken so warmly of 
Alfy Maurer but how can you like a man who shows him- 
self not only selfish but a coward and at a time like this. 
He thought only of saving hims elf and he after all was a 
neutraL Gertrude Stein burst out laughing. You foolish 
woman, she said, didn’t you understand, of course Alfy had 
his girl with him and he was scared to death lest she should 
fall into the hands of the germans. ^ 

There were not many people in Paris just thai and we 
liked it and we wandered around Paris and k was so nice 
to be there, wmiderfully nke. Socai Mrs. Whitehead found 
means of sending her son’s coat to him and went bade to 
England and we setded down for die winter. 

Gertrude Stein sent a^ies of her manuscripts to hiends 
in New York to keep ficff ha:. We heped diat all danger 
was over hut -still k si^med better to do so and there were 
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at night before we left. Paris continued to have its usual 
street lights until January. 

How it all happened I do not at all remember but it was 
through Carl Van Vechten and had something to do with 
the Nortons, but at any rate there was a letter from Donald 
Evans proposing to publish three manuscripts to make a 
small book and would Gertrude Stein suggest a title for 
them. Of these three manuscripts two had been written dur- 
ing our first trip into Spain and Food, Rooms etcetera, im- 
mediately on our return. They were the beginning, as Ger- 
trude Stein would say, of mixing the outside with the inside. 
Hitherto she had been concerned with seriousness and the 
inside of things, in these studies she began to describe the 
inside as seen from the outside. She was awfully pleased at 
the idea of these three things being published, and imme- 
diately consented, and suggested the title of Tender Buttons. 
Donald Evans called his firm the Claire Marie and he sent 
over a contract just like any other contract. We took it for 
granted that there was a Claire Marie but there evidently 
was not. There were printed of this edition I forget whether 
it was seven hundred and fifty or a thousand copies but at 
any rate it was a very charming httle book and Gertrude 
Stein was enormously pleased, and it, as every one knows, 
had an enormous influence on all young writers and started 
o£E columnists in the newspapers of the whole country on 
their long campaign of ridicule. I must say that when the 
columnists are really funny, and they quite often ar^ Ger- 
trude Stein chuckles and reads them aloud to me. 

In the meantime the dreary winter of fourteen and fifteen 
went on. One night, I imagine it must have been about the 

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end of January, I had as was and is my habit gone to bed 
very early, and Gertrude Stein was down in the studio work- 
ing, as was her habit. Suddenly I heard her call me gently. 
What is it, I said. Oh nothing, said she, but perhaps if you 
don’t mind putting on something warm and coming down- 
stairs I think perhaps it would be better. What is it, I said, a 
revolution. The concierges and the wives of the concierges 
were all always talking about a revolution. The french are 
so accustomed to revolutions, they have had so many, that 
when anything happens they immediately think and say, 
revolution. Indeed Gertrude Stein once said rather impa- 
tiently to some french soldiers when they said something 
about a revolution, you are sUly, you have had one perfectly 
good revolution and several not quite so good ones; for an 
intelligent people it seems to me foolish to be always think- 
ing of repeating yourselves. They looked very sheepish and 
said, bien stir mademoiselle, in other words, sure you’re 
right. 

Well I too said when she woke me; is it a revolution and 
are there soldiers. No, she said, not exactly. Well what is it, 
said I impatiently. I don’t quite know, she answered, but 
there has been an alarm. Anyway you had better come. I 
started to turn on the light. No, she said, you had better not. 
Give me your hand and I will get you down and you can 
go to sleep down stairs on the couch. I came. It was very 
dark. I sat down on the couch and then I said, Fm sure I 
don’t know vdiat is the matter with me but my knees are 
knocking together. Gertni<fc Stein burst out laughing, wait 
a minute, I wi^ g^ joa a Manket, she said. No don’t leave 
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then there was a loud boom, then several more. It was a soft 
noise and then there was the sound of horns blowing in the 
streets and then we knew it was all over. We lighted the 
lights and went to bed. 

I must say I would not have believed it was true that knees 
knocked together as described in poetry and prose if it had 
not happened to me. 

The next time there was a Zeppelin alarm and it was not 
very long after this first one, Picasso and Eve were dining 
with us. By this time we knew that the two-story building 
of the atelier was no more protection than the roof of the 
little pavilion under which we slept and the concierge had 
suggested that we should go into her room where at least 
we would have six stories over us. Eve was not very well 
these days and fearful so we all went into the concierge’s 
room- Even Jeanne Poule the Breton servant who had suc- 
ceeded Helene, came too. Jeanne soon was bored with this 
precaution and so in spite of all remonstrance, she went back 
to her kitchen, lit her hght, in spite of the regulations, and 
proceeded to wash the dishes. We soon too got bored with 
the concierge’s loge and went back to the atelier. We put a 
candle under the table so that it would not make much light, 
Eve and I tried to sleep and Picasso and Gertrude Stein 
talked until two in the momiug when the all’s clear sounded 
and they went home. 

Picasso and Eve were living these days on the rue Schoel- 
cher in a rather sumptuous studio apartment that looked 
over the cemetery. It was not very gay. The only excitement 
were the letters from Guillaume Apollinaire who was fall- 
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man. The only other intimates at that time were a russian 
whom they called G. Apostrophe and his sister the baronne. 
They bought all the Rousseaus that were in Rousseau’s ate- 
lier when he died. They had an apartment in the boulevard 
Raspail above Victor Hugo’s tree and they were not un- 
amusing. Picasso learnt the russian alphabet from them and 
began putting it into some of his pictures. 

It was not a very cheerful winter. People came in and out, 
new ones and old ones. Ellen La Motte turned up, she was 
very heroic but gun shy. She wanted to go to Servia and 
Emily Chadbourne wanted to go with her but they did 
not go. 

Gertrude Stein wrote a little novelette about this event 

Ellen La Motte collected a set of souvenirs of the war for 
her cousin Dupont de Nemours. The stories of how she got 
them were diverting. Everybody brought you souvenirs in 
those days, steel arrows that pierced horses’ heads, pieces 
of shell, ink-wells made out of pieces of sheU, helmets, scame 
one even oflEered us a piece dE a Zeppelin or an aeroplane, 
I forget which, but we declined. It was a strange winter and 
nothing and everything happened. If I remember ri^itly it 
was at this time that some one, I imagine it was Apollinaire 
cai leav^ gave a ccmcert and a reading Blaise Cendrars’ 
poems. It was then that I first heard menticaKd and first 
heard the muac of Erik Satie. I remember this toc^ place 
in some one’s atelier and tibe place was crowded. It was in 
these days too that the frien<Mi^ b^ween Gertrude Stein 
and Juan Gris began. He was living in the me Ravignan 
in Ihe stadio where SadpicKi had been dint up when he ate 
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We used to go there quite often. Juan was having a hard 
time, no one was buying pictures and the french artists were 
not in want because they were at the front and their wives 
or their mistresses if they had been together a certain num- 
ber of years were receiving an allowance. There was one bad 
case, Herbin, a nice little man but so tiny that the army dis- 
missed him. He said ruefully the pack he had to carry 
weighed as much as he did and it was no use, he could not 
manage it. He was returned home inapt for service and he 
came near starving. I don’t know who told us about him, he 
was one of the early simple earnest cubists. Luckily Gertrude 
Stein succeeded in interesting Roger Fry. Roger Fry took 
bim and his painting over to England where he made and 
I imagine still has a considerable reputation. 

Juan Gris’ case was more difficult. Juan was in those days 
a tormented and not particularly sympathetic character. He 
was very melancholy and effusive and as always clear sighted 
and intellectual. He was at that time painting almost en- 
tirely in black and white and his pictures were very sombre. 
Kahnweiler who had befriended him was an exile in Switz- 
erland, Juan’s sister in Spain was able to help him only a 
little. His situation was desperate. 

It was just at this time that the picture dealer who after- 
wards, as the expert in the Kahnweiler sale said he was 
going to kill cubism, undertook to save cubism and he made 
contracts with all the cubists who were still free to paint. 
Among them was Juan Gris and for the moment he was 
saved. 

As soon as we were back in Paris we went to see Mildred 
Aldrich. She was within the military area so we imagined 

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we would have to have a special permit to go and see her. 
We went to the police station of our quarter and asked them 
what we should do. He said what papers have you. We have 
american passports, french matriculation papers, said Ger- 
trude Stein taking out a pocket full. He looked at them all 
and said and what is this, of another yellow paper. That, 
said Gertrude Stein, is a receipt from my bank for the money 
I have just deposited. I think, said he solemnly, I would take 
that along too. I think, he added, with all those you will 
not have any trouble. 

We did not as a matter of fact have to show any one any 
papers. We stayed with Mildred several days. 

She was much the most cheerful person we knew that 
winter. She had been through the battle of the Marne, she 
had had the Uhlans in the woods below her, she had 
watched the batde going on below her and she had become 
part of the country-side. We teased her and told her she was 
beginning to look like a french peasant and she did, in a 
funny kind of way, born and bred new englander that she 
was. It was always astonishing that the inside of her little 
french peasant house with french furniture french paint and 
a french servant and even a french poodk, looked com- 
pletely american. We saw her several times that winter. 

At last the spring came and we were ready to go away for 
a bit. Our friend William Coc^ after nursing a while in the 
american hospital for french wounded had gcme again to 
Palma de Mallorca. who had always earned his living 
by painting was finding it difficult to get €» and he had re- 
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change was very low one lived extremely well for a few 
francs a day. 

We decided we would go to Palma too and forget the war 
a little. We had only the temporary passports that had been 
given to us in London so we went to the embassy to get 
permanent ones with which we might go to Spain. We were 
first interviewed by a kindly old gentleman most evidendy 
not in the diplomatic service. Impossible, he said, why, said 
he, look at me, I have hved in Paris for forty years and come 
of a long line of americans and I have no passport. No, he 
said, you can have a passport to go to America or you can 
stay in France without a passport. Gertrude Stein insisted 
upon seeing one of the secretaries of the embassy. We saw 
a flushed reddish-headed one. He told us exactly the same 
thing. Gertrude Stein listened quiedy. She then said, but so 
and so who is exacdy in my position, a native born ameri- 
can, has lived the same length of time in Europe, is a writer 
and has no intention of returning to America at present, has 
just received a regular passport from your department. I 
think, said the young man still more flushed, there must be 
some error. It is very simple, replied Gertrude Stein, to verify 
it by looking the matter up in your records. He disappeared 
and presently came back and said, yes you are quite correct 
but you see it was a very special case. There can be, said Ger- 
trude Stein severely, no privilege extended to one american 
citizen which is not to be, given similar circumstances, ac- 
corded to any other american citizen. He once more dis- 
appeared and came back and said, yes yes now ma y I go 
through the preliminaries. He then explained that they had 
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really wanted one why of course it was quite alright. We got 
ours in record time. 

And we went to Palma thinking to spend only a few 
weeks but we stayed the winter. First we went to Barcelona. 
It was extraordinary to see so many men on the streets. I 
did not imagine there could be so many m en left in the 
world. One’s eyes had become so habituated to menless 
streets, the few men one saw being in unif orm and there- 
fore not being men but soldiers, that to see quantities of 
men walking up and down die Ramblas was bewildering. 
We sat in the hotel window and looked. I went to bed early 
and got up early and Gertrude Stein went to bed late and 
got up late and so in a way we overlapped but there was not 
a moment when there were not quantities of men going up 
and down the Ramblas. 

We arrived in Palma once again and Cook met us and 
arranged everything for us. William Cook could always be 
depended upon. In those days he was poor but later when 
he had inherited money and was well to do and Mildred 
Aldrich had fallen upon very bad days and Gertrude &ein 
was not able to help any mcMre, William Coe^ gave her a 
blank cheque and said, use that as much as you need £<k 
Mildred, you know my mcRher loved to reaA her bocJcs. 

William Cook often disappeared and one knew ncfthing 
c£ him and then when f <»■ caae reaseai cr another you nmled 
him there Ik was. Ifc went into the ameiican army later 
and at that timr Gatrude Stein and m^df were ddbg war 
■weak, the Americatt Ftmd for French Wounded and I 
had ofim ®B wake her t]|> vay early. Sie and Cock^ used to 
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unpleasantness of sunrises met suddenly. Sunrises were, they 
contended, alright when approached slowly from the night 
before, but when faced abruptly from the same morning 
they were awful. It was WilUam Cook too who later on 
taught Gertrude Stein how to drive a car by teaching her 
on one of the old battle of the Marne taxis. Cook being hard 
up had become a taxi driver in Paris, that was in sixteen and 
Gertrude Stein was to drive a car for the American Fund 
for French Wounded. So on dark nights they went out be- 
yond the fortifications and the two of them sitting solemnly 
on the driving seat of one of those old two-cylinder before- 
the-war Renault taxis, William Cook taught Gertrude Stein 
how to drive. It was WilUam Cook who inspired the only 
movie Gertrude Stein ever wrote in english, I have just pub- 
lished it in Operas and Plays in the Plain Edition. The only 
other one she ever wrote, also in Operas and Plays, many 
years later and in french, was inspired by her white poodle 
dog called BaskeL 

But to come back to Palma de Mallorca. We had been 
there two summers before and had liked it and we liked it 
again. A great many americans seem to like it now but in 
those days Cook and ourselves were the only americans to 
inhabit the island. There were a few engUsh, about three 
families there. There was a descendant of one of Nelson’s 
captains, a Mrs. Penfold, a sharp-tongued elderly lady and 
her husband. It was she who said to young Mark Gilbert, 
an english boy of sixteen with pacifist tendencies who had 
at tea at her house refused cake, Mark you are either old 
enough to fight for your country or young enough to eat 
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There were several french families there, the french con- 
sul, Monsieur Marchand with a char min g Italian wife whom 
we soon came to know very well. It was he who was very 
much amused at a story we had to tell him of Morocco. He 
had been attached to the french residence at Tangiers at the 
moment the french induced Moulai Hafid the then sultan 
of Morocco to abdicate. We had been in Tangiers at that 
time for ten days, it was during that first trip to Spain when 
so much happened that was important to Gertrude Stein. 

We had taken on a guide Moh amm ed and Moh amme d 
had taken a fancy to us. He became a pleasant companion 
rather than a guide and we used to take long walks together 
and he used to take us to see his cousins’ wonderfully clean 
arab middle class homes and drink tea. We enjoyed it all. 
He also told us all about politics. He had been educated in 
Moulai Hafid’s palace and he knew everything that was 
happening. He told us just how much money Moulai Hafid 
would take to abdicate and just when he would be ready to 
do it. We liked these stcffies as we liked all Mohammed’s 
stories always ending up with, and when ycJU come t«ck 
there will be street cars and then we won’t have to walk and 
that will be nice. Later in Spain we read in the papers that 
it had all happened exactly as Moh amme d had said it would 
and we paid no further attention. Once in talking of our 
only visit to Morocco we told Monsieur Marchand this story. 
He said, yes that is diplomacy, prdjably the only people in 
the world who were not arabs who knew what the french 
government wanted so desperately to know were you two 
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Life in Palma was pleasant and so instead of travelling 
any more that summer we decided to settle down in Palma, 
We sent for our french servant Jeanne Poule and with the 
aid of the postman we found a litde house on the calle de 
Dos de Mayo in Terreno, just outside of Palma, and we set- 
tled down. We were very content. Instead of spending only 
the summer we stayed until the following spring. 

We had been for some time members of Mudie’s Library 
in London and wherever we went Mudie’s Library books 
came to us. It was at this time that Gertrude Stem read 
aloud to me all of Queen Victoria’s letters and she herself 
became interested in missionary autobiographies and diaries. 
There were a great many in Mudie’s Library and she read 
them all. 

It was during this stay at Palma de Mallorca that most of 
the plays afterwards published in Geography and Plays were 
written. She always says that a certain kind of landscape in- 
duces plays and the country aroirnd Terreno certainly did. 

We had a dog, a mallorcan hound, the hounds slightly 
crazy, who dance in the moonlight, striped, not all one 
colour as the Spanish hound of the continent. We called this 
dog Polybe because we were pleased with the articles in the 
Figaro signed Polybe. Polybe was, as Monsieur Marchand 
said, like an arab, bon accueil a tout le monde et fidHe h 
personne. He had an incurable passion for eating filth and 
nothing would stop him. We muzzled him to see if that 
would cure him, but this so outraged the russian servant of 
the english consul that we had to give it up. Then he took 
to annoying sheep. We even took to quarrelling with Cook 
about Polybe. Cook had a fox terrier called Marie-Rose and 


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we were convinced that Marie-Rose led Polybe into mischief 
and then virtuously withdrew and let him take the blame. 
Cook was convinced that we did not know how to bring up 
Polybe. Polybe had one nice trait. He would sit in a chair 
and gently smell large bunches of tube-roses with which I 
always filled a vase in the centre of the room on the floor. 
He never tried to eat them, he just gently smelled them. 
When we left we left Polybe behind us in the care of one 
of the guardians of the old fortress of Belver. When we saw 
him a week after he did not know tis or his name. Polybe 
comes into many of the plays Gertrude Stein wrote at that 
time. 

The feelings of the island at that time were very mixed 
as to the war. The thing that impressed them the most was 
the amount of money it cost. They could discuss by the hour, 
how much it cost a year, a month, a week, a day, an hour 
and even a minute. We used to hear them of a summer eve- 
ning, five million pesetas, a million pesetas, two million 
pesetas, good-night, good-night, and know they were busy 
with their endless calculations of the cost of the war. As 
most of the men even those of the better middle classes read, 
wrote and ciphered with difSculty and the women nc* at 
all, it can be ima gined how fesdnating and endless a sub- 
ject the cost of the war was. 

One of our ndghbours had a german governess and when- 
ever there was a german victory she hung out a german flag. 
We responded as wdl as we could, but alas just then there 
were not man y alliai victories. 'Ihe lower classes were strong 
for the allies:. The waher at the hotel was always lotddng 
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allies. He was certaia that the Spanish army would be of 
great aid as it could march longer on less food than any 
army in the world. The maid at the hotel took great interest 
in my knitting for the soldiers. She said, of course madame 
knits very slowly, all ladies do. But, said I hopefully, if I 
knit for years may I not come to knit quickly, not as quickly 
as you but quickly. No, said she firmly, ladies knit slowly. 
As a matter of fact I did come to knit very quickly and 
could even read and knit quickly at the same time. 

We led a pleasant life, we walked a great deal and ate 
extremely well, and were well amused by our breton servant. 

She was patriotic and always wore the tricolour ribbon 
around her hat She once came home very excited. She had 
just been seeing another french servant and she said, im- 
agine, Marie has just had news that her brother was 
drowned and has had a civilian funeral. How did that hap- 
pen, I asked also much excited. Why, said Jeanne, he had not 
yet been called to the army. It was a great honour to have a 
brother have a civilian funeral during the war. At any rate 
it was rare. Jeanne was content with Spanish newspapers, 
she had no trouble reading them, as she said, all the im- 
portant words were in french. 

Jeanne told endless stories of french village life and Ger- 
trude Stein could Ksten a long time and then all of a sudden 
she could not listen any more. 

Life in Mallorca was pleasant until the attack on Verdun 
began. Then we all began to be very miserable. We tried to 
console each other but it was difficult. One of the french- 
men, an engraver who had palsy and in spite of the palsy 
tried every few months to get the firench consul to accept 

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him for the army, used to say we must not worry if Verdun 
is taken, it is not an entry into France, it is only a moral 
victory for the germans. But we were all desperately un- 
happy. I had been so confident and now I had an awful feel- 
ing that the war had gotten out of my hands. 

In the port of Palma was a german ship called the Fang- 
turm which sold pins and needles to all the Mediterranean 
ports before the war and further, presumably, because it was 
a very big steamer. It had been caught in Palma when the 
war broke out and had never been able to leave. Most of the 
ofl&cers and sailors had gotten away to Barcelona but the 
big ship remained in the harbour. It looked very rusty and 
neglected and it was just under our windows. All of a sud- 
den as the attack on Verdun commenced, they began paint- 
ing the Fangturm. Iiiiagine our feelings. We were all pretty 
unhappy and this was despair. We told the french consul 
and he told us and it was awful. 

Day by day the news was worse and one whole side of the 
Fangturm was painted and then they stopped painting. They 
knew it before we did. Verdim was not going to be taken. 
Verdun was safe. The germans had given up hoping to 
take it. 

When it was all over we none of us wanted to stay in Mal- 
lorca any longer, we all wanted to go home. It was at this 
time that Cook and Gertrude Stein spent all their time talk- 
ing about automobiles. They neither of them had ever driven 
but they were getting very interested. Coc^ also began to 
wonder how he was gdbig to earn his living when he got to 
Paris. His tiny incxMue did fcH: Mallorca but it would not 
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F^ix Potin’s delivery wagons, he said after all he Hked 
horses better than automobiles. Anyway he went back to 
Paris and when we got there, we went a longer way, by way 
of Madrid, he was driving a Paris taxi. Later on he became 
a trier-out of cars for the Renault works and I can remember 
how exciting it was when he described how the wind blew 
out his cheeks when he made eighty kilometres an hour. 
Then later he joined the american army. 

We went home by way of Madrid. There we had a curious 
experience. We went to the american consul to have our 
passports visaed. He was a great big flabby man and he had 
a filipino as an assistant. He looked at our passports, he 
measured them, weighed them, looked at them upside down 
and finally said that he supposed they were alright but how 
could he tell. He then asked the filipino what he thought. 
The filipino seemed inclined to agree that the consul could 
not tell. I tell you what you do, he said ingratiatingly, you 
go to the french consul since you are going to France and 
you live in Paris and if the french consul says they are al- 
right, why the consul will sign. The consul sagely nodded. 

We were furious. It was an awkward position that a 
french consul, not an american one should decide whether 
american passports were alright. However there was noth- 
ing else to do so we went to the french consul. 

When our turn came the man in charge took our pass- 
ports and looked them over and said to Gertrude Stein, 
when were you last in Spain. She stopped to think, she never 
can remember anything when anybody asks her suddenly, 
and she said she did not remember hut she thought it was 
such and such a date. He said no, and mentioned another 

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year. She said very likely he was right. Then he went on to 
give all the dates of her various visits to Spain and finally he 
added a visit when she was still at college when she was in 
Spain with her brother just after the Spanish war. It was all 
in a way rather frightening to me standing by but Gertrude 
Stein and the assistant consul seemed to be thoroughly in- 
terested in fixing dates. Finally he said, you see I was for 
many years in the letter of credit department of the Credit 
Lyonnais in Madrid and I have a very good memory and I 
remember, of course I remember you very well. We were 
aU very pleased. He signed the passports and told us to go 
back and tell our consul to do so also. 

At the time we were furious with our consul but now I 
wonder if it was not an arrangement between the two offices 
that the american consul should not sign any passport to 
enter France until the french consul had decided whether its 
owner was or was not desirable. 

We came back to an entirely different Paris. It was no 
longer gloomy. It was no longer empty. This time we did 
not setde down, we decided to get into the war. One day 
we were walking down the rue des Pyramides and there was 
a ford car being backed up the str^t by an american girl 
and on the car it said, American Fund fear French Wounded. 
There, said I, that is what we are going to do. At Icas^ said 
I to Gertrude Stein, you vrill drive the car and I will do the 
rest. We went over and talked to the american girl and then 
mterviewed Mrs. Lafhrop, the head of the organisation. She 
was enthusiastic, ^ vras jdways enthusiastk: and she said, 
get a car. But where, we asked. From America, riie said. But 
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did, she asked her cousin and in a few months the ford car 
came. In the meanwhile Cook had taught her to drive his 
taxi. 

As I said it was a changed Paris. Everything was changed, 
and everybody was cheerful. 

During our absence Eve had died and Picasso was now 
living in a little home in Montrouge. We went out to see 
him. He had a marvellous rose pink silk counterpane on his 
bed. Where did that come from Pablo, asked Gertrude Stein. 
Ah 5a, said Picasso with much satisfaction, that is a lady. 
It was a well known Chilean society woman who had given 
it to him. It was a marvel. He was very cheerful. He was 
constantly co min g to the house, bringing Paquerette a girl 
who was very nice or Irene a very lovely woman who came 
from the mountains and wanted to be free. He brought Erik 
Satie and the Princesse de Polignac and Blaise Cendrars. 

It was a great pleasure to know Erik Satie. He was from 
Normandy and very fond of it. Marie Laurencin comes from 
Normandy, so also does Braque. Once when after the war 
Satie and Marie Laurencin were at the house for lunch they 
were delightfully enthusiastic about each other as being nor- 
mans. Erik Satie liked food and wine and knew a lot about 
both. We had at that time some very good eau de vie that 
the husband of Mildred Aldrich’s servant had given us and 
Erik Satie, drinking his glass slowly and with appreciation, 
told stories of the country in his youth. 

Only once in the half dozen times that Erik Satie was at 
the house did he talk about music. He said that it had always 
been his opinion and he was glad that it was being recog- 
nised that modern french music owed nothing to modem 

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Germany. That after Debussy had led the way french mu- 
sicians had either followed him or found their own french 
way. 

He told charming stories, usually of Normandy, he had a 
playful wit which was sometimes very biting. He was a 
charming dinner-guest. It was many years later that Virgil 
Thomson, when we first knew him in his tiny room near the 
Gare Saint-Lazare, played for us the whole of Socrate. It 
was then that Gertrude Stein really became a Satie enthu- 
siast. 

Ellen La Motte and Emily Chadboume, who had not 
gone to Serbia, were still in Paris. Ellen La Motte, who was 
an ex Johns Hopkins nurse, wanted to nurse near the front. 
She was still gun shy but she did want to nurse at the front, 
and they met Mary Borden-Turner who was running a hos- 
pital at the front and EUen La Motte did for a few months 
nurse at the front. After that she and Emily Chadboume 
went to China and after that became leaders of the anti- 
opium campaign. 

Mary Borden-Tumer had been and was gcang to be a 
writer. She was very enthusiastic about the work of Ger- 
trude Stein and travelled with what she had of it and vol- 
umes of Flaubert to and from the front. She had taken a 
house near the Bois and it was heated and during that win- 
ter when the rest of us had no coal it was very pleasant 
go ing to dinne r there and being warm. We liked Turner. 
He was a captain in the British army and was doing contre- 
es|nooage wcffk \^ry successfully. Although married to Mary 
Borden he did ncrt: believe in millionaires. He insisted upon 
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in tLe village in which he was biHeted and he always said 
that after the war he would be collector of customs for the 
British in Diisseldorf or go out to Canada and live simply. 
After all, he used to say to his wife, you are not a milUonaire, 
not a real one. He had british standards of miUionairedom. 
Mary Borden was very Chicago. Gertrude Stein always says 
that chicagoans spend so much energy losing Chicago that 
often it is difficult to know what they are. They have to lose 
the Chicago voice and to do so they do many things. Some 
lower their voices, some raise them, some get an english ac- 
cent, some even get a german accent, some drawl, some 
speak in a very high tense voice, and some go Chinese oir 
Spanish and do not move the lips. Mary Borden was very 
Chicago and Gertrude Stein was immensely interested in 
her and in Chicago. 

All this time we were waiting for our ford truck which 
was on its way and then we waited for its body to be buUt. 
We waited a great deal. It was then that Gertrude Stein 
wrote a great many little war poems, some of them have 
since been published in the volume Useful Knowledge 
which has in it only things about America. 

Stirred by the publication of Tender Buttons many news- 
papers had taken up the amusement of imitating Gertrude 
Stein’s work and making fun of it. Life began a series that 
were called after Gertrude Stein. 

Gertrude Stein suddenly one day wrote a letter to Masson 
who was then editor of Life and said to him that the real 
Gertrude Stein was as Henry McBride had pointed out fun- 
nier in every way than the imitations, not to say much more 
interesting, and why did they not print the original. To 


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her astonishment she received a very nice letter from Mr. 
Masson saying that he would be glad to do so. And they did. 
They printed two things that she sent them, one about 
Wilson and one longer thing about war work in France. 
Mr. Masson had more courage than most. 

This winter Paris was bitterly cold and there was no coal. 
We finally had none at all. We closed up the big room and 
stayed in a Httle room but at last we had no more coal. The 
government was giving coal away to the needy but we did 
not feel justified in sending our servant to stand in line to 
get it. One afternoon it was bitterly cold, we went out and 
on a street comer was a policeman and standing with him 
was a sergeant of police. Gertrude Stein went up to them. 
Look here, she said to them, what are we to do. I live in a 
pavilion on the rue de Fleurus and have lived there many 
years. Oh yes, said they nodding their heads, certainly ma- 
dame we know you very well. Well, she said, I have no coal 
not even enough to heat one small room. I do not want to 
send my servant to get it for nothings that does not seem 
right. Now, she said, it is up to yew to tell me what to do. 
The policeman lodced at his sergeant and the sergeant 
nodded. Alright, they said. 

We went home. That evening the policeman in civilian 
clothes turned up with two sacks. c£ coaL We accepted 
thankfully and asked no que^ews. The policeman, a stal- 
wart breton became our all in alL He did everything for us, 
he cleaned our heme, he cleaned our chimneys he got us in 
and he got us ottt and on dark nights when Zeppelins came 
it was ccmfcataMic to knew that he was semewhere outside. 

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everything else we had gotten used to them. When they 
came at dinn er time we went on eating and when they came 
at night Gertrude Stein did not wake me, she said I might 
as well stay where I was if I was asleep because when asleep 
it took more than even the siren that they used then to give 
the signal, to wake me. 

Our little ford was almost ready. She was later to be 
called Auntie after Gertrude Stein’s aunt Pauline who always 
behaved admirably in emergencies and behaved fairly well 
most times if she was properly flattered. 

One day Picasso came in and with him and leaniug on his 
shoulder was a slim elegant youth. It is Jean, announced 
Pablo, Jean Cocteau and we are leaving for Italy. 

Picasso had been excited at the prospect of doing the 
scenery for a russian ballet, the music to be by Satie, the 
drama by Jean Cocteau. Everybody was at the war, life in 
Montparnasse was not very gay, Montrouge with even a 
faithful servant was not very lively, he too needed a change. 
He was very lively at the prospect of going to Rome. We all 
said goodbye and we all went our various ways. 

The little ford car was ready. Gertrude Stein had learned 
to drive a french car and they all said it was the same. I have 
never driven any car, but it would appear that it is not the 
same. We went outside of Paris to get it when it was ready 
and Gertrude Stein drove it in. Of course the first thin g she 
did was to stop dead on the track between two street cars. 
Everybody got out and pushed us off the track. The next 
day when we started off to see what would happen we man- 
aged to get as far as the Champs Elysees and once more 
stopped dead. A crowd shoved us to the side walk and then 


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tried to find out what was the matter. Gertrude Stein 
cranked, the whole crowd cranked, nothing happened. 
Finally an old chauffeur said, no gasoline. We said proudly, 
oh yes at least a gallon, but he insisted on looking and of 
course there was none. Then the crowd stopped a whole pro- 
cession of military trucks that were going up the Champs 
Elyses. They all stopped and a couple of them brought over 
an immense tank of gasoline and tried to pour it into the 
little ford. Naturally the process was not successful. Finally 
getting into a taxi I went to a store in our quarter where 
they sold brooms and gasoline and where they knew me and 
I came back with a tin of gasoline and we finally arrived 
at the Alcazar d’Ete, the then headquarters of the American 
Fund for French Wounded. 

Mrs. Lathrop was waiting for one of the cars to take her 
to Montmartre. I immediately offered the service of our car 
and went out and told Gertrude Stein. She quoted Edwin 
Dodge to me. Once Mabel Dodge’s litde boy said he would 
like to fly from the terrace to the lower garden. Do, said 
Mabel. It is easy, said Edwin Dodge, to be a spartan mother. 

However Mrs. Lathrop came and the car went off. I must 
confess to being terribly nervous until they came back but 
come back they did. 

We had a consultation with Mrs. Lathrop and she sent us 
off to Perpignan, a region with a good many hmpitals that 
no american organisation had ever visited. We started. We 
had never been further from Paris than Fcmtainebleau in the 
car and it was terribly excidng. 

We had a few adventure we were cau^^t in the snow 
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to turn back. Wrong or right, said Gertrude Stein, we are 
going on. She could not back the car very successfully and 
indeed I may say even to this day when she can drive any 
Vind of a car an)rwhere she still does not back a car very 
well. She goes forward admirably, she does not go back- 
wards successfully. The only violent discussions that we have 
had in connection with her driving a car have been on the 
subject of backing. 

On this trip South we picked up our first military god-son. 
We began the habit then which we kept up all through the 
war of giving any soldier on the road a lift. We drove by 
day and we drove by night and in very lonely parts of 
France and we always stopped and gave a lift to any sol- 
dier, and never had we any but the most pleasant experi- 
ences with these soldiers. And some of them were as we 
sometimes found out pretty hard characters. Gertrude Stein 
once said to a soldier who was doing something for her, 
they were always doing something for her, whenever there 
was a soldier or a chauffeur or any kind of a man anywhere, 
she never did anything for herself, neither changing a tyre, 
cr anking the car or repairing it. Gertrude Stein said to this 
soldier, but you are tellement gentil, very nice and kind. 
Madame, said he quite simply, all soldiers are nice and kind. 

This faculty of Gertrude Stein of having everybody do 
anything for her puzzled the other drivers of the organisa- 
tion. Mrs. Lathrop who used to drive her own car said that 
nobody did those things for her. It was not only soldiers, a 
chauffeur would get off the seat of a private car in the place 
Venddme and crank Gertrude Stein’s old ford for her. Ger- 
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nobody would think of doing anything for them. Now as 
for herself she was not efficient, she was good humoured, she 
was democratic, one person was as good as another, and she 
knew what she wanted done. If you are like that she says, 
anybody will do anything for you. The important thing, 
she insists, is that you must have deep down as the deepest 
thing in you a sense of equality. Then anybody will do any- 
thing for you. 

It was not far from Saulieu that we picked up our first 
military god-son. He was a butcher in a tiny village not far 
from Saulieu. Our taking him up was a good example of 
the democracy of the jhench army. There were three of them 
V7alking along the road. We stopped and said we could take 
one of them on the step. They were all three going home 
on leave and walking into the country to their homes from 
the nearest big town. One was a lieutenant, one was a ser- 
geant and one a soldier. They thanked us and then the lieu- 
tenant said to each one of them, how fax have you to go. 
They eadi one named the distance and then they said, and 
you my lieutenant, how far have you to go. He tcdd them. 
Then they aU agreed that it was the scddier who had much 
the longest way to go and so it was his ri^t to have the lift. 
He touched his cap to his sergeant and trf&cer and gcrt: in. 

As I say he was our first military god-stm. We had a great 
many afterwards and it was quite an undertaking to keep 
than all gosng. The duty ctf a military god-mother was to 
write a letter as trften as ^ received one and to send a 
padcage cranfcats or dainties about once in ten days. They 
liked the packa^ but they really likoi letters even more. 
And they answared so prcanptly. It seemed to me, no sooner 

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was my letter writtea than there was an answer. And then 
one had to remember all their family histories and once I 
did a dreadful thing, I mixed my letters and so I asked a 
soldier whose wife I knew all about and whose mother was 
dead to remember me to his mother, and the one who had 
the mother to remember me to his wife. Their return letters 
were quite mournful. They each explained that I had made 
a mistake and I could see that they had been deeply 
wounded by my error. 

The most delightful god-son we ever had was one we took 
on in Nimes. One day when we were in the town I dropped 
my purse. I did not notice the loss until we returned to the 
hotel and then I was rather bothered as there had been a 
good deal of money in it. While we were eating our dinner 
the waiter said some one wanted to see us. We went out and 
there was a man holding the purse in his hand. He said he 
had picked it up in the street and as soon as his work was 
over had come to the hotel to give it to us. There was a card 
of mine in the purse and he took it for granted that a stran- 
ger would he at the hotel, beside by that time we were very 
well known in Nimes. I naturally offered him a considerable 
reward from the contents of the purse but he said no. He 
said however that he had a favour to ask. They were rdEugees 
from the Marne and his son Ahel now seventeen years old 
had just volunteered and was at present in the garrison at 
Nimes, would I be his god-mother. 1 said I would, and I 
asked him to tell his son to come to see me his first free eve- 
ning. The next evening the youngest, the sweetest, the small- 
est soldier imaginahle came in. It was Abel. 

We became very attached to Abel. I always remember his 

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first letter from the front. He began by saying that he was 
really not very much surprised by anything at the front, it 
was exacdy as it had been described to him and as he had 
imagined it, except that there being no tables one was com- 
pelled to write upon one’s knees. 

The next time we saw Abel he was wearing the red four- 
ragere, his reghnent as a whole had been decorated with the 
legion of honour and we were very proud of our fiUeul. Still 
later when we went into Alsace with the french army, after 
the armistice, we had Abel come and stay with us a few days 
and a proud boy he was when he clhnbed to the top of the 
Strasbourg cathedral. 

When we finally returned to Paris, Abel came and stayed 
with us a week. We took him to see everything and he said 
solemnly at the end of his first day, I think all that was 
worth fighting for. Paris in the evening however frightened 
him and we always had to get somebody to go out with 
him. The front had not been scareful but Paris at night was. 

Some time later he wrote and said that the family were 
moving into a different department and he gave me his new 
address. By some error the address did not reach him and we 
lost him. 

We did finally arrive at Perpignan and began visiting hos- 
pitals and giving away our stores and sending word to head- 
quarters if we thought they needed more than we had. At 
first it was a litde difEcult but soon we were doing aU we 
were to do very well. We were also given quantities of 
comfort-bags and distributing these was a perpetual delight, 
it was like a continuous Christmas. We always had permis- 
sion from the head of the hospital to distribute these to the 

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soldiers themselves which was in. itself a great pleasure but 
also it enabled us to get the soldiers to immediately write 
postal cards of thanks and these we used to send off in 
batches to Mrs. Lathrop who sent them to America to the 
people who had sent the comfort-bags. And so everybody 
was pleased. 

Then there was the question of gasoline. The American 
Fimd for French Wounded had an order from the french 
government giving them the privilege of buying gasoline. 
But there was no gasoline to buy. The french army had 
plenty of it and were ready to give it to us but they could 
not sell it and we were privileged to buy it but not to receive 
it for nothing. It was necessary to interview the officer in 
command of the commissary department. 

Gertrude Stein was perfectly ready to drive the car any- 
where, to crank the car as often as there was nobody else to 
do it, to repair the car, I must say she was very good at it, 
even if she was not ready to take it all down and put it back 
again for practice as I wanted her to do in the beginning, 
she was even resigned to getting up in the morning, but she 
flatly refused to go inside of any office and interview any 
official. I was officially the delegate and she was officially 
the driver but I had to go and interview the major. 

He was a charming major. The affair was very long 
drawn out, he sent me here and he sent me there but finally 
the matter was straightened out. All this time of course he 
called me Mademoiselle Stein because Gertrude Stein’s nami» 
was on all the papers that I presented to him, she being the 
driver. And so now, he said. Mademoiselle Stein, my wife is 
very anxious to make your acquaintance and she has asked 

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me to ask you to dine with us. I was very confused, I hesi- 
tated. But I am not Mademoiselle Stein, I said. He almost 
jumped out of his chair. What, he shouted, not Mademoi- 
selle Stein. Then who are you. It must be remembered this 
was war time and Perpignan almost at the Spanish frontier. 
Well, said I, you see Mademoiselle Stein. Where is Made- 
moiselle Stein, he said. She is downstairs, I said feebly, in 
the automobile. Well what does all this mean, he said. Well, 
I said, you see Mademoiselle Stein is the driver and I am the 
delegate and Mademoiselle Stein has no patience, she will 
not go into offices and wait and interview people and ex- 
plain, so I do it for her while she sits in the automobile. 
But what, said he sternly, would you have done if I had 
asked you to sign something. I would have told you, I said, 
as I am telling you now. Indeed, he said, let us go down- 
stairs and see this Mademoiselle Stein. 

We went downstairs and Gertrude Stein was sitting in the 
driver’s seat of the litde ford and he came up to her. They 
immediately became friends and he renewed his invitation 
and we went to dinner. We had a good time. Madame Du- 
bois came from Bordeaux, the land of food and wine. And 
what food above all the soup. It still remains to me the 
standard of comparison with all the other soups in the 
world. Sometimes some approach it, a very few have 
equalled it but none have surpassed it. 

Perpignan is not far from Rivesaltes and Rivesaltes is the 
birthplace of Joffre. It had a little hospital and we got it 
extra supplies in honour of Papa Joffre, We had also the 
litde ford car showing the red cross and the A.FT.W. sign 
and ourselves in it photographed in front of the house in 

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the little street where JoflFre was born and had this photo- 
graph printed and sent to Mrs. Lathrop. The postal cards 
were sent to America and sold for the benefit of the fund. 
In the meantime the U.S. had come into the war and we 
had some one send us a lot of ribbon with the stars and 
stripes printed on it and we cut this up and gave it to all 
the soldiers and they and we were pleased. 

Which reminds me of a french peasant. Later in Mmes 
we had an american ambulance boy in the car with us and 
we were out in the country. The boy had gone off to visit 
a waterfall and I had gone o£F to see a hospital and Gertrude 
Stein stayed with the car. She told me when I came back 
that an old peasant had come up to her and asked her what 
uniform the young man was wearing. That, she had said 
proudly, is the uniform of the american army, your new 
ally. Oh, said the old peasant. And then contemplatively, I 
ask myself what will we accomplish together, je me de- 
mande je me demande qu’est-ce que nous ferons ensemble. 

Our work in Perpignan being over we started back to 
Paris. On the way everything happened to the car. Perhaps 
it had been too hot even for a ford car in Perpignan. Per- 
pignan is below sea level near the Mediterranean and it is 
hot. Gertrude Stein who had always wanted it hot and hot- 
ter has never been really enthusiastic about heat after this 
experience. She said she had been just like a pancake, the 
heat above and the heat below and cr ankin g a car beside. I 
do not know how often she used to swear and say, I am 
going to scrap it, that is all there is about it I am going to 
scrap it. I encouraged and remonstrated until the car started 
again. 


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It was in connection with this that Mrs. Lathrop played 
a joke on Gertrude Stein. After the war was over we were 
both decorated by the french government, we received the 
Reconnaissance Frangaise. They always in giving you a dec- 
oration give you a citation telling why you have been given 
it. The account of our valour was exactly the same, except 
in my case they said that my devotion was sans relache, with 
no abatement, and in her case they did not put in the words 
sans relache. 

On the way back to Paris we, as I say had everything 
happen to the car but Gertrude Stein with the aid of an old 
tramp on the road who pushed and shoved at the critical 
moments managed to get it to Nevers where we met the 
first piece of the american army. They were the quarter- 
masters department and the marmes, the first contingent to 
arrive in France. There we first heard what Gertrude Stein 
calls the sad song of the marines, which teUs how everybody 
else in the american army has at sometime mutinied, but 
the marines never. 

Immediately on entering Nevers, we saw Tam McGrew, a 
Californian and parisian whom we had known very slightly 
but he was in u n iform and we called for help. He came. We 
told him our troubles. He said, alright get the car into the 
garage of the hotel and to-morrow some of the soldiers will 
put it to rights. We did so. 

That evening we spent at Mr. McGrew’s request at the 
Y. M C. A. and saw for the first time in many years ameri- 
cans just americans, the kind that would not naturally ever 
have come to Europe. It was quite a thrilling experience. 
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what state and what city they came from, what they did, 
how old they were and how they liked it. She talked to the 
french girls who were with the american boys and the french 
girls told her what they thought of the american boys and 
the american boys told her all they thought about the french 
girls. 

The next day she spent with California and Iowa ia the 
garage, as she called the two soldiers who were detailed to 
fix up her car. She was pleased with them when every time 
there was a terrific noise anywhere, they said solenmly to 
each other, that french chauffeur is just changing gears. Ger- 
trude Stein, Iowa and California enjoyed themselves so thor- 
oughly that I am sorry to say the car did not last out very 
well after we left Nevers, but at any rate we did get to Paris. 

It was at this time that Gertrude Stein conceived the idea 
of writing a history of the United States consisting of chap- 
ters wherein Iowa differs from Kansas, and wherein Kansas 
differs from Nebraska etcetera. She did do a little of it which 
also was printed in the book. Useful Knowledge. 

We did not stay in Paris very long. As soon as the car was 
made over we left for Nimes, we were to do the three depart- 
ments the Gard, the Bouches-du-Rhdne and the Vaucluse. 

We arrived in Nimes and settled down to a very comfort- 
able hfe there. We went to see the chief mifitary doctor in 
the town. Doctor Fabre and through his great kindness and 
that of his wife we were soon very much at home in Nimes, 
but before we began our work there. Doctor Fabre asked a 
favour of us. There were no automobile ambulances left in 
Nimes. At the military hospital was a pharmacist, a captain 
in the arigy, who was very ill, certain to die, and wanted to 


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die in his own home. His wife was with him and would sit 
with him and we were to have no responsibility for him ex- 
cept to drive him home. Of course we said we would and 
we did. 

It had been a long hard ride up into the mountains and it 
was dark long before we were back. We were still some 
distance from Nimes when suddenly on the road we saw a 
couple of figures. The old ford car’s lights did not light up 
much of anything on the road, and nothing along the side 
of the road and we did not make out very well who it was. 
However we stopped as we always did when anybody asked 
us to give them a lift. One man, he was evidendy an oflEcer 
said, my automobile has broken down and I must get back 
to Nimes. Alright we said, both of you climb into the back, 
you will find a mattress and things, make yourselves com- 
fortable. We went on to Nimes. As we came into the city I 
called through the litde window, where do you want to get 
down, where are you going, a voice replied. To the Hotel 
Luxembourg, I said. That will do alright, the voice replied. 
We arrived in front of the Hotel Luxembourg and stopped. 
Here there was plenty of light. We heard a scramble in the 
back and then a little man, very fierce with the cap and oak 
leaves of a full general and the legion of honour medal at 
his throat, appeared before us. He said, I wish to thank you 
but before I do so I must ask you who you are. We, I replied 
cheerfully are the delegates of the American Fund for 
French Wounded and we are for the present stationed at 
Nimes. And I, he retorted, am the general who commands 
here and as I see by your car that you have a french military 
number you should have reported to me immediately. 

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Should we, I said, I did not know, I am most awfully sorry. 
It is alright, he said aggressively, if you should ever want or 
need anything let me know. 

We did let him know very shortly because of course there 
was the eternal gasoline question and he was kindness itself 
and arranged everything for us. 

The little general and his wife came from the north of 
France and had lost their home and spoke of themselves as 
refugees. When later the big Bertha began to fire on Paris 
and one shell hit the Luxembourg gardens very near the rue 
de Fleurus, I must confess I began to cry and said I did not 
want to be a miserable refugee. We had been helping a good 
many of them. Gertrude Stein said, General Frotier’s family 
are refugees and they are not miserable. More miserable 
than I want to be, I said bitterly. 

Soon the american army came to Nimes. One day 
Madame Fabre met us and said that her cook had seen some 
american soldiers. She must have mistaken some english 
soldiers for them, we said. Not at all, she answered, she is 
very patriotic. At any rate the american soldiers came, a 
regiment of them of the S. O. S. the service of supply, how 
well I remember how they used to say it with the emphasis 
on the of. 

We soon got to know them all well and some of them very 
well. There was Duncan, a southern boy with such a very 
marked southern accent that when he was well into a story 
I was lost. Gertrude Stein whose people all come from Balti- 
more had no difficulty and they used to shout with laughter 
together, and all I could understand was that they had killed 
him as if he was a chicken. The pepple in Nimes were as 

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much troubled as I was. A great many of the ladies in Nimes 
spoke english very well. There had always been english gov- 
ernesses in Nimes and they, the nimoises had always prided 
themselves on their knowledge of english but as they said 
not only could they not understand these americans but these 
americans could not understand them when they spoke 
english. I had to admit that it was more or less the same 
with me. 

The soldiers were all Kentucky, South Carolina etcetera 
and they were hard to understand. 

Duncan was a dear. He was supply-sergeant to the camp 
and when we began to find american soldiers here and there 
in french hospitals we always took Duncan along to give the 
american soldier pieces of his lost uniform and white bread. 
Poor Duncan was miserable because he was not at the front. 
He had enlisted as far back as the expedition to Mexico and 
here he was well in the rear and no hope of getting away 
because he was one of the few who understood the compli- 
cated system of army book-keeping and his officers would 
not recommend him for the front. I will go, he used to say 
bitterly, they can bust me if they like I will go. But as we 
told him there were plenty of A.W.O.L. absent without leave 
the south was full of them, we were always meeting them 
and they would say, say any military pohce around here. 
Duncan was not made for that life. Poor Duncan. Two 
days before the armistice, he came in to see us and he was 
drunk and bitter. He was usually a sober boy but to go back 
and face his f amil y never having been to the front was too 
awful. He was with us in a little sitting-room and in the 
front room were scMne of his cffioers and it would not do for 


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them to see him in that state and it was time for him to get 
back to the camp. He had fallen half asleep with his head on 
the table. Duncan, said Gertrude Stein sharply, yes, he said. 
She said to him, listen Duncan. Miss Toklas is going to 
stand up, you stand up too and you fix your eyes right on the 
back of her head, do you understand. Yes, he said. Well 
then she will start to walk and you follow her and don’t you 
for a moment move your eyes from the back of her head 
until you are in my car. Yes, he said. And he did and Ger- 
trude Stein drove him to the camp. 

Dear Duncan. It was he who was all excited by the news 
that the americans had taken forty villages at Saint-Mihiel. 
He was to go with us that afternoon to Avignon to deliver 
some cases. He was sitting very straight on the step and all 
of a sudden his eye was caught by some houses. What are 
they, he asked. Oh just a village, Gertrude Stein said. In a 
min ute there were some more houses. And what are those 
houses, he asked. Oh just a village. He fell very silent and 
he looked at the landscape as he had never looked at it be- 
fore. Suddenly with a deep sigh, forty villages ain’t so much, 
he said. 

We did enjoy the life with these doughboys. I would like 
to tell nothmg but doughboy stories. They all got on amaz- 
ingly well with the french. They worked together ia the 
repair sheds of the railroad. The only thing that bothered 
the americans were the long hours. They worked too con- 
centratedly to keep it up so long. Finally an arrangement 
was made that they should have their work to do in their 
hours and the french in theirs. There was a great deal of 
friendly rivalry. The american boys did not see the use of 

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putting SO much iinish on work that was to be shot up so 
soon again, the french said that they could not complete 
work without finish. But both lots thoroughly liked each 
other. 

Gertrude Stein always said the war was so much better 
than just going to America. Here you were with America 
in a kind of way that if you only went to America you could 
not possibly be. Every now and then one of the american 
soldiers would get into the hospital at Nimes and as Doctor 
Fabre knew that Gertrude Stein had had a medical educa- 
tion he always wanted her present with the doughboy on 
these occasions. One of them fell off the train. He did not 
believe that the little french trains could go fast but they 
did, fast enough to kill him. 

This was a tremendous occasion. Gertrude Stein in com- 
pany with the wife of the prefet, the governmental head of 
the department and the wife of the general were the chief 
mourners. Duncan and two others blew on the bugle and 
everybody made speeches. The Protestant pastor asked Ger- 
trude Stein about the dead man and his virtues and she 
asked the doughboys. It was difficult to find any virtue. 
Apparently he had been a fairly hard citizen. But can’t you 
tell me something good about him, she said despairingly. 
Finally Taylor, one of his friends, looked up solemnly and 
said, I tell you he had a heart as big as a washtub. 

I often wonder, I have often wondered if any of all these 
doughboys who knew Gertrude Stein so well in those days 
ever connected her with the Gertrude Stein of the news- 
papers. 

We led a very busy life. There were all the americans, 

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there were a great many in the small hospitals round about 
as well as in the regiment in Nimes and we had to find them 
all and be good to them, then there were all the french in 
the hospitals, we had them to visit as this was really our busi- 
ness, and then later came the Spanish grippe and Gertrude 
Stein and one of the military doctors from Nimes used to go 
to all the villages miles around to bring into Nimes the sick 
soldiers and ofiEcers who had fallen iU in their homes while 
on leave. 

It was during these long trips that she began writing a 
great deal again. The landscape, the strange life stimulated 
her. It was then that she began to love the valley of the 
Rh6ne, the landscape that of all landscapes means the most 
to her. We are still here in Bilignia in the valley of the 
Rhdne. 

She wrote at that time the poem of The Deserter, printed 
almost immediately in Vanity Fair. Henry McBride had 
interested Crowninshield in her work. 

One day when we were in Avignon we met Braque. 
Braque had been badly wounded in the head and had come 
to Sorgues near Avignon to recover. It was there that he 
had been staying when the mobilisation orders came to him. 
It was awfully pleasant seeing the Braques again. Picasso had 
just written to Gertrude Stein annoimcing his marriage to a 
jeune fille, a real young lady, and he had sent Gertrude Stein 
a wedding present of a lovely fittle painting and a photo- 
graph of a painting of his wife. 

That lovely litde pamting he copied for me many years 
later on tapestry canvas and I embroidered it and that was 
the beginning of my tapestrying. I did not thjnk it possible 

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to ask him to draw me something to work but when. I told 
Gertrude Stein she said, alright. I’ll manage. And so one day 
when he was at the house she said, Pablo, Alice wants to 
make a tapestry of that little picture and I said I would 
trace it for her. He looked at her with kindly contempt, if 
it is done by anybody, he said, it will be done by me. Well, 
said Gertrude Stein, producing a piece of tapestry canvas, 
go to it^ and he did. And I have been making tapestry of 
his drawings ever since and they are very successful and go 
marvellously with old chairs. I have done two small Louis 
fifteenth chairs in this way. He is kind enough now to make 
me drawings on my working canvas and to colour them 
for me. 

Braque also told us that Apollinaire too had married a real 
young lady. We gossiped a great deal together. But after all 
there was little news to tell. 

Time went on, we were very busy and then came the 
armistice. We were the first to bring the news to many 
small villages. The french soldiers in the hospitals were 
relieved rather than glad. They seemed not to feel that it 
was going to be such a lasting peace. I remember one of 
them saying to Gertrude Stein when she said to him, well 
here is peace, at least for twenty years, he said. 

The next morning we had a telegram from Mrs. Lathrop. 
Come at once want you to go with the french armies to 
Alsace. We did not stop on the way. We made it in a day. 
Very shortly after we left for Alsace. 

We left for Alsace and on the road had our first and only 
accident. The roads were frightful, mud, ruts, snow, slush, 
and covered with the french armies going into Alsace. As we 


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passed, two horses dragging an army kitchen kicked out of 
line and hit our ford, the mud-guard came off and the tool- 
chest, and worst of all the triangle of the steering gear was 
badly bent. The army picked up our tools and our mud- 
guard but there was nothing to do about the bent triangle. 
We went on, the car wandering all over the muddy road, up 
hill and down hill, and Gertrude Stein sticking to the wheel. 
Finally after about forty kilometres, we saw on the road 
some american ambulance men. Where can we get our car 
fixed. Just a litde farther, they said. We went a Uttle farther 
and there found an american ambulance outfit. They had no 
extra mud-guard but they could give us a new triangle. I 
told our troubles to the sergeant, he grunted and said a word 
in an undertone to a mechanic. Then turning to us he said 
gruffly, run-her-in. Then the mechanic took off his tunic 
and threw it over the radiator. As Gertrude Stein said when 
any american did that the car was his. 

We had never reahsed before what mud-guards were for 
but by the time we arrived in Nancy we knew. The french 
military repair shop fitted us out with a new mud-guard and 
tool-chest and we went on our way. 

Soon we came to the battle-fields and the lines of trenches 
of both sides. To any one who did not see it as it was then 
it is impossible to imagine it. It was not terrifying it was 
strange. We were used to ruined houses and even ruined 
towns but this was different It was a landscape. And it 
belonged to no country. 

I remember hearing a french nurse once say and the only 
thing she did say of the front was, c’est un paysage passion- 
ant, an absorbing landscape. And that was what it was as we 

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saw it. It was strange. Camouflage, huts, everything was 
there. It was wet and dark and there were a few people, one 
did not know whether they were chinamen or europeans. 
Our fan-belt had stopped working. A stajff car stopped and 
fixed it with a hairpin, we still wore hairpins. 

Another thing that interested us enormously was how 
different the camouflage of the french looked from the 
camouflage of the germans, and then once we came across 
some very very neat camouflage and it was american. The 
idea was the same but as after all it was different nationalities 
who did it the difference was inevitable. The colour schemes 
were different, the designs were different, the way of placing 
them was different, it made plain the whole theory of art 
and its inevitability. 

Finally we came to Strasbourg and then went on to Mul- 
house. Here we stayed until well into May. 

Our business in Alsace was not hospitals but refugees. The 
inhabitants were returning to their ruined homes all over 
the devastated country and it was the aim of the A.F.F.W. 
to give a pair of blankets, underclothing and children’s and 
babies’ woollen stockings and babies’ booties to every family. 
There was a legend that the quantity of babies’ booties sent 
to us came from the gifts sent to Mrs. Wilson who was sup- 
posed at that time to be about to produce a little Wilson. 
There were a great many babies’ booties but not too many 
for Alsace. 

Our headquarters was the assembly-room of one of the big 
school-buildings in Mulhouse. The german school teachers 
had disappeared and french school teachers who happened 
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head of our school was in despair, not about the dociUty of 
his pupils nor their desire to learn french, but on account of 
their clothes. French children are all always neatly clothed. 
There is no such thing as a ragged child, even orphans 
farmed out in country villages are neatly dressed, just as all 
french women are neat, even the poor and the aged. They 
may not always be clean but they are always neat. From this 
standpoint the parti-coloured rags of even the comparatively 
prosperous alsatian children was deplorable and the french 
schoolmasters suffered. We did our best to help him out with 
black children’s aprons but these did not go far, beside we 
had to keep them for the refugees. 

We came to know Alsace and the alsatians very well, all 
kinds of them. They were astonished at the simplicity with 
which the french army and french soldiers took care of 
themselves. They had not been accustomed to that in the 
german army. On the other hand the french soldiers were 
rather mistrustful of the alsatians who were too anxious to 
be french and yet were not french. They are not frank, the 
french soldiers said. And it is quite true. The french what- 
ever else they may be are frank. They are very polite, they 
are very adroit but sooner or later they always tell you the 
truth. The alsatians are not adroit, they are not polite and 
they do not inevitably tell you the truth. Perhaps with re- 
newed contact with the french they will learn these things. 

We distributed. We went into all the devastated villages. 
We usually asked the priest to help us with the distribution. 
One priest who gave us a great deal of good advice and with 
whom we became very friendly had only one large room left 
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himself three rooms, the first third had his parlour furni- 
ture, the second third his dining room furniture and the 
last third his bedroom furniture. When we lunched with 
him and we lunched well and his alsatian wines were very 
good, he received us in his parlour, he then excused himself 
and withdrew into his bedroom to wash his hands, and then 
he invited us very formally to come into the dining room, 
it was like an old fashioned stage setting. 

We distributed, we drove around in the snow we talked 
to everybody and everybody talked to us and by the end of 
May it was all over and we decided to leave. 

We went home by way of Metz, Verdun and Mildred 
Aldrich. 

We once more returned to a changed Paris. We were 
restless. Gertrude Stein began to work very hard, it was at 
this time that she wrote her Accents in Alsace and other 
political plays, the last plays in Geography and Plays. We 
were still in the shadow of war work and we went on doing 
some of it, visiting hospitals and seeing the soldiers left in 
them, now pretty well neglected by everybody. We had 
spent a great deal of our money during the war and we were 
economising, servants were difficult to get if not impossible, 
prices were high. We settled down for the moment with a 
femme de menage for only a few hours a day. I used to 
say Gertrude Stein was the chauffeur and I was the cook. 
We used to go over early in the morning to the public 
markets and get in our provisions. It was a confused world. 

Jessie Whitehead had come over with the peace commis- 
sion as secretary to one of the delegations and of course we 
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then that Gertrude Stein described one of the young men 
of the peace commission who was holding forth, as one who 
knew all about the war, he had been here ever since the 
peace. Gertrude Stein’s cousins came over, everybody came 
over, everybody was dissatisfied and every one was restless. 
It was a resdess and disturbed world. 

Gertrude Stein and Picasso quarrelled. They neither of 
them ever quite knew about what. Anyway they did not see 
each other for a year and then they met by accident at a 
party at Adrienne Monnier’s. Picasso said, how do you do to 
her and said something about her coming to see him. No I 
will not, she answered gloomily. Picasso came to me and 
said, Gertrude says she won’t come to see me, does she mean 
it. I am afraid if she says it she means it. They did not see 
each other for another year and in the meantime Picasso’s 
little boy was bom and Max Jacob was complaining that he 
had not been named god-father. A very Httle while after 
this we were somewhere at some picture gallery and Picasso 
came up and put his hand on Gertrude Stein’s shoulder and 
said, oh hell, let’s be friends. Sure, said Gertrade Stein and 
they embraced. When can I come to see you, said Picasso, 
let’s see, said Gertrude Stein, I am afraid we are busy but 
come to dinner the end of the week. Nonsense, said Picasso, 
we are coming to dinner to-morrow, and they came. 

It was a changed Paris. Guillaume Apollinaire was dead. 
We saw a tremendous number of people but none of them as 
far as I can remember that we had ever known before. Paris 
was crowded. As Clive Bell remarked, they say that an 
awful lot of people were killed in the war but it seems to 


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me that an extraordinary large number of grown men and 
women have suddenly been born. 

As I say we were restless and we were economical and all 
day and all evening we were seeing people and at last there 
was the defile, the procession under the Arc de Triomphe, 
of the allies. 

The members of the American Fund for French Wounded 
were to have seats on the benches that were put up the 
length of the Champs Elysees but quite rightly the people of 
Paris objected as these seats would make it impossible for 
them to see the parade and so Clemenceau prompdy had 
them taken down. Luckily for us Jessie Whitehead’s room 
in her hotel looked right over the Arc de Triomphe and she 
asked us to come to it to see the parade. We accepted gladly. 
It was a wonderful day. 

We got up at sunrise, as later it would have been impos- 
sible to cross Paris in a car. This was one of the last trips 
Auntie made. By this time the red cross was painted off it 
but it was still a truck. Very shortly after it went its 
honourable way and was succeeded by Godiva, a two-seated 
runabout, also a little ford. She was called Godiva because 
she had come naked into the world and each of our friends 
gave us something with which to bedeck her. 

Auntie then was making practically her last trip. We left 
her near the river and walked up to the hotel. Everybody 
was on the streets, men, women, children, soldiers, priests, 
nuns, we saw two nuns being helped into a tree from which 
they would be able to see. And we ourselves were admirably 
placed and we saw perfectly. 

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Invalides in their wheeling chairs wheeling themselves. It 
is an old french custom that a military procession should 
always be preceded by the veterans from the Invalides. They 
all marched past through the Arc de Triomphe. Gertrude 
Stein remembered that when as a child she used to swing 
on the chains that were around the Arc de Triomphe her 
governess had told her that no one must walk underneath 
since the german armies had marched under it after 1870, 
And now everybody except the germans were passing 
through. 

All the nations marched differently, some slowly, some 
quickly, the french carry their flags the best of all, Pershing 
and his officer carrying the flag behind him were perhaps the 
most perfectly spaced. It was this scene that Gertrude Stein 
described in the movie she wrote about this time that I have 
published in Operas and Plays in the Plain Edition. 

However it all finally came to an end. We wandered up 
and we wandered down the Champs Elysees and the war 
was over and the piles of captured cannon that had made 
two pyramids were being taken away and peace was upon us. 


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W E WERE, in these days as I look back at them, con- 
stantly seeing people. 

It is a confused memory those first years after 
the war and very difficult to think back and remember what 
happened before or after something else. Picasso once said, I 
have already told, when Gertrude Stein and he were dis- 
cussing dates, you forget that when we were young an awful 
lot happened in a year. During the years just after the war 
as I look in order to refresh my memory over the bibliog- 
raphy of Gertrude Stein’s work, I am astonished when I 
realise how many things happened in a year. Perhaps we 
were not so young then but there were a great many young 
in the world and perhaps that comes to the same thing. 

The old crowd had disappeared. Matisse was now per- 
manently in Nice and in any case although Gertrude Stein 
and he were perfectly good friends when they met, they 
practically never met This was the time when Gertrude 
Stein and Picasso were not seeing each other. They always 
talked with the tenderest friendship about each other to 
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each Other. Guillaume Apollinaire was dead. Braque and 
his wife we saw from time to time, he and Picasso by this 
time were fairly bitterly on the outs. I remember one eve- 
ning Man Ray brought a photograph that he had made of 
Picasso to the house and Braque happened to be there. The 
photograph was being passed around and when it came to 
Braque he looked at it and said, I ought to know who that 
gentleman is, je dois cornicdtre ce monsieur. It was a period 
this and a very considerable time afterward that Gertrude 
Stein celebrated under the title. Of Having for a Long Time 
Not Continued to be Friends. 

Juan Gris was ill and discouraged. He had been very ill 
and was never really well again. Privation and discourage- 
ment had had their effect. Kahnweiler came back to Paris 
fairly early after the war but all his old crowd with the 
exception of Juan were too successful to have need of him. 
Mildred Aldrich had had her tremendous success with the 
Hilltop on the Marne, in Mildred’s way she had spent 
royally aU she had earned royally and was now still spend- 
ing and enjoying it although getting a little uneasy. We 
used to go out and see her about once a month, in fact all the 
rest of her life we always managed to get out to see her 
regularly. Even in the days of her very greatest glory she 
loved a visit from Gertrude Stein better than a visit from 
anybody else. In fact it was largely to please Mildred that 
Gertrude Stein tried to get the Atlantic Monthly to print 
something of hers. Mildred always felt and said that it 
would be a blue ribbon if the Atlantic Monthly consented, 
which of course it never did. Another thing used to annoy 
Mildred dreadfully. Gertrude Stein’s name was never in 

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Who’s Who in America. As a matter of fact it was in english 
authors’ bibliographies before it ever entered an american 
one. This troubled Mildred very much. I hate to look at 
Who’s Who in America, she said to me, when I see all those 
insignificant people and Gertrude’s name not in. And then 
she would say, I know it’s alright but I wish Gertrude were 
not so outlawed. Poor Mildred. And now just this year for 
reasons best known to themselves Who’s Who has added 
Gertrude Stein’s name to their list. The Atlantic Monthly 
needless to say has not. 

The Atlantic Monthly story is rather funny. 

As I said Gertrude Stein sent the Atlantic Monthly some 
manuscripts, not with any hope of their accepting them, but 
if by any miracle they should, she would be pleased and 
Mildred delighted. An answer came back, a long and rather 
argumentative answer from the editorial ofEce. Gertrude 
Stein thinking that some Boston woman in the editorial 
office had written, answered the arguments lengthily to Miss 
Ellen Sedgwick. She received an almost immediate answer 
meeting all her arguments and at the same time admitting 
that the matter was not without interest but that of course 
Atlantic Monthly readers could not be affronted by having 
these manuscripts presented in the review, but it might be 
possible to have them introduced by somebody in the part 
of the ma g az in e, if I remember rightly, called the O^n- 
tributors’ Club. The letter ended by saying that the writer 
was not Ellen but Ellery Sedgwidt. 

Gertrude Stein of course was delighted with its being 
Ellery and not Ellen and accepted being printed in the Con- 

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tributors’ Club, but equally of course the manuscripts did 
not appear even in the part called Contributors’ Club. 

We began to meet new people all the time. 

Some one told us, I have forgotten who, that an ameri- 
can woman had started a lending library of english books in 
our quarter. We had in those days of economy given up 
Mudie’s, but there was the American Library which sup- 
plied us a little, but Gertrude Stein wanted more. We in- 
vestigated and we found Sylvia Beach. Sylvia Beach was very 
enthusiastic about Gertmde Stein and they became friends. 
She was Sylvia Beach’s first annual subscriber and Sylvia 
Beach was proportionately proud and grateful. Her little 
place was in a Httle street near the Ecole de Medecine. It 
was not then much frequented by americans. There was 
the author of Beebie the Beebeist and there was the niece 
of Marcel Schwob and there were a few stray irish poets. 
We saw a good deal of Sylvia those days, she used to come 
to the house and also go out into the country with us in the 
old car. We met Adrienne Monnier and she brought Valery 
Larbaud to the house and they were all very interested in 
Three Lives and Valery Larbaud, so we understood, medi- 
tated translating it. It was at this time that Tristan Tzara 
first appeared in Paris. Adrienne Monnier was much excited 
by his advent. Picabia had found him in Switzerland during 
the war and they had together created dadaism, and out 
of dadaism, with a great deal of struggle and quarrelling 
came surrealisme. 

Tzara came to the house, I imagine Picabia brought him 
but I am not quite certain. I have always found it very 
difficult to understand the stories of his violence and his 


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wickedness, at least I found it diflScult then because Tzara 
when he came to the house sat beside me at the tea table 
and talked to me like a pleasant and not very exciting cousin. 

Adrienne Monnief wanted Sylvia to move to the rue de 
rOdeon and Sylvia hesitated but finally she did so and as a 
matter of fact we did not see her very often afterward. 
They gave a party just after Sylvia moved in and we went 
and there Gertrude Stein first discovered that she had a 
young Oxford following. There were several young Oxford 
men there and they were awfully pleased to meet her and 
they asked her to give them some manuscripts and they 
published them that year nineteen twenty, in the Oxford 
Magazine. 

Sylvia Beach from time to time brought groups of people 
to the house, groups of young writers and some older women 
vdth them. It was at that time that Ezra Pound came, no 
that was brought about in another way. She later ceased 
coming to the house but she sent word that Sherwood 
Anderson had come to Paris and wanted to see Gertrude 
Stein and might he come. Gertrude Stein sent back word 
that she would be very pleased and he came with his wife 
and Rosenfeld, the musical critic. 

For some reason or other I was not present on this occa- 
sion, some domestic complication in all probability, at any 
rate when I did come home Gertrude Stein was moved and 
pleased as she has very rarely been. Gertrude Stein was in 
those days a little bitter, all her unpublished manuscripts, 
and no hope of publication or serious recognition. Sherwood 
Anderson came and quite simply and directly as is his way 
told her what he thought of her work and what it had 


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meant to him in his development. He told it to her then 
and what was even rarer he told it in print immediately 
after. Gertrude Stein and Sherwood Anderson have always 
been the best of friends but I do not believe even he realises 
how much his visit meant to her. It was he who thereupon 
wrote the introduction to Geography and Plays. 

In those days you met anybody anywhere. The Jewetts 
were an american couple who owned a tenth century cha- 
teau near Perpignan. We had met them there during the 
war and when they came to Paris we went to see them. 
There we met first Man Ray and later Robert Coates, how 
either of them happened to get there I do not know. 

There were a lot of people in the room when we came in 
and soon Gertrude Stein was talking to a little man who sat 
in the corner. As we went out she made an engagement with 
him. She said he was a photographer and seemed interesting, 
and reminded me that Jeanne Cook, William Cook’s wife, 
wanted her picture taken to send to Cook’s people in 
America. We all three went to Man Ray’s hotel. It was 
one of the little, tiny hotels in the rue Delambre and Man 
Ray had one of the small rooms, but I have never seen any 
space, not even a ship’s cabin, with so many things in it and 
the things so admirably disposed. He had a bed, he had 
three large cameras, he had several kinds of lighting, he had 
a window screen, and in a little closet he did all his develop- 
ing. He showed us pictures of Marcel Duchamp and a lot 
of other people and he asked if he might come and take 
photographs of the studio and of Gertrude Stein. He did 
and he also took some of me and we were very pleased with 
the result. He has at intervals taken pictures of Gertrude 

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Stein and she is always fascinated with his way of using 
lights. She always comes home very pleased. One day she 
told him that she liked his photographs of her better than 
any that had ever been taken except one snap shot I had 
taken of her recently. This seemed to bother Man Ray. In 
a little while he asked her to come and pose and she did. 
He said, move all you like, your eyes, your head, it is to be a 
pose but it is to have in it all the qualities of a snap shot. 
The poses were very long, she, as he requested, moved, and 
the result, the last photographs he made of her, are extraordi- 
narily interesting. 

Robert Coates we also met at the Jewetts’ in those early 
days just after the war- I remember the day very well. It 
was a cold, dark day, on an upper floor of a hotel. There 
were a number of young men there and suddenly Gertrude 
Stein said she had forgotten to put the light on her car and 
she did not want another fine, we had just had one because 
I had blown the klaxon at a policeman trying to get him 
out of our way and she had received one by going the wrong 
way around a post. Alright, said a red-haired young man 
and immediately he was down and back. The light is on, 
he announced. How did you know which my car was, asked 
Gertrude Stein. Oh I knew, said Coates. We always liked 
Coates. It is extraordinary in wandering about Paris how 
very few people you know you meet, but we often met 
Coates hatless and red-headed in the most unexpected places. 
This was just about the time of Broom, about which I will 
tell very soon, and Gertrude Stein took a very deep interest 
in Coates’ work as soon as he showed it to her. She said he 
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words made a sound to the eyes, most people’s words do not. 
We also liked Coates’ address, the City Hotel, on the island, 
and we liked all his ways. 

Gertrude Stein was delighted with the scheme of study 
that he prepared for the Guggenheim prize. Unfortunately, 
the scheme of study, which was a most charming little novel, 
with Gertrude Stein as a backer, did not win a prize. 

As I have said there was Broom. 

Before the war we had known a yoimg fellow, not known 
him much but a little, Elmer Harden, who was in Paris 
studying music. During the war we heard that Elmer 
Harden had joined the french army and had been badly 
wounded. It was rather an amazing story. Elmer Harden 
had been nursing french woimded in the american hospital 
and one of his patients, a captain with an arm fairly dis- 
abled, was going back to the front. Elmer Harden could 
not content himself any longer nursing. He said to Captain 
Peter, I am going with you. But it is impossible, said Captain 
Peter. But I am, said Elmer stubbornly. So they took a taxi 
and they went to the war office and to a dentist and I don’t 
know where else, but by the end of the week Captain Peter 
had rejoined and Elmer Harden was in his regiment as a 
soldier. He fought well and was wounded. After the war 
we met him again and then we met often. He and the lovely 
flowers he used to send us were a great comfort in those days 
just after the peace. He and I always say that he and I will 
be the last people of our generation to remember the war. 
I am afraid we both of us have already forgotten it a little. 
Only the other day though Elmer announced that he had 
had a great triumph, he had made Captain Peter and Cap- 

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tain Peter is a breton admit that it was a nice war. Up to this 
time when he had said to Captain Peter, it was a nice war. 
Captain Peter had not answered, but this time when Elmer 
said, it was a nice war, Captain Peter said, yes Elmer, it was 
a nice war. 

Kate Buss came from the same town as Elmer, from 
Medford, Mass. She was in Paris and she came to see us. I 
do not think Elmer introduced her but she did come to see 
us. She was much interested in the writings of Gertrude 
Stein and owned everything that up to that time could be 
bought. She brought Kreymborg to see us. Kreymborg had 
come to Paris with Harold Loeb to start Broom. Kreymborg 
and his wife came to the house frequendy. He wanted very 
much to run The Long Gay Book, the thing Gertrude Stein 
had written just after The Making of Americans, as a serial. 
Of course Harold Loeb would not consent to that. Kreym- 
borg used to read out the sentences from this book with 
great gusto. He and Gertrude Stein had a bond of union 
beside their mutual liking because the Grafton Press that 
had printed Three Lives had printed his first book and 
about the same time. 

Kate Buss brought lots of people to the house. She brought 
Djima Barnes and Mina Loy and they had wanted to bring 
James Joyce but they didn’t. We were glad to see Mina 
whom we had known in Florence as Mina Haweis. Mina 
brought Glenway Wescott on his first trip to Europe. Glen- 
way impressed us gready by his english accent. Hemingway 
explained. He said, when you matriculate at the University 
of Chicago you write down just what accent you will have 
and they give it to you when you graduate. You can have a 

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sixteenth, century or modern, whatever you like. Glenway 
left behind him a silk cigarette case with his initials, we 
kept it until he came back again and then gave it to him. 

Mina also brought Robert McAlmon. McAlmon was very 
nice in those days, very mature and very good-looking. It 
was much later that he pubHshed The Making of Americans 
in the Contact press and that everybody quarrelled. But that 
is Paris, except that as a matter of fact Gertrude Stein and 
he never became friends again. 

Kate Buss brought Ernest Walsh, he was very young then 
and very feverish and she was very worried about him. We 
met him later with Hemingway and then in Belley, but we 
never knew him very well. 

We met Ezra Pound at Grace Lounsbery’s house, he came 
home to d inn er with us and he stayed .and he talked about 
Japanese prints among other things. Gertrude Stein liked 
him but did not find him amusing. She said he was a village 
explainer, excellent if you were a village, but if you were not, 
not. Ezra also talked about T. S. Efiot. It was the first time 
any one had talked about T.S. at the house. Pretty soon 
everybody talked about T.S. Kitty Buss talked about him 
and much later Hemingway talked about him as the Major. 
Considerably later Lady Rothermere talked about him and 
invited Gertrude Stein to come and meet him . They were 
founding the Criterion. We had met Lady Rothermere 
through Muriel Draper whom we had seen again for the 
first time after many years. Gertrude Stein was not par- 
ticularly anxious to go to Lady Rothermere’s and meet T. S. 
Eliot, but we all insisted she should, and she gave a doubtful 
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Started to make one. The bell rang and in walked Lady 
Rothermere and T.S. 

Eliot and Gertrude Stein had a solemn conversation, 
mostly about split infinitives and other grammatical sole- 
cisms and why Gertrude Stein used them. Finally Lady 
Rothermere and Eliot rose to go and Eliot said that if he 
printed anything of Gertrude Stein’s in the Criterion it 
would have to be her very latest thing. They left and Ger- 
trude Stein said, don’t bother to finish your dress, now we 
don’t have to go, and she began to write a portrait of T. S. 
Eliot and called it the fifteenth of November, that being 
this day and so there could be no doubt but that it was her 
latest thing. It was all about wool is wool and silk is silk 
or wool is woollen and silk is silken. She sent it to T. S, 
Eliot and he accepted it but naturally he did not print it. 

Then began a long correspondence, not between Gertrude 
Stein and T. S. Eliot, but between T. S. Eliot’s secretary and 
myself. We each addressed the other as Sir, I signing myself 
A. B. Toklas and she signing initials. It was only consid- 
erably afterwards that I found out that his secretary was not 
a young man. I don’t know whether she ever found out that 
I was not. 

In spite of all this correspondence nothing happened and 
Gertrude Stein mischievously told the story to all the english 
people coming to the house and at that moment there were 
a great many english coming in and out. At any rate finally 
there was a note, it was now early spring, from the Criterion 
asking wotild Miss Stein mind if her contribution appeared 
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more suitable than the fifteenth of November on the 
fifteenth of October. 

Once more a long silence and then this time came proof of 
the article. We were surprised but returned the proof 
promptly. Apparently a young man had sent it without 
authority because very shortly came an apologetic letter 
saying that there had been a mistake, the article was not 
to be printed just yet. This was also told to the passing 
english with the result that after all it was printed. There- 
after it was reprinted in the Georgian Stories. Gertrude Stein 
was delighted when later she was told that Eliot had said 
in Cambridge that the work of Gertrude Stein was very fine 
but not for us. 

But to come back to E2xa. Ezra did come back and he 
came back with the editor of The Dial. This time it was 
worse than Japanese prints, it was much more violent. In 
his surprise at the violence Ezra fell out of Gertrude Stein’s 
favourite little armchair, the one I have since tapestried with 
Picasso designs, and Gertrude Stein was furious. Finally 
Ezra and the editor of The Dial left, nobody too well 
pleased. Gertrude Stein did not want to see Ezra again. 
Ezra did not quite see why. He met Gertrude Stein one day 
near the Luxembourg gardens and said, but I do want to 
come to see you. I am so sorry, answered Gertrude Stein, but 
Miss Toklas has a bad tooth and beside we are busy picking 
wild flowers. All of which was literally true, like all of 
Gertrude Stein’s literature, but it upset Ezra, and we never 
saw him again. 

During these months after the war we were one day going 
down a little street and saw a man looking in at a window 

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and going backwards and forwards and right and left and 
otherwise behaving strangely. Lipschitz, said Gertrude Stein. 
Yes, said Lipschitz, I am buying an iron cock. Where is it, 
we asked. Why in there, he said, and in there it was. Ger- 
trude Stein had known Lipschitz very slightly at one time 
but this incident made them friends and soon he asked her 
to pose. He had just finished a bust of Jean Cocteau and he 
wanted to do her. She never minds posing, she likes the 
calm of it and although she does not like sculpture and told 
Lipschitz so, she began to pose. I remember it was a very 
hot spring and Lipschitz’s studio was appallingly hot and 
they spent hours there. 

Lipschitz is an excellent gossip and Gertrude Stein adores 
the beginning and middle and end of a story and Lipschitz 
was able to supply several missing parts of several stories. 

And then they talked about art and Gertrude Stein rather 
liked her portrait and they were very good friends and the 
sittings were over. 

One day we were across town at a picture show and some- 
body came up to Gertrude Stein and said something. She 
said, wiping her forehead, it is hot. He said he was a friend 
of Lipschitz and she answered, yes it was hot there. Lip- 
schitz was to bring her some photographs of the head he 
had done but he did not and we were awfully busy and 
Gertrude Stein sometimes wondered why Lipschitz did not 
come. Somebody wanted the photos so she wrote to him to 
bring them. He came. She said why did you not come before. 
He said he did not come before because he had been told by 
some one to whom she had said it, that she was bored sitting 
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for saying things about any one and anything, I say them 
about people, I say them to people, I say them when I please 
and how I please but as I mostly say what I think, the least 
that you or anybody dse can do is to rest content with what 
I say to you. He seemed very content and they talked hap- 
pily and pleasantly and they said a bientdt, we will meet 
soon. Lipschitz left and we did not see him for several years. 

Then Jane Heap turned up and wanted to take some of 
Lipschitz’s things to America and she wanted Gertrude Stein 
to come and choose them. But how can I, said Gertrude 
Stein, when Lipschitz is very evidently angry, I am sure I 
have not the slightest idea why or how but he is. Jane Heap 
said that Lipschitz said that he was fonder of Gertrude 
Stein than he was of almost anybody and was heart broken 
at not seeing her. Oh, said Gertrude Stein, I am very fond 
of him. Sine I will go with you. She went, they embraced 
tenderly and had a happy time and her only revenge was 
in parting to say to Lipschitz, a tres bientot. And Lipschitz 
said, comme vous etes mechante. They have been excellent 
friends ever since and Gertrude Stein has done of Lipschitz 
one of her most lovely portraits but they have never spoken 
of the quarrel and if he knows what happened the second 
time she does not. 

It was through Lipschitz that Gertrude Stein again met 
Jean Cocteau. Lipschitz had told Gertrude Stein a thing 
which she did not know, that Cocteau in his Potomak had 
spoken of and quoted The Portrait of Mabel Dodge. She was 
naturally very pleased as Cocteau was the first french writer 
to speak of her worL They met once or twice and began a 
friendship that consists in their writing to each other quite 

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often and liking each other immensely and having many 
young and old friends in common, but not in meeting. 

Jo Davidson too sculptured Gertrude Stein at this time. 
There, all was peaceful, Jo was witty and amusing and he 
pleased Gertrude Stein. I cannot remember who came in 
and out, whether they were real or whether they were 
sculptured but there were a great many. There were among 
others Lincoln Steffens and in some queer way he is asso- 
ciated with the be ginnin g of our seeing a good deal of Janet 
Scudder but I do not well remember just what happened. 

I do however remember very well the first time I ever 
heard Janet Scudder’s voice. It was way back when I first 
came to Paris and my friend and I had a little apartment 
in the rue Notre-Dame-des-Champs. My friend in the enthu- 
siasm of seeing other people enthusiastic had bought a 
Matisse and it had just been hung on the wall. Mildred 
Aldrich was calling on us, it was a warm spring afternoon 
and Mildred was leaning out of the window. I suddenly 
heard her say, Janet, Janet come up here. What is it, said 
a very lovely drawling voice. I want you to come up here 
and meet my friends Harriet and Alice and I want you to 
come up and see their new apartment. Oh, said the voice. 
And then Mildred said, and they have a new big Matisse. 
Come up and see it. I don’t think so, said the voice. 

Janet did later see a great deal of Matisse when he lived 
out in ClamarL. And Gertrude Stein and she had always 
been friends, at least ever since the period when they first 
began to see a good deal of each other. 

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understands none of it, reads and feels Gertrude Stein’s 
work and reads it aloud understandingly. 

We were going to the valley of the Rhdne for the first 
time since the war and Janet and a friend in a duplicate 
Godiva were to come too. I will tell about this very soon. 

During all these restless months we were also trying to get 
Mildred Aldrich the legion of honour. After the war was 
over a great many war-workers were given the legion of 
honour but they were all members of organisations and 
Mildred Aldrich was not. Gertrude Stein was very anxious 
that Mildred Aldrich should have it. In the first place she 
thought she ought, no one else had done as much propa- 
ganda for France as she had by her books which everybody 
in America read, and beside she knew Mildred would like 
it. So we began the campaign. It was not a very easy thing 
to accomplish as naturally the organisations had the most 
influence. We started different people going. We began to 
get lists of prominent americans and asked them to sign. 
They did not refuse, but a hst in itself helps, but does not 
accomplish results. Mr. Jaccacci who had a great admiration 
for Miss Aldrich was very helpful but all the people that he 
knew wanted things for themselves first. We got the Ameri- 
can Legion interested at least two of the colonels, but they 
also had other names that had to pass first. We had seen 
and talked to and interested everybody and everybody prom- 
ised and nothing happened. Finally we met a senator. He 
would be helpful but then senators were busy and then one 
afternoon we met the senator’s secretary. Gertrude Stein 
drove the senator’s secretary home in Godiva. 

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to drive a car and had not succeeded. The way in which 
Gertrude Stein made her way through Paris trafiEc with the 
ease and indifference of a chauffeur, and was at the same 
time a well known author impressed her immensely. She 
said she would get Mildred Aldrich’s papers out of the 
pigeon hole in which they were probably reposing and she 
did. Very shortly after the mayor of Mildred’s village called 
upon her one morning on ofScial business. He presented her 
with the preliminary papers to be signed for the legion of 
honour. He said to her, you must remember. Mademoiselle, 
these matters often start but do not get themselves accom- 
plished. So you must be prepared for disappointment. Mil- 
dred answered quietly, monsieur le maire, if my friends 
have started a matter of this kind they will see to it that it 
is accomplished. And it was. When we arrived at Avignon 
on our way to Saint-R&ny there was a telegram telling us 
that Mildred had her decoration. We were delighted and 
Mildred Aldrich to the day of her death never lost her pride 
and pleasure m her honour. 

During these early restless years after the war Gertrude 
Stein worked a great deal. Not as in the old days, night after 
night, but anywhere, in between visits, in the automobile 
while she was waiting in the street while I did errands, while 
posing. She was particularly fond in these days of working 
in the automobile while it stood in the crowded streets. 

It was then that she wrote Finer Than Melanctha as a 
joke. Harold Loeb, at that time editing Broom all by him- 
self, said he would like to have something of hers that would 
be as fine as Melanctha, her early negro story in Three Lives. 

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the movement of the automobiles. She also liked then to set 
a sentence for herself as a sort of tuning fork and metro- 
nome and then write to that time and tune. Mildred’s 
Thoughts, published in The American Caravan, was one of 
these experiments she thought most successful. The Birth- 
place of Bonnes, pubHshed in The Little Review, was an- 
other one. Moral Tales of 1920-1921, American Biography, 
and One Hundred Prominent Men, when as she said she 
created out of her imagination one hundred men equally 
men and all equally prominent were written then. These 
two were later printed in Useful Knowledge. 

It was also about this time that Harry Gibb came back to 
Paris for a short while. He was very anxious that Gertrude 
Stein should publish a book of her work showing what she 
had been doing in those years. Not a little book, he kept 
saying, a big book, something they can get their teeth into. 
You must do it, he used to say. But no publisher will look 
at it now that John Lane is no longer active, she said. It 
makes no diflFerence, said Harry Gibb violently, it is the 
essence of the thing that they must see and you must have 
a lot of things printed, and then turning to me he said, 
Alice you do it. I knew he was right and that it had to be 
done. But how. 

I talked to Kate Buss about it and she suggested the Four 
Seas Company who had done a little book for her. I began 
a correspondence with Mr. Brown, Honest to God Brown as 
Gertrude Stein called him in imitation of William Cook’s 
phrase when everything was going particularly wrong. The 
arrangements with Honest to God having finally been made 
we left for the south in July, nineteen twenty-two. 

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We Started off in Godiva, the runabout ford and followed 
by Janet Scudder in a second Godiva accompanied by Mrs. 
Lane. They were going to Grasse to buy themselves a home, 
they finally bought one near Aix-en-Provence. And we were 
going to Saint-Remy to visit in peace the country we had 
loved during the war. 

We were only a hundred or so kilometres from Paris 
when Janet Scudder tooted her horn which was the signal 
agreed upon for us to stop and wait. Janet came alongside. 
I think, said she solemnly, Gertrude Stein always called her 
The Doughboy, she always said there were only two per- 
fectly solemn things on earth, the doughboy and Janet Scud- 
der. Janet had also, Gertrude Stein always said, all the sub- 
tlety of the doughboy and all his nice ways and all his lone- 
someness. Janet came alongside, I think, she said solemnly, 
we are not on the right road, it says Paris-Perpignan and I 
want to go to Grasse. 

Anyway at the time we got no further than Lorme and 
there we suddenly realised how tired we were. We were just 
tired. 

We suggested that the others should move on to Grasse 
but they said they too would wait and we all waited. It was 
the first time we had just stayed still since Pahna de Mal- 
lorca, since 1916. Finally we moved slowly on to Saint-Remy 
and they went further to Grasse and then came back. They 
asked us what we were going to do and we answered, noth- 
ing just stay here- So they went off again and bought a 
property in Aix-en-Provence. 

Janet Scudder, as Gertrude Stein always said, had the real 
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town we stopped on the way Janet would find a piece of 
property that she considered purchasable and Gertrude 
Stein, violently protesting, got her away. She wanted to buy 
property everywhere except in Grasse where she had gone 
to buy property. She finally did buy a house and grounds 
in Aix-en-Provence after insisting on Gertrude Stein’s seeing 
it who told her not to and telegraphed no and telephoned 
no. However Janet did buy it but luckily after a year she 
was able to get rid of it. During that year we stayed quietly 
in Saint-Remy. 

We had intended staying only a month or two but we 
stayed all winter. With the exception of an occasional inter- 
change of visits with Janet Scudder we saw no one except 
the people of the country. We went to Avignon to shop, we 
went now and then into the country we had known so well 
but for the most part we wandered around Saint-Remy, we 
went up into the Alpilles, the little hills that Gertrude Stein 
described over and over again in the writing of that winter, 
we watched the enormous flocks of sheep going up into the 
mountains led by the donkeys and their water bottles, we sat 
above the roman monuments and we went often to Les 
Baux. The hotel was not very comfortable but we stayed on. 
The valley of the Rh6ne was once more exercising its spell 
over us. 

It was during this winter that Gertrude Stein meditated 
upon the use of grammar, poetical forms and what might be 
termed landscape plays. 

It was at this time that she wrote Elucidation, printed in 
transition in nineteen twenty-seven. It was her first effort to 
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them. It was her first effort to realise clearly just what her 
writing meant and why it was as it was. Later on much 
later she wrote her treatises on grammar, sentences, para- 
graphs, vocabulary etcetera, which I have printed in Plain 
Edition under the title of How To Write. 

It was in Saint-Remy and during this winter that she 
wrote the poetry that has so greatly influenced the younger 
generation. Her Capital Capitals, Virgil Thomson has put 
to music. Lend a Hand or Four Religions has been printed 
in Useful Knowledge. This play has always interested her 
immensely, it was the first attempt that later made her 
Operas and Plays, the first conception of landscape as a 
play. She also at that time wrote the Valentine to Sherwood 
Anderson, also printed in the volume Useful Knowledge, 
Indian Boy, printed later in the Reviewer, (Carl Van Vech- 
ten sent Hunter Stagg to us a young Southerner as attractive 
as his name), and Saints In Seven, which she used to illus- 
trate her work in her lectures at Oxford and Cambridge, 
and Talks to Saints in Saint-Remy. 

She worked in those days with slow care and concentra- 
tion, and was very preoccupied. 

Finally we received the first copies of Geography and 
Plays, the winter was over and we went back to Paris. 

This long winter in Saint-Remy broke the restlessness of 
the war and the after war. A great many things were to 
happen, there were to be friendships and there were to be 
enmities and there were to be a great many other things but 
there was not to be any restlessness. 

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tractions, pictures and automobiles. Perhaps she might now 
add dogs. 

Immediately after the war hier attention was attracted by 
the work of a young french painter, Fabre, who had a nat- 
ural feeling for objects on a table and landscapes but he 
came to nothing. The next painter who attracted her atten- 
tion was Andre Masson. Masson was at that time influenced 
by Juan Gris in whom Gertrude Stem’s interest was per- 
manent and vital. She was interested in Andre iMasson as a 
painter particularly as a painter of white and she was inter- 
ested in his composition in the wandering line ia his com- 
positions. Soon Masson fell under the influence o£ the sur- 
realistes. 

The surr6alistes are the vulgarisation of Picabia as De- 
launay and his followers and the futurists were the vul- 
garisation of Picasso. Picabia had conceived and is strug- 
gling with the problem that a line should have the vibration 
of a musical sound and that this vibration should be the 
result of conceiving the human form and the human face 
in so tenuous a fashion that it would induce such vibration 
in the line forming it. It is his way of achieving the dis- 
embodied. It was this idea that conceived mathematically 
influenced Marcel Duchamp and produced his The Nude 
Descending the Staircase. 

All his life Picabia has struggled to dominate and achieve 
this conception. Gertrude Stein thinks that perhaps he is 
now approaching the solution of his problem. The sur- 
realistes taking the manner for the matter as is the way of 
the vulgariscrs, accept the line as having become vibrant 
and as therefore able in itself to inspire them to higher 

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flights. He who is going to be the creator of the vibrant line 
knows that it is not yet created and if it were it would not 
exist by itself, it would be dependent upon the emotion of 
the object which compels the vibration. So much for the 
creator and his followers. 

Gertrude Stein, in her work, has always been possessed by 
the intellectual passion for exactitude in the description of 
inner and outer reality. She has produced a simplification by 
this concentration, and as a result the destruction of associa- 
tional emotion in poetry and prose. She knows that beauty, 
music, decoration, the result of emotion should never be the 
cause, even events should not be the cause of emotion nor 
should they be the material of poetry and prose. Nor should 
emotion itself be the cause of poetry or prose. They should 
consist of an exact reproduction of either an outer or an 
inner reality. 

It was this conception of exactitude that made the close 
understanding between Gertrude Stein and Juan Gris. 

Juan Gris also conceived exactitude but in him exactitude 
had a mystical basis. As a mystic it was necessary for him to 
be exact. In Gertrude Stein the necessity was intellectual, a 
pure passion for exactitude. It is because of this that her 
work has often been compared to that of mathematicians 
and by a certain french critic to the work of Bach. 

Picasso by nature the most endowed had less clarity of 
intellectual purpose. He was in his creative activity domi- 
nated by Spanish ritual, later by negro ritual expressed in 
negro sculpture (which has an arab basis the basis also of 
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tivity being tremendously dominant, he made these great 
rituals over into his own image. 

Juan Gris was the only person whom Picasso wished away. 
The relation between them was just that. 

In the days when the friendship between Gertrude Stein 
and Picasso had become if possible closer than before, (it was 
for his little boy, born February fourth to her February third, 
that she wrote her birthday book with a line for each day 
in the year) in those days her intimacy with Juan Gris dis- 
pleased him. Once after a show of Juan’s pictures at the 
Gallerie Simon he said to her with violence, tell me why you 
stand up for his work, you know you do not like it; and she 
did not answer him. 

Later when Juan died and Gertrude Stein was heart 
broken Picasso came to the house and spent all day there. 
I do not know what was said but I do know that at one 
time Gertrude Stem said to him bitterly, you have no right 
to mourn, and he said, you have no right to say that to me. 
You never realised his meaning because you did not have it, 
she said angrily. You know very well I did, he replied. 

The most moving thing Gertrude Stein has ever written 
is The Life and Death of Juan Gris. It was printed in transi- 
tion and later on translated into german for his retrospec- 
tive show in Berlin. 

Picasso never wished Braque away. Picasso said once when 
he and Gertrude Stein were talking together, yes, Braque 
and James Joyce, they are the incomprehensibles whom 
anybody can understand. Les incomprehensibles que tout le 
monde peut comprendre. 

The first thing that happened when we were back in Paris 

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was Hemingway with a letter of introduction from Sher- 
wood Anderson. 

I remember very well the impression I had of Hemingway 
that first afternoon. He was an extraordinarily good-look- 
ing young man, twenty-three years old. It was not long after 
that that everybody was twenty-six. It became the period of 
being twenty-six. During the next two or three years all the 
young men were twenty-six years old. It was the right age 
apparently for that time and place. There were one or two 
under twenty, for example George Lynes but they did not 
count as Gertrude Stein carefully explained to them. If they 
were young men they were twenty-six. Later on, much later 
on they were twenty-one and twenty-two. 

So Hemiagway was twenty-three, rather foreign looking, 
with passionately interested, rather than interesting eyes. He 
sat in front of Gertrude Stein and listened and looked. 

They talked then, and more and more, a great deal to- 
gether. He asked her to come and spend an evening in their 
apartment and look at his work. Hemingway had then and 
has always a very good instinct for finding apartments in 
strange but pleasing localities and good femmes de menage 
and good food. This his first apartment was just off the 
place du Tertre. We spent the evening there and he and 
Gertrude Stein went over all the writing he had done up to 
that time. He had begun the novel that it was inevitable he 
would begin and there were the little poems afterwards 
printed by McAlmon in the Contact Edition. Gertrude Stein 
rather liked the poems, they were direct, Kiplingesque, but 
the novel she found wanting. There is a great deal of dc- 

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scription in this, she said, and not particularly good descrip- 
tion. Begin over again and concentrate, she said. 

Hemingway was at this time Paris correspondent for a 
Canadian newspaper. He was obliged there to express what 
he called the Canadian viewpoint. 

He and Gertrude Stein used to walk together and talk to- 
gether a great deal. One day she said to him, look here, you 
say you and your wife have a little money between you. Is 
it enough to live on if you live quietly. Yes, he said. Well, 
she said, then do it. If you keep on doing newspaper work 
you will never see things, you will only see words and that 
win not do, that is of course if you intend to be a writer, 
Hemingway said he undoubtedly intended to be a writer. 
He and his wife went away on a trip and shortly after Hem- 
ingway turned up alone. He came to the house about ten 
o’clock in the morning and he stayed, he stayed for lunch, 
he stayed all afternoon, he stayed for dinner and he stayed 
until about ten o’clock at night and then aU of a sudden he 
announced that his wife was enceinte and then with great 
bitterness, and I, I am too young to be a father. We con- 
soled him as best we could and sent him on his way. 

When they came back Hemingway said that he had made 
up his mind. They would go back to America and he would 
work hard for a year and with what he would earn and 
what they had they would settle down and he would give 
up newspaper work and make himself a writer. They went 
away and well within the prescribed year they came back 
with a new born baby. Newspaper work was over. 

The first thing to do when they came back was as they 
thought to get the baby baptised. They wanted Gertrude 

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Stein and myself to be god-mothers and an english war com- 
rade of Hemingway was to be god-father. We were all bom 
of different religions and most of us were not practising any, 
so it was rather difficult to know in what church the baby 
could be baptised. We spent a great deal of time that winter, 
all of us, discussing the matter. Finally it was decided that 
it should be baptised episcopalian and episcopalian it was. 
Just how it was managed with the assortment of god-parents 
I am sure I do not know, but it was baptised in the episco- 
palian chapel. 

Writer or painter god-parents are notoriously unreliable. 
That is, there is certain before long to be a cooling of friend- 
ship. I know several cases of this, poor Paulot Picasso’s god- 
parents have wandered out of sight and just as naturally it 
is a long time since any of us have seen or heard of our 
Hemingway god-child. 

However in the beginning we were active god-parents, I 
particularly. I embroidered a litde chair and I knitted a gay 
coloured garment for the god-child. In the meantime the 
god-chUd’s father was very earnestly at work making him- 
self a writer. 

Gertrude Stein never corrects any detail of anybody’s writ- 
ing, she sticks stricdy to general principles, the way of seeing 
what the writer chooses to see, and the relation between that 
vision and the way it gets down. When the vision is not com- 
plete the words are flat, it is very simple, there can be no 
mistake about it, so she insists. It was at this time that Hem- 
ingway began the short things that afterwards were priuted 
in a volume called In Our Time. 

One day Hemingway came in very excited about Ford 

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Madox Ford and the Transatlantic. Ford Madox Ford had 
started the Transatlantic some months before. A good many 
years before, indeed before the war, we had met Ford Madox 
Ford who was at that time Ford Madox Hueffer. He was 
married to Violet Hunt and Violet Hunt and Gertrude Stein 
were next to each other at the tea table and talked a great 
deal together. I was next to Ford Madox Hueffer and I liked 
him very much and I liked his stories of Mistral and Taras- 
con and I liked his having been followed about in that land 
of the french royalist, on account of his resemblance to the 
Bourbon claimant. I had never seen the Bourbon claimant 
but Ford at that time undoubtedly might have been a Bour- 
bon. 

We had heard that Ford was in Paris, but we had not hap- 
pened to meet. Gertrude Stein had however seen copies of 
the Transatlantic and found it interesting but had thought 
nothing further about it. 

Hemingway came in then very excited and said that Ford 
wanted something of Gertrude Stein’s for the next number 
and he, Hemingway, wanted The Making of Americans to 
be run in it as a serial and he had to have the first fifty pages 
at once. Gertrude Stein was of course quite overcome with 
her excitement at this idea, but there was no copy of the 
manuscript except the one that we had had bound. That 
makes no difference, said Hemingway, I will copy it. And 
he and I between us did copy it and it was printed in the 
next number of the Transatlantic. So for the first time a 
piece of the monumental work which was the beginning, 
really the beginning of modern writing, was printed, and 
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between Gertrude Stein and Hemingway, she always re- 
membered with gratitude that after all it was Hemingway 
who first caused to be printed a piece of The Making of 
Americans. She always says, yes sure I have a weakness for 
Hemingway. After all he was the first of the young men to 
knock at my door and he did make Ford print the first piece 
of The Making of Americans. 

I myself have not so much confidence that Hemingway 
did do this. I have never known what the story is but I 
have always been certain that there was some other story 
behind it all. That is the way I feel about it. 

Gertrude Stein and Sherwood Anderson are very funny 
on the subject of Hemingway. The last time that Sherwood 
was in Paris they often talked about him. Hemingway had 
been formed by the two of them and they were both a little 
proud and a little ashamed of the work of their minds. Hem- 
ingway had at one moment, when he had repudiated Sher- 
wood Anderson and all his works, written him a letter in 
the name of american literature which he, Hemingway, in 
company with his contemporaries was about to save, telling 
Sherwood just what he, Hemingway thought about Sher- 
wood’s work, and, that thinking, was in no sense compli- 
mentary. When Sherwood came to Paris Hemingway nat- 
urally was afraid. Sherwood as naturally was not. 

As I say he and Gertrude Stein were endlessly amusing on 
the subject. They admitted that Hemingway was yellow, he 
is, Gertrude Stein insisted, just like the flat-boat men on the 
Mississippi river as described by Mark Twain. But what a 
book, they both agreed, would be the real story of Heming- 
way, not those he writes but the confessions of the real 

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Ernest Hemingway. It would be for another audience than 
the audience Hemingway now has but it would be very 
wonderful. And then they both agreed that they have a 
weakness for Hemingway because he is such a good pupil. 
He is a rotten pupil, I protested. You don’t understand, they 
both said, it is so flattering to have a pupil who does it with- 
out understanding it, in other words he takes training and 
anybody who takes tr ainin g is a favourite pupil. They both 
admit it to be a weakness. Gertrude Stein added further, 
you see he is like Derain. You remember Monsieur de Tuille 
said, when I did not understand why Derain was having the 
success he was having that it was because he looks like a 
modem and he smells of the museums. And that is Hem- 
ingway, he looks like a modern and he smells of the mu- 
seums. But what a story that of the real Hem, and one he 
should tell him self but alas he never will. After all, as he 
himself once murmured, there is the career, the career. 

But to come back to the events that were happening. 

Hemingway did it aU. He copied the manuscript and cor- 
rected the proof. Correcting proofs is, as I said before, like 
dusting, you learn the values of the thing as no reading suf- 
fices to teach it to you. In correcting these proofs Heming- 
way learned a great deal and he admired all that he learned. 
It was at this time that he wrote to Gertrude Stein saying 
that it was she who had done the work in writing The Mak- 
ing of Americans and he and all his had but to devote their 
lives to seeing that it was published. 

He had hopes of being able to accomplish this. Some one, 
I think by the name of Sterne, said that he could place it 
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that he could, but soon Hemingway reported that Sterne 
had entered into his period of unreliability. That was the 
end of that. 

In the meantime and sometime before this Mina Loy had 
brought McAlmon to the house and he came from time to 
time and he brought his wiEe and brought William Carlos 
Williams. And finally he wanted to print The Making of 
Americans in the Contact Edition and finally he did. I will 
come to that. 

In the meantime McAlmon had printed the three poems 
and ten stories of Hemingway and William Bird had printed 
In Our Time and Hemingway was getting to be known. He 
was coming to know Dos Bassos and Fitzgerald and Brom- 
field and George Antheil and everybody else and Harold 
Loeb was once more in Paris. Hemingway had become a 
writer. He was also a shadow-boxer, thanks to Sherwood, 
and he heard about bull-fighting from me. I have always 
loved Spanish dancing and Spanish bull-fighting and I loved 
to show the photographs of bull-fighters and bull-fighting. 
I also loved to show the photograph where Gertrude Stein 
and I were in the front row and had our picture taken there 
accidentally. In these days Hemingway was teaching some 
young chap how to box. The boy did not know how, but by 
accident he knocked Hemingway out. I believe this some- 
times happens. At any rate in these days Hemingway al- 
though a sportsman was easily tired. He used to get quite 
worn out walking from his house to ours. But then he had 
been worn by the war. Even pow he is, as H61me says all 
men are, fragile. Recently a robxM friend of his said to Ger- 
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thing sporting something breaks, his arm, his leg, or his 
head. 

In those early days Hemingway liked all his contempo- 
raries except Cummings. He accused Cummings of having 
copied everything, not from anybody but from somebody. 
Gertrude Stein who had been much impressed by The Enor- 
mous Room said that Cummings did not copy, he was the 
natural heir of the New England tradition with its aridity 
and its sterility, but also with its individuality. They dis- 
agreed about this. They also disagreed about Sherwood An- 
derson. Gertrude Stein contended that Sherwood Anderson 
had a genius for using the sentence to convey a direct emo- 
tion, this was in the great american tradition, and that really 
except Sherwood there was no one in America who could 
write a clear and passionate sentence. Hemingway did not 
believe this, he did not like Sherwood’s taste. Taste has noth- 
ing to do with sentences, contended Gertrude Stein. She also 
added that Fitzgerald was the only one of the younger 
writers who wrote naturally in sentences. 

Gertrude Stein and Fitzgerald are very peculiar in their 
relation to each other. Gertrude Stein had been very much 
impressed by This Side of Paradise. She read it when it came 
out and before she knew any of the young american writers. 
She said of it that it was this book that really created for 
the public the new generation. She has never changed her 
opinion about this. She thinks this equally true of The Great 
Gatsby. She thinks Fitzgerald will be read when many of 
his well known contemporaries are forgotten. Fitzgerald 
always says that he thinks Gertrude Stein says these things 
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them, and he adds in his favourite way, and her doing it 
is the cruellest thing I ever heard. They always however 
have a very good time when they meet. And the last time 
they met they had a good time with themselves and Hem- 
ingway. 

Then there was McAlmon. McAlmon had one quality 
that appealed to Gertrude Stein, abundance, he could go on 
writing, but she complained that it was dull. 

There was also Glenway Wescott but Glenway Wescott 
at no time interested Gertrude Stein. He has a certain syrup 
but it does not pour. 

So then Hemingway’s career was begun. For a little while 
we saw less of him and then he began to come agaiu. He 
used to recount to Gertrude Stein the conversations that he 
afterwards used in The Sim Also Rises and they talked end- 
lessly about the character of Harold Loeb. At this time Hem- 
ingway was preparing his volume of short stories to submit 
to publishers in Aunerica. One evening after we had not 
seen him for a while he turned up with Shipman. Shipman 
was an amusing boy who was to inherit a few thousand 
dollars when he came of age. He was not of age. He was 
to buy the Transadantic Review when he came of age, so 
Hemingway said. He was to support a surrealist review 
when he came of age, Andre Masson said. He was to buy a 
house in the country when he came of age, Josette Gris said. 
As a matter of fact when he came of age nobody who had 
known him then seemed to know what he did do with his 
inheritance. Hemingway brought him with him to the house 
to talk about bu]nng the Transadantic and incidentally he 
brought the manuscript he intended sending to America. He 

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handed it to Gertrude Stein. He had added to his stories a 
Htde story of meditations and in these he said that The Enor- 
mous Room was the greatest book he had ever read. It was 
then that Gertrude Stein said, Hemingway, remarks are not 
hterature. 

After this we did not see Hemingway for quite a while 
and then we went to see some one, just after The Making 
of Americans was printed, and Hemingway who was there 
came up to Gertrude Stein and began to explain why he 
would not be able to write a review of the book. Just then 
a heavy hand fell on his shoulder and Ford Madox Ford 
said, young man it is I who wish to speak to Gertrude Stein. 
Ford then said to her, I wish to ask your permission to dedi- 
cate my new book to you. May I. Gertrude Stein and I were 
both awfully pleased and touched. 

For some years after this Gertrude Stein and Hemingway 
did not meet. And then we heard that he was back in Paris 
and telling a number of people how much he wanted to see 
her. Don’t you come home with Hemingway on your arm, 
I used to say when she went out for a walk. Sure enough one 
day she did come back bringing him with her. 

They sat and talked a long time. Finally I heard her say, 
Hemingway, after all you are ninety percent Rotarian. Can’t 
you, he said, make it eighty percent. No, said she regretfully, 
I can’t. After all, as she always says, he did, and I may say, 
he does have moments of disinterestedness. 

After that they met quite often. Gertrude Stein always 
says she likes to see him, he is so wonderful. And if he could 
only tell his own story. In their last conversation she accused 
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under the sod. I never, said Hemingway, seriously killed 
anybody but one man and he was a bad man and, he de- 
served it, but if I killed anybody else I did it unknowingly, 
and so I am not responsible. 

It was Ford who once said of Hemingway, he comes and 
sits at my feet and praises me. It makes me nervous. Hem- 
ingway also said once, I turn my flame which is a small one 
down and down and then suddenly there is a big explosion. 
If there were nothing but explosions my work would be so 
exciting nobody could bear it. 

However, whatever I say, Gertrude Stein always says, yes 
I know but I have a weakness for Hemingway. 

Jane Heap turned up one afternoon. The Little Review 
had printed the Birthplace of Bonnes and The Valentine to 
Sherwood Anderson. Jane Heap sat down and we began to 
talk. She stayed to dinner and she stayed the evening and by 
dawn the little ford car Godiva which had been burning its 
lights all night waiting to be taken home could hardly start 
to take Jane home. Gertrude Stein then and always liked 
Jane Heap immensely, Margaret Anderson interested her 
much less. 

It was now once more summer and this time we went to 
the Cote d’Azur and joined the Picassos at Antibes. It was 
there I first saw Picasso’s mother. Picasso looks extraordi- 
narily like her. Gertrude Stein and Madame Picasso had dif- 
ficulty in talking not having a common language but they 
talked enough to amuse themselves. They were talking 
about Picasso when Gertrude Stein first knew him. He was 
remarks^ly beautiful then, said Gertrude Stein, he was illu- 
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you thought him beautiful then I assure you it was nothing 
compared to his looks when he was a boy. He was an angel 
and a devil in beauty, no one could cease looking at him. 
And now, said Picasso a little resentfully. Ah now, said they 
together, ah now there is no such beauty left. But, added 
his mother, you are very sweet and as a son very perfect. 
So he had to be satisfied with that. 

It was at this time that Jean Cocteau who prides himself 
on being eternally thirty was writing a little biography of 
Picasso, and he sent him a telegram asking him to tell him 
the date of his birth. And yours, telegraphed back Picasso. 

There are so many stories about Picasso and Jean Cocteau. 
Picasso like Gertrude Stein is easily upset if asked to do 
something suddenly and Jean Cocteau does this quite suc- 
cessfully. Picasso resents it and revenges himself at greater 
length. Not long ago there was a long story. 

Picasso was in Spain, in Barcelona, and a friend of his 
youth who was editor of a paper printed, not in Spanish 
but in Catalan, interviewed him. Picasso knowing that the 
interview to be printed in Catalan was probably never going 
to be printed in Spanish, thoroughly enjoyed himself. He 
said that Jean Cocteau was getting to be very popular in 
Paris, so popular that you could find his poems on the table 
of any smart coilfeur. 

As I say he thoroughly enjoyed himself in giving this in- 
terview and then returned to Paris. 

Some Catalan in Barcelona sent the paper to some Catalan 
friend in Paris and the Catalan friend in Paris translated it 
to a french friend and the french friend printed the inter- 
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Picasso and his wife told us the story together of what 
happened then. As soon as Jean saw the article, he tried to 
see Pablo. Pablo refused to see him, he told the maid to say 
that he was always out and for days they could not answer 
the telephone. Cocteau finally stated in an interview given 
to the french press that the interview which had wounded 
him so sorely had turned out to be an interview with Picabia 
and not an interview with Picasso, his friend. Picabia of 
course denied this. Cocteau implored Picasso to give a public 
denial. Picasso remained discreedy at home. 

The first evening the Picassos went out they went to the 
theatre and there in front of them seated was Jean Cocteau’s 
mother. At the first intermission they went up to her, and 
surrounded by all their mutual friends she said, my dear, 
you cannot imagine the relief to me and to Jean to loiow 
that it was not you that gave out that vile interview, do 
tell me that it was not. 

And as Picasso’s wife said, I as a mother could not let a 
mother suffer and I said of course it was not Picasso and 
Picasso said, yes yes of cotirse it was not, and so the public 
retraction was given. 

It was this summer that Gertrude Stein, delighting in the 
movement of the tiny waves on the Antibes shore, wrote the 
Completed Portrait of Picasso, the Second Portrait of Carl 
Van Vechten, and The Book Concluding With As A Wife 
Has A Cow A Love Story this afterwards beautifully illus- 
trated by Juan Gris. 

Robert McAlmon had definitely decided to publish The 
Making of Americans, and we were to correct proofe that 
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meet the Picassos at Antibes. I had been reading the Guide 
des Gourmets and I had found among other places where 
one ate well, Pernollet’s Hotel in the town of Belley. Belley 
is its riamf and Belley is its nature, as Gertrude Stein’s elder 
brother remarked. We arrived there about the middle of 
August. On the map it looked as if it were high up in the 
mountains and Gertrude Stein does not like precipices and 
as we drove through the gorge I was nervous and she pro- 
testing, but finally the country opened out delightfully and 
we arrived in Belley. It was a pleasant hotel although it had 
no garden and we had intended that it should have a gar- 
den. We stayed on for several days. 

Then Madame Pernollet, a pleasant round faced woman 
gqid to us that since we were evidently staying on why did 
we not make rates by the day or by the week. We said we 
would. In the meanwhile the Picassos wanted to know what 
had become of us. We repfied that we were in Belley. We 
found that Belley was the birthplace of BriUat-Savarm. We 
now in Bilignin are enjoying using the furniture from the 
house of Brillat-Savarin which house belongs to the owner 
of this house. 

We also found that Lamartine had been at school in Belley 
and Gertrude Stein says that wherever Lamartine stayed any 
length of time one eats well. Madame Recamier also comes 
from this region and the place is full of descendants of her 
husband’s family. All these things we found out gradually 
but for the moment we were comfortable and we stayed on 
an d left late. The following summer we were to correct 
proofs of The M aking of Americans and so we left Paris 
early and came again to Belley. What a summer it was. 

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The Making of Americans is a book one thousand pages 
long, closely printed on large pages. Daranti^e has told me 
it has five hundred and sixty-five thousand words. It was 
written in nineteen hundred and six to nineteen hundred 
and eight, and except for the sections printed in Transat- 
lantic it was all still in manuscript. 

The sentences as the book goes on get longer and longer, 
they are sometimes pages long and the compositors were 
french, and when they made mistakes and left out a line 
the eifort of getting it back again was terrific. 

We used to leave the hotel in the morning with camp 
chairs, lunch and proof, and all day we struggled with the 
errors of French compositors. Proof had to be corrected most 
of it four times and finally I broke my glasses, my eyes gave 
out, and Gertrude Stein finished alone. 

We used to change the scene of our labours and we found 
lovely spots but there were always to accompany us those 
endless pages of printers’ errors. One of our favourite hill- 
ocks where we could see Mont Blanc in the distance we 
called Madame Mont Blanc. 

Another place we went to often was near a little pool 
made by a small stream near a country cross-road. This was 
quite like the middle ages, so many things used to happen 
there, in a very simple middle age way. I remember once a 
country-man came up to us leading his oxen. Very politely 
he said, ladies is there anything the matter with me. Why 
yes, we replied, your face is covered with blood. Oh, he said, 
you see my oxen were slipping down the hill and I held 
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had happened to me. We helped him wash the blood ofi 
and he went on. 

It was during this summer that Gertrude Stein began two 
long things, A Novel and the Phenomena of Nature which 
was to lead later to the whole series of meditations on gram- 
mar and sentences. 

It led first to An Acquaintance With Description, after- 
wards printed by the Seizin Press. She began at this time to 
describe landscape as if anything she saw was a natural 
phenomenon, a thing existent in itself, and she found it, 
this exercise, very interesting and it finally led her to the 
later series of Operas and Plays. I am trying to be as com- 
monplace as I can be, she used to say to me. And then some- 
times a little worried, it is not too commonplace. The last 
thing that she has finished. Stanzas of Meditation, and 
which I am now typewriting, she considers her real achieve- 
ment of the commonplace. 

But to go back. We returned to Paris, the proofs ‘almost 
done, and Jane Heap was there. She was very excited. She 
had a wonderful plan, I have now quite forgotten what it 
was, but Gertrude Stein was enormously pleased with it. It 
had something to do with a plan for another edition of The 
Making of Americans in America. 

At any rate in the %;ious complications connected with 
this matter McAlmon became very angry and not without 
reason, and The Making of Americans appeared but Mc- 
Almon and Gertrude Stein were no longer friends. 

When Gertrude Stein was quite young her brother once 
remarked to her, that she, having been born in February, 
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slow-minded. Undoubtedly a great many complications have 
been the result. 

One day in this same spring we were going to visit a new 
spring salon. Jane Heap had been telling us of a young rus- 
sian in whose work she was interested. As we were crossing 
a bridge in Godiva we saw Jane Heap and the young rus- 
sian. We saw his pictures and Gertrude Stem too was inter- 
ested. He of course came to see us. 

In How To Write Gertrude Stein makes this sentence, 
Painting now after its great period has come back to be a 
minor art. 

She was very interested to know who was to be the leader 
of this art. 

This is the story. 

The young russian was interesting. He was painting, so 
he said, colour that was no colour, he was painting blue pic- 
tures and he was painting three heads in one. Picasso had 
been drawing three heads in one. Soon the russian was paint- 
ing three figures in one. Was he the only one. In a way he 
was although there was a group of them. This group, very 
shortly after Gertrude Stein knew the russian, had a show 
at one of the art galleries, Druet’s I think. The group then 
consisted of the russian, a frenchman, a very young dutch- 
man, and two russian brothers. All of them except the dutch- 
man about twenty-six years old. 

At this show Gertrude Stein met George Antheil who 
asked to cc«ne to see her and when he came he brought 
with him Virgil Thomson. Gertrude Stein had not found 
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him, but Virgil Thomson she found very interesting al- 
though I did not like him. 

However all this I will tell about later. To go back now 
to painting. 

The russian Tchelitchev’s work was the most vigorous of 
the group and the most mature and the most interesting. 
He had already then a passionate enmity against the french- 
man whom they called Bebe Berard and whose name was 
Christian Berard and whom Tchelitchev said copied every- 
thing. 

Rene Crevel had been the friend of all these painters. 
Some time later one of them was to have a one man show 
at the Gallerie Pierre. We were going to it and on the way 
we met Rene. We all stopped, he was exhilarated with ex- 
asperation. He talked with his characteristic brilliant vio- 
lence. These painters, he said, sell their pictures for several 
thousand francs apiece and they have the pretentiousness 
which comes from being valued in terms of money, and we 
writers who have twice their quality and infinitely greater 
vitality cannot earn a living and have to beg and intrigue to 
induce publishers to publish us; but the time will come, and 
Rene became prophetic, when these same painters will come 
to us to re-create them and then we will contemplate them 
with indifference. 

Rene was then and has remained ever since a devout sur- 
realiste. He needs and needed, being a frenchman, an in- 
tellectual as well as a basal justification for the passionate 
exaltation in him. This he could not find, being of the im- 
mediate postwar generation, in either religion or patriotism, 
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and religion as a passion. Surrealisme has been his justifica- 
tion. It has clarified for him the confused negation in which 
he lived and loved. This he alone of his generation has really 
succeeded in expressing, a little in his earher books, and in 
his last book, The Clavecin of Diderot very adequately and 
with the brilhant violence that is his quality. 

Gertrude Stein was at first not interested in this group 
of painters as a group but only in the russian. This interest 
gradually increased and then she was bothered. Granted, 
she used to say, that the influences which make a new move- 
ment in art and literature have continued and are makin g 
a new movement in art and literature; in order to seize these 
influences and create as well as re-create them there needs 
a very dominating creative power. This the russian mani- 
festly did not have. Still there was a distinctly new creative 
idea. Where had it come from. Gertrude Stein always says 
to the young painters when they complain that she changes 
her mind about their work, it is not I that change my mind 
about the pictures, but the paintings disappear into the wall, 
I do not see them any more and then they go out of the 
door naturally. 

In the meantime as I have said George Antheil had 
brought Virgil Thomson to the house and Virgil Thomson 
and Gertrude Stein became friends and saw each other a 
great deal. Virgil Thomson had put a number of Gertrude 
Stein’s things to music, Susie Asado, Preciosilla and Capital 
Capitals. Gertrude Stein was very much interested in Virgil 
Thomson’s music. He had understood Satie undoubtedly 
and he had a comprehension quite his own of prosody. He 
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to dream at night that there was something there that he 
did not understand, but on the whole he was very well con- 
tent with that which he did understand. She delighted in 
listening to her words framed by his music. They saw a great 
deal of each other. 

Virgil had in his room a great many pictures by Chris- 
tian Berard and Gertrude Stem used to look at them a great 
deal. She could not find out at all what she thought about 
them. 

She and Virgil Thomson used to talk about them end- 
lessly. Virgil said he knew nothing about pictures but he 
thought these wonderful. Gertrude Stein told him about 
her perplexity about the new movement and that the crea- 
tive power behind it was not the russian. Virgil said that 
there he quite agreed with her and he was convinced that 
it was Bebe Berard, baptised Christian. She said that per- 
haps that was the answer but she was very doubtful. She 
used to say of Berard’s pictures, they are almost something 
and then they are just not. As she used to explain to Virgil, 
the Catholic Church makes a very sharp distinction between 
a hysteric and a saint. The same thing holds true in the art 
world. There is the sensitiveness of the hysteric which has 
all the appearance of creation, but actual creation has an in- 
dividual force which is an entirely different thing. Gertrude 
Stein was inclined to believe that artistically Berard was 
more hysteric than saint. At this time she had come back to 
portrait writing with renewed vigour and she, to clarify her 
mind, as she said, did portraits of the russian and of the 
frenchman. In the meantime, through Virgil Thomson, she 
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and Gertrude Stein became very devoted to one anotlier. He 
liked the sound of her writing and then he liked the sense 
and he liked the sentences. 

At his home were a great many portraits of himself 
painted by his friends. Among others one by one of the 
two russian brothers and one by a young englishman. Ger- 
trude Stein was not particularly interested in any of these 
portraits. There was however a painting of a hand by this 
young englishman which she did not like but which she 
remembered. 

Every one began at this time to be very occupied with 
their own affairs. Virgil Thomson had asked Gertrude Stein 
to write an opera for him. Among the saints there were two 
saints whom she had always liked better than any others. 
Saint Theresa of Avila and Ignatius Loyola, and she said 
she would write him an opera about these two saints. She 
began this and worked very hard at it all that spring and 
finally finished Four Saints and gave it to Virgil Thomson 
to put to music. He did. And it is a completely interesting 
opera both as to words and music. 

All these summers we had continued to go to the hotel 
in Belley. We now had become so fond of this country, 
always the valley of the Rhone, and of the people of the 
country, and the trees of the country, and the oxen of the 
country, that we began looking for a house. One day we 
saw the house of our dreams across a vaUcy. Go and ask 
the farmer there whose house that is, Gertrude Stein said 
to me. I said, nonsense it is an important house and it is 
occupied. Go and ask him, she said. Very reluctantly I did. 
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girl, all her people are dead and I think there is a lieutenant 
of the regiment stationed in Belley living there now, but I 
understand they were to leave. You might go and see the 
agent of the property. We did. He was a kindly old farmer 
who always told us allez doucement, go slowly. We did. 
We had the promise of the house, which we never saw any 
nearer than across the valley, as soon as the lieutenant should 
leave. Finally three years ago the lieutenant went to Morocco 
and we took the house still only having seen it from across 
the valley and we have liked it always more. 

While we were still staying at the hotel, Natalie Barney 
came one day and lunched there bringing some friends, 
among them, the Duchess of Clermont-Tonnerre. Gertrude 
Stein and she were delighted with one another and the 
meeting led to many pleasant consequences, but of that later. 

To return to the painters. Just after the opera was finished 
and before leaving Paris we happened to go to a show of 
pictures at the Gallerie Bonjean. There we met one of the 
russian brothers, Genia Berman, and Gertrude Stein was not 
uninterested in his pictures. She went with him to his studio 
and looked at everything he had ever painted. He seemed 
to have a purer intelligence than the other two painters who 
certainly had not created the modern movement, perhaps 
the idea had been originally his. She asked him, telling her 
story as she was fond of telling it at that time to any one 
who would listen, had he originated the idea. He said with 
an intelligent inner smile that he thought he had. She was 
not at all sure that he was not right. He came down to 
Bilignin to see us and sho slowly concluded that though he 
was a very good painter he was too bad a painter to have 

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been, the creator of an idea. So once more the search began. 

Again just before leaving Paris at this same picture gal- 
lery she saw a picture of a poet sitting by a waterfall. Who 
did that, she said. A young englishman, Francis Rose, was 
the reply. Oh yes I am not interested in his work. How 
much is that picture, she said: It cost very little. Gertrude 
Stein says a picture is either worth three hundred francs or 
three hundred thousand francs. She bought this for three 
hundred and we went away for the summer. 

Georges Hugnet had decided to become an editor and he 
began editing the Editions de la Montagne. Actually it was 
George Maratier, everybody’s friend who began this edition, 
but he decided to go to America and become an american 
and Georges Hugnet inherited it. The first book to appear 
was sixty pages in french of The Making of Americans. 
Gertrude Stein and Georges Hugnet translated them to- 
gether and she was very happy about it. This was later fol- 
lowed by a volume of Ten Portraits written by Gertrude 
Stein and illustrated by portraits of the artists of themselves, 
and of the others drawn by them, Virgil Thomson by Berard 
and a drawing of Berard by himself, a portrait of Tchelit- 
chev by himself, a portrait of Picasso by himself and one of 
Guillaume Apollinaire and one of Erik Satie by Picasso, one 
of Kristians Tonny the young dutchman by himself and 
one of Bernard Fay by Tonny. These volumes were very 
well received and everybody was pleased. 

Once more everybody went away. 

Gertrude Stein in winter takes her white poodle Basket 
to be bathed at a vet’s and she used to go to the picture gal- 
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ture and wait for Basket to dry. Every time she came home 
she brought more pictures by the englishman. She did not 
talk much about it but they accumulated. Several people 
began to tell her about this young man and offered to in- 
troduce him. Gertrude Stein declined. She said no she had 
had enough of knowing young painters, she now would 
content herself with knowing young painting. 

In the meantime Georges Hugnet wrote a poem called 
Enfance. Gertrude Stein offered to translate it for him but 
instead she wrote a poem about it. This at first pleased 
Georges Hugnet too much and then did not please him at 
all. Gertrude Stein then called the poem Before The Flowers 
Of Friendship Faded Friendship Faded. Everybody mixed 
themselves up in all this. The group broke up. Gertrude 
Stein was very upset and then consoled herself by telling 
all about it in a delightful short story called From Left to 
Right and which was printed in the London Harper’s Ba- 
zaar. 

It was not long after this that one day Gertrude Stein 
called in the concierge and asked him to hang up all the 
Francis Rose pictures, by this time there were some thirty- 
odd. Gertrude Stein was very much upset while she was 
having this done. I asked her why she was doing it if it 
upset her so much. She said she could not help it, that she 
felt that way about it but to change the whole aspect of the 
room by adding these thirty pictures was very upsetting. 
There the matter rested for some time. 

To go back again to those days just after the publication 
of The Making of Americans. There was at that time a 
review of Gertrude Stein’s book Geography and Plays in 

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the Athenaeum signed Edith Sitwell. The review was long 
and a litde condescending but I liked it. Gertrude Stein had 
not cared for it. A year later in the London Vogue was an 
article again by Edith Sitwell saying that since writing her 
article in the Athenaeum she had spent the year reading 
nothing but Geography and Plays and she wished to say 
how important and beautiful a book she had found it to be. 

One afternoon at Elmer Harden’s we met Miss Todd the 
editor of the London Vogue. She said that Edith Sitwell was 
to be shortly in Paris and wanted very much to meet Ger- 
trude Stein. She said that Edith Sitwell was very shy and 
hesitant about coming. Elmer Harden said he would act as 
escort. 

I remember so well my first impression of her, an impres- 
sion which indeed has never changed. Very tall, bending 
slightly, withdrawing and hesitatingly advancing, and beau- 
tiful with the most distinguished nose I have ever seen on 
any human being. At that time and in conversation between 
Gertrude Stein and herself afterwards, I delighted in the 
delicacy and completeness of her understanding of poetry. 
Slie and Gertrude Stein became friends at once. This frieni 
ship like all friendshi ps bas-h ad its diflEculties but I am con- 
vmc^that fimdamentally Gertrude Stein and Edith Sitwell 
are friends and enjoy being friends. 

We saw a great deal of Edith Sitwell at this time and 
then she went back to London. In the autumn of that year 
nineteen twenty-five Gertrude Stein had a letter from the 
president of the literary society of Cambridge asking her to 
speak before them in the early spring. Gertrude Stein quite 
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no. Immediately came a letter from Edith Sitwell saying that 
the no must be changed to yes. That it was of the first im- 
portance that Gertrude Stein should deliver this address and 
that moreover Oxford was waiting for the yes to be given 
to Cambridge to ask her to do the same at Oxford. 

There was very evidently nothing to do but to say yes and 
so Gertrude Stein said yes. 

She was very upset at the prospect, peace, she said, had 
much greater terrors than war. Precipices even were noth- 
ing to this. She was very low in her mind. Luckily early in 
January the ford car began to have everything the matter 
with it. The better garages would not pay much attention 
to aged fords and Gertrude Stein used to take hers out to 
a shed in Montrouge where the mechanics worked at it 
while she sat. If she were to leave it there there would most 
likely have been nothing left of it to drive away. 

One cold dark afternoon she went out to sit with her ford 
car and while she sat on the steps of another battered ford 
watching her own being taken to pieces and put together 
again, she began to write. She stayed there several hours 
and when she came back chilled, with the ford repaired, she 
had written the whole of Composition As Explanation. 

Once the lecture written the next trouble was the reading 
of it. Everybody gave her advice. She read it to anybody who 
came to the house and some of them read it to her. Prichard 
happened to be in Paris just then and he and Emily Chad- 
bourne between them gave advice and were an audience 
Prichard showed her how to read it in the english manner 
but Emily Chadbourne was all for the american maimer 
and Gertrude Stein was too worried to have any manner. 

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We went one afternoon to Natalie Barney’s. There there 
was a very aged and a very charming french professor of 
history. Natalie Barney asked him to tell Gertrude Stein 
how to lecture. Talk as quickly as you can and never look 
up, was his advice. Prichard had said talk as slowly as pos- 
sible and never look down. At any rate I ordered a new 
dress and a new hat for Gertrude Stein and early in the 
spring we went to London. 

This was the spring of twenty-sis and England was still 
very strict about passports. We had ours alright but Ger- 
trude Stein hates to answer questions from officials, it always 
worries her and she was already none too happy at the pros- 
pect of lecturing. 

So taking both passports I went down stairs to see the 
officials. Ah, said one of them, and where is Miss Gertrude 
Stein. She is on deck, I replied, and she does not care to 
come down. She does not care to come down, he repeated, 
yes that is quite right, she does not care to come down, and 
he affixed the required signatures. So then we arrived in 
London. Edith Sitwell gave a party for us and so did her 
brother Osbert. Osbert was a great comfort to Gertrude 
Stein. He so thoroughly understood every possible way in 
which one could be nervous that as he sat beside her in the 
hotel telling her all the kinds of ways that he and she could 
suffer from stage fright she was quite soothed. She was al- 
ways very fond of Osbert. She always said he was like an 
uncle of a king. He had that pleasant kindly irresponsible 
agitated calm that an uncle of an english king always must 
have. 

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given tea and then dined with the president of the society 
and some of his friends. It was very pleasant and after din- 
ner we went to the lecture room. It was a varied audience, 
men and women. Gertrude Stein was soon at her ease, the 
lecture went off very well, the men afterwards asked a great 
many questions and were very enthusiastic. The women 
said nothing. Gertrude Stein wondered whether they were 
supposed not to or just did not. 

The day after we went to Oxford. There we lunched 
with young Acton and then went in to the lecture. Gertrude 
Stein was feeling more comfortable as a lecturer and this 
time she had a wonderful time. As she remarked afterwards, 
I felt just like a prima donna. 

The lecture room was full, many standing in the back, 
and the discussion, after the lecture, lasted over an hour and 
no one left. It was very exciting. They asked aU sorts of 
questions, they wanted to know most often why Gertrude 
Stein thought she was right in doing the kind of writing 
she did. She answered that it was not a question of what 
any one thought but after all she had been doing as she did 
for about twenty years and now they wanted to hear her 
lecture. This did not mean of course that they were coming 
to think that her way was a possible way, it proved nothing, 
but on the other hand it did possibly indicate something. 
They laughed. Then up jumped one man, it turned out 
afterwards that he was a dean, and he said that in the Saints 
in Seven he had been very interested in the sentence about 
the ring around the moon, about the ring following the 
moon. He admitted that the sentence was one of the most 
beautifully balance sentences he had ever heard, but stiU 

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did the ring follow the moon. Gertrude Stein said, when 
you look at the moon and there is a ring around the moon 
and the moon moves does not the ring follow the moon. 
Perhaps it seems to, he replied. Well, in that case how, she 
said, do you know that it does not; he sat down. Another 
man, a don, next to him jumped up and asked something 
else. They did this several times, the two of them, jumping 
up one after the other. Then the first man jumped up and 
said, you say that everything being the same everything is 
always different, how can that be so. Consider, she replied, 
the two of you, you jump up one after the other, that is the 
same thing and surely you admit that the two of you are 
always different. Touch4 he said and the meeting was over. 
One of the men was so moved that he confided to me as we 
went out that the lecture had been his greatest experience 
since he had read Kant’s Critique of Pure Reason. 

Edith Sitwell, Osbert and Sacheverell were all present and 
were all delighted. They were delighted with the lecture 
and they were delighted with the good humoured way in 
which Gertrude Stein had gotten the best of the hecklers. 
Edith Sitwell said that Sache chuckled about it all the way 
home. 

The next day we returned to Paris. The Sitwells wanted 
us to stay and be interviewed and generally go on with it 
but Gertrude Stein felt that she had had enough of glory 
and excitement. Not, as she always explains, that she could 
ever have enough of glory. After all, as she always contends, 
no artist needs criticism, he only needs appreciation. If he 
needs criticism he is no artist. 

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position As Explanation in the Hogarth Essay Series. It was 
also printed in The Dial. 

Mildred Aldrich was awfully pleased at Gertrude Stein’s 
english success. She was a good new englander and to her, 
recognition by Oxford and Cambridge, was even more im- 
portant than recognition by the Atlantic Monthly. We went 
out to see her on our return and she had to have the lecture 
read to her again and to hear every detail of the whole ex- 
perience. 

Mildred Aldrich was falling upon bad days. Her annuity 
suddenly ceased and for a long time we did not know it. 
One day Dawson Johnston, the librarian of the American 
Library, told Gertrude Stein that Miss Aldrich had written 
to him to come out and get all her books as she would soon 
be leaving her home. We went out immediately and Mildred 
told us that her annuity had been stopped. It seems it was 
an annuity given by a woman who had fallen into her 
dotage and she one morning told her lawyer to cut off all 
the annuities that she had given for many years to a num- 
ber of people. Gertrude Stein told Mildred not to worry. 
The Carnegie Fund, approached by Kate Buss, sent five hun- 
dred dollars, William Cook gave Gertrude Stein a blank 
cheque to supply all deficiencies, another friend of Mildred’s 
from Providence Rhode Island came forward generously 
and the Atlantic Monthly started a fund. Very soon Mildred 
Aldrich was safe. She said ruefully to Gertrude Stein, you 
would not let me go elegantly to the poorhouse and I would 
have gone elegantly, but you have turned this into a poor 
house and I am the sole inmate. Gertrude Stein comforted 
her and said that she could be just as elegant in her solitary 

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State. After all, Gertrude Stein used to say to her, Mildred 
nobody can say that you have not had a good run for your 
money. Mildred Aldrich’s last years were safe. 

William Cook after the war had been in Russia, in Tiflis, 
for three years in connection with Red Cross distribution 
there. One evening he and Gertrude Stein had been out tb 
see Mildred, it was during her last illness and they were 
coming home one foggy evening. Cook had a small open 
car but a powerful searchlight, strong enough to pierce the 
fog. Just behind them was another small car which kept an 
even pace with them, when Cook drove faster, they drove 
faster, and when he slowed down, they slowed down. Ger- 
trude Stein said to him, it is lucky for them that you have 
such a bright light, their lanterns are poor and they are hav- 
ing the benefit of yours. Yes, said Cook, rather curiously, I 
have been saying that to myself, but you know after three 
years of Soviet Russia and the Cheka, even I, an american, 
have gotten to feel a little queer, and I have to talk to my- 
self about it, to be sure that the car behind us is not the car 
of the secret police. 

I said that Rene Crevel came to the house. Of all the 
young men who came to the house I think I liked Rene 
the best. He had french charm, which when it is at its most 
charming is more charming even than american charm, 
ch a r min g as that can be. Marcel Duchamp and Rene Crevel 
are perhaps the most complete examples of this french 
charm. We were very fond of Rene. He was young and 
violent and ill and revolutionary and sweet and tender. 
Gertrude Stdn and Rene are very fond of each other, he 
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a great deal. It was he who, in early days, first talked to us 
of Bernard Fay. He said he was a young professor in the 
University of Clermont-Ferrand and he wanted to take us 
to his house. One afternoon he did take us there. Bernard 
Fay was not at all what Gertrude Stein expected and he and 
she had nothing in particular to say to each other. 

As I remember during that winter and the next we gave 
a great many parties. We gave a tea party for the Sitwells. 

Carl Van Vechten sent us quantities of negroes beside 
there were the negroes of our neighbour Mrs. Regan who 
had brought Josephine Baker to Paris. Carl sent us Paul 
Robeson. Paul Robeson interested Gertrude Stein. He knew 
american values and american life as only one in it but not 
of it could know them. And yet as soon as any other person 
came into the room he became definitely a negro. Gertrude 
Stein did not like hearing him sing spirituals. They do not 
belong to you any more than anything else, so why claim 
them, she said. He did not answer. 

Once a southern woman, a very charming southern 
woman, was there, and she said to him, where were you 
born, and he answered, in New Jersey, and she said, not in 
the south, what a pity and he said, not for me. 

Gertrude Stein concluded that negroes were not suffering 
from persecution, they were suffering from nothingness. She 
always contends that the african is not primitive, he has a 
very ancient but a very narrow culture and there it remains. 
Consequently nothing does or can happen. 

Carl Van Vechten himself came over for the first time 
since those far away days of the pleated shirt. All those 
years he and Gertrude Stein had kept up a friendship and 

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a correspondence. Now that he was actually coming Ger- 
trude Stein was a little worried. When he came they were 
better friends than ever. Gertrude Stein told him that she 
had been worried. I wasn’t, said Carl. 

Among the other young men who came to the house at 
the time when they came in such numbers was Bravig Imbs. 
We liked Bravig, even though as Gertrude Stein said, his 
aim was to please. It was he who brought Elliot Paul to the 
house and Elliot Paul brought transition. 

We had liked Bravig Imbs but we liked Elliot Paul more. 
He was very interesting. Elliot Paul was a new englander 
but he was a saracen, a saracen such as you sometimes see 
in the villages of France where the strain from some Cru- 
sading ancestor’s dependents still survives. Elliot Paul was 
such a one. He had an element not of mystery but of eva- 
nescence, actually litde by little he appeared and then as 
slowly he disappeared, and Eugene Jolas and Maria Jolas 
appeared. These once having appeared, stayed in their ap- 
pearance. 

Elliot Paul was at that time working on the Paris Chicago 
Tribune and he was there writing a series of articles on the 
work of Gertrude Stein, the first seriously popular estima- 
tion of her work. At the same time he was turning the 
young journalists and proof-readers into writers. He started 
Bravig Imbs on his first book, The Professor’s Wife, by stop- 
ping him suddenly in his talk and saying, you begin there. 
He did the same thing for others. He played the accordion 
as nobody else not native to the accordion could play it and 
he learned and played for Gertrude Stein accompanied on 
the violin by Bravig Imbs, Gertrude Stein’s favourite ditty, 

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The Trail of the Lonesome Pine, My name is June and very 
very soon. 

The Trail of the Lonesome Pine as a song made a lasting 
appeal to Gertrude Stein. Mildred Aldrich had it among 
her records and when we spent the afternoon with her at 
Huiry, Gertrude Stein inevitably would start The Trail of 
the Lonesome Pine on the phonograph and play it and play 
it. She liked it in itself and she had been fascinated during 
the war with the magic of The Trail of the Lonesome Pine 
as a book for the doughboy. How often when a doughboy 
in hospital had become particularly fond of her, he would 
say, I once read a great book, do you know it, it is called 
The Trail of the Lonesome Pine. They finally got a copy 
of it in the camp at Nimes and it stayed by the bedside of 
every sick soldier. They did not read much of it, as far as 
she could make out sometimes only a paragraph, in the 
course of several days, but their voices were husky when 
they spoke of it, and when they were particularly devoted 
to her they would offer to lend her this very dirty and tat- 
tered copy. 

She reads anything and naturally she read this and she 
was puzzled. It had practically no story to it and it was not 
exciting, or adventurous, and it was very well written and 
was mosdy description of mountain scenery. Later on she 
came across some reminiscences of a southern woman who 
told how the mountaineers in the southern army during the 
civil war used to wait in turn to read Victor Hugo’s Les 
Mis&ables, an equally astonishing thing for again there is 
not much of a story and a great deal of description. How- 
ever Gertrude Stein admits that she loves the song of The 

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Trail of the Lonesome Pine in the same way that the dough- 
boy loved the book and Elliot Paul played it for her on the 
accordion. 

One day Elliot Paul came in very excitedly, he usually 
seemed to be feeling a great deal of excitement but neither 
showed nor expressed it This time however he did show it 
and express it. He said he wanted to ask Gertrude Stein’s 
advice. A proposition had been made to him to edit a maga- 
zine in Paris and he was hesitating whether he should under- 
take it. Gertrude Stein was naturally all for it. After all, as 
she said, we do want to be printed. One writes for oneself 
and strangers but with no adventurous publishers how can 
one come in contact with those same strangers. 

However she was very fond of Elliot Paul and did not 
want him to take too much risk. No risk, said Elliot Paul, 
the money for it is guaranteed for a number of years. Well 
then, said Gertrude Stein, one thing is certain no one could 
be a better editor than you would be. You are not egotistical 
and you know what you feel. 

Transition began and of course it meant a great deal to 
everybody. Elliot Paul chose with great care what he wanted 
to put into transition. He said he was afraid of its becoming 
too popular. If ever there are more than two thousand sub- 
scribers, I quit^ he used to say. 

He chose Elucidation Gertrude Stein’s first effort to ex- 
plain herself, written in Saint-Rany to put into the first 
number of transition. Later As A Wife Has A Cow A Love 
Stcffy. He was always very enthusiastic about this story. He 
liked Made A Mile Away, a description of the pictures that 
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If He Thinks, for transition. He had a perfectly definite 
idea of gradually opening the eyes of the public to the work 
of the writers that interested him and as I say he chose what 
he wanted with great care. He was very interested in Picasso 
and he became very deeply interested in Juan Gris and after 
his death printed a translation of Juan Gris’ defence of 
painting which had already been printed in french in the 
Transatlantic Review, and he printed Gertrude Stein’s la- 
ment, The Life and Death of Juan Gris and her One Span- 
iard. 

Elliot Paul slowly disappeared and Eugene and Maria 
Jolas appeared. 

Transition grew more bulky. At Gertrude Stein’s request 
transition reprinted Tender Buttons, printed a bibliography 
of all her work up to date and later printed her opera. Four 
Saints. For these printings Gertrude Stein was very grateful. 
In the last numbers of transition nothing of hers appeared. 
Transition died. 

Of all the little magazines which as Gertrude Stein loves 
to quote, have died to make verse free, perhaps the yoxmgest 
and freshest was the Blues. Its editor Charles Henri Ford 
has come to Paris and he is young and fresh as his Blues 
and also honest which also is a pleasure. Gertrude Stein 
thinks that he and Robert Coates alone among the young 
men have an individual sense of words. 

During this time Oxford and Cambridge men turned up 
from time to time at the rue de Fleurus. One of them 
brought with him Brewer, one of the firm of Payson and 
Clarke. 

Brewer was interested in the work of Gertrude Stein and 

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though he promised nothing he and she talked over the 
possibihties of his firm printing something of hers. She had 
just written- a shortish novel called A Novel, and was at 
the time working at another shortish novel which was called 
Lucy Church Amiably and which she describes as a novel 
of romantic beauty and nature and which looks like an 
engraving. She at Brewer’s request wrote a summary of this 
book as an advertisement and he cabled his enthusiasm. 
However he wished first to commence with a collection of 
short things and she suggested in that case he should make 
it all the short things she had written about America and 
call it Useful Knowledge. This was done. 

There are many Paris picture dealers who like adventure 
in their business, there are no publishers in America who 
like adventure in theirs. In Paris there are picture dealers 
like Durand-Ruel who went broke twice supporting the im- 
pressionists, Vollard for C&anne, Sagot for Picasso and 
Kahnweiler for all the cubists. They make their money as 
they can and they keep on buying something for which 
there is no present sale and they do so persistently until they 
create its public. And these adventurers are adventorous be- 
cause that is the way they feel about it. There are others who 
have not chosen as well and have gone entirely broke. It is 
the tradition among the more adventurous Paris picture 
dealers to adventure. I suppose there are a great many rea- 
sons why publishers do not. John Lane alone among pub- 
lishers did. He perhaps did not die a very rich man but he 
lived well, and died a moderately rich one. 

We had a hope that Brewer might be this kind of a pub- 
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all that he anticipated and instead of continuing and grad- 
ually creating a public for Gertrude Stein’s work he pro- 
crastinated and then said no. I suppose this was inevitable. 
However that was the matter as it was and as it continued 
to be. 

I now myself began to think about publishing the work 
of Gertrude Stein. I asked her to invent a name for my 
edition and she laughed and said, call it Plain Edition. And 
Plain Edition it is. 

All that I knew about what I would have to do was that 
I would have to get the book printed and then to get it dis- 
tributed, that is sold. 

I talked to everybody about how these two things were 
to be accomphshed. 

At first I thought I would associate some one with me 
but that soon did not please me and I decided to do it all 
by myself. 

Gertrude Stein wanted the first book Lucy Church Ami- 
ably to look like a school book and to be boimd in blue. 
Once having ordered my book to be printed my next prob- 
lem was the problem of distribution. On this subject I re- 
ceived a great deal of advice. Some of the advice turned 
out to be good and some of it turned out to be bad. William 
A. Bradley, the friend and comforter of Paris authors, told 
me to subscribe to The Publishers’ Weekly. This was un- 
doubtedly wise advice. This helped me to learn something 
of my new business, but the real difficulty was to get to the 
booksellers. Ralph Church, philosopher and friend, said stick 
to the booksellers, first and last. Excellent advice but how 
to get to the booksellers. At this moment a kind friend said 

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that she could get me copied an old list of booksellers be- 
longing to a publisher. This list was sent to me and I began 
sending out my circulars. The circular pleased me at first 
but I soon concluded that it was not quite right. However 
I did get orders from America and I was paid without much 
difficulty and I was encouraged. 

The distribution in Paris was at once easier and more dif- 
ficult. It was easy to get the book put in the window of all 
the bookstores in Paris that sold english books. This event 
gave Gertrude Stein a childish delight amounting almost 
to ecstasy. She had never seen a book of hers in a bookstore 
window before, except a french translation of The Ten Por- 
traits, and she spent aU her time in her wanderings about 
Paris looking at the copies of Lucy Church Amiably in the 
windows and coming back and telling me about it. 

The books were sold too and then as I was away from 
Paris six months in the year I turned over the Paris work 
to a french agent. This worked very well at first but finally 
did not work well. However one must learn one’s trade. 

I decided upon my next book How To Write and not 
being entirely satisfied with the get up of Lucy Church 
Amiably, although it did look like a school book, I decided 
to have the next book printed at Dijon and in the form of 
an Elzevir. Again the question of binding was a difficulty. 

I went to work in the same way to sell How To Write, 
but I began to realise that my list of booksellers was out of 
date. Also I was told that I should write following up let- 
ters. Ellen du Pois helped nie with these. I was also told that 
I should have reviews. Ellen du Pois came to the rescue here 
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sity be too expensive; I had to keep my money to print my 
books, as my plans were getting more and more ambitious. 
Getting reviews was a difficulty, there are always plenty of 
humorous references to Gertrude Stein’s work, as Gertrude 
Stein always says to comfort herself, they do quote me, that 
means that my words and my sentences get under their 
skins although they do not know it. It was difficult to get 
serious reviews. There are many writers who write her let- 
ters of admiration but even when they are in a position to 
do so they do not write themselves down in book reviews. 
Gertrude Stein likes to quote Browning who at a dinner 
party met a famous hterary man and this man came up to 
Browning and spoke to him at length and in a very lauda- 
tory way about his poems. Browning listened and then said, 
and are you going to print what you have just said. There 
was naturally no answer. In Gertrude Stein’s case there have 
been some notable exceptions, Sherwood Anderson, Edith 
Sitwell, Bernard Fay and Louis Bromfield. 

I also printed an edition of one hundred copies, very beau- 
tifully done at Chartres, of the poem of Gertrude Stein 
Before The Flowers Of Friendship Faded Friendship Faded. 
These one hundred copies sold very easily 
I was better satisfied with the boo kmakin g of How To 
Write but there was always the question of binding the 
book. It is practically impossible to get a decent commer- 
cial binding in France, french publishers only cover their 
books in paper. I was very troubled about this. 

One evening we went to an evening party at Georges 
Poupet’s, a gentle friend of authors. There I met Maurice 
Daranti^e. It was he who had printed The Making of 

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Americans and he was always jusdy proud of it as a book 
and as bookmaking. He had left Dijon and had started 
printing books in the neighbourhood of Paris with a hand- 
press and he was printing very beautiful books. He is a kind 
man and I naturally began telling him my troubles. Listen, 
he said I have the solution. But I interrupted him, you must 
remember that I do not want to make these books expensive. 
After all Gertrude Stein’s readers are writers, university 
students, librarians and young people who have very little 
money. Gertrude Stein wants readers not collectors. In spite 
of herself her books have too often become collector’s books. 
They pay big prices for Tender Buttons and The Portrait of 
Mabel Dodge and that does not please her, she wants her 
books read not owned. Yes yes, he said, I understand- No diis 
is what I propose. We will have your book set by monotype 
which is comparatively cheap, I will see to that, then I will 
handpull your books on good but not too expensive paper 
and they will be beautifully printed and instead of any 
covers I will have them bound in heavy paper like The 
Making of Americans, paper just like that, and I will have 
made little boxes in which they will fit perfectly, well made 
little boxes and there you are. And will I be able to sell them 
at a reasonable price. Yes you will see, he said. 

I was getting more ambitious I wished now to begin a 
series of three, beginning with Operas and Plays, going on 
with Matisse, Picasso and Gertrude Stein and Two Shorter 
.Stories, and then going on with Two Long Poems and Many 
Shorter Ones. 

Maurice Daranti^re has been as good as his word. He has 
printed Operas and Plays and it is a beautiful book and 

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reasonable in price and be is now printing the second book 
Matisse Picasso and Gertrude Stein and Two Shorter Stories. 
Now I have an up to date list of booksellers and I am once 
more on my way. 

As I was saying after the return from England and lectur- 
ing we gave a great many parties, there were many occasions 
for parties, all the Sitwells came over, Carl Van Vechten 
ramp over, Sherwood Anderson came over again. And be- 
side there were many other occasions for parties. 

It was then that Gertrude Stein and Bernard Fay met 
again and this time they had a great deal to say to each 
other. Gertrude Stein found the contact with his mind stimu- 
lating and comforting. They were slowly coming to be 
friends. 

I remember once coming into the room and hearing 
Bernard Fay say that the three people of first rate importance 
that he had met in his life were Picasso, Gertrude Stein and 
Andre Gide and Gertrude Stein inquired quite simply, that 
is quite right but why include Gide, A year or so later in 
referring to this conversation he said to her, and I am not 
sure you were not right. 

Sherwood came to Paris that winter and he was a delight. 
He was enjoying himself and we enjoyed him. He was being 
lionised and I must say he was a very appearing and dis- 
appearing lion. I remember his being asked to the Pen Club. 
Natalie Barney and a long-bearded frenchman were to be 
his sponsors. He wanted Gertrude Stein to come too. She 
said she loved him very much but not the Pen Club. Natalie 
Barney came over to ask her. Gertrude Stein who was caught 
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Sherwood turned up. How was it, asked Gertrude Stein. 
Why, said he, it wasn’t a party for me, it was a party for a 
big woman, and she was just a derailed freight car. 

We had installed electric radiators in the studio, we were 
as our finnish servant would say getting modern. She finds 
it difficult to understand why we are not more modern. 
Gertrude Stein says that if you are way ahead with your 
head you naturally are old fashioned and regular in your 
daily life. And Picasso adds, do you suppose Michael Angelo 
would have been grateful for a gift of a piece of renaissance 
furniture, no he wanted a greek coin. 

We did install electric radiators and Sherwood turned up 
and we gave him a Christmas party. The radiators smelled 
and it was terrifically hot but we were all pleased as it was a 
nice party. Sherwood looked as usual very handsome in one 
of his very latest scarf ties. Sherwood Anderson does dress 
well and his son John follows suit. John and his sister came 
over with their father. While Sherwood was still in Paris 
John the son was an awkward shy boy. The day after Sher- 
wood left John turned up, sat easily on the arm of the sofa 
and was beautiful to look upon and he knew it. Nothing 
to the outward eye had changed but he had changed and 
he knew it. 

It was during this visit that Gertrude Stein and Sherwood 
Anderson had all those amusing conversations about Hem- 
ingway. They enjoyed each other thorou^y. They found 
out that they both had had and continued to have Grant as 
their great american hero. They did. not care so much about 
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Grant. They even planned collaborating on a life of Grant. 
Gertrude Stein still likes to think about this possibility. 

We did give a great many parties in those days and the 
Duchess of Clermont-Tonnerre came very often. 

She and Gertrude Stein pleased one another. They were 
entirely different in life education and interests but they 
delighted in each other’s understanding. They were also the 
only two women whom they met who still had long hair. 
Gertrude Stein had always worn hers well on top of her 
head, an ancient fashion that she had never changed. 

Madame de Clermont-Tonnerre came in very late to one 
of the parties, almost every one had gone, and her hair was 
cut. Do you like it, said Madame de Clermont-Tonnerre. 
I do, said Gertrude Stein. Well, said Madame de Clermont- 
Tonnerre, if you like it and my daughter likes it and she 
does like it I am satisfied. That night Gertrude Stein said to 
me, I guess I will have to too. Cut it off she said and I did. 

I was still cutting the next evening, I had been cutting a 
little more all day and by this time it was only a cap of hair 
when Sherwood Anderson came in. Well, how do you like 
it, said I rather fearfully. I like it, he said, it makes her look 
like a monk. 

As I have said, Picasso seeing it, was for a moment angry 
and said, and my portrait, but very soon added, after all it 
is all there. 

We now had our country house, the one we had only seen 
across the valley and just before leaving we found the white 
poodle. Basket. He was a little puppy in a little neighbour- 
hood dog-show and he had blue eyes, a pink nose and white 
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puppy and a new ford we went off to our new house and 
we were thoroughly pleased with all three. Basket although 
now he is a large unwieldy poodle, still will get up on Ger- 
trude Stein’s lap and stay there. She says that listening to 
the rhythm of his water dr inkin g made her recognise the 
difference between sentences and paragraphs, that para- 
graphs are emotional and that sentences are not. 

Bernard Fay came and stayed with us that summer. 
Gertrude Stein and he talked out in the garden about every- 
thing, about life, and America, and themselves and friend- 
ship. They then cemented the friendship that is one of the 
four permanent friendships of Gertrude Stein’s life. He even 
tolerated Basket for Gertrude Stein’s sake. Lately Picabia 
has given us a tiny mexican dog, we call Byron. Bernard 
Fay likes Byron for Byron’s own sake. Gertrude Stein teases 
him and says naturally he likes Byron best because Byron is 
an american while just as naturally she likes Basket best 
because Basket is a frenchman. 

Bilignin brings me to a new old acquaintance. One day 
Gertrude Stein came home from a walk to the bank and 
bringing out a card from her pocket said, we are lunching 
to-morrow with the Bromfields. Way back in the Heming- 
way days Gertrude Stein had met Bromfield and his wife 
and then from time to time there had been a slight acquaint- 
ance, there had even been a slight acquaintance with Brum- 
field’s sister, and now suddenly we were lunching with the 
Bromfields. Why, I asked, because answered Gertrude Stein 
quite radiant, he knows all about gardens. 

We lunched with the Bromfields and he does know all 
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Gertrude Stein and he first liked each other as gardeners, 
then they liked each other as americans and then they liked 
each other as writers. Gertrude Stein says of him that he is 
as american as Janet Scudder, as american as a doughboy, 
but not as solemn. 

One day the Jolases brought Furman the publisher to the 
house. He as have been many publishers was enthusiastic and 
enthusiastic about The Making of Americans. But it is ter- 
ribly long, it’s a thousand pages, said Gertrude Stein. Well, 
can’t it be cut down, he said to about four hundred. Yes, 
said Gertrude Stein, perhaps. Well cut it down and I will 
publish it, said Furman. 

Gertrude Stein thought about it and then did it. She spent 
a part of the summer over it and Bradley as well as she and 
myself thought it alright. 

In the meantime Gertrude Stein had told Elliot Paul about 
the proposition. It’s alright when he is over here, said Elliot 
Paul, but when he gets back the boys won’t let him. Who 
the boys are I do not know but they certainly did not let 
him. Elliot Paul was right. In spite of the efforts of Robert 
Coates and Bradley nothing happened. 

In the meantime Gertrude Stein’s reputation among the 
french writers and readers was steadily growing. The trans- 
lation of the fragments of the Making of Americans, and 
of the Ten Portraits interested them. It was at this time that 
Bernard Fay wrote his article about her work printed in 
the Revue Europeenne. They also printed the only thing she 
has ever written in french a little film about the dog Basket. 

They were very interested in her later work as well as 
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her work in Echange, comparing her work to Bach. Since 
then, in Les Nouvelles Litt^aires, he has written of each 
of her books as they come out. He was particularly impressed 
by How To Write. 

About this time too Bernard Fay was translating a frag- 
ment of Melanctha from Three Lives for the volume of Ten 
American Novelists, this to be introduced by his article 
printed in the Revue Europeenne. He came to the house one 
afternoon and read his translation of Melanctha aloud to us. 
Madame de Clermont-Tonnerre was there and she was very 
impressed by his translation. 

One day not long after she asked to come to the house 
as she wished to talk to Gertrude Stein. She came and she 
said, the time has now come when you must be made known 
to a larger public. I myself believe in a larger public. Ger- 
trude Stein too believes in a larger public but the way has 
always been barred. No, said Madame de Clermont- 
Tonnerre, the way can be opened. Let us think. 

She said it must come from the translation of a big book, 
an important book. Gertrude Stein suggested the Making of 
Americans and told her how it had been prepared for an 
American publisher to make about four hundred pages. That 
will do exactly, she said. And went away. 

Finally and not after much delay. Monsieur Bouteleau of 
Stock saw Gertrude Stein and he decided to publish the 
book. There was some dificulty about finding a trand^or, 
but finall y that was arranged. Bernard Fay aided by the 
Barn nn p Seilli^ undertook the translation, and it is this 
translation which is to ^pear this spring, and diat this sum- 
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book in english, but it is even, well, I cannot say almost 
really more wonderful but just as wonderful in french. 

Last autumn the day we came back to Paris from Bilignin 
I was as usual very busy with a number of things and 
Gertrude Stein went out to buy some nails at the bazaar 
of the rue de Rennes. There she met Guevara, a Chilean 
painter and his wife. They are our neighbours, and they 
said, come to tea to-morrow. Gertrude Stein said, but we are 
just home, wait a bit. Do come, said Moraude Guevara. And 
then added, there will be some one there you will like to see. 
Who is it, said Gertrude Stein with a never failing curiosity. 
Sir Francis Rose, they said. Alright, we’ll come, said Ger- 
trude Stein. By this time she no longer objected to meeting 
Francis Rose. We met then and he of course immediately 
came back to the house with her. He was, as may be im- 
agined, quite pink with emotion. And what, said he, did 
Picasso say when he saw my paintings. When he first saw 
them, Gertrude Stein answered, he said, at least they are 
less betes than the others. And since, he asked. And since 
he always goes into the corner and turns the canvas over to 
look at them but he says nothing. 

Since then we have seen a great deal of Francis Rose but 
Gertrude Stein has not lost interest in the pictures. He has 
this summer painted the house from across the valley where 
we first saw it and the waterfall celebrated in Lucy Church 
Amiably. He has also painted her portrait. He likes it and 
I like it but she is not sure whether she does, but as she 
has just said, perhaps she does. We had a pleasant time 
this summer, Bernard Fay and Francis Rose both charming 
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A young man who first made Gertrude Stein’s acquaint- 
ance by writing engaging letters from America is Paul 
Frederick Bowles. Gertrude Stein says of him that he is 
delightful and sensible in summer but neither delightful nor 
sensible in the winter. Aaron Copeland came to see us with 
Bowles in the sunamer and Gertrude Stein liked him im- 
mensely. Bowles told Gertrude Stein and it pleased her that 
Copeland said threateningly to him when as usual in the 
winter he was neither delightful nor sensible, if you do not 
work now when you are twenty when you are thirty, no- 
body will love you. 

For some time now many people, and publishers, have 
been asking Gertrude Stein to write her autobiography and 
she had always replied, not possibly. 

She began to tease me and say that I should write my 
autobiography. Just think, she would say, what a lot of 
money you would make. She then began to invent tides for 
my autobiography. My Life With The Great, Wives of 
Geniuses I Have Sat With, My Twenty-five Years With 
Gertrude Stein. 

Then she began to get serious and say, but really seriously 
you ought to write your autobiography. Finally I promised 
that if during the summer I could find time I would write 
my autobiography. 

When Ford Madox Ford was editing the Transadantic 
Review he once said to Gertrude Stein, I am a pretty good 
writer and a pretty good editor and a pretty good business 
man but I find it very difiScult to be all three at once. 

I am a pretty good housekeeper and a pretty good gardener 
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and a pretty good editor and a pretty good vet for dogs and 
I have to do them all at once and I found it difficult to add 
being a pretty good author. 

About six weeks ago Gertrude Stein said, it does not look 
to me as if you were ever going to write that autobiography. 
You know what I am going to do. I am going to write it 
for you. I am going to write it as simply as Defoe did the 
autobiography of Robinson Crusoe. And she has and this 
is it. 


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